During the Cultural Revolution, the brigade headquarters purchased a large number of very strong ropes, the length and thickness of which were specially tailored for tying people, and placed them in a storage room in the south. The security officer found a spare key ring in the conference room, which was made of a round metal sheet with a lot of holes on it, and marked the idle keys in each room on it, so that it could be used in case of emergency.

There were too many keys, and the security director looked for a long time to find the key to the warehouse, he went into the house and found a rope, locked the door, and came to the old secretary's office.

"Quick, hurry up and tie it up!" The old secretary said sharply to the director of public security.

"Really tied up, old secretary? Haoran made a mistake, and if you want to tie him up, what is in your way? The security director was not only puzzled but also a little nervous and asked.

"Where did you get all this nonsense, huh? Listen to yours or listen to me, huh? The old secretary said with a glare.

This voice, this tone, the director of security is all too familiar. The security director was helpless, glanced at the two staff members around him, and motioned for them to come over and tie up the old secretary, he really couldn't bear to personally tie up a good secretary who was dedicated to his duties.

"Tie it strongly, take out the strength you used to tie me up during the Cultural Revolution, I am a prisoner now, you have to carry the incomparable hatred for the class enemy, and bring me to the execution ground with the same strength to tie me up!" The old secretary said to the two men.

These two men quickly tied up the old secretary in a sturdy knot, which was too familiar to them, and it was their specialty during the Cultural Revolution.

"You three listen to me, you stay in this room, you are not allowed to go anywhere, do you hear? Whoever wants to be relieved of his hands must go quickly, and as long as I go out of this room, you will close the door and plug it in before I come back, and no one shall leave the house even half a step! If anyone leaves his post without permission, I will not spare anyone! ”

Seeing that the three of them had no intention of going out, the old secretary said, "Okay, I'll go, let's start executing." ”

The old secretary walked out of the conference room and came to the interrogation room, when he pushed the door open with his foot, Haoran who was sitting on the chair was startled, he didn't know why the old secretary was like this, he just looked at the old secretary in surprise.

The old secretary entered the house, closed the door with his feet again, stood opposite Haoran and said, "Haoran, do you know what kind of place this is?" ”

"Yes, interrogation room." Haoran said.

"When is this interrogation room?" The old secretary asked further clearly.

"It was a place specially used to interrogate the rich and the bad during the Cultural Revolution."

"Well, come, you get up and stand aside." The old secretary spoke, walked to Haoran and said, and after Haoran got up, the old secretary sat on the chair and continued: "That's right, I remember that at that time, few people who were tied up and escorted into this room by Wuhua Da could get out of this room alive. There was a table in front of where you were sitting, and on the table was a 200-degree light bulb that would shine straight at you, interrogating you day and night. ”

"See those hooks on the west wall? That's where the torture instruments are hung, which means that whoever is brought in and interrogated, you have to endure not only the cold roasting of the bright light, but also the torture of the torture instruments. Do you think, who can get out alive in the face of such torture? ”

"Haoran, go and sit on the other side."

Haoran looked at the other side, that place was specially used to interrogate prisoners, he was now a person who had committed a crime, the old secretary not only tied himself up, but also sat in the defendant's seat, which was obviously upside down!

"What's the matter? Didn't understand me? ”

"Old secretary, don't be like this, if you want to sit, I should sit here, and if you want to tie up, I should be the one who should be judged!"

"You bastard! You big bastard! Let me tell you Haoran, from now on, there will be no old secretary here, and the old secretary is the one who deserves death! Haoran, do you remember the time when I was tied up and criticized? I really regret it now, if you had killed me that time, you wouldn't have made today's mistake, you said I shouldn't have tied up, who changed it? ”

Of course Haoran knew about that incident, and he would never forget it for the rest of his life, that was when the old secretary was implicated in order to protect himself, and he almost lost his life. Haoran also seemed to understand the words of the old secretary just now, this is the old secretary punishing himself for dereliction of duty, he is confessing a position, he is flaunting an attitude, he is interpreting the supreme purity of a party member and the supreme loyalty of a revolutionary cadre to the party!

"The first time someone tied me up, I was there to get justice, and even though I went against the will of the party, I died without regrets. And this time I tied myself up, because I committed the crime of dereliction of duty, because I did not understand the people's feelings and public opinion in an informed situation, and caused endless harm to my people. Your sins will be punished by the law, and my sins will be condemned with your conscience, and there is no difference between these two sins, and they are the same sin on the scales. ”

"Old secretary, stop talking about the old secretary! The old secretary in front of him reminded him of all the virtues of the old secretary before and after, such a person who has done his best for the party and the people, today in the face of such a big mistake, he can still distinguish right from wrong like this, and his heart of shame suddenly hits his heart!...... I saw Haoran kneeling on his knees, his hands on the ground and crying!

"You're a big bastard! You're a shameless thing! As an old secretary, I can do this, and you still dare to stand and talk to me without shame, your conscience makes the dog eat? Yes? What's your reason? Yes? Don't you have 10,000 grievances, huh? What do you say? Lao Yao asked you, you are facing your savior, look at what bullshit you have said, ah? You committed the crime of killing relatives and destroying kindness in front of Lao Yao, do you know, ah? At that time, I wanted to go up and strangle you, something you don't know! ”

"Let me die, I just want to die quickly!"

"You big bastard! You think about beauty, and now death is a great thing for you, you think you can be a hundred, God will not allow you! Men's tears are the most valuable, if you cried all the grievances in your heart to me when I asked you a few days ago, and tell you Haoran, not only me, but everyone will make decisions for you, because you are indeed wronged, over the years, you have suffered more grievances than the sky, and anyone will help you. But now? It's upside down, your tears are worthless, and all your grievances become worthless with your actions! ”

"Woo woo, old secretary, why didn't you slap us in the mouth at that time, if you beat me, I will be sober!"

"You bastard! You're a big bastard! I've beaten countless people in my life, and I'm beating those people, all of them are big bastards who don't know what to do, you know Yu Jianjian, he is a typical example, if I don't beat them to my senses, I'm not an old secretary! Because they have no reason, they open their eyes and urinate on the kang and lie bastards! And you, ah, are all over reason, everyone is sympathizing with you, why should I hit you? At that time, if I had beaten you for no reason, would I still be an old secretary? What's the matter, are you trying to get someone else to smoke me? Does that make sense? ”

"I have never had such a lesson in my life, I tell you Haoran, I have drawn a truth from you, sometimes people who seem to be full of reason are often the most inadequate! Not only will I be beaten, but I will also tie him up like me, and lock him in this room and torture him until he wakes up is the truth! It's a big deal to remove me, at least so many people who don't let you go to the last step and harm are suffering with you, repenting, hating, remorseful and much more comfortable! ”

"Haoran, look back at what is written on the wall opposite me? This room is full of sin, but only this sentence is a truth that never changes. ”

Haoran obediently turned around and looked, and on the wall opposite the old secretary, there were eye-catching words written in those eight big characters: Confession, leniency, resistance, and strictness!

Haoran faced the old secretary, he now seems to have suddenly understood a truth, the old secretary is a mirror, this mirror does not need to be wiped, he will always be the reproduction of the most pure power and truth, you don't have to doubt his right or wrong, you don't have to hide the unspeakable dirtiness in your heart, as long as you reveal your heart, he will make you as bright and brilliant as him!

"Old secretary, did my father die here?" Haoran asked.

"Yes." The old secretary replied without hesitation. He has no worries now, what he is thinking about now is to let this person before he die understand a truth, let go of selfishness, put aside complaints, and bravely face the difficulties that come with life! Even if you die, you have to die to understand, don't be a fool!

"Woooooooooo Dad, is your old man's spirit in heaven safe? I am your son Xie Haoran, I have traveled thousands of miles to rush home and have not been able to see you, the child is deeply sinful! Woowoo woo ......"

"Dad, the child is here today, and he is also a dying man, I have failed to live up to your expectations, I have not been able to give you the glory of your ancestors, and I am facing you today with a sinful son! Your departure has been exchanged for my life, but the death of the child has been exchanged for endless shame for your old man, father! Woowoowoo......"

"You still have the face to say, I'm ashamed of you, you don't fight for anything!" When the old secretary heard these words, he was so angry that he trembled all over his body and said!

"Nope! I'm just saying, I'm going to accuse! My father died unjustly, who will rehabilitate my father? My father has done good things all his life, but he was persecuted to death by you for no reason, who is to blame?! Did one of you stand up for my father? He is also a part of Huaxia, he dedicated all his heart to this country, gave countless money, saved countless people, never spared, even including his own life, until the end he has no regrets! ”

The conversation box opened, Haoran lost his mind again, and the dissatisfaction accumulated in his heart suddenly exploded!

"You bastard! If it weren't for your father, would you still be talking to me here? Do you know how difficult it is for so many of us to risk life and death to not only save you, but also bring you back to your hometown? Your affairs have not only won the sympathy and care of the local people, but also been highly valued by the leaders of districts, counties, provinces and cities, who care about you all the time. If you don't believe it, you can ask now, the district leaders want to see you by name, the city leaders have already prepared a case for you, the provincial leaders are also observing your actions, and all the people are watching your every move! ”

"Leaders at all levels have a copy of the planning materials and visions you wrote, what does this mean? Your father comes first, and then you are you, and your father's personality is more valued than your talent! Everyone makes mistakes, and our party is no exception, and when the chaos is underway, there will be news about your father's affairs soon, how do you know that our party is ignoring it, ah? How can this be done to you! ”

"I lost my only loved one, do you know how I feel? Especially you, you know that who cares about me for all the dirty things they do, work, make me work? I am grateful to you for bringing me back, and I am grateful to you for giving me a home. But how should you feel when you know that your child is not your own? I have no relatives, they are the only relatives in my life, but are these relatives my relatives? What else do I have? What's the difference between me coming back and not coming back? I might as well not come, I fell clean, it seems to be a relative, can you bear the deception of my heart like a knife? ”

"You bastard! Is this the problem? Yes? We've thought about this problem for a long time, and we know about it, and we can help you solve this problem, haven't I asked you? Are you done with all my bitterness? And we don't need to talk about this question, just with Lao Yao's character, he will not recognize this child, he is your child, what else do you have to say? I'll call you the shots on this issue, it's not a problem at all! ”

"What about my wife? Even if you give the child to me, the child is mine, and indeed the child looks at me, he will not betray me, even if he believes that I am his father, I can see the child's mind through this incident, and he regrets finding out his background. But where is Wanruo? Do you know how graceful it is? Do you know how Wanruo did it? ”

The old secretary blinked his eyes a few times, not knowing what to do, but he had already realized the crux of the problem, so he blurted out and asked, "What's wrong with Wanruo?" What a good person, when she married you, she tried her best to disagree, either you don't marry or you don't marry, so a person worthy of everyone's love, married you wholeheartedly, and has loved you all these years, is it wrong? ”

"Shit! I don't scold, but I'm going to scold her today! Dulicitous, inconsistent on the outside! On the surface we seem to be husband and wife, do you know what she is doing behind her back? Tell your old secretary, she doesn't love me at all, her heart has always been on Lao Yao! ”

"How so?" After listening to Haoran's words, the old secretary said thoughtfully.

"Once when I went home, I found that Wanruo was kowtowing and slapping her mouth on the kang and saying, 'Old Yao, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for you, please forgive me!'. Do you know the old secretary, I just finished running an errand with her last night, and I later learned that every time I finish that little thing with her, she will be like this! In her heart, I am trampling her, thinking that her behavior is unfaithful to Lao Yao, she is repenting every time, kowtowing a hundred times and slapping herself a hundred times! ”

"Old secretary, have you ever seen such a person? Have you ever had such an experience? Your relatives who get along day and night sleep with you every day, how do you feel when you meet such a person? I learned that even my own children are not my own, old secretary, tell me yourself, if a person like me has a special experience, if it were you, what would you do? ”

The old secretary listened to Haoran's words, and the anger in his heart could not be eliminated, he had long wanted to scold him for being a "big bastard"! But when he listened to Haoran's words, he was dumbfounded, stunned, motionless like a puppet!

"Old secretary, I was originally an orphan, my life was originally distorted, and the education I received since I was a child is better than any of you, there is no doubt about it! I understand that it is not easy for your generation, and your hardships represent this era and the voice of a country. But do you understand me? Can you weigh one with your thinking logic, I don't say it's a wanderer, I'll just say that you still treat me as a person? What do you think I have left in my heart? ”

"Hatred! What do you think I have left but hatred in my heart? The pain of bereavement, the hatred of deception, can you be indifferent? Who can I talk to about my suffering? I took a crazy revenge to get free, what was left of me? ”

"You bastard! You're a big bastard! The old secretary finally scolded this sentence and said, "Why didn't you say it earlier, ah?" That's a good idea, huh? Wouldn't this problem have been solved if you had already said it, huh? ”

"What if it's solved? Husband and wife seem to be separated, does home still exist? In the end, isn't it the result of a broken family? You just have the great ability, can you keep this home for me? ”

At this moment, whether it is the old secretary sitting in the dock with five flowers, or Haoran kneeling on the ground and crying bitterly, it doesn't matter who commits a crime, and it doesn't matter so much to hold them accountable, the conversation just now is the most real, they will meditate hard in their respective hearts, those reflections that touch their hearts!

Read the first book of the book