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During that time, I was tormented, I wanted you to go with me, but I couldn't ask you, I didn't dare to think about what our relationship would become after I left, maybe it was to continue to maintain, maybe it was gradually indifferent, maybe it was Xiao Biesheng who was newly married, I don't know, I really don't know what to do. On the one hand, I have to work hard to get back as soon as possible, and on the other hand, I have to worry about this, so tired.

However, I still chose to continue, because I believe in fate, you, are the ones I need to take care of for the rest of my life.

There are good and bad turns, the good is that our relationship is getting better and better, and the bad is the good when I have to transfer out, what is this?

The real turning point was on that day, my birthday......

You didn't come, you didn't even make this little request, in the end, am I wrong, or are you wrong.

I valued this reunion, but it didn't come.

That night, I don't know how it happened, I just knew that I was drunk, my heart was broken, maybe a birthday is not important, but this is my first birthday when we were together, the birthday of my lonely person who is far away, and the birthday that I want the person I love to spend with me the most.

When you get drunk, you sleep, you wake up, you break up, and you can't sleep again......

Late at night, I was alone on the computer, waiting for the symbols to beat

In my mind, your smile comes to mind, and I hope that it will not be just a joke

After waking up drunk, I heard the blessing of Zero Hour. The voice is not what you expect

Get up. See the leaping symbol. Nor is it what I want the most

In a daze, stupidly alone, sitting there, waiting

I can only say to myself, I wish me a happy birthday

And for my birthday, no presents, nothing

(Men, too, are vulnerable at times.) It was on that day that I received an unexpected birthday wish, and I never thought she would remember it. ）

From this moment, I felt a kind of desolation, a kind of helplessness, a kind of silence, I don't know, what am I, is it your husband, at that moment, I was really distressed.

Although after that, you explained a lot. But this incident still left me with deep scars, scars that can never be erased. Suppose I don't show up on your birthday, what will happen to you, I think you will be angry too.

No matter what, in the end I still accepted the reality, I can't leave because of this "little thing", because there is still love, I still can't let go.

Subsequently, our relationship basically returned to normal, and I would go to see you every time I went home, occasionally bringing something delicious, hehe, nothing valuable, just a little thought.

It was supposed to be over, but then something happened that I couldn't accept, and my heart trembled again. Some people say that you are talking about me out there and saying that I am not doing some things right. Originally, it wasn't a big deal, but someone said something, my heart was a little messy, my friend said I wasn't worth it, and I was also reflecting on whether I was worth it or not.

Puzzled, I chose to say goodbye, I felt that I should be quiet and think about whether it was worth it for so much I had done.

At this time, you were still the same, you didn't ask or say anything, which put me in an impasse.

At this time, I really want to know, do you like me, do you love me, you don't know how to say it, and no one else says it.

At this point, I really didn't know what I was supposed to do, go back, or leave.

At this time, I am still stubborn, and I want to wait for you to come to me.

Of course, the result is that you didn't look for me, you think I went to Zhang Nan, you don't care, or you don't care who I go to, don't care what I do, is this my status in your mind. If you like me, if you love me, you won't do that, you won't let me be so casual, you'll look at me, that's when I look at you.

You may say that you can't watch it, you can't control it, why bother yourself, but what I want to say is that if you can look at me like them, I will still feel happy.

Perhaps, you are right, we should not supervise each other's lives, each has its own affairs, we should not manage too much, yes, I don't want to care too much about your affairs sometimes, but their pressure makes me breathless. What are they like, what are you like, it is impossible in my heart not to compare, and I am still a little sad when I compare.

I admit that you have lost a lot for me, but I want more than that, I want you, truth, and love.

Perhaps, you will also laugh at me for being stupid, how can a married person get this. But I really hope that what they can get, I can get too, and what they can do, you can do too.

Later, I gradually distanced myself from you, and you didn't resist, didn't question, didn't ......

Gradually, my heart is getting colder and colder, I really don't understand, how can you not care?

Time passed little by little, but my heart was a little cold, I know, I will not wait for your resistance, your questioning, you will let me decide. But I'm still inconclusive, I really don't know what to do.

The next thing is something I didn't expect, I talked to her on the phone a few times, chatted a few times, and before I knew it, I called more and more, chatted more and more, to be honest, I really don't know what's going on, maybe you'll say I did it on purpose, but I sue you, I really don't know.

Somehow, once, when I returned to Haicheng, I didn't go to see you, but to see her, and at that time, she and her friend hadn't broken up, and we met.

Later, when I went back to Haicheng several times to see you, I would find time to see her, and we gradually came together, and after she broke up with her friend, we were together.

To be honest, really, I don't know what happened, we recalled, no one understood what was going on, and it turned out to be together.

At that time, we hadn't broken up, and now, in fact, it's not a breakup, because you and I have never said anything about breaking up, it's just that we're separated.

Back in Haicheng, in addition to being with her, I will still go to see you when I have the chance, it's not what I want, it's that I really can't let you go.

I thought about it for a long time, and the second time we separated, it was because of me, because I didn't understand you, I didn't understand myself, it was all my fault, I admit it. But I don't really know what to do now.

I want to completely forget you, but I can't forget my promise and my love;

I want to separate from her and return to you, but I can't get out, after all, I still like her, or what I didn't get before, now I get it, and I am reluctant to let go, or rather, her current situation makes me unbearable to leave her at this time.

I know she's going to have to go sooner or later, I know her.

But I'm really not that kind of person, I don't want to eat what's in the bowl and look at the pot, that's not me.

Maybe I won't believe it, I don't believe I'm not that kind of person, maybe.

Daughter-in-law, am I stupid.

What I promised you, I will still do, I will do it, and I will find a way to do what I promised you.

Maybe, I won't let you read this letter, although I promised to write you 10,000 words, but what can I do if I read it, you have your thoughts, you won't because I left there, he didn't do it, I won't do it, you are still you, no.

However, I really hope you will.

I hate, if I can support you and can afford to raise you, maybe I will bring you back to mine;

I hate, why does Heaven have to let me know you;

I hate, why don't you care about me.

Hate, what can be done,

Now, one of my original hopes has really come true, that is, I don't want to do it with them, because I don't want to see them, but my wish has come true, and I am no longer by your side, is this fate?

I wanted to go back, but you didn't give me a reason to go back.

Forget it, don't write it, it's not enough for 10,000 words, so replace it with something else:

I like you, I love you, I miss you, I love you forever, (omitted 300 times here, 4500 words, hehe)

I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired, I don't know what I want.

We didn't expect that the current situation was beyond our expectations;

Li Peng is divorced and is with the woman he loves

I......

A qiē seems to be very natural, I am still yours, you are still mine, but there is one thing that still changes something: you are going to buy a house. Yes, I promised you to buy you a house, but I didn't expect it to happen so quickly, precisely when I was at my worst.

You made me pay, I had to pay, but since I just arrived in this position, there are a lot of places to be touched, and there is not much extra income. A lot of people also say, leave it alone, it's not worth it. But I really don't think so, maybe they'll call me stupid, but I'm willing, I'll do anything for you. In the end, I figured it out.

Maybe it was my fault in the first place, I shouldn't have been half-hearted, I shouldn't have known you, and I shouldn't have fallen in love with you

You always say that my favorite is Zhang Nan, but do you know, my favorite is you, only you don't know

Forget it, it's all my fault, I don't understand myself at all, and a good life has to be like this

In other words, it is all the arrangement of fate, I must have owed a lot of people in my last life, and I will be punished in this life and let me repay my debts.

I hate myself, and I hate the world even more.

Zhao Gang's letter was written thousands of words, and even he couldn't believe that he had so many things to say to Zhang Hongmei, which shows that she still has a very important position in his heart, at least, such as Han Yaogao. After two months of separation, he refused to see Ruhan, let alone write a letter. (To be continued......) RT