Back in the backyard, Su Yu was still frightened, Si Qin was also confused along the way, there was no one around at the moment, and finally woke up and knelt down towards Su Yu: "It's the slave who can't live with Miss, it's the slave and the maid who can't do things - Miss, you punish the slave and the maid, it's the slave and the maid who cause the miss to suffer this crime...... Slaves and maids are not to blame for their deaths. ”

"That's it," Su Yu came back to his senses: "No wonder you...... You're not married yet...... I would have asked you to buy this medicine...... It's a little hard for you. "She, an unmarried woman, went out to buy shunzi soup, she was shy and worried about Su Yu, and she missed it in a hurry...... Su Yu couldn't bear to criticize her.

"Miss, you should punish the slave maid," Si Qin cried: "Otherwise, the slave and maid will be uneasy in their hearts." ”

"Siqin, get up," Su Yu shook his head: "If you feel guilty in your heart, you can be-"

Su Zhen originally wanted to say that she would make a consequence of her crimes, but she was worried that Si Qin would really feel sorry for this matter, she remembered that she had "later" heard from others that Si Qin died for herself, and she didn't want Si Qin to become like that, so when the words came to her mouth, Su Zhen changed her words again: "If you are truly ashamed, you will definitely live well in the future - you have been with me for so many years, and I can't live without you by my side." ”

"The slave and maid will be careful in the future," Si Qin seemed to have made up her mind, kowtowed to Su Heng and said, "The slave must not live up to the trust of the young lady again, the slave maid-"

Su Heng was afraid that she would swear some poisonous oath, so he hurriedly interrupted her: "Hurry up, I'm a little dizzy with you like this." ”

Si Qin had no choice but to get up, helped Su Yu sit down, and helped her change back into her previous clothes, and after a long time, she finally couldn't help but ask, "Miss, what are you going to do?" ”

Su Yu was silent, and took advantage of the gap between Si Qin's wide clothes to him, touched his lower abdomen, tilted his head, and his thoughts became a little erratic.

"Miss!" Si Qin summoned Su Yu's thoughts back: "You must think twice, don't mess around!" ”

Si Qin looked at Su Yu, and his face was a little solemn: "Miss...... Don't you want to ...... Leave this kid behind, right? ”

Su Yu didn't answer her, and Si Qin became more and more nervous: "Miss, this can't be helped." ”

Su Yu said softly: "I think...... I am very close to this child, otherwise I wouldn't have ...... In so many situations where he couldn't possibly come...... He came anyway. ”

"Miss!" Si Qin panicked: "Miss, you obviously know...... If you give birth to this child...... What kind of consequences will there be. ”

Si Qin said, nodded, and comforted himself: "Yes, Miss, you know, so Miss, you are just talking...... It's just a casual remark, miss, you won't do that......"

Su Yu ignored her broken thoughts: "I plan to keep this child." ”

"Miss!" Si Qin was about to cry: "Miss, don't mess around!" ”

Su Yu shook his head: "I didn't mess around. Anyway, this is also a human life...... Since he is so difficult, he has to become my child...... Then, I must at least give birth to him and protect him, so as not to disappoint him, he is my blood and blood, no matter what the reason, I should not give up on him so lightly. ”

"But Miss ......" Siqin lowered her voice: "Now it's in the filial piety period...... If Miss hadn't returned to Su's house before...... Then we can still say to the outside world that it was before Master Xue passed away...... But now everyone else knows that Miss hasn't returned to Xue's house for more than a month...... As soon as I went back, it was because of Master Xue's funeral...... When the time comes, when the time comes, it will be easy for others to guess that it must be in the filial piety-"

"I know," Su Yu shook his head: "But people live, and they don't live for the dead, filial piety is important, but human life is always more important than those so-called rules." ”

Si Qin was frightened by Su Yu's words: "But Miss, once this matter is known, my uncle's career will also come to an end, what will Miss do then?" ”

Su Yu shook his head again: "Xue Muqing, what will happen to him...... I don't care. ”

"Even if Miss doesn't care about her uncle's career," Si Qin was still uneasy: "But what about Miss's reputation?" ”

"A person's reputation is just a false name, no matter how heavy it is, it can't weigh a human life, right?" Su Yu sighed softly: "If I don't get pregnant, I may still have scruples, but since I have this child, then this child is much more important than those rules, reputation, filial piety, and so on......"

"Siqin, don't panic, you are the big girl next to me, if you mess up first, you can't do it," Su Yu thought about it, and it was better to settle An Siqin's heart first: "In a few days, we will find an excuse to leave the capital and go outside to recuperate...... After leaving the capital, people outside may not know what happened...... We avoided it for a few months...... Wait until the baby is born and come back...... It's okay to never come back. People are forgetful, and even if there are still rumors, they won't be too intense, or we just won't listen to them. ”

Si Qin nodded, and then quickly shook his head, not knowing how to persuade Su Yu.

"This fetus is unstable now," Su Yu thought for a while and said, "Siqin, you go back and go to Dr. Meng to prescribe some tocolytic medicine...... He knew what I was going to do, and he should be able to take the right medicine. ”

Si Qin hesitated, nodded, looked at Su Yu again, and stopped talking.

Su Yu sighed lightly: "Siqin, don't advocate for me-"

"I had a dream," Su Yu said quietly...... "I dreamed of it...... If I can't keep this child, then I may be ...... in the future There will be no more children. ”

She heard from others about her miscarriage and infertility before, although she was a little mindful, but in fact, because she had not experienced it, so there was no pain on her skin, and now she really felt that she was about to have a child...... Even if he didn't come at the right time, it was her child after all, and it was a being connected to her blood—if she wouldn't have been pregnant in the first place, since she had, she couldn't have personally cut off the possibility of this child coming to this world.

She "had" almost had two children, but neither of them had anything to do with her, and she even lost the possibility of having children of her own blood forever because of this-at this moment, Su Yu understood what was the reason for the sympathy for her in the eyes of others at that time.

Maybe God brought her back to this time, just to let her protect her child.

Now that she has the opportunity to have her own child, then she wants to keep him - even if it is to lose Xue Muqing's career, even if it is to lose her reputation.

Su Yu touched her stomach, and couldn't help but think of Miao Miao again, remembering the feeling of Miao Miao stretching out her little hand to hold her fingers, she only felt that her heart was warm and swollen, but as soon as her nose was sore, tears fell.

Si Qin also felt distressed: "Miss, don't be sad - the slave and maid know, and the slave and maid will answer!" ”

"Since you have made a decision, Miss, the slave and maid will listen to Miss," Si Qin seemed to have made up her mind: "Even if you lose the life of the slave and maid, the slave and maid must protect the young lady and the little master." ”

"Siqin, don't swear nonsense," Su Yu shook his head lightly: "You also have to be good yourself, so that you can protect others, and don't always talk about 'death' and the like." ”

Sent Si Qin to get the medicine, Su Yu himself went to the front to find Boiled Snow and Sweeping Red back, Si Qi followed Mrs. Xue, Drunken Mo was also asked by Su Ting to change Siqin to another place, Su Xun looked at the still childish Boiling Snow and Sweeping Red, and felt that the manpower around him was becoming more and more insufficient, but every time I thought of Timren, I would always think of Xiaojing Xiaoxiao who died with her "later", and I felt that this was not a good sign, so I held back for the time being.

The carriage traveled for a while, then stopped, Xue Muqing opened the curtain and sat on Su Xun's side, Su Xun panicked: "When did you come over?" "After thinking about it, she and Si Qin went out the back door, shouldn't they have been discovered by him?

Xue Muqing didn't answer, but said to the coachman: "Go to the hospital." ”

Su Yu was taken aback: "What kind of medical hall to go to!" I didn't go to any hospital when I was sick! "I was in a hurry, and I couldn't help but want to vomit.

Xue Muqing stroked his brows: "I found a doctor to enter the house yesterday, and I heard that you sent him away?" ”

He stretched out his hand to stroke Su Yu's back to help her breathe: "Even if you have a bad spleen and stomach, you should find a doctor to take a look, how can you do this?" ”

"Xue Muqing, you have a lot to do!" Where did Su Yu dare to follow him to see a doctor? As soon as he went to see the doctor, didn't everything be exposed, Su Yu pushed him away: "If you stay away from me, won't there be nothing?" ”

Finally calmed down, Su Yu hurriedly said to the outside: "Go back!" ”

The people outside stopped in embarrassment, Xue Muqing looked at Su Yu for a long time, and finally compromised: "That's it." ”

Su Yu was afraid that he would have to think about it again when the time came, so he hurriedly drove people away: "You go down, I see that you are not in a good mood." ”

Xue Muqing glanced at her and closed his eyes without answering.

Su Yu was so angry that he wanted to get out of the carriage by himself, and then remembered that he was pregnant now and couldn't mess around, let alone how uncomfortable it was.

sulking for a while, Su Yu was still angry: "Xue Muqing, let me ask you something." ”

Xue Muqing opened her eyes and motioned for her to continue.

Su Yu lifted the corner of the curtain, looked outside, and lowered his head again, but he was still afraid of being heard, so he didn't speak.

After returning to Xue's mansion, Xue Muqing wanted to help her but was avoided by Su Yu, and silently sent her back to the main courtyard, seeing that Su Yu didn't mean to speak, he asked, "What did you want to ask before?" ”

Su Yu asked the boiling snow and the others to retreat, and then looked at Xue Muqing: "I'll ask you, ...... before After that, have you ever thought that in order to atone for your sins, you will give up the idea of going on a career path? ”

Xue Muqing pursed his lips and did not answer.

"No, huh?" Su Yu sneered: "If there is, I still think a little more highly of you, but I know that it is impossible for you to be willing to retreat bravely - no filial piety can actually resist the temptation of power." ”

Xue Muqing explained: "You don't understand, many things are not as simple as you think. ”

"Of course I understand," Su Yu sighed lightly: "You may explain to me that you have learned literary and martial arts, goods and the emperor's family, you have studied hard for many years, and it is impossible for you to retire for any reason, and you will even say that if Ling Zun has a spirit in the sky, you will not want you to give up your career for him, but in fact, in the end, it is just hypocrisy." ”

"Of course, those are the reasons," Xue Muqing's face darkened, but when he looked up at Su Yu, his eyes seemed to be bright: "There is another reason, it's because of you." ”

Su Yu took a few steps back: "What crime do you want to charge me?" ”

Xue Muqing closed his eyes: "Su Xiang's official residence is a first-grade official, his father-in-law is a third-grade official, and the official positions of the two uncles are also higher than mine, your cousins, the future is also smooth, your cousins and cousins, all of whom are married to high-ranking families-you marry me, it is a grievance, even if I can't let you live better than before marrying me, I don't want you to suffer because of marrying me...... If I retreat, it will be unfair to you. ”

Su Yu sneered: "So you want to say that I caused you to become an unfaithful and unfilial person?" ”

Xue Muqing shook his head: "I have never had such thoughts, Su Yu, you have to understand, because of you, I want to become a better person...... But I also know that once I am out of business...... I won't be able to keep you. ”

Su Yu turned his face away: "It turns out that in your eyes, I am the kind of person who cares about fame and fortune." ”

"I know that you are not that kind of person, and I also know that if I give up my career in order to atone for my sins, you may look up to me," Xue Muqing reached out and grabbed Su Yu's hand: "But I don't dare to bet, I don't want to be the one who drags you down, I'm afraid that I don't deserve you...... If I have since lost my career, even if you have taken pity on me...... Others are also not allowed. ”

"Even if you lose your career since then, you deserve it, and I won't sympathize with you," Su Yu broke free of his hand: "It's useless for you to tell me this, I understand it anyway - no matter what, you won't give up your future." ”

She smiled at Xue Muqing very comfortably: "Don't worry, I understand." ”

Whatever he cares about, she will ruin something, since he is reluctant to give up his future, then she will ruin his future and wait until the child is born...... That child is the evidence of his disloyalty and filial piety, he wants to climb up in the officialdom, how can she let him get his wish?

She finally confirmed with Xue Muqing: "Are you really unwilling to leave?" ”

Xue Muqing nodded, and wanted to explain something, but Su Yu waved his hand, looked at him and smiled: "Then, you just wait." ”