"What, Xiaoxue, am I wrong about you? If you don't have him in your heart, why is he pestering you endlessly? At this moment, I dragged your mother into the hospital again, isn't it, you can have more time to contact? Zhong Youcheng didn't take Li Xiaoxue's feelings into account at all, and just imagined it out of thin air.

Listening to Zhong Youcheng's hurtful words, and thinking of his wholehearted dedication, Li Xiaoxue's heart fell with blood, and a slap hit Zhong Youcheng in the face.

"You hit me? Xiaoxue, you hit me? Zhong Youcheng's face was flushed when he was hit by Li Xiaoxue, and he said so indignantly, and grabbed Li Xiaoxue's wrist, "You are speechless, are you?" You don't have a point, do you? You hit me? ”

"Zhong Youcheng! I really don't know what else to say to you! Li Xiaoxue said complainingly, and was about to break his wrist out of Zhong Youcheng's hands.

Zhong Youcheng's eyes were red, and he shook his head and said, "I don't know what else to say to me, right?" Between us, there is no word, and we have come to an end, have we? I'll just say, why did you ...... last night?"

"Shut up!" Li Xiaoxue couldn't listen to Zhong Youcheng anymore, and hurriedly stopped Zhong Youcheng's voice, "I really didn't expect that I would ...... everything, but you are like this!" ”

Zhong Youcheng didn't seem to understand what Li Xiaoxue meant, and just said: "What, you feel very wronged, don't you?" I, Zhong Youcheng, have been wholeheartedly to you from beginning to end, and there is nothing that can't stand you. When it comes to grievances, I should be wronged. Do you know how much I have to pay to be able to be together? If nothing else, I haven't touched my paintbrush much in this while. Do you know what this means to a painter? This is a huge waste of artistic life! Such a waste cannot be compensated for by any amount of money! ”

Li Xiaoxue said bitterly: "I said that you should devote yourself to your art, and I also said that I am afraid that I will become a drag on you!" ”

"You said it, you said it, you did say it," Zhong Youcheng smiled bitterly, "But, Xiaoxue, I have already given and loved, what else does it mean for you to say this again?" ”

Yes, Li Xiaoxue also knows that everything that should not happen has already happened, and now it seems that there is no meaning in saying anything to Zhong Youcheng.

As the saying goes, a slap can't be slapped, it's really wrong, of course, the responsibility is not on one party, let alone all on oneself, but what you have paid for this mistake is already all your own.

Only from the time when she couldn't stop, the pain of life and death, she already understood that what was pressing on her naked body was by no means as simple as just one Zhong Youcheng. Her whole life took a turn because of this moment.

"If you think that I, Li Xiaoxue, really have something that can't stand you, we can separate now!" Li Xiaoxue tried her best to control her emotions and said something like she never wanted to say in her life.

"Finally, Li Xiaoxue, you still said that, didn't you? I wasn't mistaken about you, was I? Zhong Youcheng asked Li Xiaoxue sharply, and also grabbed Li Xiaoxue's wrist, which increased his strength even more.

Li Xiaoxue, whose pain points were already completely focused in her heart, just felt that her wrist was tightened by Zhong Youcheng: "Let go, Zhong Youcheng!" Whatever you think of me, whatever you say about me, let go! ”

"Let go? No! This is not my Zhong Youcheng's character! Zhong Youcheng said solemnly.

Li Xiaoxue really thinks that at least now, she knows better than Zhong Youcheng what kind of character Zhong Youcheng is: "With you, what should I do?" ”

"How?" Zhong Youcheng said seriously, "You can go to your mother's side with me now." Tell your mom about us in front of me. I really want to find out if it's your mom who is against us being together! ”

Li Xiaoxue shook her head at Zhong Youcheng again: "Do you think there is still such a need?" ”

"Yes! Of course! How not? I, Zhong Youcheng, have never been so attentive to a certain person. After experiencing such a painful experience, I think that my heart will die from then on. If such a heart dies, for me, there is no pity, and there is nothing to be afraid of, but, death, I must always die to understand! ”

"You understand, don't you?" Li Xiaoxue asked sadly, without waiting for Zhong Youcheng to answer, and then said seriously, "I'll tell you, I'm deceiving you for everything!" From start to finish! I have never had you in my heart, it is you who have chased me again and again, otherwise, our lives will not have any intersection at all! Zhong Youcheng, we are not people in the same world. ”

"Then," Zhong Youcheng became even more excited, his white eyes were all red, and the fire was burning, "Li Xiaoxue, how do you explain what happened last night?" What kind of thoughts and purposes did you have in mind? ”

Li Xiaoxue asked Zhong Youcheng to ask so much that she didn't want to look directly at Zhong Youcheng's face, turned her head, and said sadly: "Last night, only when I was drunk, just when I was confused for a while!" ”

"Confused?" Zhong Youcheng smiled coldly again, "Is one misstep a thousand years of hatred?" It's just that it may be you who stumble, but it's me who hates it for eternity. A woman's heart, a needle under the sea, I, Zhong Youcheng, finally understand how vicious a woman's heart is. ”

Li Xiaoxue couldn't help but laugh "hehe", and then said flatly: "Whatever you think of me." I still have something to do, and for now, please let it go. ”

Zhong Youcheng was either still unwilling, or he was still angry, shook his head again, and said to Li Xiaoxue: "Don't think that I, Zhong Youcheng, can't let go of this hand. Pain is in my Zhong Youcheng, and it has long been commonplace. One more time, and there's nothing I can't afford to bear. In a sense, the pain is really a great asset to me. The more ups and downs an artist has, the more he is baptized by suffering, and the more he can have a kind of profundity in his thoughts. I just want you to be serious about yourself, about your emotions, about life. What you need and can have is really just an ordinary day, and any suffering will only be pain for you. There are a lot of things in this world, Li Xiaoxue, you are really unbearable. ”

What Li Xiaoxue heard in Zhong Youcheng's words was more about not being serious about herself, but her heart was already hurt to the point that she could not add anything, so she only said "thank you" lightly, and begged Zhong Youcheng to let go.

Zhong Youcheng's hand finally let go little by little, until Li Xiaoxue's wrist was completely detached, and the fruit he brought slammed in front of Li Xiaoxue, turned around, and went downstairs without looking back.

Li Xiaoxue watched Zhong Youcheng disappear at the bend of the stairs, her eyes were dark, she shook her body back and forth twice, and was about to fall to the ground.

"Xiaoxue!" After Cao Yingying's voice suddenly sounded in front of Li Xiaoxue, she held Li Xiaoxue's body firmly with her two hands.

Li Xiaoxue's body finally didn't fall, but the soul in her body had no support, and it was like a pile of trouble.

In fact, Cao Yingying asked Zhong Youcheng to go to see Li's mother alone, and when Zhong Youcheng entered the door of the hospital, she quietly followed behind.

Li Xiaoxue and Zhong Youcheng's physical unhappiness, Cao Yingying saw it all, and the verbal dispute, although it was only two or three true, especially when Zhong Youcheng angrily threw the fruit on the ground, turned his head and resolutely left, he felt that there was a big problem between the two of them. Seeing that Li Xiaoxue had the intention of falling, she arrived in front of her with an arrow step.

"What's wrong, Xiaoxue?" Seeing that Li Xiaoxue's face was very bad, Cao Yingying asked again, and helped Li Xiaoxue to a row of chairs in front of her and sat down.

Li Xiaoxue's heart was still crushing something, and she waved her hand to Cao Yingying, but didn't say anything.

"What is he doing here, making such a big fuss?" Cao Yingying asked again.

Li Xiaoxue shook her head again, but still didn't say anything.

"Hey!" Cao Yingying sighed helplessly and said, "I really don't know what's wrong with you, life lies with you, why are you so messy?" ”

A "mess", especially in Li Xiaoxue's heart, thinking that she had given her most precious thing in this messy life, the feeling of being lost became heavier and heavier, dripping tears, like with herself, and like with Cao Yingying, she only shook her head painfully and said: "I don't know, I don't know." I don't know how this happened. I was always careful, and it turned out to be the same. ”

Cao Yingying looked at Li Xiaoxue with a miserable look, asked knowingly, and said, "Xiaoxue, did you two completely collapse just now?" ”

"I'm not wrong, at least, not entirely wrong." Li Xiaoxue just said so.

Cao Yingying's hand gently comforted Li Xiaoxue's arm: "No one said anything wrong with you. ”

"But, why," Li Xiaoxue asked Cao Yingying sadly again, "Heaven wants to do this to me again?" Like, only I was punished. ”

Cao Yingying was really a little puzzled: "Xiaoxue, what happened?" Why did you get into such a fuss? ”

Li Xiaoxue really wanted to talk to Cao Yingying, but if she didn't talk about the changes in herself that happened yesterday, it was difficult for Cao Yingying to truly understand her current situation, and in this case, it was really inconvenient for her to talk to Cao Yingying.

Seeing Li Xiaoxue's heart becoming more and more heavy, Cao Yingying said again: "Between us, there is nothing difficult to say. Xiaoxue, what's going on between you, you tell me, maybe, I can still help you. ”

"Can you help? Can you help me turn the clock back to a day ago? If I could, I think I would have had a different choice. It's really a misstep that turns into a thousand years of hatred, which is different from what he said, but it's me who stumbles, and it's me who hates it for thousands of years. No one can take the moment I lost and let me have it again, no one can make me change from a woman back to a girl. Li Xiaoxue thought so, and only shook her head.

This book was first published in Reading Books