Li Shengyao sighed, and the expression on his face became painful, perhaps what he was going to talk about today was the most painful memory in his life: "That night, I confessed to Ling Wei. After listening to my words, Lingwei was very calm, just leaning quietly on my chest. She told me that she had known that one day would come, since she had learned about my family. Before this, she had said to herself more than once that there was actually a kind of love called giving up, saying that she should be strong and not crying, but she found that she gradually began to care more and more about me, and she said, "The moment she fell in love with someone, the moment she fell in love with me, she knew that she could never let go of me again". She said, 'When you fall in love with someone, you suffer from their pain; grieved his sorrow; Rejoice in his pleasure; Happy with his happiness, from then on his heart felt warm and calm and down-to-earth. That's how she is now. I just hugged her tightly and didn't want to let go. If she is so, how can I not be so? Gradually, the corners of Li Shengyao's eyes moistened, and no matter how strong a tough guy is, there will be a soft place in his heart.

"Shengyao, look away, Lingwei is watching from the sky." Mrs. Li gently shook her husband's hand and comforted her softly.

Li Shengyao wiped the corners of his eyes without a trace, sorted out his emotions, and said to Li Juli: "Zhixian, are you disappointed to see Abba shed tears?" ”

"Abba, I understand." Li Juli shook her head, her father shed tears in front of her for the first time since she was a child, Li Juli's originally firm heart gradually wavered, and she secretly blamed herself for not understanding her father enough, and she was too self-righteous over the years, so she bowed her head and admitted her mistake, "Abba, I~ I was wrong." ”

Li Shengyao shook his head: "No, Jihyun, you're not wrong, it's just that you've grown up." ”

"Growing up?"

"yes, I'm starting to learn to 'deceive' people." Li Shengyao's words were full of relief, looking at Li Juli's confused expression, and then explained, "At the moment when you admit your mistake, you actually have a little doubt in your heart, doubt my words, and doubt whether you are really wrong. But you chose the words that are most beneficial to me and the most conducive to maintaining the relationship between father and daughter, which is actually a kind of deception, but also a kind of growth. ”

Li Juli listened to her father's words quietly, but it was the third time she heard similar words, and at this time she no longer had the resistance of the previous two times, maybe this is really a kind of growth.

Seeing his daughter's distraction and knowing that she had understood what he meant, Li Shengyao began to tell his story: "I often wonder if I am the luckiest person in the world. I can meet Lingwei, and I met your mother again. Your mother Ruoxi and I first met at an English café in Deyang Xian. Out of politeness, I deliberately arrived 10 minutes early and sat in the pre-agreed seat and waited. Until the appointed time, Ruoxi happened to come there and told me that I was sorry that I was late. But I knew that she had already arrived, because I had just seen her in the supermarket opposite. I didn't break it, and I knew I must have done it for fear of embarrassing me before I arrived. ”

"I knew it." Mrs. Li covered her mouth, after thirty years, when the scene was vivid, but this was the first time that her husband pierced his careful thoughts, "But, so many people, how do you recognize me?" ”

Li Shengyao turned his head to look at his wife sitting next to him and said, "Xiruo, you are so beautiful, as long as a man has seen it, he will not forget it." ”

"It's not serious, my daughter is still there." Although Mrs. Li was very happy, she still twisted her husband's arm hard.

Li Juli sat opposite and watched the intimacy of her parents, and then realized that the relationship between her mother and Abba had always been so good, but she didn't pay attention to it.

"On that day, I told your doll mother everything about Lingwei. When it comes to emotional issues, I don't want to deceive Xiruo, it's better to hurt once than to hurt for a lifetime. But your doll mother behaved more calmly than Ling Wei, she told me that born in such a family, marriage is always a bargaining chip for the exchange of family interests. Since we can't get a 'perfect marriage,' then try to make it perfect. She said that from now on, she will try to be a good wife, and I will be a good husband. Li Shengyao smiled self-deprecatingly, "After marriage, it turns out that Xiruo is not only a good wife, but also a good mother, and after having you." But I'm not a good husband or father, and I still can't let go of Lingwei. I didn't go home at night, but she never asked, if she knew that I was with Lingwei. Gradually, I also fell in love with your doll mother, a woman who always thinks about women. In this way, the days passed day by day, and Xiruo never blamed me for not going home, and Lingwei never complained to me that I spent too little time with him. You've grown up and become more and more like me in personality. I sometimes wonder if God is particularly kind to me, so that I have a pity after meeting Lingwei. …… Nineteen years ago, Lingwei suddenly told me that she was pregnant. I was also very happy to hear the news, I wanted to take her home, after all, it had been so many years, and I knew that I would not object to it. But she shook her head at me, and she said she wanted to raise the child 'quietly'. I couldn't resist her, so I had to give up. Ten months passed, the child was born, and we named him Junghyuk. But on this issue, we had a disagreement, I wanted the child's surname to be Li, but Lingwei insisted on Zhenghyuk and her surname Bai. We all know that this is not just a matter of surname, whether Junghyuk's surname Li or his surname Bai determines whether he has the inheritance of the Li family's property. This is the only way I really understood what Ling Wei really meant by 'quiet' in her words. In the end, Lingwei agreed to the child's surname Li, but put forward one condition, Junghyuk reached the age of going to school and sent him to study abroad. I agreed, though I knew Lingwei's worries were unnecessary. When the child was almost three months old, I told your doll mother about the birth of Junghyuk, and to my surprise, your doll mother wanted to see this child. Hearing this request, Lingwei hesitated for a long time, but finally agreed, and we walked outside the villa together, handed over Junghyuk to Yuesao, and watched them get into the car. No one would have thought that this mother and son parted forever, damn it, it was me, but Lingwei blocked the bullet for me, the bullet that was originally shot in my chest. ”

After 18 years, the old thing was brought up again, although Abba only said a short sentence, Li Juli can still imagine the thrilling extent of that scene. Seeing her husband's painful appearance, Mrs. Li also decided to explain everything clearly at this moment: "Jixian, the reason why I hold your brother in a daze on the second floor every day is not to complain about your Abba's lack of time to go home as you think, but to worry about your Abba's safety." That night, I quarreled with your Abba, not because of your Abba and your Aunt Bai, but because I wanted Junghyuk to grow up in China. In foreign countries, it is not necessarily safer than at home, as long as I hide my father, hide from my family, and insist that Zhenghe is my child. After all, An Jia is far away in Gwangju and has no knowledge of Gaoyang's affairs. Even if he knew, An Jia's hand would not be so long. Ji-hyun, I owe you too much Aunt Bai, forgive me for giving what belongs to you to your younger brother. ”

"Mother, those who already have a share of Zhenghe, are saying that your daughter and I can't support myself." Li Juli shook her head and said to her mother, You stood up, bowed to her father, and said, "Abba, my daughter is wrong. ”

Li Shengyao, who hadn't spoken for a long time, also stood up, walked to his daughter's side, patted his daughter's shoulder lightly and said, "Jihyun, remember one sentence, this is what Lingwei asked me to say to Junghyuk when he grows up." Now it is equally appropriate to say to you, remember: don't say love lightly, a promise is a debt. With that, he walked out the door.

Li Juli knew that Abba needed to be alone for a while.