Three-eighty-five, the pain is unbearable

"Xiaoyu is not afraid! Xiaoyu doesn't cry, and her mother is there. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info "Shandan raised his thousand-pound arm and held Xiaoyu on his chest, and since then only their mothers and mothers have relied on each other in this world; Since then, this child has no loving father's care and guidance; What kind of responsibility will Shandan have from now on? This is a powerful challenge for a Shandan who almost doesn't care about the world and loves and protects Gu Haiping in every way.

"Mom, I'm going to see Daddy." Xiaoyu buried her head in Shandan's arms, crying and begging.

"Okay, remember Dad's good, he loves you no matter whether he is by your side or not, he just goes to another world, a world that we can't see, although we can't see him, but he can see us, he will always grow up with you." When despair filled his mind, Shandan thought of not leaving the shadow of his child's life, since God arranged it so, then all the sorrows and hardships should be borne by her. Even if the end comes, she will use her not very strong body to hold up a clear sky for the child, and she will become the child's sun and sweep away the haze of her life.

Last weekend was 6.1 Children's Day, a family of three went to the supermarket, said to buy a small folding car for Xiaoyu, there was originally a pink very delicate folding car, Shandan wanted to buy, Xiaoyu disagreed, asked why not to say, not to dislike, Shandan felt that the child was a little strange at a young age, so he had to give up.

At dinner last night, Xiao Yucai said, "Mom, have you noticed how much that folding car is?" ”

"Isn't it 488? What's wrong? Shandan looked at the child a little strangely.

"Do you know why I didn't buy it? That's a 'dead dad'! When Xiaoyu said such a terrible thing, Shandan immediately interrupted: "This kid is so young, what is he thinking in his head?" Don't gossip like this in the future! ”

Even though Shandan had finished eating first, he was watching the silkworms raised by Xiaoyu on the floating platform forming cocoons, and their conversation did not attract the attention of Gu Haiping, who was eating at the dining table, he was still concentrating on eating, and perhaps still thinking about some questions.

Shandan was shocked by Xiao Yu's words and broke out in a cold sweat, and seeing that Gu Haiping was unmoved, the panic in his heart was slightly lowered.

Shandan packed up the clothes that had been dried on the balcony, and Xiaoyu was lying on the floating platform studying her silkworms, and suddenly said, "Mom, is the silk quilt made of these cocoons?" ”

"Yes! Mom also wants to use your cocoons to make a bed silk quilt. Shandan laughed.

"Hahaha!" Gu Haiping, who had finished eating and cleaning up the dishes and chopsticks, bent over with a smile.

When I went out in the morning, I saw him carefully trimming his beard......

Shandan struggled to support her body, and she was going to take Xiaoyu to see her father for the last time......

Shandan gently uncovered the white cloth sheet on Gu Haiping's body, took Xiao Yu's hand, and tried his best to restrain his vertigo.

"I don't want to look! Daddy is terrible! Xiaoyu was frightened by her bruised and swollen father's body, and hid behind her mother and cried.

Shandan leaned over and gently covered the sheet, just like she usually covered him with a quilt, worried about disturbing his sleep, he was always so busy, so busy...... I don't even have time to sleep well, but this time I don't have to work hard and be busy, and I can sleep well.

Her heart suddenly felt a little relaxed, it seemed that the heart that had been distressed, hung all the time, and had been helpless had some relief, he no longer had to worry about this disturbing world, no longer had to be wronged, no longer had to deal with this world that he was not good at, and he no longer had to work hard to deal with this unsatisfactory world. He was at peace and on his way, no longer worrying about this dusty world.

Maybe it's a relief for him, right? Otherwise, how could he be so resolute to go? Not even a piece of paper or a word was left to her.

Just like the text message sent by Mr. Jiang to Shandan after receiving the news of Gu Haiping's accident: He has his mission, and he has gone into other dimensional spaces to complete his project. Everyone has his own life problems, you can't help him, he is himself, and no one can help anyone. Your fate is over, you will meet again if you have a fate, take care of yourself in the future, and raise your child healthily, which may be the only thing he can't let go of in this world.

Shandan slowly walked out of the emergency room with Xiaoyu, she looked back at Gu Haiping under the white sheet for a long time, this is their farewell......

There is no one to shelter her from the wind and rain on the road ahead, and all the childishness that is not in the world will be destroyed by this cruel world......

She slowly moved out of the emergency room with Xiaoyu in her arms, and asked the people from Gu Haiping Traditional Chinese Medicine Center to help take care of the child, her mind and body seemed to have reached the limit - she was about to collapse, she couldn't support it, and her river of life seemed to have dried up, she forced herself back to the hospital bed, and fell on the bed and lost consciousness and consciousness.

In her confusion, she seemed to be flying in the air, the sound of the wind was blowing in her ears, there was something cold flowing on her face, and there was boundless darkness in front of her, she struggled to figure out where she was, but no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't get out of that darkness.

There was a deathly silence around her, without a little vitality, she let her rise and fall in this boundless darkness, without the slightest desire to survive, and even she wanted to "float" to the end of her life like this.

She tried her best to float to the other side where there was no pain, no sadness, no life and death, and never set foot in the world again, no longer suffering from this liver and intestines.

Occasionally, her consciousness was a little restored, and she saw the lifeless and faint light above her head, and she struggled to open her heavy eyelids, unable to distinguish anything, so she simply closed her eyes and resigned herself to fate.

There is no time, no space, no consciousness, no thinking, no hope for life. I don't know how long it took, Shandan slowly woke up in the middle of a pile of machines, his life was not lost, no matter how painful it was, life was worse than death, sooner or later he would wake up......

And this awakening means that Shandan has to live no matter what, and from then on, the rest of her life no longer belongs to her, but only to a responsibility that cannot be let go.

In her trance and ignorant consciousness, she hinted to herself again and again: it is better to leave, to leave this world without hope and reliance.

She was torn between the pain of grief and the need for her elderly parents and young children to provide for. Death is a one-and-a-go thing, but loving parents, who should give support to young children? Parents may still have siblings to support, and my Xiaoyu is already a great misfortune without her father's care, should I be so selfish to take away her mother's love again?

She hovers life and death in her restored consciousness—(To be continued.) )