One, two, three, woe to the wall

The two of them are in their prime, how can they be so cold? Shandan felt that there was a little bit of a problem here, she felt that they didn't seem to be as connected and estranged as before, Gu Haiping pretended not to see or understand Shandan's instructions under the pretext of being busy, which made Shandan a little unhappy.

Once, Shandan couldn't sleep, after she coaxed the child to sleep, she gently pushed open the door of the study, Gu Haiping focused on the computer, and didn't find that Shandan was already standing behind him, he hurriedly closed a page, for fear that Shandan would see something.

This move made Shandan immediately angry. Because there was a computer network just now, Shandan didn't understand some common sense of computers. But Gu Haiping's panic and behavior made her finally understand: he had a problem.

She wanted to cry without tears, but suddenly her heart hurt so much, her limbs were sore, and she had no strength as if she was going to fight.

She thinks about giving up her profession and future, taking care of adults and children like a nanny, without regrets, and being tired like a dog every day, what do you get in the end?

Gu Haiping followed Shandan back to the house in a panic, and saw that Shandan was sad, so he said curtly: "It's nothing, I'm chatting with my classmates." ”

"You're chatting with your classmates and you're afraid I'll see it? You don't sleep in the middle of the night, I thought you were reading and studying, who do you talk to in the middle of the night? Shandan asked.

"Two days ago, Li Hui installed a QQ chat box for me, so I chatted with her." Gu Haiping tried to take Shandan into his arms.

Shandan quickly dodged, she had a kind of spit for the first time, she looked at the man in front of her, how much did she know about him?

Every time she is unhappy, Shandan has thousands of words that she can't say, she is silent, and she won't let them say no matter how many words are boiling in her heart.

Gu Haiping didn't show Shandan their chat history, so she was even more suspicious, she wasn't suspicious, but Gu Haiping's panic and expression made her suspicious. This made Shandan even more suspicious.

But her dignity, her pride, didn't ask him to show her their chat history. If they didn't have anything, with Gu Haiping's character, of course he would show her the record, and now he didn't make any moves.

Shandan carried her pillow to Xiaoyu's room and lay down, she tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. This has just begun to live a stable life, and there is such a thing, with Gu Haiping's improvement, he has stepped in place or regressed, will there be a life in the future? Now in this foreign land, she doesn't even have anyone to talk to, if Gu Haiping abandons her and leaves, what should she do?

Now she is in a panic like never before, and she can't imagine the road ahead.

Shandan thinks back that she has been so stubborn and persistent all the way, she did not listen to her mother's advice in finding a partner and getting married, and she was bent on going her own way.

Now, the current situation has made her more or less regretful, and the result of wronging herself is that she did not get any good feedback.

She didn't want to reciprocate, she just thought that people's hearts would be exchanged for people's hearts after all. She didn't want her tolerance and heartlessness to be hurt again and again, and she even thought that there might be no hope for the future.

She has always had a belief: no matter how hard, difficult, and embarrassing life is, as long as the two of them can be heart-to-heart, she is willing to eat the nest. This is not the case today.

A common saying is: It is easy to share hardships and hardships, but it is difficult to share wealth and prosperity. But she always thought that it was someone else, not herself, and with their relationship for so many years, nothing like this would happen anyway.

What she cares about most is her feelings, and what she can't stand the most is the deviation of her feelings.

She called Yao Xiaoling and told her doubts and feelings, as well as sadness and worry, that she was so unwilling. Could it be that so many years of hard work have been wasted? How unwilling she was!

Yao Xiaoling comforted Shandan: "No! Gu Haiping is not that kind of person! You have to trust him, but also give him his own space, you love each other so much, so many years have passed, seeing that life is about to get better, he won't be so stupid! Maybe he has something inconvenient to talk to you, and it's nothing to talk to others. ”

Shandan was very sad: "What did he say not to me, to an unmarried female classmate who didn't sleep in the middle of the night?" Here you go, can you think of it? ”

"He's not doing the right thing, but you can ask him, what he's talking about? Ask him to show you their chats. Don't you understand everything? Yao Xiaoling gave advice.

"He didn't explain or show me their chat logs, and he clearly wanted to hide something from me, maybe he was disrespectful and didn't care about my feelings. I have some regrets, regrets for so many years of grievances and repeated tolerance. Shandan cried.

"Don't say such things, if you have a problem, you have to talk about it, don't say things that hurt your feelings like this, what you have done in the past has been done, and there is no turning back. Besides, your good will he not understand? What you have to do now is to ask him to explain it to you, or ignore it, how to live your life. Yao Xiaoling's way of thinking and doing things is still the same rational and organized.

"I don't want to ask him, if he doesn't explain himself, I don't ask him, if he wants to live a good life, if he doesn't want to live, I will never stalk him, I can live without anyone!" Shandan said angrily.

"You! It was also a tendon to find him alive and dead at the beginning, but now he retreats when he encounters a little thing, how can he live like this? Whose pots and pans aren't bumping? Since you have been tolerant for so many years? Still this time or twice? You should be open-minded, let him blame himself, be ashamed, and feel sorry for you, and he will naturally relent. Wouldn't it be better if it was okay in the first place? Yao Xiaoling said that the head is the Tao.

"I used to tolerate him because we had no problems with our feelings, and some specific things in life, but now if there is a problem with our feelings, I can't accept it! I'd rather live alone than a man lying next to me thinking about someone else! Shandan's tone was firm, indicating the firmness of her will.

"Good, good! Then you have to at least figure out what is wrong with your relationship? You haven't figured it out before you make yourself half angry first, is it worth it? Yao Xiaoling and Shandan have been confidants and friends in college for five years, and of course, the dialogue between the two is never roundabout, and they are all straightforward.

"My feelings tell me, this time there is really a problem with the estimate, but the estimate has not developed to the point yet, but I can't stand it! I can't stand him having such a problem! If that's the case, I'd love to gouge out my eyeballs and step on them. "Shandan's heartache can be seen.

"You! How can this world be as pure as you want it to be? A person will inevitably make mistakes, and if he makes a mistake, he will be beaten to death with a stick? Is this appropriate? Besides, your anger doesn't save him face, you can only push him into someone else's arms, and men also need to coax, when he is about to take that step, you need to pull him at this time, not push him out! Are you willing to burn all your years of hard work? Don't want it? Aren't you stupid? After so many years of fertilizing and watering, you have cultivated a big tree with your heart, and when it comes to fruition, are you willing to let people pick the fruit? If you think about it, you'll know what to do. I'm going to have surgery, and I have a major surgery to go today. Think about it yourself. I'll call you later. Yao Xiaoling hung up the phone after speaking.

Shandan hung up Yao Xiaoling's phone, and she fell into an unprecedented emptiness. I think that she was just as high-spirited back then, and she has made the same achievements and gains, but now the abandonment of her profession and the crisis of her family make her doubt whether what she has done is worth it?

Maybe everyone is the same, they can't appreciate the good of others and the dedication of others, they just behave in the world with their own likes and dislikes, Gu Haiping may also be such a person. It was she herself who beautified him and idealized him before. He was nothing but a mortal, an ordinary man.

He can't stand the **, he can't stand the hardships, and he is swayed by the world. So is this kind of Gu Haiping still what she asks for and wants?

Her life is to ask for a pure feeling, two people take care of each other, each other, hand in hand warm and happy through life, she does not ask him to be talented, not to ask him to be rich, only to treat each other sincerely, to spend life together.

Is this the only thing she has to ask for too much?

Thinking about Yao Xiaoling's words, she began to enter real life to understand life.

She thought of some of the things that happened when her hukou was transferred, and she also thought of seeing Gu Haiping's cousin when she came home from work every day after work, and she couldn't help but shudder.