Chapter 50: Let Go
After Qiu Ci was washed and dressed, Wu Xiaoge asked Miao Le to go out first with Qiu Ci in tow, she dragged Wen Ruojin, who had not spoken, and asked, "What's wrong with Qiu Ci?" Do you know? Wen Ruojin shook her head: "There are some things that she still has to say by herself, I am not her after all, and there are things that I can't guess." ”
"Did she break up with her boyfriend, it's the person named Lu Fengbai she said before."
"Impossible." Wen Ruojin couldn't believe it.
"How is it impossible, when I misunderstood Wen Ying, it was similar to Qiu Ci, and I was thinking about whether to continue with him, and it was almost like breaking up." Wen Ruojin lifted the backpack and carried it on his back: "Qiu Ci won't take the initiative to separate from him." ”
"Who said that Qiu resigned, I said that Lu Fengbai." The two walked out and locked the door. Wen Ruojin shook his head more firmly: "If you say that Qiu Ci broke up with him, I may believe it, Lu Fengbai took the initiative to say that I would not believe it." ”
"Really?" Wu Xiaoge looked at Wen Ruojin suspiciously and muttered to himself. She remembered that during that time, Wen Ruojin followed the two of them for about a year, maybe the Qiu Ci authorities didn't know, she saw clearly as a bystander, Lu Fengbai's feelings for her were not just just talking, and he couldn't act out the kind of eyes he looked at Qiu Ci.
Qiu Ci and Miao Le walked for a while before the two of them followed, and Wu Xiaoge said with a smile: "I looked for money for a long time, but I almost didn't keep up." ”
"Lose three and four." Miao Le gave her a disdainful look. Seeing that the two were going to quarrel again, Wen Ruojin hurriedly stood between the two and waved his hand and said, "You have to be happy and friendly at the dinner, if you quarrel, then go back now." ”
"No noise, absolutely no more." The two spoke in unison and hurriedly waved their hands. Qiu Ci watched from the side, squinting his eyes and smiling.
Obviously, I can usually laugh so happily and unscrupulously, but now it's so hard to even pull the corners of my mouth, and it seems that I have used all my strength to laugh.
They often go to this hot pot restaurant, not only because of the good taste, but also because the decoration of this shop is also very good-looking, there is a big window, and the gap between the door is the thickness of a wall, which means that his walls are transparent, and there are cute cartoon characters printed on it, very atmospheric, when it snows in winter, sit here to eat hot pot and enjoy the snow outside the window.
The four of them ordered a lot of food, Qiu Ci couldn't eat spicy food, and Wu Xiaoge liked spicy food, so he asked for a mandarin duck pot.
Qiu Ci didn't want to eat so much, he kept helping them cook, and then helping them fish them up, and he ate a little bit occasionally, but he really had no appetite.
"I'll go to the bathroom first." Qiu Ci got up and said.
"The bathroom is a bit far away!" Wu Xiaoge reminded.
"Well, I'll be back when I go, you don't have to wait for me." With that, she got up and walked outside. In fact, she couldn't eat at all, and it was really uncomfortable to sit there, so she should go out for a walk to change her mood.
Wu Xiaoge ate a piece of lotus root, and then said to Wen Ruojin: "I don't think she seems to want to eat with us." ”
"I'm not in a good mood!" Wen Ruojin said. Miao Le suddenly got up, pointed out the window, the two looked along the line of sight, and just saw Lu Fengbai standing under the tree opposite them looking away, the three of them hurriedly followed Lu Fengbai's line of sight, and sure enough, they saw Qiu Ci walking towards the direction of the public toilet with his head down.
"Lu Fengbai." Wen Ruojin exclaimed.
"I said, they must have quarreled." Wu Xiaoge said very confidently. Miao Le asked, "Then should we go and have a look?" ”
"What are you going to do, what are you going to do, let them solve it themselves." After Wu Xiaoge finished speaking, the three of them finished again, eating seriously, but their eyes always glanced outside.
After Qiu Ci came out of the public toilet, she was a little entangled in whether to go back so soon, to be honest, she was a little hungry, but being hungry didn't mean she wanted to eat.
She was looking down and meditating when she bumped into a hard object head-on, Qiu Ci hurriedly said sorry, and walked past him, but he didn't want his wrist to be tightly grabbed.
Qiu Ci hurriedly looked up, but he didn't think that person was Lu Fengbai, the Lu Fengbai who had just broken up with her yesterday.
She looked away from him, "Let go of me." Lu Fengbai didn't speak. Qiu Ci pulled his hand back, but he didn't want Lu Fengbai to pull her away directly, he was tall and long-legged and walked fast, Qiu Ci was dragged by him to trot all the way, no matter how Qiu Ci struggled along the way, no matter what he said, he just wouldn't let go.
I don't know what Lu Fengbai thinks, he took Qiu Ci from this toilet to another toilet, it was still a boy's, and without saying a word, he dragged Qiu Ci in, and the frightened boy who was urinating next to him hurriedly put on his pants and ran.
A closed door, a small bathroom, and two people who are in conflict. Qiu Ci was pressed against the corner by him, unable to move, Qiu Ci smiled helplessly: "What do you want?" ”
"I don't want to be separated from you." Lu Fengbai said bluntly. Qiu Ci couldn't cry or laugh, he was the one who wanted to break up with her, and now he was the one who said he didn't want to break up, did he treat her as a toy?
Call it and come and go when it is waved?
"Do you regret it?"
"I regret it." Qiu Ci didn't say a word, and raising his hand to him was a slap: "What do you think of me, do you want to lose it if you want to?" She was so angry, her mind went blank, she just knew that she didn't have anything else to think about now except being angry.
But what Qiu Ci didn't expect was that he actually held Qiu Ci's hand and asked, "Does it hurt?" Qiu Ci really couldn't stand it, she kept suppressing herself to let herself not be sad, let herself not cry, don't be sad for this kind of thing, obviously when he broke her heart so much, she could not help but cry, but now she can't bear it.
Tears kept falling uncontrollably: "What the hell do you want." Her voice almost begged for mercy.
"It's just one night, I'm going crazy at the thought of breaking up with you, I want to see you, I don't want to break up, I can't force myself not to think about you, I can't force myself not to love you, I don't want to part at all."
"You know what?" Qiu Ci suddenly calmed down and looked at Lu Fengbai.
"You once told me, let me trust you, you will do everything for me, I chose to believe you unconditionally, and then without knowing anything, you got engaged to another woman, that was the first time I was betrayed by you, I thought if it came to this, then I would leave you, but you came back to provoke me, after you came to me, I forgave you, I said that as long as you don't lie to me, don't abandon me, I will always believe you, but this time you told me to break up, I agreed, and now I don't want to break up, Do you still want me to forgive you? Lu Fengbai, don't you think you're a little excessive? Lu Fengbai looked at her, the emotion in his eyes was already extremely sad, he was too disagreeable, he obviously loved her very much, but he always didn't dare to act rashly because he was afraid, and he always hurt her.
"There won't be a next time."
"But I'm not going to give you another chance." Qiu Ci pushed him away. She just wanted to leave, but was dragged back by him, against the corner she was about to open her mouth to speak, but was blocked by Lu Fengbai, warm lips on her lips, he gnawed and sucked unscrupulously, the more Qiu Ci wanted to escape, but he hugged more and more tightly.
His breathing gradually became rapid, Qiu Ci could barely breathe, breathing desperately, and his vision in front of him had begun to blur.
Perhaps sensing the strangeness of Qiu Ci, he gradually let go of Qiu Ci, and as soon as he let go of Qiu Ci, he leaned on him weakly, and the whole person seemed to be drained of all his strength.
Qiu Ci leaned on him and said weakly: "You wouldn't have treated me like this before. ”
"I can't remember the past."
"But I remember, Lu Fengbai, whom I like, is a gentle and elegant person, who will care about and take care of his students, will personally buy lunch for the students, will give me free make-up lessons, never lie to me, never hide from me, I will take the initiative to stand up and protect me when I am bullied, and will protect me thoroughly, it is not that you are hurting me everywhere and persecuting me everywhere now." Qiu Ci stood up straight and said with red eyes and choked up: "I should have known that my Lu Fengbai and my teacher were already dead with that lost memory, you are not him, I found the wrong person, my teacher is dead, the person I like has died a long time ago, he is dead, and he will never come back." She tried hard to open her eyes and look at Lu Fengbai in front of her, the mist in her eyes blurred her vision, but she still gritted her teeth and kept her tears from falling: "Let me go." Lu Fengbai looked at the person in front of him, obviously so close, but he felt very far away, was he really that good in the past?
Is it true that he will never come back? Is Qiu Ci really going to leave her? The right arm was touched by her, and the smell of her was still there, but the man was no longer here.
Lu Fengbai leaned against the wall decadently: "This time it's really over." "She really didn't want him anymore, she really let go.
It turned out that all she had liked was the Lu Fengbai in her memory, and it turned out that Lu Fengbai, who had lost the memory of the time they had been together, had become another person.
Qiu Ci didn't know how she came out, but she felt that the cold body after coming out was a lot warmer, at least she couldn't see the face that made her almost soft-hearted, at least she wouldn't be hurt in the future.
She shouldn't have been so persistent in finding Lu Fengbai in the first place, if Lu Fengbai told her that she didn't know her at that time, she would have chosen to completely forget him and stop contacting him, maybe it wouldn't be so painful and uncomfortable now.
But there is no if in this world, she once again met Lu Fengbai, who had lost his memory, but was injured by him.
Maybe it's time for her to let go, and it's not too late at all.