Three-nine-seven, farewell

According to the day and hour selected by Senior Brother Huang, a memorial service was held for Gu Haiping. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

Shandan dragged his body to be scattered, and she thought: no matter what, she must support him and settle him well.

When I got up early, my mother cooked porridge and begged Shandan to eat a little.

Shandan sat down and looked at the porridge in front of him, and ate a little slowly with tears, blood, and heartbreak—to soothe his mother's heart.

She wore the clothes she wore on the day of Gu Haiping's accident: the set of washed denim casual clothes of Korean brands that Gu Haiping accompanied her to Nancheng-Department Store to buy. She didn't have black clothes, she had never liked black very much, she thought it was too solemn.

The ambulance of Hospital 120 was parked downstairs, and a doctor from the TCM Center carried Shandan downstairs. She didn't let Xiaoyu participate, she was worried that the child would be too frightened and hurt, and she didn't let her mother participate, she was worried that she would frighten her mother if she was in a situation at any time.

She didn't care what would happen to her. Death had no fear for her, and she even secretly hoped that after a breath passed, she could go with him.

On that day, when my mother looked at her half-dead and comforted her, I don't know if it's true?" "You just go with him now, you don't necessarily find him, everyone has their own way, once they are staggered, it will be difficult to meet again, you don't have any stupid thoughts, if you go and can't find him, but leave Xiaoyu with no one to kiss and no one to love, you say that if you can still see the world, you see her wandering all her life (helpless), no one is distressed, what do you say you should do?" At that time, there was no way to come back, and it was useless to regret it. ”

Mother's words sounded so cruel and so frightening. What if she chooses to follow him, as her mother said, but because their fate is no longer able to meet, what will happen to Xiaoyu who remains in the world? If she chooses to commit suicide because of the pain she can't overcome and causes Xiaoyu's lifelong pain, has she become a sinner for the ages? Her departure must be because of selfishness, and no one has the right to choose to give up his life, because life originally did not belong to "ta", but to everyone who loves "ta", who has the right to ruthlessly deprive so many people of their love and let them fall into deep pain?

If you can't do anything about it, it's understandable that God won't bless you.

Shandan lay in the ambulance, lingering on his breath, hovering between life and death, on one side in pain and on the other side of the responsibility that he could not let go.

She felt her heart suddenly feel like it was being pressed by a big stone, she couldn't breathe, she didn't squeak, she wanted to "go with the flow", if God wanted her life at this time, she would never resist.

The oxygen tube was placed in the nostrils by the doctor, and the ECG monitoring was also "squeaking" work, and the doctor accompanying the emergency department saw that Shandan's face had changed, and the waveform of the ECG monitoring was disordered, and hurriedly asked: "Doctor Shandan, how do you feel?" Then he increased the concentration of inhaled oxygen and closely watched the ECG waveform.

Shandan face is like ashes, not making a sound, shortness of breath, heart rate is fast to 120, and frequent premature beats occur. The doctor rolled Shandan's eyelids and found that Shandan had dilated pupils and no energy, so he arranged for the nurse to add cardiotonic drugs to the intravenous drops.

On that day, it was pouring rain again, and the sky seemed to be crying, cold days, sad people, people who braved the heavy rain to see off the funeral home far away from the city, including colleagues from Gu Haiping Hospital, Gu Haiping's teachers and classmates, Shandan colleagues, their friends, Gu Haiping's patients, and people who couldn't be put down in a huge auditorium. People lined up outside the lobby with umbrellas, and the rain hit people's faces mercilessly, their sad looks, tears in their eyes and the rain flowing.

When Shandan's condition stabilized, the doctors carried her to the lounge near the hall in a wheelchair, and she supported her thousand-pound head with great force, as if she didn't use force, her head would leave her body and fall. She was in a half-conscious state, and she supported herself with what little heart she had left: she was going to send him off properly.

As she wandered on the Nai He Bridge, she suddenly said a very tough male voice: "Shandan, Shandan! ”

Her soul seemed to be pulled back to reality, and she barely opened her eyes and saw the face opposite, which was Gu Haiping's mentor when she was a master: "That day, we went to the hospital to see you, you fell asleep, and your wife and I didn't disturb you." Teacher Luo said with tears in his eyes: "Shandan, be strong, if you need anything in the future, just look for me and your wife, we will take care of you." ”

When they came to Yongcheng, they were poor and embarrassed, and Mr. Luo gave great help, once, Gu Haiping said to Shandan: "Mr. Luo's career is now in full swing, and we don't need to repay him now, when he is old, we will honor him like a father, he has no son, I am his son." ”

Although Mr. Luo is not ten years older than Gu Haiping, he takes care of him like a brother and a father. Mr. Luo usually doesn't talk much, but every time Ma Gao stirrups are short, he always tries his best to help them.

Shandan knew in a trance that it was Teacher Luo and his wife, so he took a breath and cried, "Teacher Luo, what should I do?"

"Shandan, you still have us, we will help you. The wife stretched out her hand to hug Shandan, and several people cried together.

The hour has come, Shandan was carried to the hall, she saw Gu Haiping lying under the transparent coffin, desperately rushed out, for the first time in many days, it was like a chicken blood full of strength, her body rushed out fell heavily to the ground due to physical exhaustion, and the people around her hurriedly helped her up, they held her down hard, telling her to calm down......

She had become a madman, completely deprived of her mind, and cried and begged, "Let me go, let me go and stay with him, let me see him more." She cried out to the bottom of her mouth.

No one listened to her, they were trying their best to "control" her, she was so powerless, so helpless, she just wanted to see him, why were they so ruthless?

The mother's cry rang out: "Haiping, you left at such a young age, who do you call to kiss the Shandan and Xiaoyu you left behind? Love them? You have left so ruthlessly, how can you call us old and young people to live?"

Shandan's mother promised that Shandan would not come to the funeral home, but after settling down early in the morning, Shandan ate a little something, and then went downstairs to take a car to the funeral home. Someone pulled Shandan Mama, who was sitting on the ground and crying loudly, up and sat on a chair.

The leaders of the hospital were reading the eulogy, the crowd was crying "whimpering", Shandan was struggling to continue, but there was no progress, her shirt buttons were torn open, a blanket was over her body, and she was trapped there unable to move.

I don't know how long it took, the memorial service finally dispersed, Shandan pounced on Gu Haiping again, several doctors and relatives helped her, and a funeral home staff came up and said: "You have to be obedient and obedient, I will see him for you." ”

Shandan understood what she said, nodded and agreed: "Please, please, let me see him and accompany him." ”

"Okay, you have to be careful not to drip tears on him. The staff instructed. (To be continued.) )