Chapter 22: The Abyss of Uncertainty (I)
Until the end, I was in the hospital for about half a month, and then I was able to eat, but the fever couldn't go away, and I fell into a deep stupor again. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info
For more than a week when I fell asleep, I dreamed of many strange scenes and things.
For example, when I saw a building that seemed to be a school, it looked like it had been hit by a nuclear bomb, it was full of holes, shattered, there were many corpses on the ground, and the death was horrible, I couldn't see myself, I only knew that I was scared, and I couldn't stop hiding, but I hid and hid, and I went to another place.
A rusty iron door, I opened this creaky door, because there were steps leading to the ground, so it seemed to be a basement, I slowly walked down the stairs, and saw a long black bed in the center of the room, and there was a person lying on the bed, as if he was crying for help, but when I walked over, a bloody hand suddenly reached out in the darkness and grabbed my arm.
I was startled, and in a panic I broke the bloody hand and turned to run out, but no matter how much I ran, I could not finish the steps.
I was sweating and panting, but I didn't dare to look back, because I could really feel someone following me, holding out those horrible hands, trying to grab me.
I ran as hard as I could, as hard as I could.
I don't know how long I ran again, but when I felt that I was exhausted and couldn't run anymore, I suddenly saw a white figure appear above the stairs, although I couldn't see the person's face clearly, and I didn't know who it was, but the moment I saw the white shadow, I felt hopeful.
I ran up as hard as I could, and the man stretched out a hand to me from the white light, and I tried to grab it with great joy, but suddenly my feet were empty, and a sudden sense of weightlessness spread through my body, and I screamed in fright, trying to grab the white shadow's hand, but I fell deeper and deeper.
I saw a sea of fire, full of people struggling and screaming, and when they saw me, they seemed to be so hateful, and they rushed towards me.
They grabbed my arms, grabbed my feet, grabbed my head, and what was even more terrifying was that I felt someone grab my ass.
They started tearing outward, the heart-rending pain spread all over my body, I was desperate, I was so scared, I cried out for my mother, cry and let me go.
But there was a cone of pain on my buttocks again, I couldn't bear it anymore, I opened my eyes with a snort, and found myself still lying on the hospital bed, my grandmother and my mother pressed one of my arms, and I felt someone pressing my leg, it seemed to be a doctor, they pressed me to death, and the nurse gave me an injection in my ass.
Grandma scolded angrily while pressing me: "It wasn't like this before, why did you react so much to an injection this time." ”
Suddenly I cried and laughed, and made my mother inexplicable, but before I could say anything, a sense of sleepiness came back to my heart, and I fell asleep again.
This situation lasted for more than a week, and my high fever gradually subsided, but during this time I indulged in all kinds of nightmares, in which I seemed to be a god of war, and I seemed to be a Shura, I dreamed that I was killing people with a huge axe, and I dreamed that many people who appeared many times, and I killed them again and again, and their angry eyes, eager to eat my expression.
At first I was scared, but then I felt a little excited, and then I became numb and ended up in pain.
So every time I wake up, I feel like I've passed a century, and when I finally get rid of the fever and no longer have nightmares, I feel like I've lived a life that is as difficult as hundreds of years old, and the whole person has become extremely vicissitudes.
My mom also kept saying that I seemed to have grown a lot up in that hospitalization, I didn't know how to tell my mom, first, I was afraid of scaring her, and secondly, I felt that it was just some dreams, and it was not a big deal, and it seemed like a big fuss to say it, and I stopped having those dreams after the fever subsided, so I think it was related to the last time I went to the underworld, I guess I encountered some unclean things on the way back, and dreamed of their past.
During the hospitalization, the teacher also organized two class committee members to visit me, once when I had a fever, once when I was about to be discharged from the hospital, and when they were about to be discharged, Xiao Du, the school committee, said to me with a smile: "Are you still eating people recently?" ”
I was stunned and felt inexplicable, but my classmates all laughed, Li Jiayu was also there, she told me that the last time they came to see me, I kept talking nonsense, such as "You can't run away, I'm going to eat you." And "kill, kill, kill." and so on.
I see, I must have said it when I had those nightmares.
Xiao Du told me that I missed the midterm exam, and he was the first in the class this time, but he always felt that his name was not right, and he hoped to compete in the final exam when I went back.
He said this in fact, I was quite speechless, because I am not a kind of scholar, through the previous description, you probably know that I actually don't learn anything, after going to junior high school, I did well in two exams in a row, I think this has something to do with my good foundation in primary school, but I am out of class now, and I don't have much heart to study all day, and I don't know what to regress into after I go back.
But I couldn't help it, so I could only nod my head and say things like "don't take me to heart" and "I can't catch up".
But I didn't expect me to say this, Xiao Du grabbed my shoulder and said to me very seriously: "Don't worry, I'll help you copy all the notes, and I'll help you make up for it if you don't know when you go back." ”
I'm completely speechless, but let's meet a good person, and try to make up for it if I can, after all, I promised my grandfather that he would be admitted to college.
Li Jiayu opened Xiao Du's hand from my shoulder and said, "It's not a short time to come, she's just right, don't stay too long, go back quickly." ”
Xiao Du turned his head and glanced at Li Jiayu, and said suspiciously: "It's not ten minutes yet, what are you going to do in a hurry, if you have something, go back first." ”
Li Jiayu raised his right hand suddenly, so frightened that Xiao Du subconsciously shrank back and shouted: "What are you doing, what are you doing!" ”
Li Jiayu said: "Your kid's wings are hard, right? Didn't you see that Lu Li was already tired? Still not leaving? “
At this time, Xiao Du scratched his head and said reluctantly: "Okay, then classmates, let's go." ”
After saying that, my classmates said goodbye to me and walked out.
I pulled Li Jiayu, and after everyone went out, I asked: "Why do you always target Xiao Du, he has nothing bad except that he is a little Geng." ”
Li Jiayu's eyes drifted outward, he seemed a little impatient, and said, "I'm just annoying him, I'll beat him once I see him in the future, can't I?" ”
I was depressed: "Why are you like this, people didn't look for you to mess with you." ”
Li Jiayu's expression seemed to be even more impatient, she shook off my hand and said, "He just recruited me, you didn't see it, how do you know that he didn't provoke me." ”
I didn't want to talk to her anymore, she saw that I suddenly stopped talking to her, suddenly sighed, sat down on the bed, and said to me: "I don't know what's wrong with me lately, I'm very angry, don't be angry." ”
I glared and asked, "Do I dare?" ”
Li Jiayu turned his head and frowned at me: "You're really angry, I was joking just now." ”
I'm speechless, and I don't know why, recently I think Li Jiayu is always weird, it's not the same as before, when I used to play with her, she always looked very chic, just like a hero in the Water Margin, drinking and eating meat, making friends, and being very popular.
But since the beginning of this school year, I always feel like she has changed into a different person, she is in a hurry all day long, and she is very sensitive, and she will explode when she says it.
To be honest, if it weren't for the fact that I learned that she was an orphan that day, to be honest, I really planned to stop interacting with her after repaying the favor, and I really couldn't stand her inexplicable temper.
Neither of them spoke, and the atmosphere suddenly became very awkward, and she looked at me several times, but she didn't know what to say when she opened her mouth.
I just wanted to give up on myself, and suddenly the phone rang, oh, by the way, after the start of school this time, my dad bought me a mobile phone, a panda's, and a puppy.
I flipped through my phone to connect the phone, and a delicate voice came from the other end of the phone: "Hey, Ah Li?" I'm Yanni, I can't go to see you today, so I'll bring you something delicious another day. ”
I glanced at Li Jiayu and found that she was also looking at me, but when I met my gaze, Li Jiayu suddenly turned her head, I didn't have the heart to pay attention to her, so I said to Yanni: "It's okay, don't come, I'll be discharged from the hospital soon, go back to school to play with you." ”
Who knew that Yanni said: "That's not good, my classmates have already been there, if I don't go, what will others think of me in the future." ”
I was speechless, what kind of ghost logic is this, but I still said, "Okay, I'll be discharged from the hospital in a few days, so come as soon as you want." ”
Yanni said happily: "Good! Wait for me! ”
Hanging up the phone, Li Jiayu suddenly said faintly: "Yanni?" ”
I nodded.
"When I heard the voice of the sassy no, it was her." She said suddenly.
I was stunned all of a sudden, although Li Jiayu usually swears, but in front of me, he is still restrained, not to mention this kind of swear words that insult others like personal attacks.
Seeing me looking at her with a surprised face, she knew that she was speechless, and quickly stood up and said, "I, I'll go first, you take care of it, call me what you want to eat." ”
I didn't speak, and watched her staggering out, and I collapsed on the bed, suddenly remembering the scene on the first day of school last year.
As soon as Li Jiayu and I entered the classroom that day, we saw the black Yanni with two ponytails, we were both stunned at the time, and we both had a very good impression of Yanni, although I later found out that Yanni's private life was actually messy, but I have always maintained a good impression of her, I thought Li Jiayu was the same.
After thinking about it for a long time, my mind was still chaotic, and I suddenly felt very irritable, so I pulled out the lyrics of "Courage" under the pillow, crumpled them into a ball, and threw them into the wastebasket.
After a while, somehow, I silently got out of bed again, picked up the ball of paper on the ground, and began to grunt again.