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"I'm jealous, I'm coquettish, I'm tantrums, I know the pain after you betrayed me, it didn't break me, I'm still by your side, it's not that what you say you can't get is the best, it's because I have always believed in what I chose, I don't think the man I've loved for a few years will not be the kind of bad man, irresponsible man!

Whether you believe it or not, you went downstairs to your house on your birthday (I dare not say it's my house), I didn't doubt you, I was uncomfortable, I thought our common home was gone, the space we shared was gone, I didn't control it, I really wanted to go home, I stood downstairs and cried. Crying and crying that you actually came out, there was no her in the car, I was afraid, I believed you so much, I couldn't believe that you had just come out, but you lied to me outside. But after listening to your explanation, I stupidly believed it again, but maybe it was arranged by God, I went shopping and accidentally saw your car, I watched from a distance, thinking of your happy appearance, my heart was so sore, but I didn't want to move my feet, I didn't expect that it was them who came out with you, not her and him! I collapsed, I couldn't stop calling you, you still have some heart, after all, you came out, but you lied to me again, and I believe it again. I don't understand, I believe in all the deceptions you have made to me, and I don't care about it, but you have repeatedly misunderstood me, and have repeatedly thought that I am spying on you, spying on you, what good is it for me, what is the need? I swear that I will never go into your private life again, not because I don't trust you, because once I know who you are now, I will not be able to stand it even if I am strong, for the sake of face. I won't do anything to you, I can't bear to hurt you, I'm just going to end my life, because that's the best punishment for me.

I still believe in good things. I think my true feelings may not be able to move you, make you responsible for me, and give me happiness, but at least it can make you turn around and wait for two women who truly love you. Again, if I can't do it, and you continue to deceive, I will die!

For you, I have dedicated many firsts and gained many firsts

For the first time, I gave my body to a man. And I decided that he would not fail me

The first time I took an 8-hour train ride alone, I was scared to see a person all night

The first time to wash a man's underwear/pants, but he felt that he should take it for granted

The first time I cooked a few dishes for someone, it was very bad, and I was afraid of the oil in the pot before

For the first time, I wanted to put on a wedding dress for a man. Have a baby

For the first time, I thought it would be a happy thing to be a mother

The first time I hear a love song, I cry

The first time I dreamed, it was the same person

For the first time, I cried for the pain of not being able to marry a man, or secretly wept at night

The first time I was deceived, I experienced what it was like to be betrayed

For the first time, I knew that I might not even be as good as a young lady

For the first time, I cried on the street alone late at night, like a woman in a nightclub

For the first time, I took an 8-hour car ride alone without sleeping all night, and then took an 8-hour car ride between the two cities

For the first time, I realized what despair is

The first time I made so many calls to a person and didn't answer. Of course, there was a second time

For the first time, I realized what life is better than death

For the first time, I realized what it means to be in pain

For the first time I didn't sleep at night, wrote a letter to someone, I don't know for what

I'm tired of loving you, but I really didn't expect it to be so tired, and when I wrote this letter, the music on the computer was romantic. I want to be a treasure in the hands of a person, he can have no money, no house, no car, but he has a heart that loves me. He can lose his temper with me and quarrel with me, but as long as I say "I'm uncomfortable", he will feel my sadness, and he will put down his face and his dignity to come to me, because when I say "I'm uncomfortable", I don't want to win anyone's sympathy, I'm really uncomfortable. Does anyone know how to spend a night full of tears?

I don't know if you're sneering when I say this, whatever. When it comes to my first time, will you laugh at me, it's the first time for such a big girl. For love, I felt that he was pure and could not be trampled on, so when I couldn't return to him with a pure body and a pure heart, I chose to give up. Maybe you won't understand the feeling of a silly girl, I'm yours, it's my fault for intervening between you for the sake of my humble love, I can put up with sadness that you're with her, although it's heartbreaking, but what I can't stand is this: the man who possesses my pure body defiles me with the bodies of other women. It's worse than being raped!

I'm not writing this letter for anything, just to let you know my heart, understand my intentions, for you, you can endure, you can pull out the thorns that have just grown on your body, but please don't be so indifferent, no matter what your reason, what reason, I will be responsible for what I did wrong, you can not be responsible for your words, not responsible for me as a person, but please don't hurt me with your indifference. I am willing to be punished for my mistakes, and I will honor what I say.

In my heart, you are a responsible person for your work, I think your sense of responsibility will also be reflected in life, when you say that I will marry me when I lose 100 pounds, I know it is a joke. But when you say that I will cherish it more, I believe it when you say that you want to be good to me, and when you say that last year was last year, and there will be no more such things this year. I don't mean to accuse you, but men, shouldn't they keep their promises, shouldn't men have some responsibility?

Don't say anything good for me anymore, I'm not good now, and I'm even worse in the future. I bought a bottle of Valium, and I was almost going to eat it just now, but when I thought of my family, I put it down, but I also have to eat it later, otherwise I won't be able to sleep, and I still have to review the manuscript, so much work, very tired, and my spirit can't break down anymore.

If you can think of being responsible for me, it will be my happiness to marry me; If not, I want me to be the woman you have really loved and cherished, I don't want money, I don't want fine clothes, fine clothes, fine clothes and ornaments (the ring that symbolizes eternity is my most cherished thing), I want a heart that treats me sincerely, truly believes in me, and truly loves me! Love you, not because what you can't get is the best, but because loving you has become a habit!

Finally, a joke, I hope that when I write this letter, you are not sleeping with other women in your arms when you cry alone, otherwise what I said is very accurate, I am harmless, but all men who fail me are miserable, and all men who are good to me are smooth sailing. Hahaha, I'm Wangfu, but I also ...... "The payment is "I still love your baby after a qiē, 3:16 on August 12".

After writing this long letter, Ruhan seemed to have exhausted all her body and energy, and sent the letter out, she felt that her whole person had collapsed, she had a fever the day before, her body was very weak, and she had survived this day and night, how could she stand it.

Before I knew it, I fell asleep. In her sleep, she saw her pig brother walking towards her with a smile:

"Baby, wake up, I'll take you to make a Ferris wheel, haven't you always wanted to go?"

Zhao Gang lay in her ear, his voice was as gentle and affectionate as it was at the beginning, as if Han was drunk, and he was busy getting up from chuang.

"Husband, wait for me, I'll go change my clothes!"

……

With infinite happiness, Ruhan woke up suddenly and realized that he had just had a dream. The room was deserted, and there was no one but her.

In less than a month, Zhao Gang seems to have changed as a person, and there is no warmth for her, and even the beauty that was once familiar will only appear in dreams.

Dongfang has revealed the white of the fish's belly, Ruhan looked out the window, and the pain in her throat made her no longer sleepy. Maybe it was because of the urgency, his throat was swollen, and he finally stayed up until dawn, Ruhan simply freshened up, and then went to the nearby community clinic.

The doctor made a diagnosis and prescribed medicine to her, and Ruhan walked to the door of the house groggily and saw Yixue's car parked there. After a while, Yixue came out of the stairwell.

"Hanhan, why did you go out so early, and I won't answer your call!" Yi Xue held breakfast in her hand and said anxiously.

"I ...... My throat was a little sore, so I went to the clinic to buy medicine...... "Ruhan spoke quite laboriously, and her voice was slightly hoarse.

"Hanhan, what's the matter, I haven't seen you for two days, it's just like this, the voice is like this, the eyes are swollen, and the dark circles are so heavy!" Approaching Ruhan, Yixue saw her strangeness clearly.

"I'm fine...... I just didn't sleep well last night. ”

Ruhan spoke in a hurry, and her eyes flickered, which aroused Yixue's suspicions.

"Or because of the person before, sue me, who is it for, for what? There's no way I'm going to sit idly by and let him torture you like this! ”

Yi Xue expected that Ruhan must have been emotionally hit, otherwise she wouldn't be so haggard, as if a gust of wind could blow her down.

"Brother Yixue, it's not what you think...... I really...... It's okay......" Ruhan didn't know how to speak, she would rather hold the pain in her heart, but she shed tears before she spoke, and her sad and pitiful appearance broke Yixue's heart.

"Hanhan, my baby, believe me, I can help you, I don't want you to carry all the pain yourself. I feel so distressed by you like this! Yi Xue was excited, stepped forward, hugged Ruhan in her arms, patted her on the back, and wanted to comfort her.

"Brother Yixue, I'm fine, I'm really fine...... I ......" Yixue's embrace made her feel steady, and her extremely cold heart was also a little warm.

"Do I want to tell him the truth? Do I want him to know about this qiē? "Snuggled in his arms, as entangled as Hanwan! RP