Chapter 140: A regret that can never be made up
"Yes, the man who smiled at you like a fool at the hotel. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 info" Jin Junya looked down into Ye Xiaoyou's eyes, wanting to get her answer.
"People are not stupid, Song Heng is a righteous policeman. Ye Xiaoyou couldn't help but chuckle, and explained to Jin Junya with a serious face. didn't understand Jin Junya's intention to ask at all, but when he heard him say that people laughed like fools, Ye Xiaoyou couldn't help but want to laugh.
"So what do you have to do with that policeman?" naturally there was jealousy in his tone.
Ye Xiaoyou was speechless for a while, not knowing whether to tell him the truth. Realizing that he was still quietly in his arms, he hurriedly withdrew from his embrace.
Looking around with a little flustered eyes, Ye Xiaoyou bit his lip, thought for a moment, and then raised his head to look at him, with a shallow arc under the corner of his eyes, "Junya, he is the object that my aunt introduced to me, I always feel that I am still young, but looking at the age that is clearly there, I realize that I am no longer young." Even if I'm not in a hurry, the people around me will urge me to take that step. ”
You don't have the time and energy to manage a relationship, or maybe you're not ready to start a relationship all over again.
"Then do you like that policeman?" After asking this sentence, Jin Junya was stunned for a moment. seems to go back to five years ago, if he saw Ye Xiaoyou and Lu Fan hugging each other in the hospital at that time, he didn't think that Ye Xiaoyou liked Lu Fan and turned away, but found an opportunity to ask in person, if she liked Lu Fan, then wouldn't everything happen?
"I'm ......" Ye Xiaoyou swallowed her saliva, remembering what Jin Junya said to her in the morning, and there was a little struggle in her heart. Thinking of the fact that he took the initiative to explain his relationship with Li Jieran in the car just now, Ye Xiaoyou raised a smile and looked at Jin Junya in a relaxed tone, "I may not be suitable for him." It takes a lot of courage to be with the police, and I'm too timid. ”
After listening to her words, the only trace of unhappiness on Jin Junya's face was lifted, and she looked at Ye Xiaoyou's red little face with satisfaction, and her hanging heart finally let go.
"Let's go. Jin Junya naturally took Ye Xiaoyou's hand, wrapped it in the palm of his hand, and then put it in his down jacket pocket. A smile spread out at the corners of his mouth, filling the air.
Ye Xiaoyou rarely saw him smiling so happily, so he let him lead him and stop struggling. Because of what he said in the morning, her heart was now shaking violently. And the constant warmth in his palms made her powerless to resist his tenderness.
Do you know why moths pounce on them despite knowing that the candle flame will destroy them? Because it is so warm, even if it is only a momentary warmth, they will pounce on it without hesitation.
obediently followed Jin Junya's footsteps towards his house, Ye Xiaoyou was as quiet as a little daughter-in-law along the way, and let Jin Junya lead him. The neighbors who were riding the same elevator saw it, and they didn't care. Ye Xiaoyou may have gone deep into his thoughts and has no time to take care of it, but Jin Junya has a smug face. The neighbors who usually meet up and down all know that the resident on the 7th floor doesn't seem to have a good temper, because he is rarely seen laughing. When others greeted him, he just nodded lightly, but just now, Jin Junya grinned like a child who had eaten candy. It can't help but surprise everyone.
"Take off your coat, it's hot in the house. Jin Junya took off his coat and turned around to tell Ye Xiaoyou. took out a brand-new women's cotton slip-on from the shoe cabinet and placed it at Ye Xiaoyou's feet, "This is what I bought at the mall two days ago, and it's still new." ”
"Oh. Ye Xiaoyou didn't ask him why he went out of his way to buy women's shoes, but just followed his wishes, took off his coat from the hanger hanging on the wall of the entrance, and then replaced it with pink cotton slippers.
"You sit down on the couch for a while, and I'll go in and get the letter for you." Kim Jun-ah pointed to the sofa, then dragged his black cotton tow to the bedroom. Ye Xiaoyou looked around, did not listen to him and sat down, but moved into the room where she slept before.
The door was gently pushed open, and Ye Xiaoyou raised his feet and entered the door. The sun shines through the windows, the breeze lifts the curtains, and a thick book sits on the table, scented with ink in the sunlight.
The flowers on the windowsill went dormant, and the sun was shining brightly in the room.
The quilt was neatly folded, and there were two cute pillows on the bed, and she used to read books on the pillows at night, or she held the pillows and watched Kim Junya sit in her room and read. Sometimes she really wanted him to talk to her, so she sat beside him with a pillow in her arms, and leaned on her desk with a pillow on her head, and whispered in his ear. And he can only concentrate on two things, reading a book while talking to her.
Her room, nothing has changed. It was exactly the same as when she left that early morning four years ago, as if she had never left, and it was spotless.
Ye Xiaoyou exited the room in a bit of a panic, hurriedly brought the door, and when he turned around, he happened to meet Jin Junya who came out of the bedroom.
He looked at Ye Xiaoyou with complicated eyes, Ye Xiaoyou dodged slightly, and then took a step back to the living room.
With mixed feelings in his heart, he didn't know how to deal with the churning emotions, Ye Xiaoyou fell silent for a moment.
"Now, the letter that Auntie left you. It was originally given to you by the nurse, but you don't remember anything at that time, so I kept it for you. Jin Junya followed behind her, seeing that she was sitting on the sofa with a somewhat solemn expression, he also sat beside her, and then handed a few pieces of paper in his hand to Ye Xiaoyou.
"Hmm. Ye Xiaoyou hesitated and slowly took the letter he handed over.
Ye Xiaoyou sat up straight, and then unfolded the letter in his hand.
"I'm sorry, my dear Xiaoyou, my mother can't be with you anymore. But even if Mom leaves, I'll always protect you. I don't know if it was right or wrong to bring you into this world, but Mom is really happy to have you with me. Mom wants to live with you in a house with a yard and wants to see you happy. But fate will always leave people with some regrets that can never be made up.
I brought you into this world, but I didn't have time to walk with you through it. But Mom believes that Junya will definitely be by your side, and Mom has never mistaken a person. Even if you have never met a father, he is a good person, and he will definitely be a good father, but in the face of love, there is never a difference between good and bad. I just fell in love with someone I shouldn't love, and he only loved because the person I loved wasn't me. I didn't intend to let him know about your existence, and the person who missed it, I wanted him to miss it like this. But I'm about to leave, I don't want to leave you alone, even if you have Junya by your side, but I still hope that you can have loved ones by your side.
Don't hate your dad, he doesn't know you exist and it's not fair to him. I have been hiding from him for more than 20 years, even if it is a deliberate revenge, more than 20 years is enough. Mom is very selfish and only wants you to be with me, so she never told you that if your dad knew about your existence, he would definitely feel very happy. I think maybe I've been monopolizing you for more than 20 years, and God can't stand it anymore, so I'm going to send you back to your father. Xiaoyou, the happiest thing in my mother's life is your arrival. Xiaoyou, mom hopes you can be happy every day, I hope you are happy every day, I hope you can get the best things in the world, Xiaoyou, I love you. I can't be by your side, mom is sorry for you. Xiaoyou, promise your mother not to cry......"