Why do we always fall in love with those who don't love us and disdain those who love us deeply?

…… Because we subconsciously feel that we don't deserve to have a good love.

We don't deserve to be loved.

What we disdain is always ourselves, not love.

In Su Su's chaotic dream, she put down the ballpoint pen and comforted Mu Mama, who was depressed.

"Code, it's not that you don't love your squad leader, you just have low self-esteem and feel that you don't deserve to be a squad leader."

So she would rather stand on tiptoe in a dark corner, tilt her neck, and look at the bright crescent moon than stand in the moonlight and let the moonlight shine all over her body, so that it could see her face as low as the dust and dirt.

She was so scared.

The closer she got to the moonlight, the more scared she became.

Worried that the moonlight would shine on her face, see her clumsiness, and see the difference between them.

So she wished he had never bowed his head, never bent down, never seen her little flower hidden in the shadows of the stones.

Only high above, hanging in the night sky, making a bend of the bright moon.

Su Sushu touched Mu Mama's head and whispered, "Mama, don't talk so badly about yourself." You're a good boy. ”

Mu Ma didn't speak for a long time, pretending to be doing his homework.

But in fact, all the formulas she kept writing on her scratch paper were wrong, but she was still fooling herself and continuing to calculate.

Mu Ma Ma blinked his wet eyes and asked Su Sushu softly: "What about you?" Are you a good boy too? ”

Su Susu was in a trance: "I'm ......"

She smiled, as if convincing herself, her voice almost inaudible: "I'm a good boy too." Su Sushu raised his head and said to Mu Ma with a smile, "It's just a little worse than you, not much, just a little bit." ”

Mu Ma asked again: "Then why did you refuse Yu Lin?" Do you also feel unworthy? ”

"Because I really don't like Yulin." Su Sushu patiently explained, "What I like is Brother Zhong Sheng. ”

Mu Ma was a little smarter this time: "Oh, I know, do you think you are not worthy of Brother Zhong Sheng?" ”

Su Susu didn't speak, just pulled the corners of her mouth and smiled.

That dream was real.

Su Susu saw her face with a blurred smile in her dream, and suddenly had an urge to cry.

She always knew that she was not worthy of Zhong Sheng.

She didn't deserve his love at all.

The next day's trip was to take a ferry to the island.

Probably because it was the first time she traveled with Zhong Sheng, and she pretended to have something in her heart, so Su Susu woke up early the next morning, she rushed to the bathroom to wash before Zhong Sheng woke up, lightly, afraid of waking Zhong Sheng, and wanted to appear in front of Zhong Sheng with the best appearance.

Su Crispy's eyes were slightly swollen, Su Crispy took the ice coke in the hotel's Xiaoice box and put it on a wet towel to compress his eyes, after preparation, he was about to call Zhong Sheng to get up, and Zhong Sheng himself got up first.

Su Susu didn't know why, she didn't dare to look at Zhong Sheng's eyes, just like a child who had done something wrong, and sat aside obediently.

Zhong Sheng glanced at Su Shushu, didn't say anything, and walked slowly to the bathroom.

Time flies.

Su Susu was at a loss, a little anxious, and ran to the coffee table to check the things in his small backpack, selfie sticks, wallets, mobile phones, power banks, and everything that should be brought, but Su Sushu still felt like something had forgotten to bring.

At this time, Zhong Sheng pushed the door and came out of the bathroom and glanced at Su Susu.

Su Sushu immediately stopped being anxious.

She forgot to bring it, probably because Zhong Sheng looked at her.

The two of them went to the hotel restaurant to have breakfast together, and entered with a meal ticket, the hotel environment they stayed in was average, but the buffet was very rich, Su Su's plate was full of food, sitting on the dining table, ready to turn grief and anger into appetite.

Accidentally ate a little too much.

The belly was full and swollen, as if she was three months pregnant.

Su Sushu and Zhong Sheng got up early, the colleagues in the restaurant were sparse and did not sit together, Su Sushu and Zhong Sheng sat by the window, and there were only two people on the huge dining table.

Su Susu touched her stomach and shyly said to Zhong Sheng, who was sitting next to her, "Husband, I have it." ”

Zhong Sheng put down his chopsticks and sank his face: "Whose is it?" ”

Su Susu was stunned for a moment and glanced at Zhong Sheng.

She trembled her lips and said, "Wasn't it you who touched me last night?" ”

Zhong Sheng pursed the corners of his lips and said heavily, "...... Not me. ”

Su Sushu's face turned pale all of a sudden, and he looked at Zhong Sheng in horror.

Zhong Sheng replied with a green silence.

It happened that Song Ci walked past the two of them with a dinner plate, heard the conversation between the two of them, and secretly cursed: Two mentally retarded!

Su Susu saw Zhong Sheng's forbearance expression, did not hold back, and burst out laughing.

She grabbed the corner of Zhong Sheng's clothes, looked at him cautiously, and said timidly: "Brother Zhong Sheng, are the two of us reconciled?" ”

Zhong Sheng glanced at Su Sushu and lowered his eyelids: "Have we ever quarreled?" ”

The corners of Su Sushu's lips curled, and he quickly pretended to be deaf and dumb and said, "We didn't quarrel, of course we didn't quarrel!" ”

After breakfast, Su Susu took Zhong Sheng to buy yogurt in a nearby supermarket, Su Susu ate too much for breakfast, in order to eliminate food, so he bought two large bottles of yogurt, one bottle to drink, and one bottle in a small backpack, Zhong Sheng quietly carried Su Sushu's heavy backpack in his hand.

Gather at the staff hotel, go to the ferry port together, and take the ferry to the island.

There are a lot of people who land on the island, there is a long queue at the ferry, as soon as the boat docks, everyone swarms up, Zhong Sheng protects Su Susu in his arms, passes through the crowd, escorts her to the second floor, and blows the sea breeze on the railing on the open-air platform.

Su Susu looked at Zhong Sheng directly.

As soon as Zhong Sheng's eyes opened, he knew what the hell Su Su had in his heart.

Zhong Sheng coldly refused: "Don't." ”

Su Su crispy soft grinding hard soaked dead beggar Bai Lai: "It's rare for us to take a boat together, Brother Zhong Sheng, just a moment, just play ......"

In the end, Zhong Sheng naturally couldn't withstand Su Sushu's entanglement.

…… Zhong Sheng looked at death and put his hand on Su Sushu's slender waist.

Very classic Titanic scene.

Su Shushu opened her arms, like a bird spreading its wings, gliding on the blue sea, Su Shushu closed her eyes and enjoyed the taste of flying for a while, and in Zhong Sheng's arms, she turned her head very contrivedly.

She looked at Zhong Sheng with burning eyes and said happily, "I-mFlyingJack!" ”

The pronunciation of the words is also quite contrived, like a level 4 or 6 English listening tape.

…… Zhong Sheng stared numbly at the sea.

“I-mFlyingJack！” Su Susu repeated it again.

Su Sushu puffed up his face and reminded unhappily: "Jack, according to the rules of the scene, you are going to kiss your Rose!" ”

…… Zhong Sheng stared at the sea with great sadness.

Su Sushu looked at him with burning eyes.

…… Zhong Sheng sighed, resigned himself to Su Sushu's straight arm to her chest, turned his face sideways, and kissed Su Sushu's upturned red lips in the wet sea breeze, on the blue sea, and under the blue sky.

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After landing on the island, Su Susu bought two stamped books, and then pulled Zhong Sheng around to stamp the island.

The island is famous for its elaborate and romantic literary shops, but now the streets are full of tourists who come to look for seals with stamp books, and they are collecting seals non-stop, but they ignore the time of the small shops that the stamp books represent.

Su Susu stopped at a slow post shop and sent two postcards with Zhong Sheng.

The person who received the letter was Zhong Sheng, and the time was set ten years later, Su Sushu finished writing the letter happily, and was about to peek at what Zhong Sheng wrote, but Zhong Sheng turned the postcard over and put it in an envelope, not showing it to Su Sushu.

Su Sushu said faintly: "Anyway, it was written for me, and I will see it sooner or later." ”

Even though he said that, Su Susu himself was embarrassed to stuff his postcard into the envelope, and neatly wrote Zhong Sheng's name and address on the cover of the envelope. This is written for Zhong Sheng ten years later, not Zhong Sheng, who is now by her side.

Lunch was settled in a restaurant on the island, Su Sushu because he ate a little too much in the morning, so he was full without two bites of lunch, and saw a vendor selling coconuts in the shade of a tree not far away, Su Sushu said to Zhong Sheng: "I'll go buy two coconuts and come back." ”

When passing by Song Ci's table, Song Ci stopped Su Susu: "Help us bring a few coconuts over this table." ”

There are more than a dozen people at this table of Song Ci, and more than a dozen coconut Su Crispy Crispy can't be taken by one person, Yang Jialing, who was eating at the same table with Song Ci, stood up and said with a smile: "I'll go with Crispy, anyway, I'm done eating, and Crispy Crisp can't be finished alone." ”

Su Susu picked coconuts on the vendor's stall, and couldn't help but say angrily: "I know that Zhong Sheng and I are husband and wife, and they deliberately come to me to trouble and pursue me, how can there be such a shameless male junior in this world!" ”

Yang Jialing endured it for a long time, but still didn't hold back.

She stubbornly said, "Crispy, don't you really think that Song Zhuce likes you, right?" ”

Su Susu said quietly: "Of course I know that he doesn't like me, and I'm not stupid." ”

Yang Jialing was stunned and said, "Then why do you still say that every time......

"Because I want to seize the emotional high ground!" Su Susu said as a matter of course, "Although he is using his position to squeeze me, I can suppress him with emotion." Once all his small actions have been defined as a clumsy way of pursuit in my eyes, then no matter how many small actions he makes, I can't bear it, and I still endure it happily. ”

Su Sushu blinked, looking clever: "After all, he can't catch up with me in his life, how pitiful, tsk." ”

Yang Jialing was completely stunned, she thought about it later, it seemed that from this moment on, her thoughts about Su Sushu completely changed.

Su Sushu, this girl, is really a very smart person.