Lin Zhao was enthusiastically boiled by Qin Muyang's words, as if he was really a pillar of the country, and he could be admitted to Tsinghua University and Peking University in minutes.

After being enthusiastic for a while, Lin Zhao calmed down: "I got the first place in the entrance exam because I have been studying hard for three years in junior high school, but I haven't studied much in high school." It's been half of the three years of high school, and I'm still trying to catch up. ”

Qin Muyang didn't answer him, but changed the subject: "Can I ask you a question?" Of course, you can also not answer. ”

"What do you want to ask?"

Qin Muyang asked: "Since you worked so hard to be admitted to the first middle school, why did you give up when you got to the first middle school?" ”

Lin Zhao was silent. This question was asked to him by many people, and there were others who were curious even though they didn't ask, but he didn't say anything.

But the moonlight is beautiful tonight, and it's perfect for talking about your heart.

"I don't know if you've heard about my family." Lin Zhao didn't wait for Qin Muyang to answer, and said to himself, "My mother ran away with someone when I was in elementary school, leaving me and my father to rely on each other. Of course, I didn't get hit by this and didn't study, after all, my mother didn't take much care of me when she was at home, and I didn't have deep feelings for her. What really hurt me was my dad, we clearly said that we would live with the two of us for the rest of our lives, but he took my stepmother into the door after my high school entrance examination, and my stepmother was still pregnant with a child in her belly. ”

"At first, I also had trouble, but then I saw that my dad was too embarrassed between me and my stepmother, and slowly I compromised. I comforted myself that there should be more than one person in the family, anyway, my dad is still my dad, and no one can snatch him away. ”

"But it turns out that I am too naïve, I am willing to settle things, but my stepmother is not willing to stop. She whispered to my dad when she had nothing to do a day, saying that it is not easy to raise a child now, the family economy is not broad, and there should be more planning everywhere. She also said that there are so many college students now, and it is better to go out to work early to earn some money to subsidize the family if they spend so much money to study in college. Anyway, the meaning of the words is to tell me to stop studying and go to work. ”

"I was annoyed by her words, but I didn't pay attention to them, because I knew that my dad couldn't listen to her. But who knows, the truth gave me a loud mouth. ”

"I didn't see my dad on the day I signed up. I asked my stepmother where my dad had gone, and she said to me arrogantly that my dad had gone to province Y to buy her tonics and that he wouldn't be back until two days later. I don't believe it, my dad knew that those two days were the days of registration for No. 1 Middle School, how could he leave me and run to Province Y. I stood at the door and waited for him, waiting for him to come back and pay my tuition, and I waited for two days, and he didn't come back. ”

Lin Zhao laughed: "You know what? When I was a child, my dad said to me the most: 'Xiao Zhao, study hard, get a good university in the future, find a good job, don't be like me, uneducated, you can only sell coolies'. I studied as hard as he expected, but he didn't stay with me as I thought. Since he's given up on me, why should I try so hard to meet his expectations? ”

"There may be some misunderstanding here." Qin Muyang said.

Lin Zhao looked at Qin Muyang and was excited: "It's a fact that he found me a stepmother, and it's also a fact that he didn't pay me tuition, he just gave up on me when he had a little son, what else can there be any misunderstanding?!" ”

Qin Muyang took back the words that came to his mouth, and gently patted Lin Zhao's back to comfort him: "Lin Zhao, don't be like this. It's all in the past, and even if there's a mistake, it's their fault, don't be sad. ”

Lin Zhao had been holding on to death before, and when he was comforted by Qin Muyang, he immediately couldn't help crying: "I don't understand, my dad and I have always had a good life, how did it suddenly become like this." I waited for him for two days, I waited for him for two whole days without sleeping, why didn't he come back, why?! ”

Although he later signed up for high school with the help of his junior high school homeroom teacher, although Lin Junguo took good care of him later and seemed to compensate him, those two days of desperate waiting left an unhealable wound in his heart, and no amount of compensation would be of any avail to him.

Qin Muyang hugged Lin Zhao, who was crying breathlessly, and secretly blamed himself, he should not have mentioned it if he knew that this question would evoke so many painful memories for Lin Zhao.

At the same time, he was a little glad that these things had been too heavy in his heart, and the longer he passed, the more he couldn't say it, and finally it became an eternal shackle in his heart. In the previous life, Lin Zhao didn't say it, and he didn't ask, and the shackles of the guide zhì locked Lin Zhao for a lifetime; And in this life, he asked, and Lin Zhao also said, maybe things can take a turn for the better.

In short, no matter what, he will not let the tragedy of the previous life happen again.