The moment I opened my eyes, I was momentarily confused, I didn't know where I was, I forgot what was happening, staring at the ceiling, my mind was blank.

The door was pushed open, and I saw that I was awake, and the hurried footsteps of the comer sounded, and after a while, a familiar voice sounded beside me, "Luo Su, you are awake." ”

I came back to my senses, looked at him, and then continued to stare at the ceiling, silent for a long time before I spoke dryly, "How long have I been asleep?" ”

The person who came was Qin Mingmao, my colleague.

Qin Mingmao put the things in his hand aside, and then sat on the edge of my bed, "It didn't take long, four hours." ”

I closed my aching eyes, and didn't say until my sideburns were wet, "Auntie, they ......"

Qin Mingmao didn't speak for a long time, I was thinking, maybe he was startled by my voice, after all, I had never shown such a helpless appearance in front of people.

I don't know how long it took, but I kept my eyes closed because I didn't dare to open them.

I'd rather that this moment is just a dream of mine, and when I wake up, everything will be the same again.

However, I was so scared that I didn't dare to open my eyes or wake up...... I'm really scared.

I can imagine my embarrassment, and the tears in the corners of my eyes remind me so clearly that it is all real.

A warm finger gently wiped the corners of my eyes, and I jerked the quilt over my head, and everything around me was quiet, eerily quiet.

My body trembled, and I bit my lip desperately.

Finally, at some point, I broke down and cried.

Mother You was so grief-stricken that she was still unconscious.

I found out all this when I went to visit Father and Mother You in the ward.

Mother You, when Le Fan completely closed his eyes, within a few minutes of me fainting, I also fainted.

Pushing open the door, Mother You was lying on the bed with a pale face, and Father You had a calm face and a little red in his eyes. He sat on the stool next to the hospital bed with a somewhat sluggish look, holding Mother You's hand and looking at Mother You.

I couldn't believe that after four hours of sleep, everything changed dramatically. Father You is only in his fifties, but at this moment, he is like an old man who has been in his twilight.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Dad You moved his stiff body, and when he saw me, Dad You was silent and did not speak.

I sniffed, then walked slowly to the other side of Mama You's bed and sat down.

Father You and I sat quietly until, two hours later, Mother You slowly woke up.

As soon as she opened her eyes, Mother You's eyes turned red, and tears quickly condensed. Almost instantly, she closed her eyes and wept.

"Lefan... Lefan... Oh my daughter! Lefan ......"

I closed my eyes fiercely, and the tears flowed down again, and when I opened my eyes again, I looked at You's father, and he was also in tears.

I suddenly stood up, took a step to the side, and fell straight to my knees.

The sound of knees touching the ground startled Father and Mother You, who looked at me with tears in their eyes, doubts in their grief-stricken eyes.

I cried hoarsely, "Auntie, uncle, I'm sorry, it's all my fault, it's my carelessness that will make Le Fan... I got such a disease. ”

Le Fan told me and Roman before her death that if she really had an accident, the cause of her death would be stomach cancer.

No one but a few of us will know the cause of her death.

Le Fan suffers from a neurological disease, and she has been receiving treatment for the past two years, always delirious. After Zi found out that she was sick two years ago, she told me that if Zhang Yiyang was going to get married, no matter what the cost, she wanted to participate soberly, even if the price was... Die.

I vividly remember the relieved smile she had when she said this to me two years ago.

She said that she promised Zhang Yiyang to see him happy; She said that she had ruined her oath with him so much, this one, she didn't want to miss it, she didn't want to die like that, and finally regret it for the rest of her life.

It's just that what I didn't expect was that two years passed in a hurry.

In addition to her own mental problems, the cause of Le Fan's illness is Zhang Yiyang.

Zhang Yiyang was the fuse that made her sick.

It is also for this reason that at Zhang Yiyang's wedding, Roman will be so out of shape and turn his face.

Maybe Zhang Yiyang himself is not very wrong, he just doesn't love Lefan.

Love is like this, if you fall in love with someone who doesn't love you, you are doomed to hurt.

Mother You slowed down slightly, still crying and sighing as she wanted to pull me up from the ground, "Silly child, what does this have to do with you, this is her life." You and Roman are her best friends, and every time she comes home, she happily tells me and her dad how lucky she is to have met you and Roman. In fact, her father and I both know that she has something in her heart, and she doesn't want to tell us, that stupid child, why does she not care for her body so much! She is gone, leaving me and her father in this world, how can she be so ruthless? ”

I still knelt on the ground, looking at the two old men who had completely collapsed, the white-haired man sent the black-haired man, there are few people in this world who can bear it.

I squeezed Mother You's hand and said hoarsely: "Auntie, uncle, I have been in the orphanage for as long as I can remember, and then my adoptive parents took me back to the Luo family, although they are very good to me, I love them very much, and respect them very much, but for so many years, I have been living tremblingly, because I am afraid, afraid that I will be abandoned again. My parents were very good to me, but it was because of this kindness that I was scared for more than ten years. They never scolded me, they never beat me, and even if I did something wrong, they never hated me for educating me. I've never seen this in my sister before. I used to think it was because my parents felt too sorry for me, but later I realized that it was because I was an adopted daughter. Many people may think that my thoughts are selfish and unconscionable, but aunts, uncles, when I make mistakes, how I wish that my parents would wake me up, instead of letting me find out what I did wrong. ”

I was crying as I spoke, and at this moment, I was no longer so composed.

"Later, I met Le Fan and shared a house with her. She was my first friend and the first person who made me really feel what it was like to be at home. In the relationship between Lefan and you, I feel the warmth of home. Auntie, uncle, I love my adoptive parents very much, but we get along with each other a little less closely. Le Fan made me feel that closeness, she would comfort me and accompany me when I was lost; She will enlighten me and support me when I am confused; She would wake me up when I was decadent, but she would take care of me...... She is a knife-mouthed tofu heart, and she obviously says the most ruthless words in her mouth, but the things she does are so heartwarming. She is a nostalgic person, even if she is no longer friends with her former friends, she will give each other a smile when she meets her. She said that these were memories of her life, and she couldn't refute them, because those people had brought her happiness. ”

"When I found out that Le Fan was sick, I really hated myself, I was a doctor, but I never found out that the person I cared about the most was terminally ill."

As I spoke, I couldn't help but cover my face and cry bitterly.

Yes, I hate myself.

Incomparably hateful.

The ward was filled with grief, and we couldn't stop crying.

"Auntie, uncle, I once promised Le Fan that if I can't save her, I will support you and take care of you on behalf of Le Fan."

I said with tears in my eyes, but with great seriousness.

As soon as these words came out, Mother You and Father You both looked at me in shock.

Mother You hurriedly refused, "Luo Su, Auntie knows that you are a good boy, and she also knows that you and Le Fan are good friends, but Auntie and your uncle are not your responsibility, do you know?" What you really need to take care of are your adoptive parents, me and your uncle...... Although Le Fan has left us, it's not your fault, and you don't have to feel guilty, so you have to carry a burden. Your uncle and I are very grateful to you for doing so much for Lefan. ”

After You's mother finished speaking, You's father also spoke: "Luo Su, your aunt and I both know that you are a good boy, but as your aunt said, we are not your responsibility, and you don't need to be responsible. Le Fan's death, no one wants to see it, we are all sad, but I hope that we can all learn to be strong. ”

I cried and shook my head, "That's not the case, auntie, uncle, I don't take you as a responsibility because of my guilt to Le Fan. In my heart, Lefan is my family, and as Lefan's parents, you are like my parents. ”

No matter how much Father and Mother You tried to persuade me, I made up my mind to provide for them.

As for my adoptive parents, I will also take care of them all the time.

For me, they are both my parents.

Le Fan is gone, and I hope I can continue her love as a daughter.

When I left You's mother's hospital room, it was already ten o'clock in the morning.

From Zhang Yiyang's wedding the day before to now, I slept for four hours because of a coma, and so did You's mother.

Let the two old people rest, I quit the ward, no matter what, they can't go on like this, no matter how sad it is, we must be brave enough to accept this fact.

When I entered You's mother's ward, I asked Qin Mingmao to go to my rental room and car to pick up the things that Le Fan had put in the house at the beginning, as well as the things I brought back from Le Fan's hometown.

When he came out, Qin Mingmao was already standing in front of the door with a box.

Looking at the contents of the box, I couldn't help but shed tears again.

Wiping the corners of my eyes, I asked, "What about Chen Ruihao?" ”

When I arrived at Chen Ruihao's house, the moment I opened the door, the smell of wine came to my face.

The floor was full of empty wine bottles, and you can imagine what happened last night.

I found him in the corner of the guest room, his eyes were red, his face was expressionless, and he was no longer the high-spirited Chen Ruihao I knew.

I threw my head back and pushed back the tears that were about to flow.

I rushed into the toilet, took a large basin of cold water with a basin, and then rushed out, ignoring Qin Mingmao's obstruction, a basin of water was splashed on Chen Ruihao's body.

Chen Ruihao's godless eyes finally flickered, but in the next second, they returned to a dead silence.

My tears still flowed down my face, and I suddenly laughed as if I had lost my mind, "Hahaha...... Hahaha......"

Qin Mingmao was on the side, and seeing me like this, he hurriedly stretched out his hand to hold me, "Luo Su, what are you doing?" ”

I shook off Qin Mingmao's hand and rushed to Chen Ruihao, "Chen Ruihao, what do you think you are doing, are you feeling sorry for Le Fan?" Are you still numbing yourself, do you think you can wake up like this? Chen Ruihao, Le Fan, she is dead, she is dead! ”

At the last sentence, I screamed out loud and almost heartbreakingly.

After saying that, I myself fell into despair, yes, Le Fan is dead and can never wake up again.

Chen Ruihao was a little sluggish, his eyes staring straight in front of him, motionless.

I didn't control myself and slapped Chen Ruihao in the face.

He finally looked at me, but his eyes remained indifferent.

I looked at him with a smile and a smile, "Chen Ruihao, do you think you love her like this?" Le Fan is dead, she still has her parents, and she still has the people she cares about in her heart, don't you want to care about these? You keep saying that you love her, but you haven't thought about taking care of the people she cares about for her, is your love really love? ”

His eyes flickered slightly, I closed my eyes, and finally choked up and said, "Chen Ruihao, do you know? Lefan once told me that she was about to fall in love with you. ”

This sentence finally made Chen Ruihao's eyes have emotion, he turned his neck stiffly and looked at me, "You say... What the? ”

His voice was hoarse and unpleasant, like a man who had just learned to speak, sluggish and weak.

I looked at him painfully, "Le Fan told me that she really had a crush on you, but she didn't have time to learn to fall in love with you again." ”

Chen Ruihao looked at me in a daze, and after a long time, he finally cried out with red eyes.

"Le Fan's parents are still lying in the hospital, and she still has something to tell you, twelve o'clock, if you can't pack up and come to the hospital, then Le Fan will see the wrong person." I choked up and finished speaking, and then got up directly and left with Qin Mingmao.

Le Fan's departure is a devastating blow to us. We are all out of control, and there will be a moment when we want to lock ourselves up in the darkness completely, but life will not stop because of anyone's departure, and we have other responsibilities to fulfill.