"Eat an apple." Han Haitao pointed to a bag of apples and said to Li Xiaoxue, as if he was reminding Li Xiaoxue of something.

Li Xiaoxue shook her head, looking preoccupied, silent.

"You can eat one!" Han Haitao shouted again, seeing that Li Xiaoxue only lowered her head and fiddled with her fingers, her heart sank a lot, "Xiaoxue, what are you thinking?" ”

"No, no." Li Xiaoxue was already talking in a panic, and tried her best to hide it, took out an apple and handed it to Han Haitao, "You eat, you eat!" ”

Once, when she saw Han Haitao wanting to eat an apple with the skin, Li Xiaoxue would slap Han Haitao's hand, snatch the apple unhappily, beat the skin with her own hands, and then hand it back to Han Haitao. And this time......

Han Haitao looked at Li Xiaoxue, and then at the apple handed over by Li Xiaoxue, but he didn't know how to take it.

Li Xiaoxue didn't see Han Haitao's thoughts, seeing that Han Haitao just didn't answer, she smiled slightly, and silently put it back again.

Next, the two of them were like clay sculptures, neither of them lifted or moved, and they did not make a sound, so that the sound of the air moving in the ward seemed to be clearly audible.

Time passed little by little, and it was soon dark outside the window.

In the past, every time it was dark, Li Xiaoxue would ask Han Haitao to go home, as if Li Xiaoxue was still a child who was afraid of the dark.

And today, Li Xiaoxue suddenly seemed to have forgotten this stubble, and only stood with her head down, like a devout believer confessing or praying in a quiet space.

Li Xiaoxue can forget, but Han Haitao will not not remember.

When Li Xiaoxue walked in and it was already dark, Han Haitao was a little worried that Li Xiaoxue would go back in a hurry because of the night. Seeing that Li Xiaoxue was still standing like this, he muttered a little, and felt that Li Xiaoxue's heart was full of topics that he didn't dare to face, and he couldn't say when, like a volcanic eruption, he would give him a catastrophic blow.

Of course, Li Xiaoxue already knew that it was late, but going home in the dark was an old-fashioned request that Li's mother had always made about her object, and Han Haitao was not a lover now, so naturally, Li Xiaoxue didn't think about it anymore. She stood silently like this, really thinking about how she could leave the person who had always loved her with minimal harm. Although Han's father's request had been agreed to her, three days had almost become a curse for her, but anyone who made a three-day covenant with her would be tormented as if three centuries had passed. Moreover, in addition to the impatience of time, what makes her even more unbearable is that during such an appointment, things that she unexpected will always happen. She was really worried, and there were extraneous branches.

"Xiaoxue ......" I can't tell if Li Xiaoxue is doing this to herself, whether it is out of his own impulsiveness Han Haitao, and he wanted to say sorry to Li Xiaoxue, so he called Li Xiaoxue's name, and the rest of the words, when he said it, he felt that it was tantamount to revealing the scar of his beloved again, and he choked in his throat stiffly.

"Huh?" Li Xiaoxue asked softly, couldn't help it, turned her head and looked at Han Haitao, seeing that Han Haitao was still looking at her with a bitter face, she seemed to be aware of what Han Haitao was going to say, so she slowly shook her head twice.

If everything is really in plain sight, the two people looking at each other at this time can turn the page of the past, and a new one, can it be opened again? In the hearts of the two people, they seem to have their own answers.

It's silence again, a silence where people's blood can clot.

And this silence, only three or two minutes, was broken by a series of footsteps that were unusually familiar to both of them.

The footsteps are Han's mother's.

As the footsteps approached, the two men looked at the door of the half-open ward.

When Han Mu pushed the door open completely, she saw Li Xiaoxue who was obviously frightened at a glance, and her mind suddenly flickered, as if her blood pressure had increased by one hundred and eight.

Li Xiaoxue's heart was beating like a drum, "dong dong" beating, afraid of meeting Han's mother's eyes, so she hurriedly lowered her head.

Han's mother stared at Li Xiaoxue's face like an enemy for several lifetimes, and slowly walked into the ward with the sound of the heels of her leather shoes hitting the ground.

Han Haitao glanced at Li Xiaoxue, then at Han's mother, at Han's mother, and then at Li Xiaoxue, at a loss.

Han's mother came to get the thermos bucket for tomorrow morning's meal, walked straight to the dining table, carried the thermos bucket, and saw that the amount was still the same as when she brought it, and she roughly understood in her heart, and couldn't help it, her face was pale, and she put the thermos bucket on the dining table again.

"Mom, what's wrong?" Han Haitao knew that Han's mother was not just a thermos bucket, so he asked unhappily.

"What's wrong?" As soon as Han Mu opened her mouth, she was already blown up, and she was angry, "Tell you to eat while it's hot, why don't you listen!" ”

Of course, Li Xiaoxue also heard something in Han's mother's words. It's just that she doesn't say that she hasn't pointed to herself clearly, even if she has completely made it clear, she really doesn't want to argue with Han's mother in front of Han Haitao. If your stomach is full, you will be wronged.

Han Haitao saw Li Xiaoxue's embarrassment, and Han's mother said even more unhappily: "I've already eaten, but it's just ......"

"Alright, alright!" Han's mother, who was bulging with anger, didn't wait for Han Haitao to defend anything, grabbed the thermos bucket again, turned around, and walked out while saying, "Don't eat and pull down!" I'll take it and feed it to the dogs! ”

"Mom!" Han Haitao saw that Han's mother's words were really ugly, and he couldn't help it, and he wanted to reason with Han's mother again, but Han's mother didn't look back, and she had already gone out.

"Hey!" Han Haitao pounded the bed, and then wanted to come back to comfort Li Xiaoxue, seeing that Li Xiaoxue was already in tears, he was about to go out, so he hurriedly grabbed Li Xiaoxue's arm and asked, "Xiaoxue, you tell me, what's going on?" ”

"No, nothing." Li Xiaoxue sobbed and said, about to break away from Han Haitao's hand.

Where is Han Haitao willing to let go, begging, and said: "Xiaoxue, you tell me, you came here, you really forgave me, do you want to be nice to me?" ”

Li Xiaoxue shook her head and said, "I said, I don't blame you for anything. ”

"So, can we still be like we used to be?" In this way, he had been holding in Han Haitao's stomach for most of the day, and at this time, he finally asked in a hurry.

Li Xiaoxue only cried softly.

Han Haitao was even more convinced of his intuition, and said in a low voice: "I knew that you were all acting in front of me. ”

When Li Xiaoxue heard Han Haitao say this, she felt another burst of colic in her heart, and she only shook her head sadly.

"Actually," Han Haitao laughed bitterly again, "At this time, why am I not acting?" ”

Li Xiaoxue felt that her heart was stabbed by Han Haitao again, sad and sad, and said, "Haitao, don't say that." ”

Han Haitao didn't hear Li Xiaoxue's begging voice, he looked to himself, and continued: "Just now, do you know, I still fantasized about it, thinking that as long as I grasp this opportunity, I can go back to the past with you." Xiaoxue, I really don't know what you think of my behavior in the past two days. Maybe I'm putting a lot of pressure on you, but I really didn't think about getting anything out of it. Oh, if I had to say that I had gained, all I got was a relief. This kind of relief may be irresponsible for many people, but I really feel like I have no choice. Xiaoxue, as I said, what I'm most afraid of is what you will be hurt, and I don't want to, it's me who will cause you harm. If you are only trying to save my life, and your purpose has been achieved, I ask you not to endure any more suffering for me. I've died once, and I'm not going to do anything like that again. Please rest assured. ”

Li Xiaoxue nodded sadly, took out her heart and lungs, and said, "I'm sorry, Haitao." As I said earlier, there were a lot of things I mishandled in the whole thing. We have been able to get to where we are today, not only because we can't think of it, but also because too many people can't think of it. Feelings are such a subtle thing. I also wanted to go back to the old days with you, but every time it ended in failure. People say that feelings are like a mirror, once broken, no matter how it is, it can't be bridged. When I started, I was not convinced, I thought, after all, it is not something that is out of reach, as long as you think about it, as long as you work hard, what is there that you can't achieve? However, when I face you again, my heart, my heart, is as if there is a layer tightly wrapped in it, and there is no way to open it to you as it did in the past. ”

Listening to Li Xiaoxue's "heart", Han Haitao's heart was like a sharp knife slashing on the ground: "Xiaoxue, can you tell me why you left me, is it because of him?" ”

Li Xiaoxue's heart was pinched hard again, and after a long time, she replied, "I don't know either." ”

The sentence "I don't know", what else does Han Haitao not understand?

Han Haitao let out a long sigh, and two lines of tears slipped down: "If you say so, I will understand everything." ”

Regardless of whether Han Haitao really understands now, Li Xiaoxue only hopes that she can get out of this emotional whirlpool. She will not be the only one who will be hurt by any deep fall.

"Will he make you happy?" Han Haitao asked seriously again.

"Happiness?" Li Xiaoxue was suddenly stunned.

is so common, how many people, including her Li Xiaoxue, have thought about the two words several times, in such a situation, and from Han Haitao's mouth, why does it seem to be very blunt and unfamiliar?

"Will he make you happy?" Han Haitao asked repeatedly, as if the answer to this question is more important than everything in the world.

Li Xiaoxue didn't know how to answer, as if she couldn't tell what the so-called happiness was.

This book was first published in Reading Book Worm