The mood of a few **** is very low, although as an independent thinking, mature soul person, these mysteries of life experience can not bring me a fatal blow, but when I gradually integrate into the life here, when I gradually regard this time and space as my own destination, when I gradually regard the people around me as relatives, such an ending is enough to subvert all my outlook on life and values, destroy all my beautiful imagination, I don't know how to face the smiling faces around me, how to deal with it" Relatives", I don't know what kind of hypocrisy is hidden behind the smiling face, I am confused. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

After a period of time, everything seems to have returned to the same state on the surface, Lan Tingxuan seems to have returned to the atmosphere of the past, but when my mother saw me again, her eyes were no longer only full of love, I didn't dare to pursue the other feelings in her eyes, I would rather just be a carefree and ignorant person, and I no longer followed Xuanyuan Yaolin behind me to be coquettish, because the scene of the father's love and daughter's filial piety would only make me feel disgusting, I just practiced martial arts more diligently, and went to the library to read books more frequently, I know, Maybe I am the only one in this world who can be trusted and relied on.

"Nian'er, are you there? Nian'er? "I'm hiding in the stack of books in the library, I like the tranquility here, although there is only the smell of ink and dust, but it makes me feel more real than the gorgeous but illusory images outside, but at this time there is the voice of Xuanyuan Qi looking for me, I don't want to deal with them, I don't know what kind of attitude they have towards me, is it really when I am a sister, or just to play with me, I don't want to explore or face, I just put my body closer to the bookshelf, sit quietly and wait for them to leave.

"Second brother, Nian'er doesn't seem to be there." Xuanyuan Qi said to Xuanyuan Yan

"Let's go." Xuanyuan Yan replied, and then the library returned to peace.

I began to live a different life, less play, less laughter, more often I like to be alone, even Ah Shuang joked, "The third princess has really grown up, and she is much quieter and calmer than before." I can only smile bitterly at her, maybe in this huge palace, only a simple and ignorant person like Ah Shuang is the happiest.

It was another sultry night, I sat in front of the window with a book in my hand, looking up at the watery night outside the window, the silent starry sky, I let out a long sigh, such a summer night is really not lovely, but it is very suitable for my heart. The heat accumulated by everything on the ground during the day has not yet dissipated, and the air is still filled with sultry molecules, and there are quiet and black holes everywhere, such summer nights I didn't like before, but now, I like to sit alone in front of the window and enjoy the present time, in fact, I have been holding a book and waiting for this moment to come. In this ancient world where there were no street lights, even the palace was dark at night, especially in the middle of the night like this, in addition to hearing the chirping of insects outside the window, there was a death-like silence everywhere, as if I was the only one in this world, whether it was false feelings or love and hate entanglements in the daytime, I looked up at the night sky, the moon was particularly bright tonight, and the soft and warm moonlight sprinkled to the corners of the courtyard, I got up and jumped out of the window, and easily climbed over the courtyard wall of Lan Tingxuan, Walking towards the Sun Moon Lake in the Imperial Garden, I vaguely felt that the Sun Moon Lake under the moonlight must be very beautiful, and it will definitely bring me a burst of coolness.

Since practicing martial arts, my courage has grown a lot, like this dark and silent night, I still leisurely walk on the forest path that can only be faintly discernible, the outside is really much cooler than the house, after a while I will lie comfortably on the grass by the lake, looking at the stars in the sky, thinking about the past life, suddenly there are footsteps in the distance, listening to the sound is four people, I just hold my breath and lie quietly, in such a late night, what happens must be something that cannot be seen, don't explore. The footsteps stopped in the woods behind me, and I cursed in my heart, the more I didn't want to know, the more things were going to happen around me, and I stubbornly wanted to close my ears and ignore it, but I still vaguely heard the phrase "You're damned." It was the second brother's voice, although the tone was more indifferent than usual, but his voice was right, I carefully stood up and approached the woods lightly, I don't know if this was out of concern for the second brother or just out of curiosity. I hid in the bushes not far away, by the bright moonlight, I saw an unexpected scene, before I could exclaim the voice, but there was a cold knife on my neck, the second brother turned to look at me, the surprise in his eyes flashed, "It turns out that Nian'er is here." The second brother said and motioned for his men to take down the weapon that was on my neck.

I just looked at the corpse on the ground in a daze, looked at the scene of the head in a different place, looked at the blood still flowing on the knife in the second brother's hand, and the murderous aura in his eyes when he turned to look at me, every pore on my body was trembling and afraid, if I could, I really wanted to turn around and run away, but at this time I didn't even have the strength to leave, this is the first time I have seen such a bloody scene, it is so real, although I have long expected that in such a time and space, a human life is really nothing, But when such a scene is really in front of my eyes, I have to admit that I really don't belong here.

"I'll send you back." Just before I fell, the second brother held me in his arms and said, "You guys get rid of her." He said to the other two, and then helped me out of the woods.

Maybe I should break free from my second brother's support, maybe I should ask him why he carelessly took human life, but I can't ask, but my mind keeps replaying the cruel scene just now, the bloody corpse, the cold weapon, and the cold eyes.

"It's so late and you don't rest, Nian'er is really not an ordinary disobedient." After walking out of the woods, the second brother stopped and said to me, "Forget what you just saw." He continued to command coldly.

The second brother, who didn't get a response, increased his grip on my arm, and the pain in my arm made me realize his anger, and I mustered up the courage to look up at him, wanting to give him an angry look, but I was too afraid to look into his eyes. Maybe it was the second brother who realized the flickering of my gaze, he pulled me closer to his arms, pinched my chin with his other hand, and forced me to look up into his eyes, I could see the murderous aura still in his eyes, and I could vaguely smell the smell of blood on his body, I don't know if this was my imagination or if he was really stained with blood, in short, such a distance made me panic, I could even feel my own trembling.

"Nian'er is scared?" The second brother asked expressionlessly, "I thought Nian'er would be different, but it turned out that Nian'er would be scared as well." But I don't like to see people crying or being afraid. As he spoke, his eyes turned cold again, and then I was lifted off the ground by him, caught under my armpit, and he ignored my feelings as if he had taken an object, and took me all the way back to Lan Tingxuan. I don't know if it was because he was caring or if I was too embarrassed at the time, he sent me to the dormitory, threw me on the bed, and then left in silence, leaving me alone to sleep.

I never deny the indifference and ruthlessness of the second brother, but I have never associated him with a cold-blooded murderer, the concept of my previous life makes me unable to accept such a reality, although I also know that I was born in the royal family, they must have pain or secrets that I don't know, but when I really began to see their unknown side, I still couldn't help but tremble, I couldn't help but be afraid, I don't know what the world is like, I don't know what everyone's heart is thinking, I'm really scared. Lying in bed like this, I finally fell asleep when the east was white.