Since his son started college, Blu-ray Qi has lived alone in the mansion, although there are many people to take care of life, but his body is lonely due to the lack of family affection.

He had just finished reading that night and was about to go to bed early as usual.

But the door of the bedroom, which was always dead silent, was suddenly rudely opened.

Lan Guangqi saw the comer clearly, and couldn't help frowning: "You forgot even the etiquette of knocking on the door?" ”

"You already knew that, didn't you? That's why I didn't let Hua Wan come near me! Lan Jiashu's expression was terrifying, and the sound he made was indescribable, whether it was roaring or really exhausted.

Sooner or later, the truth will come to light, it's just a matter of sooner or later, before or after death.

Blu-ray Qi has always understood this, so there are not too many mood swings: "It was her own decision, and I never forced her to do anything. ”

"Then why didn't you tell me?!" Lan Jiashu collapsed geology.

"Tell you, what can you change? You won't get anything but the pain of sending off those around you one more time. The stubble on the sideburns of the blue light has turned gray, and no one can imagine what unit his loneliness should be measured in the long years after his wife left.

Lan Jiashu shook his head unconsciously: "Do you think that when I know that she is no longer there, I will be fine?" ”

Lan Guangqi didn't speak again, just stood up, found a stack of papers that were stacked for some years in the heavy documents stacked at the bedside, handed it to him and said: "This is the case and some information that I asked someone to copy, she has myelodysplastic syndrome, basically there is no possibility of a complete cure, what to do next, it is your own business, but don't be the first to become a person who needs to be taken care of in the face of helplessness as before." ”

The cold paper was held in his hand, and there was a smell of despair.

Lan Jiashu put it away cautiously, looked at the floor and asked, "Mom is such a fate, do you regret marrying her and having me?" ”

Blu-ray replied, "I have no regrets. ”

"Me too." After Lan Jiashu said this, he slammed the door and walked away.

——

Although more than ten years have passed, Lan Jiashu still remembers that the day he learned of his mother's stomach cancer, it rained heavily in Beijing.

Lan Guangqi, who usually sees the end of the dragon and does not see the head, deliberately took his son home from school in advance, told him the news very seriously, and explained all kinds of knowledge about cancer.

Then, the dazed father and son sat on the sofa with each other in silence for a long time.

Although I have been warned many times, I can't lose control, I can't make my mother sad, and I can't cry out of harm.

It's a pity that with the aggravation of his condition, the young Lan Jiashu finally did all these things.

Yes, because of this he feared and hated death, and did not allow anyone to gossip about birth, old age, sickness and death in front of him.

But about the memories of my mother, I really didn't say much in front of Hua Wan.

Especially when she found that this could arouse her sympathy and love, the number of times she mentioned it afterwards was a bit deliberate.

The time that has passed, every day, every second, is like a knife piercing his flesh, piercing him in pain and blurring his flesh.

What kind of mood did Hua Wan force him to leave?

What kind of mood did he feel in the face of all kinds of pleas after he returned?

In fact, after knowing Hua Wan for so long, Lan Jiashu always felt that he had a hundred points of love for her, and she was very satisfied if she had ten points.

Later, they broke up, lost contact, became indifferent, and he even began to hope for even one point.

As long as she's willing to be with her.

Unexpectedly, the way Hua Wan loved him, he never had a chance to understand.

Lan Jiashu was in the car, reading the medical records of those MDS many times in a blank mind, and when he came back to his senses, he realized that he had already burst into tears.

It turned out that everyone's worries about him were not wrong at all.

In the face of life and death, he is so fragile, so fragile that he can't even go to see her calmly, he will only lie on the steering wheel and cry like an idiot.

Flowers are late, flowers are late.

The name seemed to have a magical power, as if it had sunk into the deep sea under the pressure of the Lan Jia tree, unable to breathe, pitch black, completely dead and isolated.

But he just couldn't let go.

Touching the old, silver-trimmed pendant of a flower and a tree on the car key.

Lan Jiashu knew deep down that from the first day she broke into his life, it would never be possible to leave.

——

After leaving the emergency hospital and secretly transferring to Xiehe, she quickly stabilized, and was instructed by the doctor several times to keep her mood comfortable, not to be depressed, not to think crankily, and to put it mildly, as if people's feelings also have a switch and can be controlled by themselves.

She felt quite comfortable on the day she was discharged from the hospital, and after thinking about it, she asked Wang Wen: "Xiaoshu didn't go to our house, did you?" ”

"I don't know." Wang Wen was scared half to death by her daughter, and she was not angry when she mentioned it: "You don't know, where do I know." ”

"I didn't answer his phone...... "Hua Wan sat on the edge of the bed very depressed.

"Wanwan, you really can't handle this matter like this, the other person is in Beijing, and you faint in front of him again, how can he be kept in the dark forever?" Wang Wen frowned: "There is also your job, quit early, it's too tiring!" ”

"I'll tell him when I get the chance." Hua Wan was bored: "Don't rush me." ”

"Okay, good, no one is urging you." Wang Wen helped her pick up the simple luggage: "Let's go, go home and eat dumplings." ”

"I'll get it." Hua Wan has become a frequent visitor to the hospital, and as soon as she is in a good state, she cheers up, grabs her duffel bag and says, "Let's go shopping first, I saw a dress last time, which is especially suitable for you." ”

"Don't spend money indiscriminately, what is Mom wearing differently?" Wang Wen refused.

"I didn't spend money indiscriminately." Hua Wan dragged her and said, "You are so good-looking, of course you have to wear something good." ”

——

This flaw is too obvious, which makes it inevitable to feel a little weak when you go to work later.

But when she hummed a song to the office, she felt that everyone was still the same as before, and when she was secretly speculating, Xiao Yunshen suddenly appeared behind and asked gently, "Are you better?" ”

"Huh?" Hua Wan's eyes widened.

"Didn't you say you had a cold?" Xiao Yunshen raised his eyebrows.

"Well, it's okay." Hua Wan sat down in a false alarm: "Is there any work for me to do?" I've already done the previous draft. ”

"Not for the time being, but I want to meet a friend in the evening, you can accompany me on a trip." Xiao Yunshen rummaged through the information at the table.

"Huh...... Why did you tell me to go? "Hua Wan felt inexplicable.

"Friends like long legs." Xiao Yunshen replied naturally.

Hua Wan almost choked on the milk she was drinking: "Master, have you changed your career to pimping?" ”

"Don't talk nonsense, just be in charge of eating when the time comes." Xiao Yunshen slapped her on the head with a document, and then went to the meeting.

"I'm good at eating." Hua Wan smiled to herself, but when she thought of the things that were entangled and depressed in her heart, she couldn't help but feel heavy.

Xiaoshu won't give up so easily, what if he gets suspicious and starts investigating himself?

- I don't know that my long legs have been exposed, and I am still thinking nonsense.

——

The nightlife of office workers is often boring, especially in places like game companies, where personal time is often sacrificed.

Hua Wan really doesn't understand very well, it's rare for Mr. Xiao to have dinner with friends, why don't you bring Lingxi, you have to drag yourself.

As a result, sitting in the car at night, I found that the road outside the window was becoming more and more familiar, and I couldn't help but untie my safety belt and hurry: "Master, you lied to me, I want to get out of the car!" ”

Xiao Yunshen held the steering wheel very calmly: "Where did I lie to you, Lan Jiashu is my friend, he really likes long legs." ”

"I didn't want to meet him, let me get out of the car." Flower late insistence.

But Xiao Yunshen ignored it completely, obviously standing on the same side as Lan Jiashu.

He didn't know about the illness of his long legs, and he kindly persuaded him: "This boy really loves you, and you like him too, so you shouldn't miss it for reasons unrelated to your relationship." ”

"How do I like him?" Hua Wan retorted.

"I called you the male protagonist of the game, and you drew a lot like him." Xiao Yunshen replied.

Hua Wan was dumbfounded: "Where is it like?" Put it back in my house. ”

"Do you want to perform a car jump, I haven't seen it yet." Xiao Yunshen stepped on the accelerator in an instant, crushing Hua Wan's little urge to escape into scum.

——

The existence in this world that can barely spend time is probably only Xiao Yunshen.

In the face of the idol's insistence, the long legs did not bear to go away after all.

It wasn't until she reluctantly entered Lan Jiashu's door that she found that Cheng Lingxi was already sitting on the sofa.

The little girl's eyes were worried, and when she saw Teacher Xiao appear, she immediately showed a saved expression.

Hua Wan didn't understand what was terrible about Lan Jiashu, so she sat next to her with her hands folded and complained: "What are you going to do?" Sick of it. ”

"Speak well, what attitude?" Xiao Yunshen frowned at her.

Hua Wan closed her mouth and sat there silently.

Facing his long legs, Lan Jiashu really had mixed feelings, but he had done a lot of psychological construction in the past few days, and tried to behave as usual: "Last time Ning Sen's matter made everyone very unhappy, and I blamed me for taking so long to deal with it, so if you want to invite Teacher Xiao and Lingxi to dinner, you should accompany Lingxi." ”

"Lingxi, if there's anything to eat, let's go." Hua Wan immediately grabbed the little girl.

Staying in the vice president's house really made the honest Cheng Lingxi very nervous, but she glanced at Xiao Yunshen and said, "Eat, eat, I'm hungry." ”

Hua Wan was desperate for their complicity, so she could only reach out and turn on the TV to watch.

"Then I'll go cook, and the ingredients will be bought, soon." Lan Jiashu breathed a sigh of relief.

Lingxi was a very traditional girl, and stammered, "You do it...... Isn't it done late? ”

"I know instant noodles, do you want to eat them?" Hua Wan asked.

"Just wait." Lan Jiashu didn't know how to look at her, so he smiled and went into the kitchen.

Cheng Lingxi had heard Mr. Xiao say that the two of them were lovers in college, so they worked clumsily and hard: "You are so happy, Mr. Lan can also cook." ”

"He's going to do something that's none of my business." Hua Wan deliberately did not squint at the cartoon.

Xiao Yunshen asked Lingxi: "Are you disgusted with me, I have also worked hard to learn to cook." ”

"Haha." Cheng Lingxi laughed dryly: "Don't do it." ”

Xiao Yunshen asked: "What do you mean, is it so unpalatable?" ”

Lingxi replied honestly, "It's not delicious." ”

Hearing the happy conversation between the two of them, Hua Late thought ups and downs.

How she wished that she and Xiaoshu could simply grow old with their son.

But when does the sky do as it pleases?

——

The dinner was more enjoyable than expected, everyone kept chatting about the company's events and the stories of making games, and the gradual recovery of Lan Jiashu's craftsmanship made the dinner delicious, and the warm time passed in a blink of an eye.

Unexpectedly, when saying goodbye, Mr. Xiao suddenly changed his face ruthlessly, and said to Hua Wan: "I want to carry Lingxi, let's go first." ”

"I'll just sit in the back seat." Hua Wan tried to follow them.

Xiao Yunshen said: "Not by the way. ”

Hua Wan was depressed: "It's okay to put me at the entrance of the subway station, right?" ”

"You figure it out for yourself, bye-bye." Xiao Yunshen smiled, took Lingxi's hand, and threw her here.

"Hey......" Hua Wan thought that only Lan Jiashu was left in the house, and couldn't help but be nervous, afraid that excuses such as low blood sugar would not be able to fool him at all, so he hurriedly packed his schoolbag, lowered his head and said, "I'm leaving." ”

"Shall we talk?" Lan Jiashu asked softly.

"There's nothing to talk about, don't force others in, we can't do it." Hua Wan often persuaded herself to try to be honest, but every time she came to a critical moment, she always wanted to stop talking because she felt sorry for him.

In fact, in the past few days, Lan Jiashu has imagined many ways to open his heart to her in a painful mood, but at this moment, he forgot all of them, and asked when he opened his mouth: "Why do you feel that if you can't cure your illness, you don't deserve love?" ”

This sentence was like a thunderbolt from the blue, making Hua Wan stupid there, and she didn't even dare to turn her head back.

"I'm sorry, it was Wang Linlin who told me inadvertently, and I never knew how to mention it." Lan Jiashu said in a low voice: "If it weren't for Teacher Xiao helping me trick you here today, I'm afraid you wouldn't want to see me." ”

Hua Wan is usually eloquent, but at the moment, her lips are trembling, and she can't spit out half a word.

"It's because I'm so stupid, in fact, I should have guessed it a long time ago, but you are so active, happy, and seem to have endless energy, it's really hard to imagine......" Lan Jiashu choked up before her, and continued: "Actually, I never believed that you would abandon me, take my dad's money, and be with other men, and I also knew that it was you who had no choice but to make up those clumsy lies to deceive me, so I worked hard, wanting to be a big tree that can shelter you from the wind and rain, and wanted you to stop worrying about any difficulties, but I really, I really didn't think it would be like this......"

After holding back for so many years, Hua Wan suddenly got rid of the huge weight of the secret, and just wanted to cry in the collapse.

She shook her hands vigorously, and before she knew it, her expression was distorted from crying.

"If lovers can only share happiness with each other, why is there a word in the world for sharing joys and sorrows? Why do you think I'm so vulnerable that you'd rather be honest with my elderly parents than shut me out? Lan Jiashu stretched out his hand to hug her thin body: "Even if there is only a year, a month, a day, or an hour left, I want to be with you, even if I risk losing you at any time, I still want to be with you, because this is the happiest thing for me, even if it is pain, as long as you give it, it is very precious." ”

Hua Wan couldn't cry silently, she had been blurred by tears, and in the slightest blink, warm tears would roll off her face, and she choked up and said, "You have a great life, don't be so stupid?" ”

"You're not me, you don't know what I want!" Lan Jiashu tightened his arms: "You have wasted the time I can accompany you for five years, and you will continue to abandon me for the rest of your life?" Is it okay for me to accompany you for healing, and don't avoid me, okay? ”

Hua Wan shook her head and broke his hand: "It's not worth squandering the best time of your life for someone who has missed it." ”

"I've never missed you, and you're not just a person, you're all to me, it's all, it's the whole universe." Lan Jiashu hugged her hard: "I won't let you go again!" ”

Hua Wan didn't know if he was crying harder, or if he was crying more embarrassed.

The breathless breathing made her head very dizzy, and it took a lot of strength before she turned around and hugged his neck tremblingly: "Little tree ......"

Those who are still alive and happily cannot comprehend the horror of the echoes of the steps of death.

Those who can still hold on can't understand how reluctant we are to each other when the separation comes at any time.

Hua Wan used all her strength, like holding a life-saving rope, and suddenly released the weakness she had hidden for many years, and put her head on his shoulder and wept silently.