Li Xiaoxue, who had never asked Han Haitao to hug so tightly, was almost out of breath, and with difficulty, she only said behind her: "Let go!" Let it go! ”

As long as Han Haitao hugged Li Xiaoxue into his body, his blood was the same, and he cried and said, "Xiaoxue, I was wrong." I didn't mean to say that. Don't be mad at me. I don't know how I could say such a bastard. Xiaoxue, please, forgive me. ”

"You let go of me, I want to, I'm going to strangle you." Li Xiaoxue said with even more difficulty, it was really like her breath was dying.

Han Haitao realized that his strength was too great, and he hurriedly loosened some of his strength, but his face fell to Li Xiaoxue's ear: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I really didn't mean to." ”

Li Xiaoxue's breath was a little more even, but she didn't have any strength in her body, although Han Haitao was already gently hugging her, she still couldn't break free.

"Xiaoxue, I know, you don't really like him. In every sense of the word, you are not suitable. In this world, Xiaoxue, only we should be together the most. Han Haitao's conceited words should be the first time he said it to Li Xiaoxue.

Li Xiaoxue listened, she was really unaccustomed to it, shook her head, and said, "Han Haitao, don't let me repeat that again." You'd better let it go. ”

Han Haitao also shook his head, and asked Li Xiaoxue again: "Xiaoxue, let me ask you again, if my mother didn't stir things up, would we still be the same as before?" ”

Hearing Han Haitao's question, Li Xiaoxue was shocked, twisted her head back, and couldn't help asking: "Han Haitao, what do you mean by that?" What are you doing? ”

"If that's the case, Xiaoxue, let's get out of here!" Han Haitao said seriously, although naïve, he seemed to have thought about it for a long time.

"How can this be? Han Haitao, don't talk nonsense! Li Xiaoxue almost warned.

Han Haitao said: "I'm not talking nonsense! I've been thinking about it for a long time. I know my mom broke your heart, and I know that the whole thing is all my mom's fault. Xiaoxue, promise me, let's go, get out of here, and start a life with just you and me......"

Li Xiaoxue took advantage of Han Haitao's words to support her two arms, and finally broke away from Han Haitao's embrace: "How can you have such an idea?" This, this is just nonsense, absolutely not! ”

"Why not?" Han Haitao said disappreciatively, "Xiaoxue, tell me, why not!" This is the best way out where we can be happily together. Do you know how determined I am to do this? Why not? Could it be that if we only do what they do to us, we can't make our own choices for the sake of a lifetime of happiness? ”

The more Li Xiaoxue listened, the more cold sweat broke out: "Han Haitao, this is not a choice, there is no choice!" ”

"Why don't you have a choice?" Han Haitao anxiously finished asking again, and suddenly saw a glimmer of hope again, and excitedly said to Li Xiaoxue, "What do you mean, what you take care of, is that really these?" ”

Li Xiaoxue saw that Han Haitao had misunderstood what she meant again, and hurriedly explained: "No, Han Haitao." I really don't want you to be like this. ”

Han Haitao only thought that Li Xiaoxue was insincere: "Are you still worried about your aunt?" Oh, I didn't make it clear to you just now. I didn't want to leave my aunt behind, so we took my aunt and left together. ”

Li Xiaoxue looked helpless again: "Han Haitao, are you sober?" Do you know what you're talking about right now? ”

Han Haitao had made up his mind, and said solemnly: "Xiaoxue, I am very sober!" I've never been so sober! I know what I'm talking about, and what I'm saying is from my heart! These words, really, Xiaoxue, I've been thinking about it for a long time. ”

Listening to Han Haitao's firm voice, Li Xiaoxue seemed to have completely unknown the man in front of her who had been in love for several years.

"Han Haitao, don't say anything else, we must always have some sense of responsibility as human beings. It's really not easy for our parents to raise us, and you can't ignore their feelings for your own sake. We have come to this day, and it should be said that it is not caused by any one person. If you are superstitious, it means that our fate is still enough. Li Xiaoxue carefully finished saying this, and somehow, she shed tears.

"Feelings?" Han Haitao smiled bitterly, "Who has considered my Han Haitao's feelings?" I feel like I've taken out my whole heart, not only to you Li Xiaoxue, but also to my family. But what did I get in the end? The people I am facing wholeheartedly, it seems, are all thinking about their own good with their own hearts, but they can only focus on their own hearts and put all the difficulties on me. Xiaoxue, why don't I have the right to choose the life I want? My parents have arranged for me too much, just because others say that I am a sensible child, and I have never insisted on myself. Now, can't I be a little willful in my feelings? Do I have to live for others all my life? My mother's temper, I know best. It's not that I'm not filial, it's not that I can't understand. I also want to serve my parents well so that they can have a happy old age, but can I just follow their hearts and let myself live in suffering? If that's the case, I thought, they look at me and feel miserable in my heart, what happiness do they have? Xiaoxue, please, listen to me this time, leave here with me, okay? ”

Li Xiaoxue really didn't expect that there would be such a branch in her life, she took a deep breath and said, "Things are really not like what you said." Of course, each of us can choose the life we want, but more often than not, what we need is actually a commitment. Life is not as expected, seven or eight times out of ten. No matter how life presents itself to us, the only thing we can and should do is to adapt to it and find ways to make it as good as possible. ”

Han Haitao still smiled bitterly: "Don't instill this kind of chicken soup for the soul in me anymore, okay?" No matter how motivating it is, without you, everything is equal to zero. Xiaoxue, I just want you to be by my side. Only if you are by my side will my life be sunny. ”

How could Li Xiaoxue give such "sunshine" to Han Haitao: "You are like this, do you know how difficult it is for me to do it?" ”

How did Han Haitao think that Li Xiaoxue had any embarrassment: "I don't want to, but I really can only do this." ”

"It's really the only way to do it," Li Xiaoxue paused again, turned sideways, and then toughened up a little more, "I have no choice but to disappoint you." ”

"Why? Why? Han Haitao still showed extreme confusion, asked repeatedly, and couldn't help but get closer to Li Xiaoxue.

Li Xiaoxue reflexively hid to the side to a tolerable distance, and then spoke, with obvious panic: "Please also respect my choice." ”

Except for that irrational behavior, Han Haitao, who never thought about his disrespect for Li Xiaoxue, listened to Li Xiaoxue's pleading words, and his emotions became even more excited: "But I don't understand why we have to separate!" You give me a real, convincing reason, okay? ”

Li Xiaoxue really didn't want to irritate Han Haitao too much, but she really didn't want the matter to end like this, in the end, she said bluntly: "I don't love anymore, is it okay?" ”

The simple "no love" is like a death sentence for two people. Han Haitao was stunned, and the blood in his whole body instantly coagulated.

Without turning around and glancing at Han Haitao, Li Xiaoxue could feel another mental collapse of the man beside her.

can be regarded as being put to death and then born, Li Xiaoxue, who no longer knows how to persuade this "infatuated" man, really hopes that this can make him learn from the pain and get out of the paranoia in his heart.

Of course, Han Haitao couldn't be completely convinced of Li Xiaoxue's answer, but in the face of such a decision, his heart really seemed to have been stripped of most of it, and he didn't know what to do.

"I'm sorry, it's too late, I'm going upstairs first." Li Xiaoxue said so softly again, but her body didn't move,—— so thoroughly, it hurt Han Haitao's heart again, Li Xiaoxue felt a little guilty after all, so she just threw down such a sentence and left.

Han Haitao didn't know if he could hear Li Xiaoxue's words, but the whole person didn't react.

Li Xiaoxue wanted to comfort Han Haitao two more words, but she knew in her heart that any words were pale and powerless at this time.

Then one to the left and the other to the right, go away, but Li Xiaoxue felt that every step she took was trampling on Han Haitao's heart.

But standing like this is not a problem after all. Li Xiaoxue didn't know how long she could stand like this, but she knew that Han Haitao could at least stand until dawn.

Of course, Han Haitao would not leave before Li Xiaoxue, he knew that it was he who abandoned him, and he couldn't throw Li Xiaoxue here in reverse.

Even if Li Xiaoxue really doesn't love him anymore, his feelings for Li Xiaoxue, as he said, will continue in this life, without diminishing.

This is his Han Haitao's love. This is his duty Han Haitao.

"It's getting late, you can go back first." Han Haitao was a little calm in the end, and Li Xiaoxue said so.

Li Xiaoxue knew that Han Haitao's tone was actually more desolate in her heart, thinking about taking another look, she still only leaned sideways, and after agreeing in a low voice, she raised her foot.

Han Haitao already felt Li Xiaoxue's gradual distancing when Li Xiaoxue's footsteps had not really sounded.

It seems that Han Haitao is trying to weave a huge net of sentimentality, and then let himself completely drill into it. Is it a cocoon? But at this time, he seemed to need this very much.

Read the first book of the novel