"Alas. ”

I took the feather duster and sighed into the cobwebs between the tea baskets. It's just that it's not a May Day holiday, and even the cobwebs are knotted!

Maybe this is the time, not because of the length of time, but because it is forgotten.

Luckily, I'm back.

I took a feather duster, carefully swept every inch of each tea house, and then wiped it with water.

It seems to wipe away the traces of oblivion.

But I felt their dissatisfaction with me, they were resisting, they didn't want to be in my hands anymore.

Because I have forgotten them.

It's not what I want, but it seems like it's what I'm hoping for.

Fortunately, Tumi is still there.

Maybe this is my last consolation, or punishment?

Who knows?

"Welcome, what would you like to drink?" I turned to the girl who was walking through the door. Her footsteps weren't heavy, but they were exceptionally clear.

It's the silence of loss.

"Have a cup of tea, you want a mayfly, chat, and rest from the past. The girl stood squarely in front of me, smiling.

Just like everyone in the TV series.

"Dare to ask the girl's name?" I saw her like this, and unconsciously learned to straighten her sleeves and sit upright.

"The little woman's name is Shi Sheng. The girl pursed her lips and smiled.

I laughed horrifiedly.

"Actually, you don't have to do this, just be casual......" I still sat solemnly, looked at her with a serious smile, and said seriously.

I always seem to be serious.

"Ah, I said it earlier, then you can call me Shi Sheng. The girl sighed as if she had been granted amnesty, the corners of her mouth raised high, and her eyes curved into crescents.

"Huh. I chuckled, didn't answer, and turned to remove the mayfly for her.

The crescent moon in the corner of the eye should be a stunning face.

The moon is on the eyebrows, and the shadow falls in the cup.

-

Life is like a big pile of dog blood, dripping over the head.

You're going to meet too many people you can't think of, you're going through too many unexpected things, and then you have to adapt to them and accept them.

It's like there's no other way but that.

But it's true.

I had a childhood that was short, but fulfilling. What is filled in it is not sweet and warm memories, but countless beatings and scolding.

But it's a time I miss.

In fact, my parents didn't beat and scolded me for no reason, but because I was naughty and stubborn. If you talk about it in detail, then I should be a child king, not afraid of heaven and earth. Others say that they don't go to the house to uncover the tiles one day, but I'm different, I was beaten today and the next day I still go to the house to uncover the tiles.

Actually, I don't know what the point of doing this is, it will only make them beat me harder. But I like to enjoy that feeling, at least to feel that they care about me.

It's a feeling that hasn't been seen in a long time.

When I was six years old, I came home from school and was bouncing around as usual. It's a wonderful pleasure, like meeting someone you've been waiting for, even though that person is the person you've been dealing with since birth.

Then a familiar person, in an ordinary tone, said something ordinary.

"Your mother gave birth to a younger brother for you, hurry back. ”

His tone was light, but also with some pleasure.

But I lost my mind in that moment.

I got home, saw my so-called brother, and looked at him. It's really ugly, crumpled, like a skinny monkey.

Then the family is complete, brother, father, and mother.

One more me.

-

Shi Sheng smiled helplessly and picked up the tea cup.

She smiled and frowned.

It's a very complicated expression, like a sudden life.

-

My brother was like a demon who dragged me into the nightmare he had woven for me.

My brother and I are two diametrically opposed beings, I can't speak, I don't like people, I wreak havoc all day long, and most of the people in the village come to my house to complain. And my brother is smarter than me, and better looking than me, with a small mouth smeared with honey sweetness, often coaxing my parents around.

The word flattery is really vivid when used on him.

So, my brother collected thousands of favors and turned into the little emperor of the family. He asked me to go east, and if I dared to go west, he would go to my mother's and cry and complain to me. Yes, it's a beating.

I even dreamed that I was picked up by my mother from the river, and I could remember the day and the river clearly.

I had never had such a real dream, so I asked my mom about it.

Then our family had an extra after-dinner conversation.

-

"Actually, my mother told me that I was very stupid when I was a child, and I believed what others said. She joked with me that I was the kid of the shop, so I picked up my bag and followed. Shi Sheng shook his head and sneered, "Stupid horse." ”

It's like talking to yourself, not for me.

I smiled and shook my head.

In fact, sometimes it's not stupid, it's absolute trust. Because of trust, even if you know that it is a deception, you will believe it without hesitation.

Humans are a ridiculous species.

Shi Sheng didn't notice the change in me, immersed in her memories, and couldn't tell whether her face was happy or worried.

-

Actually, I sometimes wonder if they also wish I wasn't my own, and they want to give everything to my brother, everything that should belong to me.

I really envy my brother for being able to lie in their arms and be spoiled and have whatever he wants.

It's something I've never remembered and don't dare to ask for.

I later learned that my father, whom I used to admire the most, ran away in fright when I was born.

How disappointing should that be?

I don't know, I don't want to know, but I feel it.

Gradually, I found that I was starting to change. I became cold-blooded and ruthless. I don't have the slightest attachment to this place where I grew up.

When I was a kid I would be happy to hold my dad on a motorcycle, but now I don't even want to answer his phone: when I was a kid I would come home on Sunday and cook a table for the house, but now I don't want to go back to that place, when I was a kid I would fight for my brother and bring him snacks, and now I don't want to see him anymore.

When I was a child, I still had this infinite reverie for all of them, but now my heart has no wavering, not even despair.

The last thing people are afraid of is not despair in hope, but not even hope.

-

"This is my past, I finally said it, and my father felt uncomfortable all these years. Actually, I don't want to, they all say that family is the closest thing. Shi Sheng raised his head and drank the mayfly, frowning tightly. "But who can not be sad like this!"

I was stunned, although I could tell that Shi Sheng was smiling reluctantly, but I didn't expect her to cry so suddenly.

I wanted to speak, but I was interrupted by Shi Sheng.

"For so many years, I can tolerate them beating me and scolding me, and I can accept that they are partial to my brother. For so many years, I have not treated him badly in the slightest, and I have my own brother, who is not spoiled! However, he ......" Shi Sheng choked up, as if he was mustering up courage, a great courage. "'Sister, I hope you never come back. That day, he said this to me, undisguisedly, to my heart. ”

Shi Sheng fell silent and silent. "I'm tired. ”

I don't know if she said it to me, or to herself, or to the years.

But she is indeed very tired, and even the smile is sentimental.

"I'm glad that my three views have not been distorted because of these pasts, and I haven't become a person like them, nor have I become the kind of person I don't want to see the most.

At least, I'm still me. ”

Before the girl left, she saw the moon again.

Sir, what if Shaohua doesn't have Shaohua?" The girl's expression was so serious, she didn't laugh or tease, she just frowned, and she was serious.

"Huh?" I was a little surprised, and I didn't quite understand what she meant. But looking into her eyes, I seemed to guess something again.

His lowered eyes stared straight at Shaohua in front of him, as if he had seen something, but he didn't see it.

Because the pupils are dull.

"She's dead. The girl's voice was calm, and there was no wave in her tone, as if she was sighing.

sighed into Shaohua, and there was a ripple.

The ripples in the cup quickly dissipated, but the figure in the cup that had been swept away never closed

This is the soul shattered by memories.

-

I don't know how to express this relationship, it's not a vigorous love, it's not a close family relationship, it's not a bubbling friendship. But it is a combination of all three, it is a less brilliant love, an equally tender family relationship, and a rippling friendship.

A small life, like a flickering candle flame, may be extinguished at any moment. At this time, the candle flame was in the palm of my hand, wrapped in my palm. She snuggled up to me tightly, fine fluff wrapped tightly around my fingers.

I don't know how to describe the feeling of being like that, but her gently waving paws tugged at my heartstrings, not chopping them up, but plucking them out into one song after another.

This is a wonderful thing that I don't know, like a spring breeze and rain, everything is new, and there is a tender shoot in my heart, breaking through the ground.

Since then, there has been a little earth cat named Ah Huang in this world, and this little earth cat will always follow a girl named Yu, one person and one cat, inseparable.

The pear vortex is accompanied by a shallow smile, and the years do not bend the waist.

"I held out my hand to her, and she would run towards me and run into my arms. I have never forgotten this feeling of being a thought and a spirit. "The pear vortex is still there, but it is full of wine and bitter