Originally, he planned to persuade Su Hui and them not to believe Xue Muqing's words, but thinking of the past, Su Yu was not sure if he could really convince them.

After thinking about it, anyway, I had already asked my subordinates to pack up their things before, and on the second day, when Su Hui Su Yuen Long went to court, when the Xu family was discussing the housekeeper's affairs, Su Yu had already taken people out of the door.

Luckily, they didn't seem to be planning to stop her from traveling.

Asking the porter to turn around and spread the word inside, Su Yu glanced back at the Su family's mansion, and silently decided in his heart that he would probably not return to the capital again.

Su Yu lowered her head and pondered - fortunately, after doing it all over again, her relationship with her family was not as close as before, and she had experienced the helplessness of her "previous life", even though she still had the place of her family in her heart, but it was impossible to be as close as before, and they were ...... That's fine, even if she dies, her family won't worry too much about it.

It is a more than ten days journey from the capital to Chengzhou on weekdays, but now even if Su Yu is "like an arrow", he can't wait to find Tang Yun in Chengzhou as soon as possible, but the scene after the heavy rain can't allow her to come quickly.

Mama She's face was sad, she didn't agree with Su Yu going to Chengzhou, putting aside the messy rumors, the Tang family had already retired from the Su family, at least on the bright side, Su Yu and the Tang family had nothing to do with Tang Yun, and at this time, Su Yu "rushed" to Chengzhou, which must have an impact on Su Yu's reputation.

However, she couldn't resist Su Yu.

Su Yu is ashamed of Mama She and Mama Yao - she is destined not to become a demure and elegant woman, and the reputation of Mama She and Mama Yao is probably ruined by her, fortunately, the two of them are old, but I am afraid that they will not look for the master again, and the only thing she can do is probably to serve the two of them old.

But...... Su Yu sighed lightly, but I was afraid that they might not be willing to follow her at that time, after all, Su Yu also felt that she was not a good master, fortunately, even if she was gone, she would not treat them badly if she wanted to come to the Su family, and Su Yu was relieved of this.

Mama She is still willing to follow Su Yu at the moment, I am afraid that she wants to remind Su Yu to behave badly.

Su Yu knew that he was only afraid that he was destined to disappoint them.

They took the official road, but because of the heavy rain before, the capital was located in the upper reaches of Chengzhou, and the capital was affected by the disaster, and the Chengzhou side was naturally even more

What's more, no matter how anxious Su Yu is, he can't do anything to compete with the disaster relief officials, so the trip will inevitably be delayed.

Within three days, the people sent by the Su family to persuade her failed to persuade her, except for the people who went back to restore their lives, the rest stayed with her, Su Yu originally brought insufficient manpower, although there was no one to call in Chengzhou, but there were more people, maybe the chance of finding Tang Yun was greater, so even if she was a little worried about the people sent by the family to follow her, Su Yun didn't say anything.

At this time, the road is messy, and it is not safe outside, although Su Yu is bent on hurrying, but Mama She has arranged the itinerary along the way, although Su Yu is the master, she can't ignore other people, so she can only live in the post house with Mama She's arrangement, even if she wants to go alone, it is difficult to act.

There were so many officials coming and going, but they were all in a hurry and barely stopped, and Su Yu didn't know if they were lucky or looking at the face of the Su family, and they didn't suffer any grievances along the way.

On the sixth day, Su Yu woke up top-heavy in the morning due to the cold wind, and originally didn't want to pay attention to it, but Mama She said that she would not let her go like this, and forced her to ask a doctor to rest for a long time.

Someone outside suddenly sighed: "Ah Yu, you are so anxious, can't you wait for half a moment?" ”

Su Yu was taken aback, they directly chartered the two small courtyards in the post station, and the male servants were in the other courtyard, and at this moment, how could there be a man's voice outside her house?

When he came back to his senses and found that the person outside was Xue Muqing, Su Yu felt his blood surging up: "Why did you appear here?" ”

There was only Yunping beside her at the moment, and Su Yu grabbed Yunping: "What about Mama She?" Where did Mama She go? ”

Su Yu was shocked in her heart at the moment, Mama She was the one who paid the most attention to etiquette and reputation, how could she let Xue Muqing enter the room-

Although Xue Muqing was outside at the moment and did not come in, what could these Xu Men walls block! If she lets others know, what else will she do?

"Mama She is sick," Yun Ping's voice was soft: "Sister Yunjin, they are not very good, Mama She said that she was afraid that she would encounter an epidemic, so she went to a place with all the sick people for the doctor to diagnose and treat, and now there is only a slave and maid by Miss's side." ”

Su Yu was stunned, there were not many people she came out with her this time, and in just a few days, several of them fell ill one after another, which was too weird and unlucky.

Thinking of Xue Muqing outside, Su Yu couldn't help but be angry: "I knew that it would be a good thing for this person to appear!" ”

"What's going on with Xue Muqing?" Su Yu asked Yunping: "Why did he appear here, Mama She and the others fell ill, does it have anything to do with him?" "Don't blame Su Yu for thinking about it, this matter is really too much of a coincidence, Xue Muqing and Mingxin's strange monk are in collusion, Su Yu feels that he has nothing to do with Xue Muqing.

Yunping hadn't answered yet, but Xue Muqing outside sighed and said, "Ah Yu, you misunderstand me too much. ”

"Misunderstanding?" Su Yu sneered: "Is it a misunderstanding that you know in your heart, not to mention that I only know, but anyone who knows etiquette should remember the reason that men and women are not kissed, and know how to avoid suspicion in everything. ”

Because of the inconvenience outside, Su Yu did not take off his shirt before going to bed, and at the moment he looked at his body and there was nothing wrong, Su Yu was a little relieved, and let Yunping guard outside, Su Yu changed his shirt by himself, and there was no one around at the moment, this matter, Su Yu could only do it by himself, Yunping wanted to come in to help several times, Su Yu couldn't believe Xue Muqing, and only let Yunping guard outside.

After changing his clothes and asking Yunping to help him comb his hair, Su Yu took Yunping out, ignoring Xue Muqing who was waiting outside, and went straight to where Mama She and her are.

"Ah Yu, you're just getting better, don't go over," Xue Muqing stopped her: "What if your condition recurs." ”

Su Ping glanced at him, and then at Yun Ping, the strangeness in his heart became deeper and deeper - Yun Ping was not such a character in the past, if Xue Muqing dared to get so close to her on weekdays, Yun Ping was afraid that he would have come up to reprimand Xue Muqing a long time ago, but at this moment, Yun Ping just lowered his head and silently followed behind Su Yu, and seemed to be a little blind to Xue Muqing's various overstepping actions, or let it go.

"Mama She also told not to let the young lady pass," Yun Ping said carefully behind Su Yu, "The young lady still listens to the uncle." ”

"Uncle?" Su Yu keenly remembered Yunping's name for Xue Muqing, and she stared back at Yunping: "Yunping, what do you call him?" ”

Yunping lowered his head, but Xue Muqing held Su Yu's hand a little inch: "Before I left Beijing, my grandfather should marry you and me." ”

"You and I are an unmarried couple," Xue Muqing approached Su Yu and said in a voice that only the two of them could hear, "Or rather, you and I have been husband and wife for many years-"

"Those rules or something, why bother to be too stubborn," Xue Muqing lowered his eyes: "You are sick, I can't wait to replace you-"

Su Yu pushed him away: "I'm sick, shouldn't you be celebrating with your palms closed?" Now that I'm doing well, I must be very disappointed, right? ”

Xue Muqing pursed his lips and wanted to explain something, but he still didn't say anything.

Su Yu bypassed him and went straight to find Mama She.

Mama She and the others were really sick, and when they saw Su Yu coming, they hurriedly said, "How did Miss get here, be careful not to get sick again." ”

Su Yu shook his head, asked them about their situation, and knew that they had gradually improved, so he asked, "Mama She, let's hurry as soon as possible, if it really doesn't work, let the doctor accompany you." It's not that she doesn't sympathize with Mama She, it's just that with Xue Muqing here, Su Yu is really unreassured, and she always feels that something will happen sooner or later if she delays.

Mama She is also unwilling to delay Su Yu's trip, but this has been delayed for half a day, if she sets off at this moment, she is afraid that she will not be able to catch up with the next accommodation, it is too chaotic outside, and Mama She is not worried about walking at night, so she can only go again on the second day.

Mama She and the others are almost better, and Su Yu still asked two doctors to follow. Seeing that Xue Muqing followed them, and it seemed that those subordinates of the Su family had a faint intention to take him as the leader, Su Yu couldn't help but be worried.

Xue Muqing didn't follow alone, he came with him, and there was a steward of the Su family, but that steward also meant to be sent by Xue Muqing, Su Yu understood that his marriage with Xue Muqing was only afraid that the family was already solid.

Fortunately...... She had already made up her mind not to return to Beijing......

The only thing I'm afraid of is that if Xue Muqing has something along the way, such as deliberately dragging down the trip or something-fortunately, it didn't appear.

When she left Chengzhou, she was thinking about making a family affair with Tang Yun, and now she came back, Tang Yun is nowhere to be found, but her "fiancé" has been replaced by someone else, and it is inevitable that she will be melancholy.

It's just that now is not a sentimental moment, Su Yu has no intention of being sad, but just called people to find Tang Yun by water and land.

During this period, it is inevitable that he will meet the people of the Tang family, Su Yu has the intention to please, but the Tang family ignores it - at the beginning, the Tang family was just

just ignored it, and when Xue Muqing frequently appeared by Su Yu's side, the Tang family's attitude towards her could almost be regarded as disgust.

Su Yu also knows that many things can't be hidden, although her marriage with Xue Muqing has not yet been made public, but the Tang family naturally has a way to know - although the two families have withdrawn from the marriage, but in the case of Tang Yun's disappearance, Su Yu has already had a marriage contract with others, and if Su Yun is replaced, I am afraid that I can't stand it - Su Yu understands the Tang family, but no matter how she argues, she is powerless, not to mention, the Tang family did not even give Su Yu a chance to explain.

Su Yu didn't know if he could defend himself if he jumped into Chengjiang.

The only thing that can be done now is to find Tang Yun.

The Tang family looked for Tang Yun for two months, but finally gave up and continued to search, no one was alive, no body was dead, Su Yu glanced at Mrs. Tang from a distance, but after a few months, she seemed to be more than ten years older than before, and she looked much more haggard than when Tang Yun ran away from home in her previous life.

In the previous life, Tang Yun ran away from home by herself, and Mrs. Tang has always been angry with Su Yu, and now, although things are a little strange and chaotic, it is too coincidental, but it is faintly related to Su Yu, Su Yun understands that if Mrs. Tang hates her because of this, she has nothing to say.

The Tang family may not believe those things that the gods are talking about, but if anger at Su Yun can allow their feelings to vent a little, Su Yun has nothing to say - this is probably the only thing she can do for Tang Yun now.

Now they have gone out of the boundary of Chengzhou, and the Chengjiang River joins another river, the river surface is even wider, and the only thing that remains unchanged is probably that they still haven't found any news of Tang Yun.

Even the Tang family has given up, and the Su family, who has been conniving at her, is impossible for her to continue to be so willful, Mama She has urged Su Yun to return to Beijing several times - in Mama She's words, even if Su Yun and Tang Yun have a marriage contract, she has found that to this day, the Tang family is already "benevolent and righteous" to Tang Yun, not to mention, the marriage contract between the Su and Tang families is no longer counted, and Su Yu's current "fiancé" is someone else, even if Su Yu doesn't care about her own reputation, she should take care of Xue Muqing's face.

Xue Muqing's face...... Su Yu's heart shook: In this world, the last thing she wants to take into account is probably Xue Muqing's so-called "face".

Mama She murmured on the side: "I heard that the marriage is scheduled for October, no matter what, Miss and now we should go back to Beijing." ”

Back to Beijing? Su Yu's heart was desolate - what to do when he returned to Beijing? When she returned to Beijing to get married, she continued to marry Xue Muqing, and then continued to repeat the tragedy that had been repeated countless times before?

This kind of life, just thinking about it, makes people despair, there seems to be a pair of hands in the dark, turning over the clouds and raining hands, no matter how she resists and escapes, she will still walk the same path in the end, and after the same end, it is probably a repeat of the same mistakes.

She didn't want this kind of life.

Pulling Mama She apart, Su Yun was alone in a daze at the river, it was daylight, but Su Yu remembered the river on the night she "died" before - in fact, the place where she had an accident was not far from the place where Tang Yun had an accident, such a coincidence, maybe it was really as said outside, it was she who killed Tang Yun.

Perhaps, Tang Yun is really dead.

She will die then, go back to Beijing and marry Xue Muqing, Xia Chuqing and Li Yushu have been sent to the official by her as early as that year, and now I am afraid that these two people will be lost in the world, but there is no Xia Chuqing in this life, who knows if there is any early autumn and early spring...... Jiangshan is easy to change her nature, no matter what, she can't change her temper, she believes that Xue Muqing is the same, the two of them are destined to become a good couple.

Marriage, concubine, the pain of losing a child, the pain of bereavement, Su Yu felt that her life was probably caught in a strange circle, constantly going back and forth, but sadly, she remembered everything.

Because she remembered, she couldn't bear it again.

Knowing what will happen, going back to three years ago can't change what is destined to happen in those three years and three years later, some things, maybe they are really destined, no matter what, there is no way to change and escape, just like even if she goes back to the moment when she didn't marry Xue Muqing, going around and around, she still has a relationship with Xue Muqing, going around and around, she still wants to marry him.

Even the day of their wedding was unsurprisingly set for October 17.

Everything is like the next game of chess that is bound to die, no matter how you calculate, the result will be a loss, so why start this game?

Anyway, she owes Tang Yun a life, anyway, her final ending is also to die in Jiangzhong, so what's the difference between dying early and dying late?

Maybe without her, Su Hui will die in the end, and the prince will die in the end, at least, she can choose to turn a blind eye, if she dies, she dies before them, maybe she doesn't have to be sad about their deaths.

The people on the deck had long been separated by her, and she was the only one, Su Yu climbed onto the side of the boat, looking at the flowing water under her feet, and felt dizzy.

In this river, I don't know how many people have been swallowed, not many more than her, not to mention that she died in the belly of the river, and now it is only a few years earlier.

Fortunately, she has been alienating the people around her in this life, presumably she is dead, her family will not be too sad, her daughter who has been together less and more in the past ten years, and they are not very close to them after reuniting, they may mourn for her at most, shed a few tears, presumably not

Like Mrs. Tang, because Tang Yun was missing, her face was haggard.

Thinking about it this way, Su Yu felt a lot more relieved, anyway, she was destined to fail her family, but now is the best moment, everything has not happened yet, it is better than resenting each other in a few years.

"Ahh Xue Muqing's voice came from the boat opposite: "What are you doing!" ”

The two boats are not connected, they may not avoid colliding, and the distance between them is not close, Su Yu looked at Xue Muqing anxiously and shook his head, although he didn't know if Xue Muqing could see it from such a distance, Su Yu still smiled, and put down the mustard for the first time and smiled at Xue Muqing - from now on, she has nothing to do with him.

Whether he is obsessed with her as a person, or obsessed with the identity of the Su family's son-in-law, without her, these are nothing.

After laughing enough, Su Yu leaned forward in front of Xue Muqing, in the voice of him calling her name, and fell straight into the river.

The river instantly engulfed Su Yu's body and pressed it towards her ears, eyes, nose and mouth, but Su Yu had no intention of resisting, and let his body rise and fall with the river.

She couldn't hear the hustle and bustle of the boat, only the rushing of the river.

Her eyes couldn't see anything, her ears couldn't hear anything, and her body began to sink gradually, but Su Yu felt a sense of relief in her heart, from now on, everything in this world had nothing to do with her.