444, the year is difficult

The rainy season, which had been drenched for nearly a month, finally subsided a little, and the sky was no longer densely covered with rain and fog, although there were still scattered drizzles, and the sky was a little clear, and it seemed to be a little clear. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

The air was full of musty and fishy smells, people were listless, and even the rats in the garbage dump downstairs were hanging their heads and wisps of dirty fur without life.

On Chinese New Year's Eve, the unit took a half-day off early so that everyone could go home and arrange a Chinese New Year's Eve dinner in the evening.

When Shandan returned home, he found that the two children had filled the living room with all kinds of fireworks, and the two of them were discussing how to set off the fireworks in different categories.

According to the custom of the hometown, if someone in the family dies, red couplets cannot be posted within three years, and plain couplets such as yellow and green can be posted. Shandan doesn't have such a mind, and it is already a great luck to be able to calmly pass the year without Gu Haiping for the first time in more than ten years. She no longer decorates the gates, halls, etc. like in previous years, as long as she can spend the year peacefully, it is enough for her and her children.

Seeing the two children studying fireworks with great interest, Shandan smiled slightly and walked into the kitchen with the dishes, she didn't want to ruin the children's interest.

Today, how many people will have the same bitter longing and heartbroken pain as her? But this sadness cannot be revealed, and can only be swallowed by gritting steel teeth.

She sobered her mind again and again, her expression was still a little trance, and from time to time she was in a daze and forgot the work in hand.

Xiaoyu ran to the kitchen and saw her aunt in a daze, and asked, "Auntie, can I help you do something?"

Shandan came back to his senses from his stunned: "Oh, no, you play with Xiaoyu, and if you make her happy, you will help your aunt." ”

Xiaoyu nodded sensibly: "Then auntie, call me if you need help." ”

"Okay!" Shandan felt Xiaoyu's growth, he began to care about his relatives, and he was no longer the little boy who cried his nose at every turn.

Shandan was cooking dinner in a trance, chopping a chicken and preparing to make a soy sauce chicken, which was both Xiao Yu and Gu Haiping's favorite dish.

Blanch a plate of prawns and make a simple dipping sauce.

Cook a pot of pork ribs Huaishan soup, stir-fry a green vegetable, adjust a bean sprouts, shrimp and tofu skin, and the dish for three people should be enough.

Xiaoyu didn't know whether to eat rice or steamed buns, and Shandan poked his head out of the kitchen and asked, "Xiaoyu, do you eat steamed bread or rice?"

"I will eat whatever you eat, and I don't have to be mine. Xiaoyu replied sensibly.

"Okay, then I'll cook the rice. Shandan agreed, turned around and continued to be busy.

For many years, since Gu Haiping entered her life, they have been closely related lives, and every New Year is spent happily together. Although Gu Haiping didn't know anything about cooking, he followed behind her, helping her to make a start, tie an apron, tell a joke, and the whole kitchen had their cheerful laughter.

Ready for dinner, Shandan mixed the dumpling stuffing in the middle of the night, after the custom of "receiving the gods" on the riverbank grassland, and the noodles were also reconciled, and put them in the basin to wake up.

She was already very tired when she was done, so she came out and sat down on the couch to rest for a while.

"Bought so many cannons, it's so expensive, isn't it?" asked Shandan Xiaoyu, who lowered his head and fiddled with the fireworks.

"My cousin bought it, and you ask him how much it is. Xiao Yu replied without raising her head.

"Estimated at 200 yuan, so much?" Shandan looked at Xiaoyu.

"It didn't cost much, Xiaoyu is happy that it's worth it!" Xiaoyu said with a smile.

"Well, I'm happy! Cousin is so generous!" Xiao Yu raised her head and smiled, "But Dad bought more than this in those years!"

"You are generous with your money, and when you spend your own money, will you be generous?" said Shandan, who reluctantly smiled.

"Hurry up and put it away, I'm ready to stir-fry and eat. After Shandan finished speaking, he got up and walked into the kitchen with tears in his eyes.

In those years, during the Chinese New Year, Gu Haiping pedaled on a bicycle and took Xiaoyu to the vegetable market behind to buy fireworks, the father and daughter both bought a large bag and a bag, Xiaoyu bought whatever she wanted, Shandan felt that it was a waste of money and polluted the air, but Gu Haiping was full of words: "Only a few days a year, what does it matter? The money is greatly there, the air, not on the fireworks we put on this!"

Shandan will no longer nag, and it is rare for the father and daughter to have fun.

It didn't take half an hour, the dishes were already on the table, and the two children hurriedly went to wash their hands and eat, and the two of them were still talking about what the fireworks were missing and what ammunition needed to be replenished.

From Gu Haiping's death to the present, Shandan has never put a pair of tableware for him during meals, not in front of him, the pain in his heart is unbearable, if he looks at the empty bowl and empty chopsticks, can he still eat? She can't put a pair of empty tableware like someone else's house or like in the TV series. Today's New Year, she should have done a little ritual to pay tribute to the relatives who could not be seated, but she couldn't do it, she would ruin the strong nerves of the day and ruin the children's New Year.

Shandan picked and chose to pick and choose vegetables and shrimp for the two children, but she couldn't swallow it herself, so she didn't put anything in her mouth.

Xiaoyu noticed that the aunt didn't eat, so she put a chicken leg that Shandan gave him in the aunt's bowl: "Auntie, you eat too." ”

"The two chicken legs belong to the two of you, and the aunt eats something else. Shandan pretended to pick up a piece of chicken and put it in his bowl.

It's hard to swallow, just drink some soup, otherwise the body can't stand it, Shandan slowly drank a bowl of pork ribs Huaishan soup, the meal was delicious, the two children ate happily, looking at the two most important children in their lives, Shandan felt some comfort in his heart, I hope that in the future, they will be able to support and love each other.

As the post-90s, they have no brothers and sisters, they are alone, their future life is difficult to go, there is no love between siblings, the old parents are the burden of the children, a pair of children have to shoulder the pension of four old people, but also to raise their own children, before the social pension is not perfect, their burden is not heavy!

As their parents grew older, the brothers and sisters of their aunts and cousins were the closest relatives of these only children.

And many of these children who grew up in different families don't even have the opportunity to meet, and with a little blood, what kind of intimate family relationship can be maintained, Shandan dare not think. Besides, these only children who have never had the opportunity to get along with their brothers and sisters since they were young, what their future relationship is, Shandan doesn't dare to think about it.

I remember when I was a child, there were three of them brother and sister, and Tie Dan always protected his two younger sisters and was not allowed

Anyone bullied them, Mao Dan'er grew up with her, and almost the entire childhood and adolescence Shandan was under Mao Dan'er's protection.

Although sometimes the brothers and sisters will be noisy, but the elder brother will always let the younger sisters, this sibling relationship that is constantly cut and cannot be separated, but these two children have not been able to have.