Chapter 307: After all, I still hate myself
Lin Suqing felt weak all over his body, but fortunately there was a chair to support him. While recalling all kinds of things, he combined all kinds of things, while combing through all kinds of things, and at the same time rejecting all kinds of ......
He threw his head back and his neck rested on the back of his chair, feeling exhausted physically and mentally. So far, he has been looking for a long time, guessing for a long time, waiting for a long time, and thinking about things for a long time, all of which have come, blocking his brain.
It was all in his head and heart, and he felt that his chest was so stuffy and his head hurt, his forehead was heavy, and there was an earthworm in the back of his head that was cramping like crazy......
Regarding himself and his own life experience, he once thought that it was just a fun for the second prince to find when he was bored, he complained that the second prince was at the mercy of him as a pawn, and he reluctantly accepted his own value.
But later, when he regarded the second prince as the lord from the bottom of his heart and as the only "relative" he could rely on, he learned that the second prince was his mother-killing enemy, although it was for the sake of the common people and the righteousness of the world, but after all, it was the second prince who rebelled and killed his biological mother.
Although he had never lived together, he did not have any more hatred for such a mother-killing feud, and he was even able to convince himself to understand the second prince's choice. But Baixing filial piety comes first, and he has to avenge his mother. What's more, the second prince is a phoenix, he can nirvana, and he can come back to life. Killing him is just a form of revenge.
It's just that he hates, he hates why the second prince has always hidden him, and after knowing the revenge of killing his mother, he hates it even more, why do he play with him so ruthlessly.
Just kill him, why do you bring him back and continue to play with him again?
When he still didn't know anything, he just killed him, why did he have to let him gradually know the truth step by step?
Do you have to force him into demons? Do you have to let him die with disgust for his own life? I just don't tell him directly, I want him to grope for the truth himself.
He hated, resented, and when the sword stabbed him, he resented and hated the most.
But now...... But now......
"Why didn't he say anything......" Lin Suqing muttered to himself.
"Do you feel like you're being so selfish?" she sighed, put one hand on the back of her chair, and slowly walked around to sit down again, sitting opposite Lin Suqing.
She said: "No matter what your plan is successful, it is undeniable that when you kill him, you are still doing it for yourself. Being able to avenge the murder of his mother is one of them, and the most important thing is that you think you can provoke him in such a way to summon the mayfly return order and kill you in full view. From then on, you will have a new life of freedom. Kill two birds with one stone, get the best of both worlds.
Oh, yes...... A selfish person blames others even when he regrets it, and blames others for why they want to make him regret it.
"I said earlier that your personality is more like the second prince in childhood, the same stubbornness, the same stubbornness is sad. However, when it comes to selfishness, you are in the same mold as your mother. The same selfishness. ”
She was very sentimental, as if she regretted it for Midnight Yuanjun, and said with emotion: "For the sake of my own selfishness, I want to gamble the whole world to accompany the funeral; for my own selfishness, I forced the second prince to abandon the common people, and forced him to be an enemy of the heavens and the world." I have done too many wrong things for my own selfishness. Include...... Gave birth to you. ”
"Midnight Yuanjun...... She...... Do you regret having too much to me......" I obviously thought that there was no emotion, but a burst of sourness surged up my nose, a manly man, like a child in an instant, tears couldn't stop gushing, he was all forced to retreat, forcing his nasal cavity to block.
"I guess...... She had no regrets, but if she knew that her son was so selfish, as selfish as she was...... I guess she'll regret it......"
Right...... In fact, he himself regretted it.
Lin Suqing closed his eyes and forced back all the tears, and after a long time, he slowly opened his eyes, his eyes were red, and there were still tears swirling. Vulnerability can sometimes come too quickly, catch people off guard, and be overwhelmed.
Trying to pick himself up, he asked, "How did I survive...... What about him......"
"Are you sure you want to listen to it more?"
"Please be upright with your seniors. ”
"Now that I've said that, I'll tell you all in detail. She sat back, her whole back resting on her chair, as if she was exhausted and needed support.
"Your three souls and seven souls, one of which is the soul of the fetus he raised in his heart, that is the main soul of the main life can not be lost, so he carefully raised you with his own heart and blood, look at your current creation, presumably he has returned it to you, as for when it will be returned, if you don't even know yourself, then it is even more impossible for me to know. ”
As he listened, he thought back to many things in the past, but he didn't spend much time with the second prince, only a handful, and he really didn't know when it was returned to him.
"The other soul spirit, he divided it into five parts, all of which were stored in these little ones, and still existed. She patted her favorite honeysuckle's little head, and the loquat looked at it in her eyes, and wanted to be touched, so it quickly turned around and locked its two small claws on its chest, and looked up at Lin Suqing eagerly.
Seeing that he was unmoved, as if he didn't understand, it scraped his head with his small claws, and the rain-soaked fluff was about to recover, and it was when it was half-dry, and it was afraid that Lin Suqing would dislike its hair, so he rubbed the hair on his brain melon seeds, and leaned his head over.
Lin Suqing couldn't understand what it meant, but when his hand stretched out...... After a pause, he shrank back again...... The nasal cavity was so sore that I couldn't get this hand down.
"In addition, your other soul and seven spirits are all gathered in your body, and they secretly brought Xia Bird to the other world. ”
Is it really related to the summer birds......
didn't think much about him, she saw that the loquat wanted him to touch him, but his hand was tightly clenched into a fist resting on his leg, and she immediately said: "By the way, has anyone told you that your appearance ......?"
He raised his eyes suspiciously, and listened to her: "Emperor Qi with the demon world...... Same. ”
"After all, biological father and son. Lin Suqing said self-deprecatingly.
"Not really. "But it was denied," because the second prince is based on the face of Emperor Qi. ”
"Shaping the ......"
She looked at him and said in a light tone, "Actually, you are just a piece of flesh in your heart." ”
When she said that, she raised her hand to compare Lin Suqing's appearance, and said, "As for why you compare it to Emperor Qi's appearance, you must ...... It was prepared that you would come back one day, and having the appearance of praying for the emperor can bring you a lot of convenience. ”
So even he himself ......
What else do you hate, hate yourself. Hate yourself for being ignorant and stupid. The most stupid thing is to take one's ignorance for omniscience.
I hated it for so long, but I still hated myself after all.