"Alas! It's really that horses are good and people are ridden, and people are good and bullied. You can't be too good to anyone,—— even to your beloved. Zhong You said sincerely, nodded solemnly, and drank the rest of the wine.

A glass of wine was all in my stomach, but the chopsticks hadn't moved yet. Or because he was hungry, the feeling of hunger before, at this time, Zhong Youcheng was gone.

"I knew," he said, touching his belly, and smiling at himself, "what else do you want?" At the top of the sky, three or five yuan of wine is enough for oneself to drink. ”

After calculating like this, he felt that this snack was cheaper, and he "snorted" in his mouth: "Let them earn these black-hearted money again!" ”

However, the dish is already served, and I can't stop eating it. As far back as he can remember, he had never wasted anything to eat.

"That's right! You can't give them a mouthful leftover! He made up his mind, took a big gulp, and ate it.

However, after eating less than half of it, he felt that he had eaten to his neck.

His stomach, which he did not first feel, probably, was already full. With just a glass of wine and a few bites of food, it withstood it.

Looking at the two dishes that had made a mess with his chopsticks, he suddenly thought that Li Xiaoxue hadn't eaten yet.

He was still thinking about Li Xiaoxue, devouring such a meal for himself just now, and he couldn't help but feel some sourness in his heart.

This sourness made his face change shape in pain, and he felt his eyes moisten, raised his hand, and slapped himself.

For the first time in his life, he hated himself like this, hating himself for being as good to Li Xiaoxue as ever, and hating himself for Li Xiaoxue's unchangeable heart.

"Xiaoxue, do you know how much my heart has suffered because of you? Xiaoxue, I gave you all my love, why are you treating me like this again? Do you really not understand this heart of mine? I just don't want you to get hurt in any way, if I can, I really want to hold you in the palm of my hand all the time. You're so kind, you think of everyone so well, you don't know what kind of fat you are in the eyes of many people, especially, many men. They're either wearing masks, or they're two-faced. They are human on the one hand, ghosts on the other, and they are like righteous gentlemen on the other, and they salivate at you......" he said silently, and in the end, he shed tears.

The tears were unusually heavy, and in an instant, they flowed through his thin face and slipped into his mouth.

He felt the astringent taste in his mouth, and knew that his tears had fallen, so he hurriedly raised his hand and wiped it on his face, and his heart seemed to be stabbed hard by some sharp weapon, and the tear glands were out of control, and tears gushed out.

He didn't want people to see him crying,—— even though there was no one in front of him ,—— him lying on the table, and a strong current of air in his body suppressed him, and at once his body trembled, and shook the table so creaking that it creaked.

In this way, after three or five minutes of work, he felt better, sat up straight, wiped the tears from his face thoroughly, cleared his throat, and called again: "Waiter! ”

The waiter didn't have any bones, and when he came to him, he asked weakly, "What else do you need?" ”

Zhong Youcheng pointed to the rest of the dishes: "Pack." ”

……

Li Xiaoxue has always felt that the people in the crew are looking at her with strange eyes, embarrassed and embarrassed, in a huge studio, almost can't find a suitable place for herself to stand.

Director Lin seems to have been straining his face with her all the time, no matter how normal a word is, if he says something to her, it will make her feel that she is deliberately looking for her stubble.

"Li Xiaoxue, Li Xiaoxue, don't think nonsense. Who really cares about you? She said this to herself secretly, wanting to fully devote herself to her work.

However, all around her seemed to be covered with eyes, and one eye after another seemed to breathe fire, scorching her body and her soul.

She felt every inch of her skin tremble. She really wanted to escape from here, at least find a place to get some fresh air for herself. However, she also knew that she could not afford to be a deserter. The more she escapes, the more difficult it will be? Standing here.

Fortunately, Director Lin didn't arrange too many scenes for her,—— Director Lin shouldn't have thought that she would appear here today.

Just when she was in the middle of another scene, she finished saying a few lines, but she heard a loud noise coming in from outside.

The sound was almost the same as yesterday's. In the noisy voice, there is obviously Zhong Youcheng.

It's just that Zhong Youcheng's voice is much more fierce: "Let me in!" I'm looking for my woman! My woman's name is Li Xiaoxue! Hurry up and let her come out for me, otherwise, I'll smash your bullshit crew first, and then sue you to court! ”

Her heart rose all of a sudden, she hated that she had no brain, so she didn't expect that if she came here like this again, Zhong Youcheng would not come back to make trouble.

"I'm going to get my woman out of here! I'm going to take my woman out of here......" Zhong Youcheng shouted these words repeatedly, so that she listened, but one voice was higher than the other, and the other was more angry than the other.

She can't let Zhong Youcheng rush in anymore, and she can't let Zhong Youcheng repeat his old tricks.

She didn't care too much, so she ran out.

"Stop! Stop! Li Xiaoxue, what are you doing? Director Lin shouted.

She had already run more than ten meters, and when she heard Director Lin's shout, she suddenly stopped her feet, and then she wanted to listen to Zhong Youcheng's movements, but Zhong Youcheng's voice disappeared strangely.

The eyes of other people in the crew took her as the focus again, and they all brushed her and fell on her.

"What's wrong, Li Xiaoxue, what's going on again?" Director Lin asked again in confusion and stood up from the rattan chair.

Li Xiaoxue knew that she had auditory hallucinations, and asked Director Lin, but she didn't know how to answer.

"What's wrong?" Director Lin also asked, and had already walked up to Li Xiaoxue.

"No, nothing." Li Xiaoxue said in a panic.

Director Lin glanced at Li Xiaoxue a few more times, and said in a concerned tone, "Your state is indeed not good. Otherwise, you can go back first. ”

Li Xiaoxue's mind was also very confused, and she nodded gratefully to Director Lin, and said, "I'm sorry, Director Lin, I must come early tomorrow." ”

……

Li Xiaoxue was only afraid that Zhong Youcheng would not be able to find her after he went back, so she ran to the crew to make trouble, and hurriedly returned to the rental house, but there was no sign that Zhong Youcheng had come back in the house.

"Hey—"

She let out a long breath and sat down on the bed again.

She knew that she shouldn't come back here, but she was really afraid that Zhong Youcheng would make something again.

She also knew that she and Zhong Youcheng couldn't go on like this, but she didn't know if she could really leave this man.

There were already too many burdens on her shoulders, she was already tired, she felt overdrawn, and she wanted to unload all the burdens, but she couldn't. Not only does she carry such a mental burden, but she also bears a real debt. And this debt, up to now, seems to be more than just money. Debts other than money are difficult to calculate, let alone repaid.

It's really like Cao Yingying said, when she started to prepare for the exhibition, she shouldn't have to carry everything alone.

At that time, she thought that she could withstand it no matter what, at that time, she only wanted to give the child who was still in the womb a good future, at that time, she felt that life always had to fight, at that time, she had outlined everything, just waiting to implement it step by step, at that time, her real idea was to make a desperate bet, at that time, she thought she was thoughtful, it turned out, it was still too simple.

Now she is like this.

She shed tears again, and the tears seemed to be something that had always remained unchanged between her and Zhong Youcheng.

Unconsciously, the sky darkened little by little, and she felt that her waist was stiff, so she got up, looked out the window again, and her heart was raised to her throat, and she was surprised: "Why hasn't he come back yet?" ”

- She is still thinking about Zhong Youcheng. I really think about it. Between Zhong Youcheng and her, there is no love at all, but, in the end, she also regards Zhong Youcheng as one of her companions. Being with Zhong Youcheng has become a habit for her.

Such a habit is the imprint of time on her body and mind.

She once had a pair of cats, a male and a female, and when they fought, they couldn't get along, and when they slept, they had to hug each other.

After that, the male cat was infected and went first, and she clearly saw that the female cat was full of tears.

Emotionally, how strong are people compared to cats?

Because of habits, how many couples have scolded to the old, beaten to the old, and hurt each other to the old.

After she was worried about Zhong Youcheng, her heart hissed and hurt.

The scene in her frightening dream appeared in front of her eyes again,—— Zhong Youcheng couldn't help but pour out his anger and walked towards death little by little.

She did not see it from anyone, but from one of her male cats.

She watched as the male cat took his last breath and sighed softly. This made her unable to extricate herself from that situation for a long time when the male cat died.

It was the first time she experienced the fragility of life. For the first time, I knew the distance between life and death, and it turned out that it was so close.

If people can be simply divided into good people and bad people, she is willing to put Zhong Youcheng in the ranks of good people.

Zhong Youcheng's life experience is unfortunate first. She didn't think it was up to any point in the slightest. If Zhong Youcheng was born in an artistic family, he would have been famous in the field of painting for a long time.

And just like Zhong Youcheng himself said, God only gave him artistic talent, but the artistic path paved for him was extremely difficult.

Zhong Youcheng, far from being discouraged, regards art as his life and loves art like crazy.

Zhong Youcheng's wish is to leave beauty to the world. How can a person with such a beautiful wish not be a good person?

Zhong Youcheng's temper is indeed a little weird, and many times, he even behaves more impulsively. But is he entirely to blame for this? His world is too incomprehensible and unacceptable.

A person with such a beautiful wish is regarded as an outlier by many people, how can this person not be chilled?

More people are not optimistic about Zhong Youcheng, she thinks that it is because Zhong Youcheng can't make money.

However, in life, is it only serious to make money? If everyone only knows how to make money, how terrible the world should be!

For Zhong Youcheng to think about it again, her heart became more and more uncalm.