Ninety-three, there is no peace in life

There are four classmates living in the dormitory where Shandan interns, one of whom is named Xiao Ai, who has the sequelae of rickets. But she is also extremely strong, and she is a fellow countryman with Shandan.

Shandan saw that she was short, circle-legged, and not very neat, as a fellow countryman, she wanted to help her do what she could, but the other party didn't appreciate it and had an expression of who owed her money, so Shandan had to stay away. Besides, Shandan didn't have much time to waste on interpersonal relationships.

Everyone has only been together for a year, they are busy with their own things, and after a year, they will go their separate ways, and they may not meet again in this life, and there is no need to get married or grudge.

In the face of Xiao Ai's cold words, Shandan never went to her heart, she just felt that she was pitiful: it doesn't matter if she has a crippled body, what matters is a mutilated or distorted mind.

She tries to avoid her and not have anything to do with her.

No matter how she cried or laughed, Shandan turned a blind eye, and the other classmates were also busy with their own affairs and had no time and energy to care about other people's affairs.

One day, Shandan went back to the dormitory to get a book in the middle of work, and found Xiao Ai crying alone in the dormitory with the door closed, and she heard the crying from the staircase of the stairs going upstairs.

Xiao Ai watched Shandan come back, turned around and suppressed his crying against the wall, Shandan couldn't bear to ignore it, she asked Xiao Ai softly: "What's wrong with you?" So sad? ”

Xiao Ai didn't speak, and her cry rose again.

Shandan continued to enlighten her: "Xiao Ai, what's wrong with you? Who wronged you? In fact, people don't care so much, your academic performance is not bad, not worse than others, you don't have low self-esteem. There are many things in life that we can't change, and we can only do our best to change what we can, don't you say? ”

Xiao Ai listened to Shandan's words, sat up, and her face was full of tears: "You don't understand!" … Peacetime... People look at me like a monster,... I confessed, who told me to look like this? …… I studied hard to get into university, and I wanted to prove that I was no better than others... Difference. Woo-" Xiao Ai said as she sobbed.

Shandan comforted: "Yes, you are not worse than others, even better than many people." ”

"W-w, but what's the use? I'm always inferior to you! You see that you are beautiful, your academic performance is good, your boyfriend is good, he is so good to you. What about me? The more Xiao Ai spoke, the more sad she became, and she simply cried again.

"You'll have a boyfriend too, he'll be nice to you as long as he likes you, don't be sad." Shandan reassured.

"He doesn't want me anymore! He wrote to me that he was going to break up with me. Xiao Ai cried.

"Huh? Do you have a boyfriend? Where is he? What did he say? What did he say? How can you say that you break up when you break up? Shandan said with some surprise.

"He was my high school classmate, we both had good academic performance, I was admitted to the medical school in the district, he was admitted to a university in Wuhan, it was good, but not long ago he wrote to me to break up, I asked him why, he didn't say, only said that he wanted to score." Xiao Ai's love calmed down a bit.

"Oh, then you can ask him why he broke up first, and then talk about it." Shandan said.

"This time he wrote to say that he must break up, for no reason, that is, he felt that it was not suitable." Xiao Ai said.

"Alas! People's hearts change. Such a person is always unreliable, why don't you break up, everyone will have the person they are destined to do, and you will definitely be able to wait for your person. "Shandan didn't know how to enlighten Xiao Ai.

"I think too, the twisted melon is not sweet, and I will never ask for mercy from others, I want to live my own world." Xiao Ai also returned to his usual strong appearance.

"Well, I actually admire you! Do you see how strong you have to be and how hard you work? Sometimes I want to be lazy, you're still learning, you've become a role model for me to work hard. Shandan wasted no time in complimenting Xiao Ai, who was full of sympathy for her.

After all, God people! Congenitally inferior to others, how much cold eyes and unfair treatment will be suffered? The world is all about judging people by their appearance.

Everyone is full of affection when they see a beautiful and beautiful face, and they are somewhat alienated from people with disabilities. There's no way around it.

Seeing Xiao Ai gradually calm down, Shandan said: "What should you do when you take a break by yourself, don't waste time and feelings for unworthy people, I'm still busy going to Corey, go first." ”

Walking out, Shandan thanked God for the protection of himself for being able to have today's Yiqiē. From the bottom of her heart, she felt content and deep gratitude! I am grateful to my parents for their love and indulgence over the years; I am grateful to God for giving me a beautiful face and a healthy body; Be grateful for the good loved ones you have given in your life; Be grateful for every kind look and smile; She suddenly reverently recited the phrase, "Amitabha! ”

One day during my internship in orthopedics, a little boy about ten years old came, and his father led him through the door. The child's left hand supported his right hand, and the father looked unhappy and said, "This doll is disobedient, and she is riding a bicycle secretly, and her arm may be broken if she falls." ”

Shandan followed the teacher's surname Bo, and Dr. Bo received the consultation, and he asked the little boy, "How old are you?" How did you fall off? Where does it hurt the most right now? ”

The little boy's face turned pale, and he replied with severe pain: "Ten years old!" The bike hit a brick and fell over, and when I fell, I held up the floor with my right hand, and my right hand is now in a lot of pain. As he spoke, he gritted his teeth and endured.

Dr. Bo brought it to move the X-ray and said that he would take a film and see it first.

As a result of the x-ray, the perichondrium of the radius is detached. This is a common injury in children, but it is difficult to treat, because a thin layer of perichondrium is not easy to reduce, and partly, the perichondrium and radial head are not well healed together.

Under the guidance of the X-ray machine, two orthopedic surgeons, one of whom was five big and three thick, pulled the arm and the other hand, pulled the wrist joint hard, and slowly reduced the perichondrium to the radial head.

The little arm was almost deformed, but the little boy didn't say a word, only the tears in his eyes were dripping, and it was really distressing to watch. This is also the innate iron backbone of the northern nomads.

Another usually short-tempered Dr. Jiang looked at the child's aching face and said: "Child, if you hurt you, you cry loudly, it will relieve a little pain, it doesn't matter, if you cry, it doesn't mean that you are not brave, you are already very strong and brave." ”

The little boy shook his head, gritted his teeth and said, "It doesn't hurt!" I can stand it! ”

The boy's father couldn't bear to look at it, hugged the child's little head tightly, turned his head to the side and wiped his tears.

I finally got it right, slowly let go, and suddenly staggered again. The two doctors, who were usually rough and even rude, showed expressions of self-reproach and couldn't bear to reset again.

Dr. Bo sat with his head bowed, but the little boy encouraged the doctor: "Uncle, it doesn't matter, try again, I can do it!" ”

Shandan couldn't help his feelings, and ran to the bathroom to wipe his tears, which made people feel distressed when they looked at anyone's child. Dr. Bo later said, "This kid! It's a character! It's amazing to grow up! Look how strong he is psychologically! ”

The reduction was successful again, it was fixed with a plaster cast, and the little boy bowed to the doctor's uncle. The child touched the hearts of the entire orthopedic surgeon.

For a long time, orthopedic surgeons used little boys as current teaching materials to educate those patients in the face of crying fathers and mothers.

A very poor patient was a patient in a highway car accident, with multiple fractures all over his body, comminuted fractures of the hip joint, and when Shandan went to the orthopedic department for an internship, he had been in a humanoid plaster cast for more than a year, and he was skinny and skinny. It's as if to live is to suffer crimes, and it's better to die happily than to live like this, Shandan thought to himself. Seeing that the possibility of recovery is almost zero, how much sin does this have to suffer?

The treatment costs of the culprit party have not been able to keep up, and more than a dozen surgeries of all sizes have been performed in more than a year, spending millions of dollars in treatment fees. But as the body weakens, the possibility of healing becomes less and less. You can only slowly drain your life in that plaster cast.

Every time she meets a patient, Shandan's mood will be affected, she can always not be indifferent, she can always be calm as a doctor objectively, so she feels that she is not suitable for clinical work, her psychology can not bear the pain of old and weak, sickness and even life and death.

Therefore, she decided not to take the clinical postgraduate examination, she was suitable to be a silent scientific research worker, and she chose pathology.

On the basis of completing her clinical internship, Shandan put all her energy into preparing for graduate school.