April 2, 2012, morning, the next day after April Fool's Day, the house was not empty at all, as usual to get up to brush your teeth, wash your face and comb your hair, the small bedroom door opened in the direction of the door is the common bathroom, there is no accurate counting, about estimated that there are about four or five pairs of young couples such as our age living in this house, some people say that life is incomplete without talking about a love in college, we all hold the vow of growing old together. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

On April 1, 2012, evening, April Fool's Day, I played games with my own mobile phone, which was only half the size of the current Xiaomi mobile phone2G mobile phone, the upper part is the screen, and the lower part is the button. To enter the game, you must choose QQ space from WAP web browsing to log in,After logging in, select the game in the options of my home in the bottom corner,At that time, we love to play a mobile game that is handed over to the hero OL,You also love to play,You used my mobile phone to log in to the space,I automatically logged in to your account as soon as I logged in。 I know your password, but I've never logged in, there is a new chat message on the web message on the phone screen, instinctively click on it, it's not someone else's message to you, it's all the message you send, this is probably a magic program setting, only record the message you send, don't show the message sent by others, I guess not many people know about this function, in my nineteen or twenty years.

"Girl, I like to call you girl."

"Girl, I still like to call you a girl if you call me a hooligan."

"There's no why, because you're my baby."

"Don't tell her, you must not tell her."

"You didn't tell her, did you?"

Who not to tell? Who is the girl? I looked up and forgot about Lu Yang on the side, he was lowering his head, his head was about to get into the screen, and his hand was constantly tapping on the keyboard on his mobile phone.

"Yang, has your QQ number been stolen?"

"No, why do you ask?"

Lu Yang continued to tap on the keyboard of his mobile phone without raising his head, and a smile bloomed on his face from time to time, then nervousness, and then a smile.

"Who are you talking to?"

"Former classmates, you don't know."

"Then you brought it out for us to get to know each other?"

The tone of my voice was obviously raised, and Lu Yang probably noticed something unusual, and finally raised his head to look at me.

"What nerves do you have?"

"I'm nervous? Do you dare to show me your phone? I'll see who you talk to. ”

"If you're sick, you can get nervous when I talk about it all day, and you're too unreasonable."

"I'm being vexatious, who are you collecting and shouting?"

"You log me on QQ? You're too much, it's my privacy, you know? ”

"I didn't log in to your QQ, you have a bad heart, right?"

"You didn't log in to my QQ, how do you know my chat history?"

"You admit it? Lu Yang, I know that you are not a good thing, I told you from the beginning, don't deceive me, the most hated thing about me when I'm so big is deception, you can cheat, you can not love me anymore, you can do anything, but you can't hide it from me, if you want to leave me, you can say it directly, why hide it from me? ”

"I didn't, I didn't cheat."

"Then you swear, you swear, if you cheat, the whole family will go to hell, do you dare?"

"How did you become like this now?"

"It's all up to you to force me to become, you keep saying that you've been alone all your life, but what have you done? You keep saying you won't lie to me, but what do you say to me? You keep saying that you will always accompany me for a long, long journey in the future, but now you and I are on the same road? ”

"Let's talk."

"There's nothing to talk about, break up, I said I wouldn't give you any chance to make a mistake, the dog can't change the ****." You're a dog. ”

I held the phone high and smashed it on Lu Yang's head, I saw the scratches left by the edges and corners of the phone across my forehead soaked in blood, probably it hurts, but I also hurt, my heart hurts.

I slammed the door to leave, but was dragged back by Lu Yang and dragged in his arms, he was 1.9 meters, I was 1.65 meters, and I had no ability to resist at all.

"You let go of me!"

"Where are you going so late, where can you go!"

"Don't worry about you, I don't want to see you for a minute or a second now, I feel disgusting."

"If you hate me, hate me."

"I hate you so much."

"Every day, in fact, our separation is the best ending, and there is no need for your quiet life to be involved in my messy life."

"Don't make excuses for your betrayal, you will get out of here early tomorrow morning, I paid the rent for this room, please take off all your T-shirts, sweaters, jackets, jeans, sneakers, all these are all bought with the living expenses I have saved, I want to see if you can find someone who is so good to you after leaving me?" I'm telling you, people like you are people who don't get picked up on the road and don't go home, so you have a family like that, parents like that, and it's all yours! ”

"Scold, I'll leave early tomorrow morning."

I forced Lu Yang to go to the address book and delete my own number, log in to QQ and delete me in a separate friend group. If this was the time to have a knife, if I had been strong enough, I would have killed him right now, and the thought of killing him was powerless in his power to pull me.

In the morning, after washing up and returning to the hut, except for Lu Yang's luggage, everything was there, as if there had never been such a person here, I dialed my best friend's phone and didn't say anything and kept crying, I didn't say anything for several hours, just kept crying on the phone, and finally I hung up the phone and deleted Lu Yang's QQ and deleted the contact information, but these numbers in my mind are still remembered so clearly.

For the next three long days, I didn't go to class, I hid in the hut on the bed and cried and swollen my eyes, yes, I was so useless, I turned off my phone and locked the door, and on the third day I called my mom to help me pack my bags and rent a new house. Mom didn't know what I was posting, just looked at my swollen eyes in distress, she probably guessed the reason for the matter, Mom was always so smart to clean up the new house for me, and then said to me:

"There's nothing you can't get by, only you can't get along with yourself."

Yes, I didn't plan to get along with myself, but at this time I changed to mild anorexia, especially hungry stickers don't want to eat, but what to eat and vomit, vomit and eat, eat and hungry. I really didn't go on a hunger strike because of broken love, I don't know why I just couldn't eat, the doctor said it was probably caused by mild depression, I turned around and left the hospital, the current doctor is really unreliable, depression has been said, I'm so good such a sunny beautiful girl said that I was depressed and teased me?

For the next month, I didn't eat again, I forced myself to drink Trensu pure milk for a month, fortunately I didn't starve to death, how beautiful life is, I haven't had time to see how beautiful this world is, this world is so lonely, if I don't look at its beauty, how can I know how beautiful it is. One day in a month, I suddenly wanted to eat rice, called my mother, and two hours later my mother rushed over from my hometown, with cabbage, our family called black cabbage, vegetables grown in my hometown vegetable field, as well as dried vermicelli, and salted duck, the rest of the New Year has not been eaten. My mother cooked me a small pot of white rice, cooked a pot of salted duck vermicelli cabbage soup, the soup boiled by salted duck was white with duck fat and particularly fragrant, I ate two bowls of white rice and two bowls of vermicelli soup in one go, so full, I didn't vomit.

Terensu was 144 kilometers away from me across the Yangtze River bridge Tongling sister brought, after moving to a new home I let my mother go back to her hometown, I pretended to be very good afraid that she was worried, a few days after my mother returned to her hometown, I found more and more that my anorexia was getting worse and worse, so I called her, she was preparing for the upgrade exam at that time. I said, "Juanzi, can you come and accompany me to the hospital?" Juanzi said, "Okay, address", without asking why, without asking when, without saying how busy she was, and without the slightest reluctance. "Okay, address." It was the most secure thing I had ever heard among my friends, and she said that I was her unrelated sister.

Life is sometimes like this, unconsciously changing some things and some people, and then healing yourself. You have to believe that no one in this world can bear anything for you, no one can persuade you to insist on what to give up, no one can help you face it, no one can help you get out of the little dark house, any decision can only be relieved if you have only experienced it yourself.

Life is also lovely at times, telling you who is best for you and who you should care about when you are sad, helpless, depressed, or depraved. If you also have parents, if you are very confused right now, if you don't know what to do now, then be filial to your parents, it will be one thing you will never do wrong in your life. If you have a friend, if she is not by your side, if she has left all her itinerary to accompany you when you need someone to accompany you, then please consider her as your most important unrelated sister or brother, this will be the most valuable harvest of your life in friendship, there is no one.