Gu Haiping waited quietly and patiently for Shandan's transformation, he hoped that she could calm down on her own.

He said: "We are lifelong partners, you want to open, since it has happened, I am also very guilty." It shouldn't make you so sad. But don't worry, I will be doubly good to you, cherish our fate even more, and live up to you for the rest of my life, if you are not happy, it will be good if we will not be like that in the future. ”

Listening to Gu Haiping's comfort, Shandan couldn't help crying in Gu Haiping's arms, she seemed to be making a sacrifice for her lost pure virginity.

Seeing Shandan so painful, Gu Haiping felt very sad, he really regretted that he shouldn't have tarnished this precious and pure feeling for the sake of impulse, he seemed to be able to feel what Shandan cared about, and he regretted that he had shattered Shandan for his longing and supremacy of love.

In fact, a qiē is not so strict, it is just a process, but Shandan's fantasy and attachment to feelings make her fall into platonic delusions.

Life went on, and Shandan was going to have a year of clinical internship in her fifth year, so she chose to escape. She couldn't face what had happened, she was worried that the next days together would ruin their future lives, she was worried that she would be disappointed in love and even despair, so she applied for a one-year clinical internship in the field.

Shandan wants to use the year to buffer her conflict between reality and ideals.

She even resented Gu Haiping a little, how could he allow himself to make the same mistakes? Does he not cherish this feeling? Shandan has always been in a kind of contradiction, self-blame, and regret and cannot extricate himself.

Therefore, she decided to go to Baotou for an internship without even discussing with Gu Haiping and fled far away.

In fact, she was trying to figure out guò time to resolve her senseless disappointment with this incident.

Gu Haiping has actually been worried that this will ruin their relationship, he deeply understands how much Shandan cares about the purity of this relationship, and she may have escaped from her own heart. He didn't stop her, but supported her to go out for a while, and also had time and space to buffer her depression.

But when Gu Haiping watched Shandan leave school and drive to Baotou on the school bus, he was like the tears in his stomach when he sent Shandan home home for the first time, and his heart was full of uneasiness and guilt! He couldn't even be sure what their future was?

There was some worry and loss in his heart. He was the last willing to hurt her, but now maybe it wasn't him who hurt her, but she was hurt by falling into the whirlpool of reality.

He could only wait patiently, and he wanted to exchange his tolerance and patience for the original Shandan. He hoped that she would come out of it, otherwise their future would be full of bumps. Only when she is relieved can she truly return to herself and return this hard-won emotion.

Shandan also seemed to have some regrets the moment she left the school, she wondered if she would hurt Gu Haiping because of this, but the matter had come to this, she hoped that her departure could save their love.

Along the way, she was deep in thought.

When we arrived at a large staff hospital in Baotou, the car was parked in a row of student dormitories with mottled walls in a three-story building, and everyone got off the bus to collect their luggage and arrange dormitories. Shandan realized that she had once again come alone in an unfamiliar environment.

The boy helped carry the luggage upstairs and sent it into the dormitory, and Shandan began to make the bed in a room on the second floor by the lower bunk by the window, cleaned and made the bed, it was already afternoon, and everyone said that there was no food in the cafeteria, so they had to go out to find something to eat.

Shandan and everyone walked on the unfamiliar street, and she felt as if it was so unreal in a trance! In a blink of an eye, she left Gu Haiping and came to a completely unfamiliar environment, for what?

She silently followed everyone into a Lanzhou ramen restaurant.

The master of the ramen restaurant is from Gansu, wearing a typical ** hat, and greets everyone with a smile on his face: "Please inside, please inside!"

A little girl asks how many bowls of ramen do you want, do you want boiled eggs, do you want big bowls, do you want small bowls?

Everyone asked for a small bowl of ramen, without braised eggs, a bowl of three pieces of five. Someone added an oil whirl, and everyone was hungry after a morning of tossing.

Shandan didn't feel hungry, she regretted it a little now, she began to think about Gu Haiping like crazy, and even tears were about to fall.

She got up and asked her boss for a few facial tissues, quietly wiped away the tears that were about to fall, and blew her nose. To divert her attention, she looked at the small tavern, there were two houses, inside and outside, the kitchen inside, and five tables in the outhouse, and the whole room was full of dirt and vicissitudes of disrepair.

While Shandan was looking around the house, a bowl of ramen was handed to her.

The light aroma of the ramen was filled with soda, and she felt hungry too. A bowl of clear soup ramen is topped with a few slices of braised beef, a few finely chopped green onions and coriander, but it whets Shandan's appetite.

Shandan didn't have time to imagine its hygiene and began to send it to her mouth, she wanted to dilute her thoughts about Gu Haiping by satisfying her appetite.

The students in the same dormitory are all from other classes, because Shandan's class is an excellent class, and he stayed in the attached hospital for internship, and Shandan applied to come to Baotou by himself. Director Jin was very happy when he heard that Shandan was willing to give up the internship at the affiliated hospital.

There are many students who want to stay in the affiliated college for internship, so they send some money to the instructor. A student who voluntarily gave up the internship in the affiliated hospital received a subsidy of 500 yuan. Shandan didn't ask for anything, she didn't bother to make such a deal.

Another purpose of Shandan's internship in Baotou is to study hard for a year and take the postgraduate examination, and she will be admitted to the postgraduate examination with Gu Haiping. Leave this backward place where local policies are introduced at every turn.

They discussed to take the postgraduate examination in the south, Shandan has liked ancient poetry since she was a child, and she has long been yearning for the beautiful scenery and customs of the south of the Yangtze River.

The four seasons like spring, the birds singing and the fragrance of flowers in Jiangnan is her dream home.

They are determined to leave the yellow wind and black soil, the grassland is full of holes, the beautiful grassland has become their memory, now the grassland has long been full of devastation, yellow sand rolling, there are no days of good days in the year.

Spring and autumn are full of yellow sand, winter is full of black smoke, go out for a walk, full of yellow sand and soot, such an environment is no longer their childhood "wind blowing grass and seeing cattle and sheep" beautiful hometown.

When Shandan returned to the dormitory, she immediately wrote a letter to Gu Haiping, wanting to tell Gu Haiping about her situation and mailing address.

Although they were close, they couldn't see each other often, which gave Shandan more time and space to think about their future.

The internship arrangement is also very tight, each department must have a teacher, and each department internship must complete the writing of a large case, with the signature of the instructor and the department director, so the learning pressure is still quite large.

Shandan raced against time to revise and prepare for the subjects for the graduate school entrance examination.

There was a classroom in the dormitory, which Shandan frequented and stayed there, and she was the one who got up first and slept the latest and hardest.

At that time, "Water Margin" was on the air, and everyone spent most of the night in front of the only 17-inch black-and-white TV, and they were all enthusiastic about watching it.

Shandan was alone in the classroom studying quietly, and from time to time she heard the shouts of her classmates from the dormitory. She also wants to go to see the excitement, but she thinks that the future is more important than the TV series, and if she wants to fly with Gu Haiping, she must keep up with him.

Occasionally relax, Shandan will go to the dormitory to take a few looks, the TV series is really good, Li Xuejian's servility and forward-looking behavior of Song Jiang, as well as the personalities of heroes from all walks of life are portrayed superbly.

She was often caught up in the plot and delayed for too much time, so she insisted that she would not let herself rest in the dormitory, and when she was tired, she would get up and walk, move her muscles, and then continue to nibble on the books that were as thick as bricks.

She regained the momentum and feeling she had when she was in high school, but now she has learned more than in the three years of high school, and most of the content has to be eaten by herself, and the professors are just teaching to the end of the time to take the graduate school entrance examination, which is really 108,000 miles away.