Chapter 2 Do You Regret It?
Just after Lin Hao fell into a coma, this piece of heaven and earth also returned to calm. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info is like this, I don't know how long it has been.
"Lin Hao! Lin Hao! ”
"Who's calling me?" In a trance, Lin Hao slowly opened his eyes. At this time, a person was standing beside him.
"Who are you?" Lin Hao looked at this extremely sloppy-looking person.
"I'm you! I'm Lin Hao! The man in front of him smiled, showed his white teeth, and replied.
"Who the hell are you?" Lin Hao frowned and looked at the person in front of him, with some inexplicable feelings in his heart.
"I'm you! I am who you are! The person in front of him looked at Lin Hao and smiled again.
"It's just that I was locked in the prison in my heart by you before, and I can't get out!" Seeing that Lin Hao was still frowning, the person in front of him explained.
"Demons?" Lin Hao looked carefully into his eyes.
"No, I'm Lin Hao, you're my inner demon!" The person in front of him smiled and said indifferently.
Lin Hao frowned, his lips moved, as if he was about to say something.
"But it doesn't matter anymore." He spread his hands and didn't say anything more on the subject.
"Then why did you come out?" Lin Hao continued to ask, he suddenly became interested in this "self", this was one of the few things he had been interested in anything other than sleeping and drinking in many years.
"I'm out to tell you something." The man in front of him frowned and said, "You will definitely be happy!" ”
"Oh!" Lin Hao waited for him to continue with curiosity.
"You're dying! Oh no, it should be said that we are about to die, after all, the two of us are one, hehe" In the middle of speaking, the man in front of him patted his head and said again.
"Oh," Lin Hao responded. "Are you finally dying?" Lin Hao was actually a little relaxed in his heart.
"Hey, hey, how can you do that! Shouldn't you be scared and sad when you get the news that you're dying? Didn't your teacher teach you that you only live once? Didn't we teach you that we should cherish life? The man in front of him immediately began to yell and scream.
"Are you afraid of death?" Lin Hao looked at this guy who claimed to be himself with interest. "Are you really me?"
"Of course, I am you, you are me. Is this still fake? I'm dying, where can I lie to myself? The man in front of him replied aggrievedly.
Lin Hao looked at himself in front of him and continued to ask, "You haven't answered yet, are you afraid of death?" ”
"Of course I'm afraid, everyone is afraid of death, even the most vicious and the outlawed are no exception! It's just that everyone is afraid of different degrees" "Lin Hao is also afraid of death, but I am the part of him who is afraid of death, and you are the part that is not afraid of death or even wants to take the initiative to meet death. The man in front of him continued.
"Oh?" Lin Hao responded, "In this way, my current part of the ideological realm is still very high, and I can actually not be afraid of death, and even take the initiative to meet death." Just after finishing speaking, Lin Hao saw the banter in his eyes in front of him.
"Although you are in the lead now, your part alone does not represent Lin Hao's own realm. Do you really think you're not afraid of death? If so, why do I exist? The self in front of him asked, and the banter was now in words. The reason why they locked me in my heart is just a disguise of self-deception."
"If, as you say, you and I are one, then you laugh at me and you laugh at yourself." Lin Hao looked at him indifferently.
"I know, I'm just laughing at myself." He said.
Lin Hao was silent, just looked at him.
"Since you and I are one, I naturally understand what you think, it's been five years, it's been five years, it's been five years, isn't it?" The man in front of him continued, smiling.
"It's been like this since they're gone, hasn't it?" "Put me in a cage in the bottom of my heart, get drunk all day, miss and fantasize all day long, and live like a dog." Speaking of this, he looked at Lin Hao, who had become cold-eyed at this time, "Why are you already angry?" Isn't what I'm saying true, don't worry, since you and I are one, when I scold you, I am naturally scolding myself. ”
"You came out just to say this?" Lin Hao looked at the guy in front of him who threatened to be himself in his heart.
"No, no, no, of course not. Now that I'm dying, I'm at least going to make myself realize what's wrong with me! ”
"Am I wrong?" Lin Hao looked at him.
"Isn't it?"
"Remember what was the most common thing your dad said when you were a kid?" With a smile, he looked at Lin Hao.
Lin Hao looked at him, and his thoughts went back to when he was a child, "Wow" A two- or three-year-old child got up from the ground, with a face full of dirt, and cried when he saw the two figures hurrying behind him.
"Oh, Xiao Hao, what are you doing so fast? Does it hurt? Come and show you mom! The young woman of the two hurriedly took him into her arms and examined him up and down. Hearing this, the child in his arms suddenly felt as if he had suffered some great grievance, and there were a few more tears in his eyes.
At this time, the handsome young man who rushed over laughed when he saw this scene, "Hao'er, you are a man, you can't just cry like a girl." The child looked at his laughing father with his eyes open, and suddenly felt that the fall just now didn't seem to hurt so much, and he snorted his nose and remembered his father's words "A man can't just cry his nose" in his immature heart.
That child is naturally Lin Hao, since then, he has grown more and more towards a mature man, no matter what happens, what he goes through, he will not give up. Except, this decade. In the past ten years, this sentence has also been locked in Lin Hao's heart. Thinking of this, Lin Hao suddenly felt very uncomfortable.
The person in front of him didn't seem to see Lin Hao's reaction, and continued, "Do you remember how you persuaded your mother when your parents quarreled when you were a child, saying that you would be more sensible in the future and let her enjoy happiness?" ”
"Do you remember when you were bullied at home, how did you promise in your heart that you wanted to be a master?"
"Do you remember how you told your grandmother that you would work hard to make her old family live a good life?"
"Do you remember when you swore to your family that you wanted to get into the best university?"
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"Enough!" From the time he lifted those scars one by one and turned out those memories, Lin Hao felt as if he had returned to that day, the day when he finally made up his mind to fall from now on, the day he was crazy.
"Do I want that? How could I forget what I said myself? ”
"Who made God so unfair to him!"
"I won't forget those promises, but is there any point in my hard work without them? Anything else? ”
"Ahh He yelled at himself, growled.
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The person in front of him looked at him crazy, since he was one, he could naturally feel Lin Hao's mood at this time.
"But have you forgotten what they said to you when they left?" The person in front of him spoke slowly again.
Hearing this, Lin Hao suddenly quieted down.
"Hao'er, live a good life, be happy, be strong..."
"Hao'er, you have to live a good life."
"To live well..."
Lin Hao unconsciously repeated this sentence in his mouth, laughing stupidly, his voice getting louder and louder, and then suddenly spit out a mouthful of blood in his mouth.
Lin Hao closed his eyes, "It's a pity, I'm about to die, it's too late" Then he opened his eyes and looked at the person in front of him, "Who are you?" ”
"You still don't believe me haha, I'm you" Looking down at his body that had become much more unreal, he said softly, "Are you finally going to die?" Since we are one, let me ask myself one last question."
"Lin Hao, how are you doing in this life, can you proudly shout 'I did my best, I have no regrets in my life'?"
"Since you have made the wrong choice, how can you say that you have no regrets" Lin Hao looked at the self in front of him and walked towards him, slowly integrated into his body, and said softly to himself.
"If I get another chance, I'll live well!" Endless darkness came towards Lin Hao, this was his last thought.