"What's the matter, tell me." Bu Xiao said in a deep voice, seeing the smoke rising between his fingers, and the soot had accumulated a little long, he pinched the cigarette and raised it to his lips and took a puff.

Behind Bu Xiao is the window in the house, half of the curtains are drawn, and the other half of the glass window allows the red light of the sunset to pour into the house, reflecting Bu Jingsheng's face, the eldest brother is sitting in the afterglow of the sunset in the west, but his face is even paler, and he does not raise his eyes to look at himself, he has been hanging his eyes, and his waist and back are a little rickety, all of which he can see clearly.

"Xiao Hui, he is not sensible, he told me last night that he was leaving, I asked him where he was going, he said to leave G City, I asked him what to do in college, he didn't say a word......" Bu Jingsheng lowered his eyes, lowered his head, and when he said this, his expression was a little wavering, and his chest rose and fell: "I know that he is spoiled and not sensible at all, but he was admitted to G University with great difficulty, and he has been in it for less than a month......"

Bu Xiao listened to Bu Jingsheng's words, the more the eldest brother said, the more bitter his tone became, and his expression became more solemn, he vaguely knew what the eldest brother meant, but he couldn't speak for a while, and the bitter feeling in his throat became stronger.

"I, I'm just a wreck, I can't even take care of my son......" Bu Jingsheng shook his body and sighed heavily, like a half-dead person sitting in the sunset light: "I asked him where he was going, and he said that he would either go to Beijing to drive, or go to the army to be a soldier, which one is not very good, his stinky temper, can he endure hardships and crimes?" Why can't you go out and touch your nose with ashes...... Read the book first? I have to toss, his broken car, I look dangerous, I went out last time and hit it once, and he wants to come again......"

Bu Xiao swallowed his saliva with difficulty, sat up and dusted off his cigarette, and when he heard the next sentence of his eldest brother, his uncontrollable fingers trembled slightly.

"I have only one son left...... I also know that I can't blame you for this, it's because I'm too selfish, so I'm blogging you with a shy face. When Bu Jingsheng said this, he finally broke down a little emotionally.

"Big brother." Bu Xiao suddenly interrupted him, Bu Jingsheng heard him call himself, suddenly a little stunned, raised his eyes to look at the fourth child, sitting on the sofa opposite him against the light, his expression was not clear because of the backlight.

But his "big brother" seems to have not been called for many years, for more than ten years, he has never spoken well to the fourth child, and he has completely made friends, every time he meets, there are people around him, all at the dinner table at home, and the two have never talked alone.

More than ten years ago, he knelt outside his door, he didn't go out to talk to him, and later saw him crying when he hugged Yuemei off the beam, he felt that the whole world had collapsed, and he couldn't say a word to him...... Later, he was still an old man, forced to die, and he was unwilling to separate the family, so this family was guarded, otherwise it was possible, he and the fourth child would never have contact for the rest of their lives.

The fourth child did not do anything wrong, whether it was before, or now, what is wrong is his own inner demon, he erected an iron wall in his heart, shrunk himself in it and hid, thinking that he could hide until death, every time he saw the fourth, he inevitably remembered the past, so he tried not to communicate with the fourth child, and did not say a word.

For so many years, he also understood that the fourth brother was probably more painful than him, he threw everything away, and hid in front of the Buddha shrine on the day of death, and the hut never dared to approach, he was cowardly by nature, and only knew how to cower, but the fourth brother was still remembering.

The black coat that Yuemei bought for him, he has worn it for many years, and he has not thrown it away, and he wears it on his body every year.

The little earth dog was the cub under the female dog that Yuemei picked up back that year, and the others were all given away, and he had to keep one to raise.

Every year, he writes some greetings, such as "hello", "thank you", and "I wish peace", and occasionally goes to the hut to kowtow and incense......

Bu Jingsheng was suddenly woken up by his "big brother" in an instant, thinking that what he said just now was really too cruel for him, and he "only had one son left", maybe the fourth child would think that he was still blaming him.

"I ......" Bu Jingsheng wanted to speak, and when he looked up at the fourth child, he suddenly couldn't hold back his tears and choked up, because the light was dark at this time, and the sun was completely sinking, and when he saw the expression on Bu Xiao's face, the fourth child was still smiling.

Seeing the eldest brother crying, Bu Xiao sighed softly, although he didn't want to laugh, he still had to laugh, and said in a deep voice: "It's okay, it's not a big deal, I'll go for Xiaohui, in fact, I also know that I stayed here, and I was sweet all day long, Qingqing and mine, he looked uncomfortable, I was uncomfortable with me, and I also wanted to go away and fly high." It's not that he's ignorant or anything, it's important for him to study, and it's good to go out for a run in my business...... Accustomed to him growing up like this, there are still decades left, in front of my sister-in-law's grave, I said that I would get used to him until the day I died. ”

Bu Xiao raised his eyebrows, extinguished the cigarette, and saw Bu Jingsheng trembling his shoulders, still choking, he only then found out that the eldest brother was really a lot older, when he was young, he rode a bicycle and took himself around the alley, and the handlebar often hung the freshly beaten crispy cakes that he bought home, and he also liked to pull out his valve core every night before going to bed, and the next day he listened to the eldest brother before going to work, snorting and cheering, and crawling out of the quilt with a smile.

Over the years, the reason why he has become so haggard and so old is because he has experienced too much pain, lost his wife and children, and even the reason for these things is all on himself, Bu Xiao can't make any requests to his eldest brother, even if he lets himself say a "no" word for Xiaohui's death, not to mention, he is excusable, he is here to cry and beg himself......

If he leaves, it is really the best choice, time can dilute everything, but it is a little slow, a person's departure will accelerate this effect, so that Xiao Hui forgets Yuwei, and even has enough time to find a girl he likes, and when he comes back, the embarrassing process between uncle and nephew has been skipped, maybe because he misses, it will become better than before.

It's just that this decision is the only person I'm sorry for, or someone as important as Xiao Hui, he may not be able to accompany her for a long time in the future, and the idea of taking her to travel to famous mountains and rivers yesterday is estimated to be delayed for a while.

When Bu Xiao came out of the eldest brother's room, he raised his eyes and suddenly saw the person hiding by the door, Yu Wei was standing there, she looked at him with a faint light flowing in her eyes, and his heart was so soft at that moment that he was almost willing to melt into a puddle of water for her.

He has always been chic and uninhibited, and he does his own thing, and this is the tenderness in this life.

"Did you hear that?" Bu Xiao asked her gently, he really didn't expect Yu Wei to come and eavesdrop, she has always been very polite and serious, probably too worried about herself.

Yu Wei nodded a little stiffly, she just listened to the conversation between Bu Xiao and her eldest brother, and her heart was uncomfortable and painful with him, but she herself was still a little unacceptable until now: "You really want to go?" ”

Buxiao is leaving...... She never thought that this matter would end in this way, she never thought that she and he had only been together for such a few days, and he would have to part with her for the time being.

"Hmm." Bu Xiao responded very lightly, and couldn't say anything that made her sad, so he put his arm around Yu Wei's shoulders and said as a scoundrel: "Let's not talk about this first, go downstairs to eat, sister-in-law is ready to eat today." ”

Yu Wei felt a lot of sour taste in her heart, she was hugged by him, and went downstairs with him, the first floor was finally lively at this time, the third sister-in-law picked up Fan Qing and Long Long from work, and the third sister-in-law took the child back to her parents' house during the day, and the old man also came down to prepare for dinner, and was directing the third station to watch the weather forecast of the local station, Yao Sujuan set the meal, and smiled at them: "Finished talking to your eldest brother?" ”

Yao Sujuan set this table for dinner today, it was Bu Jingsheng's meaning, saying that she had something to talk to the fourth child, she thought that the brothers had finally broken the ice because of Xiao Hui for so many years, and they talked for the first time, but when she saw Yu Wei's look when she went downstairs, she sighed in her heart.

As expected, except for the absent Xiao Hui, when the whole family sat down at the table, Bu Jingsheng also came down, Yao Sujuan knew him too well, but when he saw his dead appearance, he knew that it was no good, and halfway through the meal, Bu Xiao suddenly said that he was going to leave for a while.

Yao Sujuan immediately understood, staring at Bu Jingsheng beside her, who was really sitting with a dazed expression, and had no appetite to eat, and it looked like a good thing he had done......

"So be it, I'll go home in a while." Bu Xiao watched this sentence come out, the atmosphere at the dinner table suddenly became cold, and everyone's expressions froze, so they hurriedly made a joke: "Don't miss me too much." ”

The atmosphere at home is very depressing, probably everyone faintly guessed what happened, although the meal was eaten very slowly, but after all, there was no banquet in the world, after the banquet, Buxiao took Yuwei and left.

When she walked out of the front door and walked into the yard, Yu Wei suddenly heard a shout behind her, and turned around to see Yao Sujuan hurrying out, the sister-in-law was standing in the light of the foyer, her figure was reflected very clearly, she stood in the light, hesitated for a while, sighed, as if she had a lot of words but didn't know which one to say, and finally there was only one sentence in a thousand words, and her voice trembled a little and said to Buxiao: "Fourth...... Go home early. ”

Bu Xiao smiled, opened the car door, and said to Yao Sujuan, "I know sister-in-law." ”

Yu Wei sat in the passenger seat, watching the car drive away from the yard of the Bujia house little by little, and when she turned the direction, she could still see her sister-in-law standing there from the rearview mirror and not leaving, watching their car slowly disappear, and the feeling in her heart became even more sour.

Leaving the Bu family, only she and Bu Xiao were left in the car, Yu Wei knew that she and he were finally away from the dispute and this twist and turn, but the way this matter was resolved was not happy, now in the space of only the two of them, she calmed down, she could only hear his breathing, Yu Wei realized that this may be the last time he ate at home in a period of time.

Yu Wei was sitting in the car at this time, and suddenly felt that the real feeling of being separated was like a sudden heavy rain that slammed on her head.

In the end, when the black car drove to the city in the rain curtain that gradually drimmed and turned into light rain, looking at the familiar route in front of him, Buxiao wanted to send himself home, and sure enough, the car drove downstairs in the community and stopped.

There was no intention of getting out of the car, the two of them were still sitting in the car, the wipers had stopped, the car had also turned off, and outside the window was a misty drizzle and dark night.

"Don't let me go upstairs and have a cup of tea?" Bu Xiao broke the silence, looked at Yu Wei's side face, and smiled as indecent as ever: "If you want to go, you can't leave all at once, you have to deal with everything, we can be sweet for two more days......"

Before he finished his words, he only felt that his hand from the steering wheel was tightly held by Yu Wei, she was as hard as if she wanted to hold a life-saving straw, and if she grabbed it, she didn't want to let go, Bu Xiao also held her hand tightly, and when she looked at Yu Wei, it was her side face that tried to restrain her emotions.

"If you have anything to worry about, the store is still at home, you can leave anything to me." She looked at the front window of the car and did not look at him, but there was nothing outside the front window, it was pitch black.

"I'm not worried, that's a lot more......" Bu Xiao leaned back on the seat, clasped his fingers with her, and looked at her tenderly from the tips of his eyes: "For example, are you stupid to play with your life to make money again, are you fooling your brother outside again, your job in that bar is still quitting, no one will pick you up when it's too late, and most importantly, don't think too much about me...... I'll be back soon. ”

Yu Wei still didn't turn her face to look at him, she knew that looking at him, she must not be able to hold back and want to cry.

"Baby, do you remember what I taught you?" After being silent for a while, Yu Wei heard Bu Xiao ask herself: "Robbery ...... in Go"

She suddenly understood what he meant, the situation in front of her was like a catastrophe, back and forth, circular and unresolved, and had to be left elsewhere, so Bu Xiao wanted to temporarily leave the impasse in front of her to eliminate the knot in everyone's hearts.

"In fact, it is said that the deceased is in the past, and the dead should not affect the living, but in fact, it is not ......" Bu Xiao said this, and his tone suddenly became very serious: "I have always been influenced, and I am willing to be influenced, the reason why I have been influenced, I will live until now, live like this, there is nothing wrong with being affected, because I have gone to that, and I will not have any bad intentions towards the one who lives, don't you keep asking me, why do you always wear this coat?" ”

Yu Wei finally turned her face and looked at Buxiao, seeing a hint of dark color flashing in his bright black eyes, she looked at the old black coat on his body again, and vaguely knew the answer.

"Before my sister-in-law couldn't think about it, there was a period of time when she was very normal, and she behaved like a normal person, and one day she bought me this dress, it was very big, and I was wearing it very ill-fitting...... Bu Xiao brought it up again for the first time, and continued with a sigh of relief: "I asked her how to buy such a big one, she said that the clothes are bigger and can be worn for a long time, and I hope that when I grow up, I can grow taller and fatter a lot, but until now, I have not been eaten to the kind she wants, and I am still a little thin." ”

This is the first time he has opened his mouth to mention the scar in his heart to himself, Yu Wei listened carefully, knowing that he didn't need comfort, so he didn't speak, he should have figured it out a long time ago, his sister-in-law didn't blame him at all, and hoped that he could be healthy and happy, so he would live as his sister-in-law wanted, in fact, Bu Xiao probably had a lot of guilt in his heart but mixed with a lot of nostalgia.

"I haven't seen my mother since I was born, my sister-in-law is my mother, the old man has been ignoring me except for beating me because the generation gap is too deep, my eldest brother is similar to my father, don't look at him like a winter melon now, and he doesn't like to pay attention to me, when I was a child, he really loved me......" Bu Xiao held Yu Wei's hand tightly and stared at her with a smile: "So, even if there was no such thing back then, I would still go for Xiaohui, I am his uncle, and yes, I am the one who got you, no matter how you look at it, I am happier, right?" took such a big advantage, and was already happy, and I didn't care about these days. ”

He took her hand and kissed it lightly on the back of his hand, then showed a very serious smile and looked deeply into her eyes: "Baby, understand me." ”