Le Fan and I rested on this mountainside for a while, sitting in the shade of the trees, enjoying the heat wave brought by the summer wind on our bodies, I used to only feel that this kind of climate was very headaches, but now, it is rare to be idle, so quietly, but I don't feel so sad. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

"Are you going up?"

Just as I was quietly looking at the sunlight shining through the cracks in the trees, I heard Le Fan ask.

I turned my head to look at her, then looked back at the boardwalk.

"Isn't that an iron gate?" I asked, puzzled, that there was indeed an iron gate, and that it seemed to be closed, and that I could see clearly from where I was.

Le Fan also looked at the door, and then said with a slight smile: "Well, but the iron door is sometimes not closed." Because there are still people who grow medicinal herbs on the mountain, and there is a temple on it, and those people live there. ”

I looked at the iron gate, and finally shook my head, "Forget it, I still don't go up." ”

Le Fan turned his head to look at me, "Why?" ”

I didn't answer, I just shook my head, but I gave the answer in my heart.

I don't want to go up alone, because there are no memories of me, and I don't want to be there for my first memory, just me.

Moreover, I don't feel at ease to let Le Fan be here alone.

Le Fan didn't necessarily have to get an answer, she looked at the door and said slowly, "Speaking of which, it's been almost ten years since I last came to Taishan. The last time I went to Taishan, I didn't climb to the top, but when I got there, the small house, I didn't go up again. ”

I followed Le Fan's gaze, and when I went up from the iron gate, I could see a house built on the mountainside.

"Why don't you go up?" I asked casually.

Le Fan chuckled, "Do you remember my cousin?" ”

I frowned slightly, "Luo Yan? ”

Le Fan nodded lightly, "Well, that time I remember that the reason why I came to climb Taishan was because I wanted to take her to relax, because she was approaching the high school entrance examination, and the pressure was quite high." However, she didn't seem to appreciate me, and I fell out with her halfway up the mountainside. I climbed into the small house in a rage, and I actually felt very aggrieved. I still remember swearing there that I would never care about her again, because I felt that as an older sister, I broke my heart for her, but she never knew how to cherish it, so I felt tired. I also sent a space message, 'Let's stop here!' In fact, he wanted to express his determination to let her go. ”

When Le Fan said this, I couldn't help but interrupt and said, "However, after that, you didn't implement your determination properly. I couldn't help but laugh as I spoke, and I didn't know what I was trying to convey with this smile.

Le Fan didn't feel embarrassed, she smiled lightly, "There is no way, in fact, I want to give up on her more than once, and I have thought more than once about letting her go with the flow, no matter what happens to her in the future, I will no longer pay attention to it." But every time she encounters setbacks and difficulties, I still can't help but help her. ”

"She grew up living in my house, and her parents were not around, saying that she was my cousin, but in fact what was the difference between her and my biological sister. Even though it hurts me every time she does it, I can't help but want to make her better after the heartache is over. Spoiling her may have become my habit, since I can't be cruel to her, then just accept it calmly, let me watch her suffer, I can't do it. ”

I was silent, and Le Fan recounted her relationship with her cousin in the most relaxed words, and her tone was full of willing helplessness.

Actually, Le Fan, you are just too soft-hearted and kind-hearted.

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Looking at the emotion on Le Fan's face, I changed the subject, "What's there?" ”

Le Fan's expression was faint, and her thoughts also turned to my topic, she looked at the small house and said, "There are a few statues of gods, an incense burner, and a few stools in that house!" I don't know if it's still there. There is a waterhole next to the house, the water in it is drinkable, and there will be special tools prepared for tourists to drink water, there used to be only one scoop, now I don't know if there is something else. ”

I saw a nostalgic look in Le Fan's eyes, and couldn't help asking, "Do you want to see the changes above?" ”

Hearing my inquiry, Le Fan turned his head to look at me and smiled, "Do you want to go up and take a few photos for me?" ”

I nodded, I really thought so, I wanted to do something for Lefan, even if maybe she didn't need me to do anything for her.

Le Fan turned his head, then chuckled and shook his head, "No need, I think the memory of the past is what I want the most, if I really want to know what has changed on it, I can ask my brothers to send me a few photos, they come up and go around almost every year." ”

I didn't say anything more, Le Fan didn't need it, I couldn't force it.

After a while, Le Fancai continued: "After the high school entrance examination, Zhang Yiyang and I met again on this mountain, but on it. I went up with Roman to play, and I didn't say hello to him when we met, but Roman did talk to him for a while, and I waited quietly, but I did look at him carefully. ”

"At that time, he was completely different from the Zhang Yiyang in my memory, Zhang Yiyang in my memory, his hair was always neat and clean, and the smile on his face was always very pure, but the Zhang Yiyang I saw that time was like a gangster on the street, and he even had long bangs, covering half of his face, and dyed it, but I can't remember what the color was."

"But I still remember my mood at the time, I felt very disappointed at that time, hehe, now that I think about it, I was no longer his person at that time, what was there to be disappointed?"

Le Fan said a long sentence to himself, and I listened quietly, and the picture of their meeting also appeared in my mind.

"In fact, sometimes I feel that I live a very 'Qiong Yao', very...'fairy tale'!"

Le Fan suddenly said such a sentence, and I was puzzled, "How do you say it?" ”

Le Fan was silent for a while, and then said: "Actually, I have always felt that everyone's life can be written as a small story, maybe very plain, maybe extraordinary. And my definition of my life, my life is made up of a lot of small stories, and I used to think that those stories, each of them needs a complete ending, even if that ending is not perfect. ”

After Le Fan said this, he was silent for a while.

"It's like, I broke up with Zhang Yiyang, and I always felt that we didn't finish the bridge, so there was no ending between us. But then I finally had the opportunity to walk across the bridge with him, but I wasn't able to let go of the past as I had imagined. ”

Then, I told myself that maybe it was because I wanted to complete it with Zhang Yiyang, so I looked for all kinds of opportunities to realize my fantasy. It wasn't until much later that I realized that I couldn't let go of Zhang Yiyang, not because there was still unfinished business between us, but because I couldn't let go of Zhang Yiyang. ”

"The reason why I live 'Qiong Yao' is because I fantasize about life too dramatically, and I always feel that everything needs to have a reason and an end sign, but later I found out that in fact, many things have no reason and do not need a clear end. The reason why I live a 'fairy tale' is because I think of my ending too happily and reunitedly, I think of myself too much, I always think that as long as everyone is satisfied, it is enough, as for myself, I can sacrifice some things to achieve the happiness of others. ”