didn't continue to watch the movie, just got up silently and left the theater, the cat doll sent by Mengqi had been thrown into the trash can next to me before getting on the bus, and I returned home dejectedly, and as soon as I entered the door, I saw Lin Hao squatting in front of Lemon and teasing him with ham sausage. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

"Coming back so early? Didn't you go to the movies? Lin Hao heard the sound of me opening the door, and looked back at me strangely, "Failed to confess?" How do you feel like you're in a bad mood? ”

"Nothing."

I lowered my head, I wasn't in the mood to look at Lin Hao at all, I went straight into the bedroom, stood there blankly, my heart was depressed as if there was a boulder, slammed the door shut, locked it, and then fell straight on the bed.

I also confessed that I was treated as a woman......

Originally, I thought that I might catch up with her even if I wasn't the type she liked, but she actually wanted me to be her sister, even if it was a younger brother, I wouldn't always be a woman in her eyes.

Roll over and get out of bed, go into the bathroom, and look at yourself in the mirror.

The hair is only a few days, it seems to have grown for more than half a month, and it has just touched the ears before the start of school, and now it is almost covering the ears, and some of the original acne marks on the face have quietly disappeared. Big eyes, upturned nose, rosy lips, these facial features that already exist on my face, unconsciously become more refined. The slight bulge of baby fat on my cheeks made my face with stiff lines smoother and more feminine.

Looking down further, there is still no movement in the slightly bulging chest, only a small lump will be felt when touched occasionally, and after checking it on the Internet a few days ago, I learned that this is a normal situation that has just developed.

If you were born a woman, and now that you're getting more and more beautiful, you should be happy, right?

But the more I look at this face, the more disgusted I feel, if it weren't for this face, I wouldn't have been scolded by my father since I was a child, and I wouldn't be seen as a woman and laughed at a ladyboy, and Mengqi wouldn't just treat me as a sister......

Even though I became a woman, I never saw myself as a woman, although the habit of going to the toilet was different, although from time to time my breasts would be itched by the friction of the fabric of the clothes, and although my aunt had already arrived, I was forced to use sanitary napkins......

It's really uncomfortable...... I have always wanted to take Lin Hao as a role model, I have always wanted to learn how to be a tall man, and I have always wanted to hide some of my girl-like hobbies.

But everything, everything has become ethereal, and maybe only in a dream will I see the boy who looks like a girl again.

In the past, although I was very uncompetitive, cowardly, and unmanly, I at least had a chance to become a strong and brave man.

And I'm not even a man now......

It's only been a few days, but I've changed a lot, and I'm really scared, afraid that the boy who has always wanted to work hard will disappear from my body little by little, until I become another person, another woman who has a similar personality to the boy, but no matter how hard she tries, she can't become strong, and she can only lie under the man according to the rules.

Unconsciously, his body was already leaning against the wall softly, tears flowing, but he didn't think about wiping it anymore, just opened his teary eyes, wanting to see more traces of the past from the girl with pear blossoms and rain in the mirror.

The eyes blurred with tears, from the hazy eyes, could not see the woman in the mirror at all, let alone see that the blurred figure was once a man.

The body was trembling, the legs and feet were weak, so he could only slowly slide off the wall, and sat on the ground on his knees.

Holding my knees and looking straight at the tiles below me, the curved lines on the white tiles turned into a big grin in my eyes, mercilessly mocking, so I buried my face in my knees.

Silent tears dripped down his pants, his throat became jerky and unbearable, and whimpering came out of his throat uncontrollably, just for a moment, louder and sadder.

Why, I would have encountered this kind of thing.

Why, I wasn't born to be a woman.

Why, I never get what I want, but what I don't want is always imposed on me.

Obviously, obviously I want to work hard, I am working hard......

The head kept repeating the statement, and the body trembled more and more, the fingertips began to numb, and the eyes began to flash and blacken.

"Rachel!"

The knock on the door made my body tremble suddenly, and I got up from the ground and looked up at the face in my glasses, pale like a female ghost.

He wiped his face with a towel and walked to the door with his hands on the wall to open it.

When I was locked in the house alone and cried, I cried a lot, but as soon as someone disturbed me, the emotions just now were all pressed to the bottom of my heart, and I just looked indifferently at Lin Hao standing in front of the door.

He touched the back of his head and smiled a little awkwardly: "Don't you let me in?" ”

"Something to talk about."

I found that my voice was hoarse and scary, but even though I didn't want to see Lin Hao, I still got out of the way and half lay on the bed by myself.

"What's wrong with you......" Lin Hao sat not far away, looking at me puzzled, "I see that you are in a bad mood as soon as I go home." ”

"Nothing."

I put the quilt over my body, and suddenly I saw Lemon walking in the hall with a catwalk.

Grabbing the glass of drinking water, he threw it at the lemon so hard that it jumped up and ran out with a crawl.

The glass fell to the ground and shattered into transparent pieces, which was only a small cracking sound, but it became a roar in my ears.

I quickly lowered my head, and I felt chills all over my body, perhaps my face was completely invisible.

"Why is this like this again?" Lin Hao's tone was very stern in my ears, just like the tone of my dad when he was reprimanding me, "I haven't seen you like this for more than two years, what happened on the date?" Or did the confession fail? ”

"You don't have to worry about it." I shrunk back and covered my head with the quilt, but the tears began to flow again.

"Then you have to eat."

"I've eaten it." Hiding in the quilt, I always felt that my heart was so depressed that I could barely beat, and I breathed heavily, for fear that Lin Hao would see my weakest appearance at this time, "If it's okay, go out, I want to take a nap." ”

But I didn't feel any movement of Lin Hao's body sitting on the bed, I just heard him talking over there.

"Actually, you don't need that."

"It's okay to say anything about it, it's always been in the bottom of my heart, locking myself in my room and abusing myself."

"It's not good for you to do yourself like this, you'll get sick."

“……”

"You don't have to worry about it, get out." I was irritated when I heard it, and I wanted to scold it directly, but Lin Hao's gentle tone made it impossible for me to do that.

"Remember when it's time to come out for dinner."

Then I heard the sound of Lin Hao closing the door, and I couldn't hold back my crying anymore, buried my face in the pillow, and cried until my head became blank.