Cen Ruxi is not the kind of unsociable person he expected.

She just doesn't talk much, but she's more than enough to deal with others.

Linnaeus couldn't help but think: what kind of mentality does such a person look at himself?

Linnaeus said, can you take a picture with me?

Although Cen Ruxi was surprised, he still agreed.

At that time, it was that that picture that was taken.

Looking back now, it seems like a fulfillment of what I wanted.

Joy like never before.

However, it is a pity that she only has a Weibo account that Cen Ruxi uses in China, and obviously she does not use it for a long time, they can't go any further, and they don't play according to the original plan, Cen Ruxi left Japan in a hurry.

Maybe there's no chance of meeting again.

Linnaeus thought to himself.

She has always been a person who will do whatever she wants, whether she takes the initiative to talk to Cen Ruxi, or invites Cen Ruxi to travel with her, she is willing to try.

But what she was afraid of was that she didn't even have this opportunity to take the initiative.

She felt as if she was stuck in a strange circle, obviously she wanted so much, but once she got it, she couldn't help but crave more.

Perhaps, as others say, human beings are inherently greedy.

It's not that there are no suitors, it's just that Linnaeus thinks they are completely different from the people he expected them to be.

But if you think about it for yourself, you will only have that figure in your mind.

Linnaeus knew that he was stunned.

She began to try to send Cen Ruxi a private message on Weibo.

She asked, "Do you remember me?" ”

This private message was lost in the sea, and there was no more news.

Linnaeus was unhappy, but helpless, she had already guessed that she was not right - she often wandered away at work, thinking about something inexplicable.

was often distracted during filming, and during that time, she did not scold Shen Yi.

But so what, her heart has been broken, and she is no longer the Linnaeus she used to be.

However, what Linnaeus didn't expect was that Cen Ruxi actually replied to her.

She took a photo and sent it to Linnaeus, it was the photo they took together when they were in Japan, and Cen Ruxi actually washed it out and framed it in a photo frame.

"Hello, thank you for your kind attention in Japan."

Cen Ruxi really replied.

Even though the remark was very polite, Linnaeus was very happy.

Later, she often chatted with Cen Ruxi in this way, and Cen Ruxi's reply was very slow, sometimes for hours, sometimes even days.

But as long as she was willing to reply, Linnaeus was very happy.

It's just one day that Cen Ruxi suddenly said, "I may be getting married." ”

At that time, Linnaeus was completely stunned, and the mobile phone in his hand fell to the ground with a bang.

She had never considered such a possibility, and now she realized that even if she tried so hard, she and Cen Ruxi were still two different people.

She never thought that Cen Ruxi was the same as her, she was also a woman, maybe she would get married, have children, and have a husband......

Linnaeus first discovered this reality, and she felt uneasy and cramped, and she replied, "Congratulations. ”

The other party calmly replied: "Thank you." ”

Linnaeus held her phone and threw herself on the couch, she felt so confused.

She worked so hard and actively that she completely lost her direction all at once.

It was at this time that the famous Hong Kong director Yan Zi invited her to shoot a movie.

The name of the movie is "Ash", and the story is quite dark, and Linnaeus frowned when he saw it.

She didn't like the story.

Shen Yi also disagreed at first, but this movie is too tempting, the famous Hong Kong director personally invited, and the actor is still the famous actor Yu Jinghe, what a good gimmick......

Yan Ziquan said many times, and Linnaeus finally accepted the film contract.

But what no one expected was that this movie failed to pass the review in the end, and there was no way to present it in front of everyone, and it became the posthumous work of actor Yu Jinghe.

not only became Yu Jinghe's posthumous work, but also pushed Linnaeus to the brink of madness.

She played a girl who was raped by her biological father and caused schizophrenia and self-mutilation to death, and in order to make this movie, she lost weight like crazy and wanted to play that feeling of being thin.

There was no doubt that she succeeded, and she showed that deep desperation, and even the unsmiling Yan Zi was amazed by her performance.

Only Linnaeus knew that all she thought about was that Cen Ruxi was going to get married.

She feels as if she is stunned, sometimes filming, patting and patting tears will flow down by herself, she always cries, whether it is eating, reading books or listening to music, it seems that the whole world is cut off from her, and she is left crying alone.

Yu Jinghe was the first to notice that something was wrong with her, and he suggested that she contact his family, and what he could think of, Linnaeus didn't think of.

It's just that when she finally found an opportunity to contact her family, she told her parents and brother everything, but in exchange, it was a really strange look.

"You like women?" Here's what my brother said, "Are you gay? ”

Linnaeus had no idea how they would react, but when she looked at it, she understood.

Even the closest parents are shaking their heads.

Linnaeus and Lin He had a quarrel, and Lin He told her not to go back to the Lin family, they no longer recognized this daughter.

Scene by scene, these things appeared in Linnaeus's mind like a movie, and when he recalled it again, there was only pain.

She has begun to self-harm.

But when the glass cut through her wrist, she felt like she had lost her courage again.

She didn't even have the courage to die.

Linnaeus knew that she had reached her limit and could no longer hold on.

She asked Yu Jinghe if he had any psychological counselors to introduce him.

It seems that in the movie, her dependence on Yu Jinghe has been transferred to real life, and she can't find anyone to rely on, so she subconsciously wants to draw warmth from the people around her who are just better to her.

But Yu Jinghe was quick to help.

It was a fairly young counselor, a foreigner, named Jeff Green.

She was advised to undergo hypnotherapy to set up a few key points in her daily life that she could use to retrieve her memories if she wanted to.

It was a difficult question to decide, but Linnaeus was willing to try.

It was a painful time, and she was forced to recall those memories over and over again.

Perhaps, without Cen Ruxi, everything would not have ended like this......

If it weren't for Cen Ruxi, nothing would have happened......

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