131. Carry life alone

Seeing that the day of leaving home was approaching day by day, Gu Haiping's temper suddenly became irritable, and he didn't want to leave home.

But Shandan softly admonished: "Think about your ideals! If it weren't for the fact that you worked here and waited for me for four years so that I could finish college, you would have graduated with a doctorate, but now you have been delayed for a few years, and finally have such a good opportunity, you can go to school with your salary, Xiaoyu and I also have such a good house to live in, I have my own income to support our expenses, and you should also realize your ambitions." Let's go back to our hometown for the New Year, with you. Okay, okay?"

Gu Haiping looked at Shandan with tears in his eyes: "I am reluctant to leave you! I am reluctant to leave home!" and then attached himself to Shandan and clinged to each other.

This ambitious and childish man is inseparable from Shandan's care and her understanding and empathy, but a brief separation is enough to add a brilliant light to their future. Shandan gently patted Gu Haiping's back like a small jade, and every reassurance was gently stroked by his fingertips.

After a long time, Gu Haiping raised his head and looked at Shandan's eyes infatuatedly, staring deeply! It seemed that he was going to stay in her eyes - never leave.

No matter how unwilling, the earth will keep spinning every second, and that day still came, Gu Haiping sent Xiaoyu to kindergarten early. Xiaoyu didn't understand what it was like for her father to travel far away, so she said goodbye to her father very calmly. Gu Haiping has a sour nose again and again, how much fatherly love does Xiaoyu's growth lack?

The unit's van stopped downstairs early, and several doctors from the department came to help carry the luggage and see them off.

Shandan took his parents' arms and got into the car. She held back her tears, they were all gone, she was left alone, and she was even a little afraid to come home from work at night to face the bustling but now empty house.

When I arrived at the train station, a patient from Gu Haiping's railway had already helped buy sleeper tickets and led a group of people to get on the train directly from the VIP seats.

At the entrance of the station, Shandan hugged his mother tightly and then hugged his emaciated father, and tears finally flowed down like a spring, she didn't know when she would be able to hug her parents so tightly this time?

Gu Haiping took Shandan's shoulders from behind Shandan, and secretly tried her strength to give her, she understood that she should let them reassure her, but she was still a little powerless to face life alone.

She didn't dare to get into the station, she was afraid that she would cry if she couldn't restrain herself, she was afraid that they would worry. She watched the figures of her parents and Gu Haiping disappear at the entrance of the station, and she squatted down and cried.

The friend who saw him off comforted Shandan: "You remember that he went to study, to improve, to earn you a better future, this is a happy thing, you are not sad." ”

How did she know that her separation from him was so unbearable for her! and she was sad that her parents might not have a chance to come back this time.

A friend sent Shandan to the unit and accompanied her for a morning, watching Shandan gradually ease before saying goodbye and leaving, they all know the story of Gu Haiping and Shandan and understand their deep feelings.

After spending a day restlessly, Gu Haiping sent text messages back from time to time to report her itinerary, which somewhat alleviated her anxiety.

After work in the evening, Shandan went directly to the kindergarten to pick up Xiaoyu home, and on the way the two went to eat KFC, but Shandan didn't have the heart to cook.

However, Xiaoyu's small mouth kept talking, and Shandan's attention was also distracted a lot, when Gu Haiping Xiaoyu arrived home, he called back, and when he heard his voice, Shandan couldn't help but shed tears again, and before he left for long, she began to think about him.

She can't do without him, as long as he gets home from work, she doesn't want him to go out for a minute. Even if she is reading in the bedroom and he is doing things in the study, as long as he is there, her heart will be peaceful and happy.

Now, he is thousands of miles away, she misses him, and he misses her. She even regretted that she had sent him to school. How nice would it be to stay by her side and live a peaceful life with her? But she couldn't bury his talent!

She would rather endure the pain of this bitter lovesickness than ask him to do something. She knows how big his heart is, she understands his ideals and lofty ambitions, she shouldn't drag him down, she loves him deeply, and she will not hesitate to pay for him like he did for herself.

In the evening, Shandan bathed Xiaoyu and washed her clothes. Coaxed Xiaoyu to sleep, Xiaoyu kept thinking about her father, told a lot of stories, and finally settled Xiaoyu to sleep.

Shandan herself tossed and turned and couldn't sleep, she was not used to sleeping alone in a huge bed, it was too empty.

Every day, he snuggled in Gu Haiping's arms, rested his legs on his legs, and lay down comfortably before he could fall asleep.

He couldn't sleep alone, so he got up and picked up a novel to read, until he fell asleep in a daze, and when he woke up in the morning, he found himself asleep in a very uncomfortable position at the head of the bed. His neck was as if he was stiff and couldn't move, and his hands and feet were numb. Fortunately, the night finally passed.

Her child was secretly frightened: she had thought about leaving him and living alone, but it seemed impossible. She knew her heart, and she couldn't live without him - this life.

She got up early, went to the balcony to blow the wind, moved her numb arms and legs, and looked at the weather that was still a little hazy, as if it was going to rain.

took back the clothes drying on the balcony, turned on the light and slowly tidied up, and couldn't help but think about him again, thinking about his bits and pieces.

Inadvertently, she noticed that the raindrops had begun to knock on the doors and windows, and she realized that the new day was a rainy day.

She looked at the dense rain curtain outside the window, and her already depressed mood also fell.

Xiaoyu has already gone to preschool, and the kindergarten of the unit does not have a preschool, so she can only go to a nearby provincial kindergarten. Usually because the kindergarten is close to Gu Haiping's unit, Gu Haiping sends Xiaoyu to kindergarten, today is the first time she wants to send Xiaoyu to kindergarten, and it rains so heavily, which makes her a little worried.

She stared blankly at the gloomy weather, and not only shed tears again. Living alone with a child in this foreign country is a test for her, and she has no one to rely on except to be strong to adapt.

Her mother once asked to stay with her and Xiaoyu, but she refused. She doesn't want her mother to be at home alone every day, looking forward to the stars and the moon until late, and she still has her father to take care of, and her grandfather to take care of her mother. She can live without her mother's care, but the old people can't do without it. So Shandan didn't agree to his mother staying, and his mother's reluctant, sad, and relieved expression when she left also made Shandan very sad. She suddenly felt how unfilial she was so far away from her parents and away from home.

But there is still a long way to go, and she believes that she can be proud of her parents and give them more financial support.

When Shandan's thoughts spread, Xiaoyu got up and went to the bathroom in a daze, Shandan looked at his watch It was already seven o'clock, and it was time to ask Xiaoyu to wash up and get ready for school.

Xiaoyu is very well-behaved, she has made an agreement with her father: she will take good care of her mother for her father. So I had to cooperate with my mother like a big child, carry a small schoolbag, put on a small raincoat, and go out with my mother.

Put Xiaoyu on the back of the bicycle, Shandan put on a raincoat and pushed the bicycle out of the utility room, and sent Xiaoyu to kindergarten in the rain. This warmed Shandan's heart.

She still had to pedal for half an hour to get to the unit, as if God was going to deliberately tease her, and the rain was getting heavier and heavier. The raincoat couldn't stop the pouring rain, and the rain kept dripping down his face, and he couldn't open his eyes. She had no choice but to hide under the eaves of a shop.

When the rain subsided, Shandan pedaled again, and the street was already flooded with rain, and the water was 30 centimeters deep. Shandan could only step forward slowly, and after a junction, there was a "poof", and the bicycle fell into a small pit, and the rear wheel exploded all of a sudden.

Shandan got out of the car to look at the deflated wheels and felt the urge to cry.

Fortunately, it was not far from the unit, and Shandan was pushing the bicycle in the heavy rain with difficulty, she thought: Maybe God is going to test her willpower, and she will get better in a hurry, isn't it?

**When I arrived at the unit, Shandan threw the bicycle in the guard room, which was really unbearable.

Fortunately, several colleagues were very enthusiastic and helped Shandan repair the tires quickly, which made Shandan feel very warm. She was still worried about how to pick up Xiaoyu after work, but now it's okay, although she is like a chicken in soup, she is no longer anxious in her heart.