"Alright, alright! That's it for today! Director Lin shouted impatiently, waved his hand, and let everyone disperse.

Lu Yu was still glaring at Li Xiaoxue angrily, his face was flushed, and he seemed to have the intention of working hard with Li Xiaoxue, and asked a few people to persuade him to drag him out.

The crew gradually dispersed, and Director Lin seemed to have not rested for several days and nights, so he walked back to the rattan chair listlessly, threw his tired body into the rattan chair, lazily, closed his eyes, and fell asleep.

Li Xiaoxue was still standing in place with her face covered, looking at Director Lin's brows still frowning slightly, knowing that she hadn't slept, she slowly walked to Director Lin's side.

"I'm sorry. I've caused you trouble. Li Xiaoxue said softly.

Director Lin opened his eyes slightly, looked at Li Xiaoxue, closed them again, shook his head, and said with tiredness, "You don't have to tell me this. Because, there's nothing wrong with you. If the actors are like you, our circle will be much cleaner. I don't complain that some people don't think well of us, and we are really bad at it. In particular, some people, for the sake of vested interests, do nothing and can do anything, and stubbornly make our circle a miasma. As the so-called stinky fish has a pot of soup, there are so many unfortunate ones that stir up the whole situation. Originally, we created spiritual food, but we have become the biggest source of pollution in the spiritual world. Maybe I'm getting old, over the years, I really miss those filming days more and more. At that time, although the days were bitter, everyone was happy together. From top to bottom, everyone thinks about how to shoot the scene well, a plot, an action, and even an action, a line, will be picked together for a long time. It's not like now, I only think about my own little things. Just to add more color to yourself.,I don't care about whether the integrity of the book will be damaged.。 ”

"Director," Li Xiaoxue listened heavily, and her voice was lowered, "maybe, no one can do anything about it." ”

"yes." Director Lin then sighed, "Once, I didn't think about reversing this situation, but the result was that I broke the blood flow. A few times, I didn't want to continue, but it was this love for film and television that made me unable to let go. It's just that I had to learn to compromise in my persistence, and in order to win some market, I had to add some vulgar things to my works. ”

Li Xiaoxue nodded: "This is also like reality and ideals, there will always be some helplessness in it." ”

"You can tell me," Director Lin finally opened his eyes and looked at Li Xiaoxue, "Why did you think of filming?" You should also know that an actress always has to shoot some more revealing shots. And you really can't do it in this regard. ”

"If I say I don't plan to stay in this circle, do you believe it?" Li Xiaoxue asked seriously.

Director Lin seemed to hear the most unbelievable thing in the world, straightened his body, and said puzzledly: "It's not that I don't believe what you say. I just don't understand why you think the way you do. Many people, in order to fulfill their dreams as actors, do not hesitate to pay a lot of things, especially in the early stage, even if they only play a tricky role, they will be extremely honored and do their best. When you first arrived, you played the second female lead, and if you continue to develop well, you should have a bright future. ”

"I was actually in a hurry to use a sum of money to make such a choice." Li Xiaoxue said honestly.

"In a hurry to use money? How much? Director Lin looked righteous and awe-inspiring.

Li Xiaoxue circled the words in her mouth a few times, and in the end, she shook her head and said, "Director Lin, is this really the case today?" ”

"To be honest," Director Lin's voice lost any strength, "I've been in a very bad state for the past two days. I always felt like my mind was a mess and I didn't have any strength in my body. I really haven't felt like this before. This time, I really want to get some sleep. ”

"Would you like to go to the hospital?" Li Xiaoxue asked with concern again.

Lin waved his hand at Li Xiaoxue: "That's not necessary. My body, I still have it. ”

"If Director Lin feels that his body suddenly becomes uncomfortable, it is better to go to the hospital to have a look." Li Xiaoxue persuaded again.

"Hey!" Director Lin sighed heavily, and suddenly gave Li Xiaoxue a sore spot somewhere, and her eyes were a little red, "It's been a long time since anyone cared about me like you." ”

Li Xiaoxue couldn't help but say: "Director Lin, your family ......"

Director Lin smiled bitterly and said, "I don't have a home yet, where is the family?" After my old mother passed away three years ago, I had no relatives. ”

"Director Lin is a person who values his career more." Li Xiaoxue said sincerely.

"Career?" Director Lin said like this self-deprecatingly, and finally suppressed his bitter smile, "Many people also think like this, as if I don't care about my feelings." In fact, if I had to choose between career and emotion, I would prefer the latter. It's just that my emotions are really different from many people's. I'm a person who is too single-minded. In half my life, I have loved, and only loved, one woman. The past between me and this woman is enough to make a poignant movie, but considering many factors, I have to give up. ”

Li Xiaoxue observed her words and looks, and also knew that Director Lin intended to express her emotions to her, so she came with some general interest and asked, "What about her?" Where is she now? ”

"Do you really want to hear the story between me and her?" Director Lin asked seriously.

Li Xiaoxue said sincerely: "Director Lin, what you can say, of course I want to hear it." ”

"Speaking of which, that was more than 20 years ago." Director Lin's eyes gradually became solemn, recalling the most colorful years of his life, "I just graduated from film school, and my first work was not directing, but photography.

"The first book I picked up, the heroine is her.

"She's very beautiful, special, it's her eyes with expression.

"Those eyes really have a penetrating power, so I didn't dare to look at it when I started.

"But I'm the cameraman, I'm the director's eyes, and I have to use my 'eyes' to record everything. Little by little, I captured her beauty from the lens of the camera, and she also showed me her most moving side through the lens.

Gradually, I felt that her smile, every word, was all directed at me.

"I 'communicated' with her like this for most of the play, one day, it was a close-up of her, she made a lot of lines like love vows, I was stunned when I listened to it, until the end of her scene, the director called a stop, and I didn't come back to my senses.

I knew that I was in love with her, and that she had passed that delicate declaration of love to my heart, and that had melted my whole being.

"Some people in the crew also saw my abnormality in their eyes, and at that time, although no one said anything, within two days, there were some rumors about me and her.

She found me after hearing the rumors, and after accusing me aggrievedly for a while, she told me to refute the rumors.

"I really didn't know how to suppress the rumors, so I told her that it was all up to her. Guess what, what did she say? ”

Li Xiaoxue's interest made Director Lin raise such a lawsuit, and seeing Director Lin's expression was happy with excitement, she just asked, "What did she say?" ”

"She said that being together is the best way to refute rumors." Director Lin's expression was bathed in the breeze at that time, and he said intoxicatedly, "I really thought that something was wrong with my ears,—— not because of my ears, but also because of my brain."

"I couldn't believe what she was saying to me, and I couldn't accept my own judgment about what she said.

So, in a daze, I just hope she can speak more clearly. She blushed and turned around.

"Looking at her beautiful back, I felt as if there was a fire burning around me. It wasn't until she ran away like a gust of wind that I had to make sure I had hit Peach Blossom Luck and chased after her.

"Our love affair began unintentionally.

"Just when we were looking forward to the future and thinking that the moment of happiness for each other had come, my family, after learning about our relationship, gave me a blow to the head and raised a resolute objection.

"They don't want my future wife to work in acting, and they are sure that I will never be happy with her.

"We already loved so much that we didn't want to be separated anyway, and in the end, we chose the extreme way and ran away from home.

"—We're in another city.

"At that time, there were generally no mobile phones, and being in a different city meant losing all contact with my family.

"We lived outside for about half a month, except for breathing, food, clothing, housing and transportation, everything was indispensable to spend money, and the money we brought in our hands was soon spent.

"Without money, our mood is getting worse little by little, and occasionally, there will be small quarrels.

"I had no choice but to go out and find a job selling physical labor, thinking that in this way, I could always sustain myself.

However, life is really not just about maintaining, and the days of being stretched thin have made her lose her original little bird and person.

"She often loses her temper for no apparent reason, especially when she watches me buy cheap stuff.

Although, she also knows that she shouldn't lose her temper with me, and every time she finishes it, she will apologize to me. There was still a little bit of disharmony between us.

"Finally, one day, in a public telephone hall, I heard her and her family complaining. Hearing her suffering, I really felt heartache.

"I really wanted to have a good talk with her, but I didn't dare to think about the possible outcome after the conversation.

"I thought that as long as I tried to make our lives better, she would bloom her beauty again in our lives.

"But, when I returned to our rented place after work, I saw the heavy faces of my parents and hers.

"I realized what was happening and what was going to happen, and I knew that I could only watch it happen.

"In the end, she and I were like crazy children outside and each of us were taken away by the family, and we didn't say a word to each other until we separated.

"After that, we lost touch completely.

Later, I heard that she married abroad and became an authentic Mrs. Kuo.

"As for me, although I have dated a few girls since then, I have not been able to let any girl take her place in my heart."