(ps: Hanhan thanks Brother Superman, Brother Poison, Sister Qianyu, and wo for the gift, and I sent it as soon as I gave it, begging for subscription, o(n_n)o haha~)

Ruhan got up gently, not wanting to disturb him, smiled at him, and pointed in the direction of the bathroom. Zhao Gang nodded while answering the phone, Ruhan turned around and walked to the bathroom with light steps, the moment she left Zhao Gang, a sense of loss surged inexplicably in her heart, she felt that Zhao Gang seemed to have something to hide from her.

Entered the bathroom, looked at himself in the mirror, a pair of beautiful eyes looked forward to life, porcelain doll-like skin glowed with soft light, compared to the careful decoration of the birthday banquet the day before, Ruhan preferred a fresh and elegant self. is naturally beautiful without makeup, with delicate and lovely facial features and fair and clear skin, which makes the makeup cover up, but it is a pity.

Walking out of the bathroom slowly, Ruhan saw Zhao Gang walking out of the private room, standing in front of the door and looking in her direction, Zhao Gang's affectionate gaze made Ruhan's face suddenly flushed, under the admiring gaze of many pairs of eyes, Ruhan walked back, took his hand and sat back on the seat, the table was already set up with fruit salad, steak and soup, overflowing with the taste of happiness.

"Hanhan, take a bite of fruit. Zhao Gang picked up the fork, inserted a piece of apple stained with salad dressing and sent it to Ruhan's mouth, smiling dotingly.

Ruhan opened his mouth and held it in his mouth, and the ordinary apple was fed to Zhao Gang's mouth, and he suddenly felt extremely sweet.

In this meal, Ruhan's appetite was very good, and there was almost nothing left, and she ate all the steaks, fruits, and soups.

After eating, the two got into the car, Zhao Gang started the car, drove to the dessert shop near Tianya Weekly, and stopped.

"Baby, it's almost there, you can go back by yourself, I won't be in the company, it's not good to be seen." With a light kiss on Ruhan's forehead, Zhao Gang said.

"Hmm. Good. You are careful on the road and drive slowly. Ruhan looked at Zhao Gang reluctantly and admonished.

"Baby, I'll go back to Haicheng for a meeting next Friday, and I'll spend your birthday with you on the weekend. Ruhan pushed the car door and was about to get out of the car, when Zhao Gang said suddenly.

Ruhan was full of joy, she didn't expect that she had only said it once, but he remembered her birthday.

"Good. I'll wait for you to come back, husband. Ruhan glanced back at Zhao Gang. got out of the car and watched his car leave, inexplicably, two lines of tears dripped down his smooth face.

On the night Zhao Gang left, Ruhan lost sleep again, and her heart felt like it was crumpled when she thought of the short, sneaky reunions again and again. But I couldn't pour out the grievances in my heart, so I could only send my affection to her and Zhao Gang's couple space, and wrote a long letter to Zhao Gang: "All along, I can't confide in my old friends, I can't let others know, my feelings for you, my heartache, sadness, I can only be here to myself and to you." For more than twenty years. also experienced some frustration, being abandoned by his first lover, and his departure...... In retrospect, it's not enough, some people say that time is the best medicine, it can heal the pain of the world, but I don't believe that it is not time that heals the pain, but in my heart, it is really not that important. But this time, I was defeated, completely defeated, and every time I encountered a setback, I was always able to comfort myself, wipe away my tears, and get back up, but this time I couldn't, because it was no longer the eyes that shed tears, but the heart that was full of holes, and what flowed was not tears, but blood full of heartache.

Maybe what I experienced, there are always some people who experience, even many people who experience, I meet always some people who meet, even many people who meet, but I ...... Even though there are thousands of ifs in my heart, if we meet earlier, if we appear in each other's lives earlier, if we meet you are still alone, but I am not a child, I know that such ifs are only ifs, such ifs cannot replace reality, reality is so cruel, when you and that woman enter the palace of marriage, I am immersed in the ivory tower, running for my studies. You were about to become a father when we met. We met in the wrong place and knew each other at the wrong time. If I could turn back time, I would rather not meet you, so that I would not fall in love, so that I could not know each other, so that there would be no pain and helplessness like today's sadism. I have poured all my love into you for more than 20 years, and I have used my life to look up to you and admire you, but this qiē is not enough, I can't exchange it for a promise you made to me! I know that I can't do it, I really can't do it, the day I walk into the wedding scene with someone I don't love with tears, maybe it's when I run out of oil and become a walking corpse.

There has never been a time like this despair, in the world of love I can't see a glimmer of hope, I can't see a glimmer of life, what do you think, I don't know, I dare not speculate, I'm afraid that the truth will be exposed, my life will disappear, that's not what I want, there are so many people who need me to take care of, and so many people worship me as a treasure. My life is theirs. I admire my parents' generation of couples who have exhausted their relationship between husband and wife, and are barely living for the integrity of the family, but I can't do it, in my opinion, the most beautiful thing in the world is to live with their beloved, hold the hand of the son, and grow old with the son until the end of life.

I can't barely get along with someone I don't love, that's the most ruthless destruction of my heart. Love is love, how can the days of love continue. I can't, but you can, husband, you say you love me, you say you gave me your heart, and you can't go back. But your silent words have told me, what I hear may not be true, what I see may not be false, if you really love me, why do you bear to let me suffer the pain that I can't tell to others, if you really love me, why do you question my idea of wanting children, if you really love me, why do you think that being together so secretly now is the best love for me, if you really love me, why don't you want to give me a warm home?

If you can't let this woman appear in front of his family and friends openly, if you can't let this woman accept his love with peace of mind, if you can't let this woman have their common children, then his love will be greatly reduced, if there is! I love you, but I really don't dare to think that the future is so slim......

When I wrote this, it was already late at night, and I could only hear the sound of keyboard tapping in the empty room, Ruhan stretched his body, ready to continue writing, and accidentally saw a familiar QQ avatar flashing in the lower right corner of the screen, Ruhan clicked on the avatar and opened the dialog box.