106. Unplanned pregnancy

Shandan immediately rejected his speculation, obviously not in the danger period, and calculated that he did not take any measures during the safety period.

No matter how frightened she was, she believed that it was the cause of her spring sleepiness, but she still went to the obstetrics and gynecology department to test her urine for the sake of safety.

Shandan still hopes that it is a mistake, and the re-test is still a clear two bars, and those two bars pierce into Shandan's heart like two sharp swords, what should I do? She doesn't want to have a child so soon, she still has to take the graduate school exam, and she has to go to the rivers and lakes with Gu Haiping, and there are so many things that have not been done in the plan.

When Shandan was in the Six Gods and had no owner, she called Gu Haiping and asked for his opinion. Gu Haiping paused for a minute when he heard such news and did not react, Shandan's heart became cold because of this, he was just as frightened, how could he be silent at such a moment?

Gu Haiping did not express his opinion, but instead wanted to know what Shandan thought. Shandan sighed and said, "I don't want it, I still have so many things to do, what do you say?"

"You're not in a hurry! Haven't you just been in a little over a month? We still have time to plan and see what to do? I always respect your opinions and practices, okay? I will support you whatever you want!" Gu Haiping made his position clear.

These words made Shandan feel particularly bad, where was the responsibility of this man, how could he treat her and his children so sloppily?

Gu Haiping's attitude disappointed Shandan very much, although she knew intellectually that it was impossible to have this child, but in her heart she hoped that he would keep this child, after all, he was the crystallization of their love, although it was not at the right time, but in any case, she could not be so unhesitant and rash not to give him a chance to survive.

Shandan was a little sad, although the child did come out of place, but he was a life—their child! Although it was only a few cells, he was really in her belly, her child, and she began to waver.

What should I do? Shandan went home on the weekend to discuss with his mother, and the mother resolutely opposed the beating of the child, she said: "Since the doll is here, he is destined for you, you can't even give him a chance to be born, I will help you bring it after birth, and you are not young, you also have to consider whether you can regenerate after you are beaten." ”

Shandan doesn't really want to beat the child out in his real heart, but today's conditions are really not suitable for having children and raising children.

The mother was a little angry and said, "Aren't your conditions a hundred times better now than when I gave birth to you? At that time, you didn't eat or drink, didn't you also grow well? You are all as strong as a calf? Why can't you give birth? You still have a salary to earn, Haiping will graduate in two more years, and when the child is older, he can go with you no matter where you go, there is nothing wrong with it, sue Sù Haiping I don't agree to kill the doll." ”

Shandan called Gu Haiping again, and Gu Haiping analyzed the current situation: "You see, we have nothing now, our work has not been fixed, and we don't know where to settle down at that time, how can we provide a good living and educational environment for our children? Rather than raising them well, it is better to wait for a child, and wait for our conditions to be better before having a child, isn't it good? Besides, we haven't had a good two-person world to take a child, are you willing?"

"But, since he came, it was because of our fate! Besides, my mother said that she would never agree with me killing the child. Shandan pouted unhappily.

"Then what do you say? Do you want to put your children in the countryside and raise them? Raise them like a mouse every day! Otherwise, we will be irresponsible! What do you say?" Gu Haiping continued to persuade Shandan.

Shandan thought about it, he couldn't let his child grow up in such a backward and remote place like himself, right? He said, "Then what should I do? I'm twenty-six, I'm worried that the miscarriage of the first child will affect future pregnancies, if I can't give birth, what will I do in this life?" Shandan said and cried.

"No, you think too much, and I don't care if you have a child or not, I wish I could live a quiet life with the two of you!" Gu Haiping coaxed Shandan.

"What if you say that now, what will happen then? Your parents will agree that we don't want children?" Shandan asked rhetorically.

"I have two nephews, so I don't need to worry about the succession, of course my parents won't be difficult for us, you can rest assured. Gu Haiping replied affirmatively.

"Okay, I'm going to Hohhot for surgery, I don't want to be here, I'm not worried about the level here. But how can I go alone?" cried Shandan.

"Then you wait for me, I'll ask for leave and come back to accompany you. Make an appointment with the hospital first, and I'll take you there. A classmate of mine is in the 235 hospital of the army, I contacted him first, and I will come back to take you there after making an appointment. You must take care of yourself these days! Don't be sad anymore, we're just putting this off a little bit. Gu Haiping continued to comfort Shandan.

Shandan hung up sadly, she couldn't imagine that a person could kill her own child so cruelly. Maybe men's feelings for children are not as real as women's, so many men force women to have abortions for such reasons and excuses, but they don't know: once life is formed in the mother's womb, that reluctance will be stuck into the depths of the mother's soul, and it can no longer be ignored.

Shandan was still hesitating, she knew that the reality she was facing was not optimistic, and what Gu Haiping said was reasonable, but she just couldn't do it calmly, after all, it was a life.

She didn't dare to talk to her mother about Gu Haiping's opinion, she was worried that her mother would dislike Gu Haiping because of this, she could understand Gu Haiping's concerns, but her mother would never think so, she would not allow anything that hurt Shandan and the child to happen.

After a few days of ideological struggle, Shandan thought about it, let's get rid of the child, can't give him a good growth environment, it's better to delay a few years without a good educational environment, she can only reluctantly accept such a reality. Although she agrees with her mother's point of view, as long as there is parental love and careful teaching, a good child can be taught. But it's really unbearable to let children suffer from an early age.

Gu Haiping returned to Hohhot a few days later, called Shandan and asked her to come to Hohhot for surgery, and the doctor had already made an appointment.

Shandan was heartbroken all the way, she couldn't stop the pain in her heart, and she couldn't stop crying along the way. She couldn't understand how she could be so sad? Disappointed in Gu Haiping's ruthlessness or reluctant to come? She didn't have a clear concept, maybe it's all there.

Along the way, she wiped her lower abdomen and silently told the child: Child, mom can't stand you! But mom also has mom's difficulties, don't blame mom, find a good family to reincarnate, they will definitely treat you well, mom will bless you.

Shandan prayed silently in his heart: Shuttle, you go on like this, never arrive, just keep walking, never reach the situation you will face. This has also become a knot in Shandan's heart that can never be opened: every time she walks on the road and sits in the car, she will inertly hope that she will never reach the end and keep going. However, no matter what happens in the human world, the earth is still spinning, and the wheels will surely reach its destination.

When Shandan's red and swollen eyes appeared at the exit of the station, she saw Gu Haiping waiting on the side, she didn't have the slightest happiness at all, she walked towards him silently.

Gu Haiping walked over quickly, looked at Shandan's sad face, tightened Shandan's shoulders, and whispered, "It doesn't matter, we will still have our own children, don't be sad." ”

Shandan didn't squeak, didn't come close to his shoulder, and her stiff body produced the first resistance and rejection that ever came from the bottom of her heart.

Gu Haiping felt Shandan's coldness and complaint, and he said: "Actually, I don't want to! That is also my child, and I can't bear it! But what conditions do we have to support him? If we let him face a difficult and harsh growth environment, can we rest assured? I don't have time to walk into the life and life of the child until he is 3 years old, and the child's education before the age of 3 is the most critical education period, and it is also the period of character formation, without the father's love and education, can you ensure that the child grows up healthy and happy?"

Shandan didn't answer, but her heart was full of hatred, and he actually said, "That's his child!" What is that? Is that a thing? He's a life! He's a human being! And—I promise that the child can grow up healthy and happy? I'm going to bear such a big burden and responsibility, what do I want you to do? Shandan didn't say it, she had a habit: when she was angry, she couldn't say a thousand words in her heart, she would just keep silent, she would only think of a lot of words in her heart to fight back.

Shandan followed Gu Haiping to the hospital without saying a word, she walked into the obstetrics and gynecology department with him, and the doctor who received him was a man about fifty years old, wearing a military uniform and a white coat.

She still didn't say a word, Gu Haiping said hello to the doctor and left the consultation room to sit down on a chair in the corridor and wait.

The doctor was very kind, and looked at Shandan's love for him, and asked gently, "How old are you?"

"Well, 26 years old. Shandan replied in a low voice.

"First child?" the doctor continued.

"Hmm. Shandan snorted and looked up at the doctor opposite. She saw pity in his eyes.

"Tell me, why did you want to kill the baby?" the doctor said softly.

"Because...... Because we don't have time to take care of him......" Shandan's tears flowed.

You are already 26 years old, 26 years old is the best age to give birth, no matter what excuse can not be a reason for you to strangle your own child, besides, the first child is aborted, you are likely to have difficulty getting pregnant in the future at such an age, and when you have the conditions and time to take care of the child in the future, you are not sure whether you have the ability to have another child. "The doctor may be entrusted by an acquaintance, so he is extra kind and responsible.