On the county lord's mansion, many times I am quietly looking at Nian'er, the more I look at it, the more painful it will be, and the more I can't forgive myself, now she always stays quietly in the room to write and paint, this is not bad, and I can't say that this kind of thought is not likable, if I don't know that she was active before, I still like it now, but compared to her lively and agile before, now she is so quiet, it always makes me feel uncomfortable, and the scar on her hand, I always want to can't help but touch the scar, What kind of pain she has experienced in the past few years outside, the person I once tried to hold in the palm of my hand, is now so scarred. I used to think that since she was not happy and happy when she stayed by my side, then I would let her go freely, but why did she not only not be happy after I let go, but would be hurt so badly, did I do something wrong? Since I have been in pain, deeply in pain, then she should live well and happily, why does she appear in front of me so scarred now, what does she want me to do? I also know that everyone has their own path to go, and they should be responsible for the path they choose, Nian'er is the same, since she chose to leave and chose to give up the shelter we gave, it was also her own choice, she has the freedom to choose her own life path, but now it seems that I don't think she can protect herself, if so, I can no longer let her out of my sight, I can no longer care about her reluctance, how can I look at it, how can I let her act arbitrarily, no.

I talked to Nian'er's maid Ah Shuang, after Mama Gao left, the significance of this Ah Shuang to Nian'er is even more important, if she can understand me and support me, maybe it will be good for Nian'er, fortunately, Ah Shuang seems to be much more reasonable than Nian'er, she begged me to find a way to heal Nian'er's eyes, she also promised that she would accompany Nian'er well, no longer mess around with her, and promised to persuade Nian'er to go back to Jinhua with me, she can know that no matter what I do, it is for Nian'er's good, she is more transparent than Nian'er, Since this is the case, I no longer hesitate, no matter whether Nian'er can understand it or not, I want to protect her in my own way, and then I don't care whether Nian'er is willing or not, I insist on arranging for Nian'er to return to Jinhua, I didn't accompany her along the way, but rushed back to Jinhua before Nian'er, I arranged for someone to clean up Lan Tingxuan, and then began to look around for a way to heal Nian'er's eyes.

Nian'er finally lived in Lan Tingxuan again, I know that she has never been able to let go of here, she is a girl who values affection, but she is a little ruthless and unrighteous to me. I was hesitating to go to see her, and if I went, she would only make me angry and anxious, and if I didn't go, I couldn't let go of her in my heart, and I always wanted to know what she was doing, and if she was okay now.

In the end, I went, so why bother myself?

She sat quietly on the bed alone in the room, not knowing what she was thinking, she looked lonely, my heart was blocked again, although I don't know how she knew, but it was certain that every time I came she knew, this recognition made me a little comforted, I can't imagine what would happen when she asked me helplessly and confused who it was, maybe I would go crazy with heartache, because of her helplessness and ignorance.

She didn't pay attention to me, but it was no longer that cold look, but turned around and lay on the bed angrily, so it's okay, it's better than being quiet all day long, I don't care, take off my robe and lie down beside her, want to hold her in my arms, stretch out my hand, look at her thin back, and helplessly take it back, take your time, now I can't bear to force her, but she still can't bear to be angry, kicked the quilt, and turned over and over again angrily, think about her before, the more she provoked her, the more she couldn't be quiet, Sometimes she is very stubborn, so I pretended not to know her dissatisfaction and watched silently. Maybe she was dissatisfied, so she brought her back, and was forced to stay with me like this, but I can't satisfy her now, I said, I can't let go.

After a while, the people around me were still restless, and finally even the pillow was thrown to the ground, as if my silence made her more and more angry, this season night is still a little cold, I can't bear it, get up to cover her with the quilt, pull her to my pillow, the lights in the house have not been extinguished, since Nian'er lost her sight, her room will be lit every night, it seems that her maid really loves her, and I can't bear to let her be in the dark room, although this makes no difference to Nian'er, But for us, it will be somewhat comforting. But Nian'er didn't know that the room was brightly lit at the moment, she pouted dissatisfiedly, frowned dissatisfied, and I could clearly see all her dissatisfaction on her little face, and then her brows furrowed for a while, and she actually groped to get up.

"What are you going to do?" I asked.

She didn't give me any response, she still groped her way to crawl under the bed, my heart was like this with her frowning brows, no matter how unwilling you are, I will no longer let you, stay by my side, this is the bottom line that I will not change again, Nian'er, I'm sorry, no matter how unwilling you are, no, my heart is full of pity for her, full of guilt.

"You sleep outside." I endured the complicated emotions in my heart, said as calmly as possible, tried to pretend not to know her dissatisfaction and unwillingness, and finally hugged her tightly in my arms, "Don't make trouble, sleep." "Saying that, I also prayed in my heart that I would stay like this, even if I was reluctant to do so, as long as I stayed.

Fortunately, she didn't struggle for long, maybe she was tired, maybe she was tired of resisting, she finally fell asleep shallowly, I looked down at the person who was breathing steadily in my arms, looked at the face that was getting more and more petite and slap-slap-sized, and couldn't take my eyes off it for a long time.

I've been getting busier and busier these days, on the one hand, I'm busy looking for a way to heal Nian'er's eyes, on the other hand, I'm also sending troops to plan a crusade against Zhaoming, this time I'm going to give Xiao Fan a fatal blow, I won't let him have a chance to turn over, and I won't give him a chance to hurt Nian'er, many courtiers don't approve of my decision, recently this kind of recital that asks me to think twice is piled up on the desk, and Dugu Ye, he has also come to ask for love for his senior brother many times, but it's useless for anyone to say, I've never been a tolerant and generous person, I will not allow anyone who is unfavorable to Nian'er to exist in this world.

But fortunately, Nian'er's eyes are not without a way to heal, and the newly found spiritual herb is beneficial to Nian'er's eyes after being used in medicine, but this elixir is a very bitter thing, and the amount used for Nian'er to enter the medicine is not a few, the medicine can be bitter when it smells, but Nian'er still has to take this medicine, and the good medicine is bitter, and it can only be like this.

The girl will not be at the mercy of others when she is sick, the next person came to report a few times, she did not use the medicine, I told Ah Shuang to persuade a few more times, it seems to have no effect, I have to personally force her to use the medicine, in fact, my heart is more bitter than the medicine she drank, but I have no other way, I want her to see again.

I was angry that day, angry from the beginning, but in fact I was angry with myself, angry that I had to make her suffer, I was angry, I was irritable, I forced her to drink the medicine I used to cross with my lips, if it was bitter, then I would accompany her. At first, she was still powerless to resist, but after a few twists and turns, she quickly knew how to resist, she was smart, but I didn't want her to use her intelligence here, I looked at Ah Shuang who was anxious next to me, and suddenly knew what to do, she was Nian'er's death hole, I already knew, sure enough, Nian'er obediently swallowed the medicine in her mouth, but her little face was wrinkled, I don't know if it was wronged or because the medicine was too bitter.

"Don't cry!" Seeing her crying, I felt even more uncomfortable, "If you dare to cry again, I will kill her immediately." "I continued to threaten her, and I had no control over her, so I could only threaten her in this way.

Although she was forbearant after hearing this, tears still dripped down her face like beads with broken threads.

"Nian'er, don't cry... At this time, I was completely out of proportion, and hurriedly wiped her tears, but the tears were always far away, my heart seemed to tear the pain, and I could only hold her tightly in my arms, "I don't hurt her, don't cry." Nian'er, good, don't cry, your eyes are not good, you can't cry anymore, I won't force you to drink that medicine, I'll think of other ways, don't cry. "I even whispered begging.

"Second Brother 。。。。。" After a while, Nian'er's little hand touched my back, and for a moment, I lost my mind for a moment as if I had been struck by lightning.

"Second brother, I'm sorry, I know it's wrong." That's what I said. At that moment, I realized that everything was worth it.