Why? Why did Lin Hao become like this?

It's only been a few months, and it's only been a few months since he left me in the rental house silently, why can he laugh so fakely now, why can he care about me while avoiding me and other women......

I hate him so much! It's really annoying......

I have never hated a person so much in my life, even if it was my father, he beat me, scolded me, and even insulted me, I didn't hate my father, but Lin Hao...... I feel sick even when I hear him talk and see his unobtrusive smirk. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

It's no wonder that the last time I saw him at the school gate, I thought he was weird at first glance, and I thought he was smiling strangely, but now that I think it's so similar to the smile I had when I handed out flyers before.

It's really uncomfortable, I never felt that Lin Hao would betray me, even if every time his behavior made me incomprehensible, made me feel that he didn't like me anymore or made me feel that he was empathetic, but I always excused him in my heart......

In the end, I was given this answer......

I wanted to cry, but now I was sitting on the bus, and there were other people around me, so I had to keep shrugging my nose, pretending to be uncomfortable, and rubbing my eyes with my hands that were so red that they were about to cry.

If I hadn't become a woman...... If I didn't fall in love with Lin Hao inexplicably, then I wouldn't be so uncomfortable today, and I would even give him blessings after knowing that Lin Hao had a girlfriend.

So, why did I fall in love with him recklessly? Looking back now, I feel like a fool, and I actually didn't want to eat because he didn't want to eat.

Obviously, he has nothing to like, he always has a rigid face, and he doesn't know how to comfort me, and he is not very handsome...... However, he is tall and big, but although he does not understand the comforting people, as long as he is by my side, he will make me feel at ease, and he is so handsome when he plays......

I couldn't hold back the tears, and I covered my mouth with my hands and turned my face to the window, trying not to be noticed by the people next to me about the shameful appearance of crying in public.

The tears flowed more and more, the sharp pain in my heart twitched and throbbed, I really wanted to stop the tears, I didn't want to be discovered by others to find out my ugliness, but the sourness in my heart couldn't dissipate no matter how much I cried, even if I kept rubbing my eyes with my hands, I couldn't stop the tears.

I hate myself so much, why am I always fragile and broken at the touch of it, cry when something breaks down at the slightest point, and cry uncontrollably regardless of the occasion, so I am so weak and annoying.

Obviously, I wasn't like this before, at that time I just wanted to make myself more manly, even if I was wronged, I felt that I was a man and shouldn't cry, and I hadn't cried for at least two years at that time. But since I became a woman, I feel more and more crying and sensitive.

When will I be strong, even if it is only on the surface.

was feeling sad, and suddenly heard the announcement at the station, wiped a handful of tears in a panic, lowered his head, and hurriedly walked off the bus.

Dad hadn't come home so early yet, and when he opened the door, the gloomy home was as cold as a pool of stagnant water, lifeless.

Walked into the bedroom like a walking corpse and saw the orange lying on my pillow, but when it noticed me, it just raised its head and continued to sleep on its stomach.

I fell weakly on the bed, but my body was not painful at all.

Tired.

If you are tired and want to close your eyes and fall asleep, it is best to sleep until you can't wake up.

I never seem to be so tired.

Want to smoke......

I vaguely remember that the last time I smoked was a few months ago, but later, Lin Hao asked me not to smoke anymore, so until now, even if my parents divorced, even if I was beaten and scolded by my father, no matter how uncomfortable it was, I would not want to smoke, because that was what Lin Hao asked me to do.

But Lin Hao doesn't want me anymore......

Then he can ignore my request.

I got up from the bed, and I didn't care that I was still a little tired when I came home from seven floors, so I went downstairs to buy cigarettes by myself, and bought two packs at one time.

I seem to have lost my five senses, going up and down the stairs back and forth, I used to be out of breath a long time ago, but when I came home again, I didn't feel anything at all, but the dullness in my heart was heavier, as if the stone that pressed on my heart had added a few tons.

If Dad had known I smoked, he would have beaten me to death.

But it doesn't matter......

Kill it.

Lighting a cigarette, I haven't smoked for a long time, I smelled the smoke and felt nauseous, but the first puff choked my tears.

It's so uncomfortable......

Turn on the computer, get used to the smell of smoke one by one, then open the game, try your best to immerse yourself in the game, and want to numb yourself with smoke and games.

But this doesn't work, in a game, Lin Hao's figure will suddenly appear in his mind, and even in a trance, he will see the scene of living with him, and then he will be stunned in a daze, and finally woken up by the prompt sound.

I like Lin Hao so much...... I like it...... But why did he like people, why did he tell me lies that no three-year-old could deceive?

I think I can even put up with him stepping on two boats, but I can't stand the way he treats me......

The phone rang suddenly, and he connected it without looking, and then waited silently for the person on the other end of the microphone to speak.

"Rachel ......"

Lin Hao's voice came from the other side, and his voice was still very gentle, even too gentle, just like the feeling when he spoke to that woman just now.

Greasy makes me sick.

"Didn't your phone be confiscated by your family?"

Coldly questioned, I suddenly realized that I didn't seem to have officially broken up with him.

It was a moment before I heard his explanation

"This is a classmate's mobile phone ......"

I glanced at the mobile phone number displayed on the screen, and the remarks of the mobile phone number clearly stated Lin Hao's name, but it was the mobile phone number he used in junior high school, I always thought that he had lost this mobile phone number, and he had saved it until now.

"Isn't your phone number down?"

“……”

Lin Hao was silent again, and the silence made my heart ache.

"Let's break up."

The heart was torn in an instant, the painful breathing was about to stop, the body trembled violently, and the tears were all over the face at some point.

"I hate you, let's break up."

Choked up and said this sentence again, his body was already weak on the chair, and the mobile phone couldn't hold it steadily, and it slipped from his fingertips to the ground.

I obviously said that I would be together for a lifetime.

You said you would always take care of me.

But...... Why did it end up like this? I thought I would never say the word breakup to you in my life......

I don't want to be in love anymore, I'm really tired. (To be continued.) )