Once again, I stepped on the train back to the Northeast, this time with a complicated mentality, with a bun in my stomach and an uncertain future. Bao Shuai www.biquge.info who didn't take me to the platform this time, stood in the waiting room of the train station and watched me get out of the ticket gate. I held back my tears, didn't look back at him, didn't dare to see when he left, didn't dare to think about how he was feeling at that time.

Tossing and turning two cars, it took me four days to get home, or my parents picked me up, this time back, my parents' mentality is very good, I am very happy to see me come back, I didn't dare to mention a word about me and Bao Shuai, hello I am good everyone's good mixed days, try not to think about anything every day, after breakfast in the morning with my father and my mother to go for a walk, come back at noon to cook for my father, my mother did not let me do it at all, I still have to eat a supper at seven or eight o'clock in the evening, in order to sleep, now think about it at that time really opened the pig mode.

Bao Shuai fixed to send me 1,000 yuan every month, I didn't save money when I went to work, and I didn't have the ambition to tell him that I didn't want him to pay money. Every weekend, Bao Shuai fixed a phone call to me, chatting nonsense, anyway, the impression to my parents is that we have a good relationship, they often tell me: "It's not easy for Bao Shuai to be alone, after giving birth to a child, go back to find a job, and we will show you the child at home." “

Every time I nodded vaguely, for fear that I would miss something as soon as I opened my mouth and make them worried.

One day my brother suddenly called home and said: "Yesterday our company sent us a year-end bonus and salary, last night I invited my cousin to have a meal, and when I went back after eating, I was caught by two people on the road into a small alley, took all the money on my body, and took my bank card, forced me to say the password, and took all the money in my bank before letting me go back." “

Hearing his words, my mother's heart suddenly pinched: "Then what do you do now?" “

The brother said very sadly: "I originally planned to return to Hainan today, but now I can only spend the New Year in the company, and there are chefs in the company to prepare the Chinese New Year's Eve dinner." “

My mother said very sadly: "Alas, this thief is also a bastard, when he didn't steal well, he came out to rob money at the end of the year, so that the family couldn't have a good year." “

Dad comforted Mom: "Other thieves also want to celebrate the New Year." “

I felt that the more the two of them talked about it, the more off-topic they became, and I couldn't help but interrupt and said, "The question now is, what to do if my brother has no money in Guangzhou." “

"Let your father send 2,000 yuan to your brother, and if you have anything, you have to go back to Hainan for the New Year, otherwise your sister-in-law will not have a good New Year with a child." At the important moment, what my mother said still worked, and my father remitted 2,000 yuan to my brother on the same day.

In the evening, Bao Shuai called, I told him about my brother, and the next day he also remitted 2,000 yuan to my brother. But in the end, my brother didn't go back to Hainan, so he kept some living expenses for himself and remitted all the money to his sister-in-law.

After that, I often thought about how Bao Shuai spent that year, he wanted to give his ex-wife and children living expenses, he wanted to give me living expenses, and he remitted 2,000 to his brother, and he usually didn't have any savings. Alas, Bao Shuai is not easy either.

Since then, Bao Shuai has called again, and my attitude towards him has improved a lot, thinking: No matter how he was before, he is very good to me now, I still cherish this feeling. For the sake of the child, and for his sincerity, I want to settle my heart and live a good life with him in the future.

In the first two days of the Chinese New Year, Bao Shuai expected that I would give birth, and called every day to ask, and I told him that I couldn't give birth before the year, so you don't have to call so much every day. As a result, he didn't call the next day, and I was about to give birth.

Before you are ready to go to the hospital, call him and turn off the phone. This person dropped the chain at a critical moment.

When I arrived at the hospital, I checked that the amniotic water broke, but the pelvis was not opened, and the doctor said that I had to have a caesarean section, and I seemed to enter the operating room at 7 o'clock in the evening, and the operation was completed at 10 o'clock in the evening. The anesthetic was injected twice, and my blood pressure dropped during the operation, I was scared, and the anesthesiologist comforted me and said, "It's okay, don't be afraid, it's going to be better soon, it's a normal reaction for blood pressure to drop." ”

Under his comfort, I calmed down, my blood pressure slowly returned to normal, and when I had surgery, I didn't feel anything, just listened to a doctor say, why did I bleed so much?

"It's over, I'm not going to bleed to death!" I thought to myself, and my heart began to tense again. Immediately after that, I started vomiting. The nurse next to me rushed over to help me scrub. I can say that I met good people at that time, and without their care and comfort, I couldn't hold on.

The child was born, and a doctor patted her little buttocks, and the child cried out with a "wow", and then the doctor and I were relieved, the child was very fat. Nearly 10 pounds, the doctor holding the child said that this child is really fat. She couldn't pronounce it to me as "real pang", and pang in the northern vernacular means puffy and fat. As soon as I heard that the child was very pang, I was worried about whether the child had any disease, and asked the doctor to hold the child to me, and she said, the child has been carried out, and your mother is holding it, nothing at all.

Before I gave birth, I climbed onto the operating table by myself, and when I came out, they covered me with a white cloth sheet, and I felt like a pig carrying me out of the operating room. The operating room was on the second floor and my ward was on the third floor, there was no elevator, and thanks to the help of my cousins, I was carried to the third floor. That operation left a big shadow on me, I felt that when I arrived at the hospital, I didn't have any self-esteem, like a lamb waiting to be slaughtered, and there was no room for resistance, so much so that I can try not to go to the hospital until now.

After giving birth at 10 o'clock in the evening, my dad took my cousins out to eat and then came home, while my mom stayed in the hospital to take care of me. The child has just come out of the mother's body and has no sense of security, and cries for a while. My mother didn't dare to sleep.

"Mother, you take the child to me and lie down with me, you go sleep for a while." I'm afraid I'll make my mother sick again.

The child lay quietly next to me for a while, along my body with my eyes closed to find food, looking for a long time without eating, "wow" began to cry again, crying I was sweating, my mother was also anxious to walk around, holding a small spoon, poured some boiled water, gave the child two spoonfuls to drink, just a little better, more than 3 o'clock in the morning, but the father to look forward to, the father did not bring anything, empty hands to the hospital.

"Why didn't you bring powdered milk?"

"Isn't a newborn child not allowed to eat for two days?"

"It's not okay if you don't eat, it's a lot of trouble, the child is hungry, and I drank two big spoonfuls of boiled water."

Dad hurriedly ran home to get milk powder.

At noon the second day after giving birth, Bao Shuai called, his father was not at home, no one answered the phone, and he called again in the evening and asked his father directly, was he born? Dad said: Yes, I gave birth to a girl. "I called twice today and no one answered, and I knew something was wrong," he said. ”