When I encountered heavy rain on the way to exile, I saw the horror and sadness in this woman's eyes for the first time, and somehow my heart was a little distressed, this feeling made me feel very bad, how could I feel sorry for this female madman? No, it can't be done! I forced my inner feeling to suppress my inner feelings, and told myself that Li'er and Brother Jay were all I had. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

But I didn't expect that because of my indifference, Brother An fell ill. Although I don't like this son, but he is still my flesh and blood after all, I will be worried if he falls ill, and I realized that I actually have a little guilt for this mother and son.

But as a dignified man, how can I pull down my face to care about this mother and son? What if she goes crazy again and posts it because of her temporary soft-heartedness?

So I held back, I controlled myself, I blocked my heart, my eyes, my ears, I turned a blind eye to them, I thought I could go back to the past, I thought I could maintain the status quo by doing this, but I didn't know, the more I stopped myself from wanting to see, the more I couldn't help but want to think, I wanted to see!

In the years when I was sent to the far north, I tried my best to make my father, second aunt, Li'er, and Brother Jie live well, I desperately wanted to climb up, and I wanted to make the Shen family glorious through my own efforts.

In the years of living in the far north, although the woman did not prevent An Ge'er from coming to me, but she never got close to me, she didn't want my money and goods, she didn't need my care, she not only spent all her efforts to cure An Ge'er's illness, but also educated An Ge'er very well, I was very pleased, I began to admire this woman.

She's changed, she doesn't seem to be the same person at all as the crazy woman she used to be, and I admire her now!

It is precisely because of the appreciation in my heart that I unconsciously began to pay attention to this woman, and I couldn't help but observe her every move, I didn't know at that time that when a man always pays attention to a woman, it means that this man falls in love with this woman.

By the time I realized that I cared too much about her, and paid too much attention to her, it was too late.

I began to find that my heart was not controlled by my own brain at all, and without realizing it myself, I was estranged from Li'er and Brother Jie step by step, I couldn't help but care about the woman and Brother An, I began to spit on myself, I began to tell myself, I had to keep my heart, I couldn't be sorry for Li'er and Brother Jie'er.

Later, I don't know if Lil found out that something was wrong with me, she actually kept targeting the woman mother and son behind my back, and when I involuntarily wanted to get close to their mother and son, I would find that their mother and son would prevent me from approaching like wolves.

I felt a little powerless about this, and I even regretted treating her like that in the first place, but at this time, Li'er, who was increasingly estranged from me, revealed her true colors, allowing me to see fangs that I had never seen in more than 20 years.

One day after ten years of exile, I accidentally discovered the secret between Li'er and my eldest brother, I knew that Brother Jie'er, who had been hurting me for so many years, was not my biological son, at that time I only felt a bolt from the blue, and I couldn't believe this result at all, but inexplicably my heart was relieved at the same time with a hint of happiness, even I didn't know what I was happy about.

As a man who has been cuckolded by a woman, and who has been cuckolded for so many years, how can I allow such a thing to come to light?

I chose to deal with this matter secretly, and I endured it, but I abandoned Jia Meili with a letter of resignation. Due to the betrayal of my eldest brother and Jia Meimei, I felt that the people around me were not trustworthy, and I began to secretly investigate everyone around me.

When all the truth was revealed, I almost lost the courage to live, I didn't know that I had lived in the scams of these so-called relatives since I was a child, and it turned out that my life could really be called a joke.

Mother, mother died early; My father, not my father alone; The woman I love dearly doesn't love me; The son I hurt is someone else's son; The woman who loved me before I didn't love me and don't love me now; My son, whom I do not love, does not need my affection now; It turns out that my life has been such a failure!

In vain I have been fighting to the death every moment in the far north for ten years, and in vain I have spent all my efforts on this group of liars and bloodsuckers for ten years! And my own son has never enjoyed the slightest!

I regret it, I hate it! I planned carefully, I cut off all family affection, I made a plan to kill Jia Meili, Shen Xingdong, Jia Furong and others, I let Shen Changyi and Shen Chengjie go unchecked and ignored them, since the moment I learned the truth, I had the mentality of making amends, and I took my own flesh and blood An Ge'er with me to teach carefully.

But I didn't know that my self-righteous behavior made the woman feel threatened and irritated, and I didn't know until later that she thought I was doing it purely to hold her in my hands, and that I was doing it to keep the last trace of affection around me.

So this caused her to look down on me, she despised me, she alienated me, she didn't even bother to continue to do the face-saving projects that she had done to me before, she directly tore off all the pretenses and patience, and directly confronted me to negotiate terms with me.

I know that all the kindness she has done to me in the past is fake, but I still feel very cheap and feel that it should be so, and I want her to continue to care about me, even if it is only on the surface! Actually, I'm jealous of my son, really, very jealous!

My heart is very bitter, obviously I didn't mean that, obviously I want to spend the rest of my life to make up for their mother and son.

In the face of her misunderstanding, in the face of her negotiation with me, I accepted all her requests, what told me to train An Ge'er at all costs, what to say to let me ensure his safety, what to give all my resources to An'er, what to say to let him gain prestige in my army, I took all these orders, I only hope that she can accept me again for the sake of my cooperation.

But her return made me helpless and made me smile bitterly! She helped me raise gold, silver, food and grass, so that I could expand my team quickly, and I no longer had to worry about military logistics, so that I could fight in all directions without worries.

I am like a child who can't ask for it, carefully maintaining our relationship, even if it can't go further, I don't want it to deteriorate any further, and our relationship has been stuck in such a strange circle.

When I gradually saw the talent of this little woman, I suddenly understood what I had never thought of before, and I boldly guessed that in fact, the core of this woman had already been replaced.

Because no matter how a person changes, his mind, personality, and personality will not change, but the woman in front of him has not only changed her personality, but also her daily small actions, hobbies, and tastes, as well as this courage and mind, which has made me impressed, how can this be the same person?

I've seen some strange talks, I believe that the woman in front of me must not be the crazy woman before, but even if she is a lonely ghost, I Shen Xingnan also loves it, I want to be with her!

In order to calm her heart, in order to get closer to her, I actually agreed to her request even though it wasn't for this.

It's just that I don't know that I have pushed her further at the moment of agreeing, and since then, I, who has become a general, began the road to revive the glory of the Shen family and began the four-way campaign in the Great Sage Dynasty.