Ninety-one, with the body to promise, with the heart to trust

The start of school is imminent, Shandan and Gu Haiping return to school, and the results of the graduate school entrance examination are also ready.

March 23rd! It was a memorable day -- Gu Haiping's results came out and he was on the preliminary examination line.

The two of them jumped up with joy.

Next, Gu Haiping prepared the materials for the interview, and Shandan began to go to school step by step.

Since the beginning of the senior year, I often have to go to clinical practice, and all departments have to go to the clinic to observe and even practice. The schoolwork burden is heavier, and most of Shandan uses all of her energy on studying, and she also wants to take the graduate school entrance examination when she graduates, so as to get out of the wit when she was admitted to university.

So in the past four years of college, she has never slackened off, and has been studying diligently.

It's just that clinical medicine, commonly known as Western medicine, is relatively broader and deeper in subjects and content, and it is also difficult to get into. It includes basic medical courses and clinical departments, as well as politics and English.

Shandan has been actively learning English while completing various subjects. It's just that I started learning English from junior high school, and I haven't learned phonetic alphabet yet, and it's difficult to get a listening score, so it's a little more difficult to learn English.

Shandan has been struggling to pass the fourth-level English country, so when it comes to graduate school, Shandan has always been afraid of English. The difficulty of English in the graduate school entrance examination is slightly higher than level 4, and Shandan is shocked when he thinks about it.

I don't have confidence in English, but I still have to do it. It is better to work hard and not achieve it, than to become a deserter who abandons his armor if he does not go to the battlefield, and regrets not working hard.

Gu Haiping went to the medical school of a well-known comprehensive university in Guangzhou in April for an interview, and when he left, he took 3,000 yuan with him, and took all the money on hand.

First, everyone went through the interview of the guò mentor group together, and then they went through guò individually. 3 people were admitted, and 5 people were interviewed on the admission line.

The interview consists of a professional class and a written and speaking test in English. Gu Haiping's professional courses and the written and oral examinations of English were all answered and answered.

Gu Haiping felt good about himself, but after the interview, the director of the Department of Traditional Chinese Medicine (that is, the master's tutor of the major he applied for) deliberately left Gu Haiping, took him to his clinic, and closed the door casually.

Gu Haiping thought at first that the teacher had taken a fancy to him and wanted to teach him something alone, but when he saw the director close the door and made it clear that they were admitted by a difference, he felt that the other party seemed to be asking Gu Haiping to say something. But I only have 2,000 yuan on me except for the travel expenses, and I can't take it out.

Moreover, with Gu Haiping's temperament, he was unwilling to do this even if it was about the future and future, his young heart and ambition did not allow him to take such a dirty road, he simply thought that as long as he was talented, he would not be buried.

The tutor didn't mean to look at Gu Haiping, and he also asked Gu Haiping to leave after a few words of greeting.

Gu Haiping walked out of the tutor's office and felt uneasy in his heart, he felt that this admission was a bit mysterious. At that time, Guangzhou was an open city in the "circle", and its operating rules were completely different from those of the mainland.

Gu Haiping took the train back to Hohhot after the interview, and Shandan went to the station early in the morning to pick him up. Listening to Gu Haiping's narration when they met, Shandan also had some worries, she was worried that Gu Haiping's speculation was correct, so it was really hard to say whether he would be admitted or not.

But the interview has been completed, and there is no way to transfer to another school without the notice of the other party, so I can only wait for the result.

The other party's notice was delayed, Gu Haiping and Shandan waited anxiously for the news, and their hopes seemed to be wiped out a little in the future, until the end of April, a notice without an interview was sent to Gu Haiping.

Gu Haiping was very angry, the other party could have notified him as soon as possible, then he still had time to transfer to the school for an interview. Now that all the schools have been admitted, they have been delayed for a year in vain! This is the advanced practice of the reform and opening up cities?

They also have some understanding of the complexity of society and the uncertainty of people's hearts.

There was no way, Gu Haiping had to prepare and wait for another year, and took the exam together when he graduated from Shandan University.

Gu Haiping began to look for a place to work again. Shandan hopes that he will find a short-term job in Hoh, without delaying his studies or running far, and take the exam with her at the end of the year. We also help each other in our studies.

So Gu Haiping sold all kinds of daily chemical products to a well-known daily chemical group.

Every day, he used a tricycle to pull a cart of daily chemical products, went to supermarkets and specialty stores to load goods, earned a difference of a few cents, and settled accounts every night.

But what can be done? Two people have to go to school and survive.

The experience of that year wore away Gu Haiping's sharp spirit, and also added invisible blame to Shandan's heart. It was she who dragged him down, how could he be good to him in this life in order to repay the youth and trickle of love he paid for her?

Once, the two of them went to buy some tofu on Sunday, and the tofu seller said that he would give one piece for one piece, and Shandan gave him one piece. Gu Haiping next to him was unhappy, he said that a whole dollar would be fine, and five cents would be given for a dime?

Shandan was embarrassed to deal with the tofu seller, she felt very uncomfortable, because the hardships of life had worn down such a man's integrity! He would care about five cents, and she felt sorry for how difficult life should be—that people had to be hurt by it!

Shandan's heart was even more full of guilt: It was she! It was she who had given him too much burden! He could be completely chic and comfortable alone, but now how much torture did he have to suffer for her? What did he carry for her was more than life? What was the future that he let go? And his integrity, his dignity, and his lofty ideals!

Shandan's distress and guilt plunged her into the abyss.

Gu Haiping saw Shandan's unhappiness and explained: "That's how I earn money, why does he ask for more money?"

Shandan didn't answer, she was still guilty of adding such a heavy burden to Gu Haiping, and she blamed herself for making Gu Haiping have such a change because of her.

While remorseful to himself, Shandan strengthened his determination: no matter what the situation is, he must accompany this man who is willing to pay for himself and is willing to change himself to spend his life. Moreover, this is a good, enterprising, gentle man.

Again and again, she was glad that she had never missed him.

It was a warm and cold spring day, when Gu Haiping failed the graduate school entrance examination, in the days when he gave up his dignity to earn money for the life and study of the two, Shandan made a decision in private, she would not wait until the day of marriage, she would give herself to him completely. She feared that if something happened to her life, she would not have a chance to repay him.

She even felt that she was not worthy of Gu Haiping, she was not worried that Gu Haiping would leave her, she was worried that one day she might choose to leave in order to stop dragging him down.

In the struggle with her own heart, she found a thousand reasons for herself to convince herself that sooner or later it was only a matter of time, not nature.

She is destined to come with him in this life, so why should she care so much sooner or later?

But she asked herself again and again: Are you willing? What kind of impact and consequences will this have on your future life? She has convinced herself in the midst of repeated struggles and compromises that he is worth her life gambling for him! She has no regrets.

Gu Haiping repeatedly asked Shandan: "Why are you doing this? Don't you regret it? I am willing to wait for you to graduate and wait until the day we get married." ”

Hearing Gu Haiping's words, Shandan felt even more that this man was her life's reliance and desire, and she didn't hesitate.

Under Gu Haiping's gentle care, Shandan promised with his body.

Afterwards, Shandan actually regretted a little, she cried in private for a long time, she felt that this kind of relationship seemed to be a little deteriorate, didn't she want a pure and perfect relationship that was not controlled by the world? Now, in order to repay him, she did such a "shameless" thing, and she even began to hate herself.

For the next week, Shandan couldn't face Gu Haiping, and she couldn't face herself calmly, her heart was full of guilt!