Chapter 163: Don't hate, but don't forgive

A wave of anger spilled out, but it did not get a response to the dispute, and even, Chen Jin also showed a helpless and apologetic look on his face, and Chen Zimo, who was originally standing at the door of the hall, had already turned around indifferently and entered the house, Li Xianglan frowned painfully, looked at the door of the hall, raised her hand to wipe the tears from her face, and said coldly: "I'm sorry, I was a little out of shape just now." Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. biquge。 infoBut I hope that you can help me persuade myself to be silent, instead of instigating him to hate me, after all, we have to think about the future of our children. ”

Chen Jin nodded and said, "Come into the house and talk." ”

Li Xianglan bit her lip, turned around and walked towards the hall, and said: "I have contacted the best high school in the capital, so that he can study directly, and I can directly settle down for Zimo, which is in my name." ”

"Actually......" Chen Jin followed beside him, sighed softly, and said, "Zimo doesn't listen to me at all." ”

"Huh?" Li Xianglan glanced at Chen Jin sharply.

"When I came back that time, I told him that I saw you in the capital." Chen Jin smiled bitterly: "He didn't give me a chance to explain to you and persuade you at all...... You certainly won't believe me when I say that, alas. ”

Entering the house, Chen Zimo did not enter the bedroom and lock the door as Li Xianglan worried, but sat quietly in the living room, washing the teacup and teapot with boiling water.

Li Xianglan was a little surprised in her heart, and if she didn't dodge, it meant ...... The child actually didn't hate himself so much in his heart, and even, the child was still missing his mother all the time, but in a short period of time, he couldn't get around the hurdle in his heart.

However, when Chen Jin saw this scene, he became more and more helpless.

He knew that his son was mature and couldn't hide in the house like a child was angry. He sat in the living room boiling water to make tea, precisely because he had already made a decision in his heart.

And once Chen Zimo has a decision, it is difficult to change it.

At this moment, Chen Jin suddenly felt some selfish relief and joy -- human nature.

"Self-silence." Li Xianglan walked over and sat opposite Chen Zimo, looking at her son's indifferent expression, not even looking at her, she couldn't help but shed tears of sadness and remorse, and said in a choked tone: "It's my mother who is not good, I haven't come back to see you all these years, you met a father who committed a crime and was imprisoned, and after suffering for so many years, my mother is sorry for you, and my mother is now very, very guilty and regretful...... Mom doesn't expect you to forgive me anytime soon, but as long as you give Mom a chance, Mom will definitely let you forgive me! Really, you trust Mom, I can do anything for you! ”

Chen Zimo skillfully finished the work in his hand, put the tea cup on the table for his parents, and then boiled a pot of water again, and said lightly while taking the tea leaves: "If you miss me in the future, you can come and see me, but don't make any requests to make me embarrassed." I don't want to hurt anyone, especially my own parents, but don't hurt me anymore. What do you regret at the beginning, blame yourself in the past, and now you want to make up for it, that is because you yourself have been condemned and tortured by your conscience, to put it ugly, no matter how painful your heart is, you deserve it, why should I suffer this pain and entanglement again? ”

"Zimo, you, don't say that......" Li Xianglan was a little flustered for a while - she realized that her son's heart and thinking were far more mature than she imagined, so she suddenly realized that her son did not avoid her, but faced her calmly, because his mind was more firm.

Li Xianglan thought of her and Chen Jin's temperament.

No matter who her son's personality is, in this kind of thing, it will make her Li Xianglan desperate.

Because, they are all temperamental and stubborn characters.

Chen Zimo washed tea and made tea, poured one for his parents and himself, and said: "Don't be too sad, in fact, if it wasn't for the chance encounter between the two of you in the capital last time, you wouldn't have thought of me, at least, you wouldn't have thought of visiting me, and you would have thought about making up for something...... Maybe you'll come back in the future, but it's not as deep as you think it is now. The reason why you suddenly had an emotional outburst, so vigorously and even irrationally arguing with my father, is that you know that I have suffered all these years, and I have been bullied by an old god, so I regret and blame myself, this is due to maternal love, and you hate my father more and more, and failed to take good care of me. Of course, there is a more important reason that you are now in good enough economic conditions, rich, and powerful? Probably so, you feel that you can give me the best compensation in material terms, so that you can give yourself peace of mind and that you will not be constantly condemned by your conscience. So at the end of the day, most of the reason you're doing it now is for yourself...... I don't hate you any more because of that, as I said before, I don't hate you, but I will never forgive you. ”

When a person is exposed in public and unrevealed, he or she will often be ashamed, angry, or even broken.

And a strong woman like Li Xianglan, who is used to dictating to people in her life, and almost everyone around her is respectful to her, is even more intolerant of her son, so directly piercing the underlying psychology in her heart, even she is not aware of it, and she is even more angry after being dumbfounded.

How so?

How could I be such a person?

"Zimo, you misunderstood your mother." Li Xianglan's beautiful eyes were angry, but she suppressed her anger and pretended to be calm and said: "What I think and do now is really for your good, you, you...... I don't believe you think like this in your heart, how can you think of this at such a young age? Zimo, don't listen to your father's nonsense, I, I've always believed in him too much, thinking that he will definitely love you well, with his ability, he can give you a good life, I, I didn't expect him to be arrested and imprisoned......"

Chen Zimo looked at her quietly, his mother, a successful, strong woman, and a female boss.

But he is so out of shape and so disrespectful in his words.

So, conceited!

Chen Jin didn't speak next to him, even if Li Xianglan criticized him and accused him in a very targeted manner, he was not angry.

Li Xianglan saw that her son didn't speak, but her expression was so calm that she looked at her more and more panickedly, she didn't know what to say, she found that her own explanation, her own reasons, were so unscrupulous, as long as she thought about it a little, she felt that it was so ridiculous, hateful, and even a little ugly.

So she became more and more angry, she took a big sip of water from the teacup and suppressed the churning flames in her heart, and said: "Zimo, no matter what you think, how you say, how much you misunderstand your mother, your mother can forgive you, and your mother sincerely admits her mistakes, it is true, I only hope that you can give me the opportunity to make up for my past mistakes, until you truly believe what your mother said today, make a promise, and forgive me......"

"Don't embarrass me, don't, hurt each other, okay?" Chen Zimo smiled bitterly and shook his head.

"You!" Li Xianglan couldn't suppress the anger in her heart anymore, suddenly got up, pointed at Chen Jin and said: "I am your biological mother, even if what you just said is right, but I love you, I can't have the heart to harm you, I don't want to make you sad, I don't want to embarrass you, I just want to make up for my mistakes, why can't you give me a chance, say you don't hate me, but you can't forgive, then why did you forgive him!" Just because he is your father, you take his surname, the surname Chen?! ”

Chen Zimo sighed softly and said, "At least, he is not as selfish as you!" ”

"I, you say I'm selfish?" Li Xianglan was so angry that she trembled, she nodded, looked around, and said: "Okay, it's me who is selfish, then, please forgive me for my selfishness, I will correct it in the future, and I will use all this selfishness on you as compensation, okay?" ”

"Nope." Chen Zimo got up and walked out, saying at the same time: "You are not only selfish, but also self-righteous. Plus, I'm doing well now, you don't really have to worry about ......"

Seeing Chen Zimo walk out, Li Xianglan screamed in despair: "Chen Zimo, don't give up on yourself!" ”

No response!

Chen Jin picked up the teacup and drank tea, while comforting: "Don't be angry, you can't think about coming today, let the child have to forgive you today." I can understand your feelings, but, if you can calm down and think about it, I think you should be able to understand that this is difficult in the strongman and our son...... Very stubborn! ”

Li Xianglan was suddenly stunned.

She wanted to be angry, to refute Chen Jin's accusations and reminders in her persuasion, but she found that she really had no reason. But her nature is hard to change, and over the years, no one has ever directly criticized her for being strong and unreasonable to her face. Although there are occasional self-reflections, few people can really recognize and correct their character flaws without the help of others.

"This kid is he, he ......" Li Xianglan refuted Chen Jin unreasonably, but her unwilling emotions made her desperate to vent.

"This is a sin created by you and me, so why let the children suffer?" Chen Jin let out a long sigh and said, "There are some words and things that I can't say to you, and I can't say it to you, and of course, you don't believe it." In short, you don't have to worry too much about the future of Zimo, at least in terms of his studies, don't worry, because the path he will take in the future is not something that you and I can decide, and we can't dissuade him. ”

Li Xianglan said angrily: "You are indulging him!" ”

"Indulgence?" Chen Jin smiled and made Li Xianglan a cup of tea, and said, "Whether you believe it or not, frankly speaking, I didn't say a bad word about you in front of my children, and I never reprimanded you, and there is no need." ”

"You ......"

"Pandan." Chen Jin said earnestly: "In fact, after so many years, I found that your feelings in terms of family affection have not been able to grow up, alas. ”

Li Xianglan frowned slightly, picked up the teacup and drank the tea slowly, falling into deep thought.