Side A. Ann knows

"So, tonight's winner of the best female singer of the year is - An Zhizhi!"

When the spotlight hit him, An knew that he still hadn't come back to his senses. So much so that the expression on his face was dazed at this moment.

For ten years, she has been walking alone in this circle, and she has never dared to stop for a moment, and now, she has finally got the return she deserves. Receiving this trophy, she officially established her status in the music world, and from now on, everything will be different.

However, Ann was not happy.

Because there was one thing that she didn't expect.

She originally heard that Shen Yanru was invited to participate in this year's Golden Melody Awards and would appear as a guest of honor. And the person who told her the news revealed that she is very likely to be the guest of honor for Best Female Singer.

However, now standing next to the host and announcing that the winner is her person, but not her.

Ann knew she didn't know what was wrong. Is there a mistake in her own information, or is there something wrong with her?

So since the award presenter came to the stage, she has been in a trance, even if she heard her name at this moment, she didn't seem to be happy or even crying with joy as expected, but she never came back to her senses.

She walked up to the stage mechanically, got the trophy from the award presenter, and then casually said a dry acceptance speech - I actually memorized the thank you draft before, but now my mind is blank and I can't remember a word.

She thought she would be able to take this trophy from Shen Yanru's hands.

In recent years, Shen Yanru has faded out of the music scene and emigrated abroad, and has rarely appeared in front of the media and the public. This time she will accept the invitation to the Golden Melody Awards, which surprised many people.

Having missed this opportunity, Ann knew that she didn't know if she would be able to contact her again.

It's not for anything, it's probably just a little obsession in my heart.

She came into this circle because of this person. However, by mistake, they were not able to go to her, and even for a full ten years, the intersection of the two people was pitiful.

However, even so, for An Zhizhi, Shen Yanru is still different.

This difference may not even be clear to herself, but she knows that Shen Yan is like a benchmark on her way forward, so high and clear. She just had to keep going in this direction, just keep going.

What happens when you get to the point? Ann knew that she hadn't thought about it.

Maybe it's just to get a chance to stand in front of her and tell her that even without her help, I've come this far.

So from the moment she got the news, she was full of anticipation. Sometimes An Zhi couldn't tell whether he was more looking forward to winning the award or looking forward to contact with Shen Yanru. But in fact, these two are the same, because only by winning the award can she stand in front of Shen Yanru.

So for this best female singer, she knows that she is bound to win!

She got it.

But Shen Yanru did not appear.

was supposed to be perfect, but there was a huge flaw, so that An Zhi couldn't raise his energy.

At one point, she even thought about what she had missed ten years ago. Is it that there is no fate between her and Shen Yanru, so she is destined to pass by?

When he stepped down from the stage with the trophy in his hand, An heard two staff members next to him talking in a whisper.

"Didn't I hear that the award presenter for the best female singer was Shen Yanru? She doesn't seem to be here tonight? "One of them is humane.

"Don't you know?" Another exclaimed.

"Know what?"

"Oh...... You may not have heard of the news that has just arrived. "The man said," I heard that something happened to Shen Yanru. ”

"What?" An Zhizhi asked before the staff member, she walked quickly to the two of them and grabbed the person who spoke, "What did you just say, Shen Yanru had an accident?" ”

She didn't notice that she was now pale, her voice was hoarse, and she was even trembling slightly, and she couldn't even use her strength to hold the other party's hand.

Fortunately, the staff knew her, "An Tianhou? How do you ......"

"Tell me!" An Zhizhi tightened his fingers, "What happened to Shen Yanru?" ”

"Yes...... Plane crash. I heard that she was supposed to catch today's plane to attend the award ceremony, but I didn't expect ......"

There was a boom, as if something was exploding in her ears, which made her completely lose her five senses, she couldn't see, hear, or feel any existence, only the words echoed repeatedly in her mind, "It's a plane crash......"

Plane crash. Falling from tens of thousands of feet in the air, there is no chance of survivors surviving.

She'll never have another chance.

It was as if a string that was getting tighter and tighter suddenly couldn't withstand the huge pressure and collapsed, and An knew that his eyes were dark and he lost consciousness.

However, I am really unwilling......

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Side B. Shen Yanru

Before Shen Yanru decided to fade out of the entertainment industry, he had a short but in-depth conversation with Xuan Zihang.

At that time, she had just finished the contract in her hand, and Xuan Zihang brought several newcomers who had just entered the circle to choose for her, but she refused.

Since terminating the contract with Zhang Tianjie, she has always only brought newcomers, and when they have made a little achievement, she will terminate the contract and then dig out newcomers. Because of this, she was once nicknamed "singer training camp" by the media.

Because of this, many newcomers even began to find her here to recommend themselves. Even other friends in the circle couldn't help but recommend it to her when they saw potential newcomers.

However, this time, three months after the end of her last contract, she has never picked a satisfactory newcomer.

"I don't know what kind of person you're looking for, but you're too picky." Xuan Zihang said, "I think the kid recommended by Louis is good, he has aura and understanding, and he is stronger than the previous ones, what are you not satisfied with?" ”

"That's different." Shen Yanru thought about it and said.

"What's the difference?" Xuan Zihang asked her rhetorically.

Shen Yanru was slightly stunned. This question was like a key, which made her mind suddenly clear, as if she had seen the sun through the clouds, and finally saw her thoughts clearly.

She used to just subconsciously look for some people, but after contact, she gradually felt that something was wrong, and then gave up and started again. But why, Shen Yanru never thought deeply.

However, at that moment, after hearing Xuan Zihang's question, the answer to this question suddenly appeared in her mind.

Yes, not the same. Because none of them are her.

She knew what she was looking for. Or that this answer has always existed in her heart, but before that, she seemed to have been avoiding it, so she fell into it and couldn't see it clearly.

In Shen Yanru's life, there is only one regret that she can never let go.

That year, Zhang Tianjie finally won the trophy for Best Female Singer, and after she proved that she really has the ability to become a producer, she couldn't wait to go to that inconspicuous town, wanting to take someone away from there.

But she went late.

Later, she realized that she was only half an hour late.

Maybe it's not fate. Louis, who knew a little bit about it, once persuaded her like this.

So Shen Yanru had to bury all his regrets deep in his heart. There is no fate, and since this is the case, it cannot be forced.

So later she began to discover other newcomers, hoping to find the one who had a fate with her.

But now, Shen Yanru understands that it is impossible. She is who she is, and she can't be replaced by anyone else.

In fact, Shen Yanru didn't know why he was so obsessed with An. Even if there was a moment when she saw her own shadow, and even saw the hope of breaking through the predicament on the road of music, the two of them never got along after all, they just had such a verbal agreement.

But she just remembered this person.

It's funny to say, although she tries her best to avoid meeting An Zhixiao, and she doesn't want to mention her or comment on her in front of outsiders, but in fact, Shen Yanru has the most complete collection of An Zhizhi in her hands, and if any fan of An Zhizhi sees it, I'm afraid they will scream.

But she never listened or looked, just collected.

Even she didn't know what she was trying to do. It's just that his eyes subconsciously follow such a person.

If there is another person in this world who knows everything she has experienced and endured, that person must be her Shen Yanru.

It's just that I'm afraid that the most senior paparazzi will not be able to dig out such a secret.

It was only after being reminded by Xuan Zihang that Shen Yanru realized that he had actually been running away all these years, but he had never escaped. Even if she still stays in this circle and works hard to dig up new people, she just hopes to find her shadow from other people.

But can't find it, of course, isn't it?

After thinking about this clearly, Shen Yanru lost interest in this repeated work.

She locked herself in her home, took out all the things she had collected related to An Xiaoxiao, and opened them one by one. After reading all these things, Shen Yanru made a decision, she wanted to fade out of the entertainment industry.

As for why she just faded out instead of quitting, she thought, maybe deep down, she might still be a little reluctant to give up.

It would be better to stand in a place close to her, and watch her go down this road until the day of success.

- Of course, An knew that he would definitely succeed, which Shen Yanru never doubted.

Then, that day finally came.

She received an invitation to the Golden Melody Awards as a guest of honor. The organizers also thoughtfully attached the shortlist to remind her that she could choose which award to be presented for.

Best Female Vocalist, of course.

By the time her fingertips crossed the name, it was already doomed that there would be no other answer.

When that day comes, she will personally give her the trophy symbolizing her achievements in the music world, and then give her a hug.

In fact, Shen Yanru wasn't sure if An Zhi still remembered himself, whether he still remembered the agreement that he used to make now like child's play. But she was full of anticipation for being able to see An Xiao again.

However, at this time, her grandfather fell ill and was admitted to the hospital, and she had to stay in the United States to fulfill her filial piety, so the idea of returning to China early could only be shelved.

Fortunately, it's okay to spare a day or two to attend the awards ceremony.

However, fate may have been playing tricks on her. Just as the plane flew over the Pacific Ocean, it encountered a deadly turbulent current, and the plane suffered heavy damage, unable to continue sailing, and fell into the sea.

During this period, the stewardess panicked and handed everyone a pen and paper and asked them to write a suicide note.

Shen Yanru thought about it calmly and found that he actually didn't have anything to explain. Family members have their own destiny, even if it will be sad to lose her, but there will always be a time when they can come out. Limited possessions are even less of a concern.

Maybe in the end, there is only one person left who makes her linger and regret her life.

Maybe there was no fate, she remembered what Louis had said, so fate made people, and they were destined to always pass by like this.

However, I am really unwilling.

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Man is the most amazing creature in the world. Most people may only be busy all their lives, but when they are in a desperate situation, they tend to burst out with great energy.

There are often stories on the news such as a good Samaritan catching a person who fell from a height, an old lady bursting faster than a world champion to save her granddaughter, and a mother using her body to hold up a space for her child in an earthquake, all of which are miracles created by human will.

Maybe An knew that he was able to break through the limitations of time and space and return to before everything happened, but it was also because of his overly strong obsession that created a miracle.

The Buddha said: It took 500 times to look back in the past life in exchange for the passing of this life.

If this is the case, then we can meet and fall in love now, it must not be because I am too religious, but at the moment when we passed by, we both turned back.

There's no reason why the obsession of double copies can't bring miracles, isn't it?