ordered someone to prepare hot water, and Yunping and the others were about to help her loosen her clothes, but Su Yu now saw that everyone was a traitor, and no one could be trusted, and no one dared to believe it, and he was unwilling and afraid to let them serve.

After testing the heat of the water, Su Yu only had to think that she was in the Xue family at the moment, and felt that the road ahead was bleak, and there was no light in sight.

Staring at the wine jug and wine glass on the side, Su Yu smiled self-deprecatingly, and without using a glass, poured all the wine in the wine jug into the hot water, and then threw the wine jug hard.

With a crisp sound, the flask shattered,

Su Yu rummaged through the past, found the sharpest fragment in his hand, and his fingertips were cut and oozing blood, and Su Yu didn't care - this bit of blood was more than the one to be ...... And what is it?

"Miss—" Someone outside asked softly, "What's the noise?" ”

"It's nothing, it's just that something was broken," Su Yu shook his head: "None of you should come in and disturb me, I want to think about something quietly." ”

The person outside hesitated for a while, but finally answered: "Yes." ”

Su Yu couldn't believe them, so he found something to block the door, and then he took off his clothes and immersed himself in the water.

There was a faint smell of wine in the water, and Su Yu dipped all the shoulders down in the warm water, but the heat could not drive away the chill in his heart.

They were all guarding against her, and there were no other sharp weapons in the house, so Su Yu took the fragments and gestured at his wrist for a long time, but he still couldn't do it.

Seeking death is probably the same as killing an enemy on the battlefield, one blow and then the decline - I have really experienced the feeling of dying, but I will have concerns.

However, thinking of what Xue Muqing could finally do through her as long as she lived, even if she couldn't bear it, she had to be ruthless.

After tentatively making a small cut on his wrist, feeling that he could bear it, Su Yu stared at the wound, and the blood flowed for a while, and soon it coagulated.

Such a small wound is not good.

Su Yu was ruthless, and drew two heavier wounds on his wrist, which was too painful, and the last wound was lighter than the previous one, but Su Yu had no time to pay attention to it, threw away the fragments, and put his hands in the water, Su Yu watched the blood gradually disperse in the water, and the warm water seemed to gently comfort her mother in her arms when she was a child, Su Yu felt a little drowsy, so she simply immersed her head in the water.

The warm water stroked the mouth and nose and stroked the eyebrows and eyes, and finally disappeared, Su Yu remembered the feeling when she was in the river last time, she only felt that her eyes were sour, and she closed her eyes, she should have no tears, after all, at this time, who can tell which are tears and which are water.

There seemed to be some noise outside, but Su Yu didn't want to pay attention to it, she was so tired and tired, she wanted to let herself "sleep" like this, and ignore other things.

When she opened her eyes, she was still in the new room, there was a person behind her, with one arm across her waist, holding her back, so that her body was close to the other party, Su Yu looked at her left wrist, which had been bandaged, and could faintly smell the faint fragrance of medicine.

Su Yu sighed softly, quite helplessly.

"Ahh Because he wanted to push away the person behind him, but his body was weak and weak, and it was difficult to even lift his hand, let alone push the person away, but instead of succeeding, he woke the person up, Xue Muqing's breath was between her neck: "Are you awake?" Does it still hurt? ”

He seemed to deliberately want to downplay her desire to die, how could Su Yu not know, but Su Yu didn't bother to pay attention to him, just wanted to get up.

It's a pity that even his legs and feet are weak, and Su Yu is a little panicked: "What's wrong with me?" ”

"The doctor has come to see, you just lost too much blood, take care of it for a while, it will get better, don't worry," Xue Muqing refused to let go, his arm was strong, the two of them were close to each other, Su Yu heard him say: "Ah Yu, don't think about it, the matter has come to this, why are you torturing yourself." ”

Su Yu sneered, was she torturing herself, or Xue Muqing was torturing her, knowing that she was unwilling to marry him, she used all these means to make her do what she was unwilling to do: "What does it mean that the matter has come to this?" After I was deceived by you and married you, did I deserve to accept my fate? ”

"I know it's my fault with this," Xue Muqing's voice was muffled: "Ah Yu, as long as you don't do anything to hurt yourself, no matter what you want me to do, I will promise you, okay?" ”

Before Su Yu could say anything, Xue Muqing added: "Everything except for harmony." ”

Su Yu didn't even bother to sneer this time - Xue Muqing knew that what she wanted most was to be reconciled, and she had no other ideas except for reconciliation.

She could already foresee that everything was coming back again - unless Xue Muqing took the initiative to leave, no matter what, she would not be able to convince her family.

As long as you think about it, you feel that the road ahead is bleak.

"Ah Xin, I know why you want to marry Ye Xin, it's just to get by," Xue Muqing's other hand attached to Su Xin's shoulder: "In this case, what's the difference between me and him?" ”

What's the difference?

Su Yu sneered, but his voice was nasal: "You are different from him, you are not as good as him-"

With Ye Xin's background, even if the Su family and the Wei family fully support it, Ye Xin's future is limited, not to mention that Ye Xin's path is different from the Su family, no matter what, Ye Xin is not a threat to the Su family, but Xue Muqing is different - after all, there are lessons from the past in his previous life.

Xue Muqing didn't seem to care: "But Ah Yu, I know that you can't always fight with Si Qin, Ah Yu, you are not that kind of person." ”

Su Yu felt sad when he thought about it: "When you chose people at the beginning, you calculated it, right?" "If you choose someone with a slightly higher background, it is easy to make it true, Ye Xin's background and relationship with Si Qin are too easy to be manipulated by them, and, no matter what, she really can't ruin Si Qin's marriage - everything is expected by them.

"What he said before, did you teach it or did Wei Jiu teach it?" As long as Su Yu thought that what he was thinking was nothing to hide in front of them, or Xue Muqing, it was like being locked in a cage, and it was difficult to escape.

"You are really terrible," Su Yu felt a chill all over his body when he remembered what he had done to deceive her before: "What good do you do to you if you calculate me like this?" ”

"It's no good," Xue Muqing put his head against the back of her head: "Ah, I just want you to live well-"

"Then you let me go," Su Yu's tears fell: "Xue Muqing, you know that I will die if I marry you...... Life is better than death, why don't you just refuse to let me go? ”

"You won't die, we won't let you die," Xue Muqing's arm tightened, almost rubbing Su Yu into his body: "Ah Yu, don't worry, those things you are worried about will never happen again in this life, we will be fine-"

Su Yu shook his head: "Impossible, Xue Muqing, do you think that if everything starts again, those things can be treated as if they never happened?" It's impossible, even if everything starts all over again, there are some things that can't be forgotten and can't be escaped. ”

"You don't care, probably it wasn't you who hurt your body in the first place, even if it's the pain in your body, you haven't endured much, so you think it's not a big deal, right?"

Although Su Yu didn't have the strength on his body, he still wanted to push him away: "I'm different from you, I have really endured those pains, and you haven't had the feeling that someone is holding a knife to cut your flesh and bones, so you said it easily, but as far as I'm concerned, as long as I see you, I think of those things, and I think of the child who couldn't be born...... Xue Muqing, I don't know what I mean to you, but you are a nightmare to me. "The nightmare that I want to wake up but never wake up, I think I got rid of it, but it turns out that the nightmare repeats itself and keeps coming back.

Sooner or later, it will be a nightmare that will drive her crazy.

"Ah Yu, as far as I am concerned, you are my life," Xue Muqing turned Su Yu's body over and lay flat, afraid of pressing her, Xue Muqing's body propped up his arms on Su Yu's sides, and before Su Yu could react, Xue Muqing's face was already close to her: "Ah, those things won't happen again, we will have other children...... If they had been with us, they might have become our children—"

"Ah Yu, if you really care about them, then shall we give birth to them?" Xue Muqing tentatively wanted to untie Su Yu's clothes: "Ah Yu-"

"Xue Muqing, you bastard!" Su Yu couldn't help but scold, she felt heartache for the two lost children, but Xue Muqing was able to tilt the topic to this kind of thing, with Xue Muqing's understanding of her, it was impossible not to understand what she meant, but it was conceivable that Xue Muqing was deliberate, deliberately misinterpreting her words and wanting to take advantage of her weakness because she lost too much blood to cook raw rice and cooked rice, then it would be difficult for her to regret it - this kind of thing, there are one and two, if she lets Xue Muqing act recklessly, it will be too late to do anything in the future.

But no matter what, she didn't want to get pregnant again, she didn't want to suffer the pain of losing again.

Especially Xue Muqing's children, she didn't want them.

Seeing that Xue Muqing's hands were becoming more and more dishonest, Su Yu hurriedly said, "Didn't you say before that you would promise me everything except Heli?" ”

Xue Muqing stopped and looked at Su Yu: "Then Ah Yu, what do you want?" ”

Su Yu looked at him: "Don't touch me." ”

Xue Muqing looked puzzled, Su Yu didn't know if he really didn't know or pretended not to know, but he also understood Xue Muqing's temperament, if she didn't make it clear, sooner or later Xue Muqing would seize the loophole in her words and fight back, so she could only endure the discomfort and speak: "We don't want a round house, don't touch me when you get up." ”

Xue Muqing was still stunned, and Su Yu was annoyed and angry: "Why, you can't do it?" ”

"If you can't do it, then why do you bother!" Su Yu turned his face away and smiled self-deprecatingly: "I'm also stupid...... I know you can't believe it—it's not the first day I've known you...... I know all too well what your virtues are. ”

Xue Muqing stretched out his hand and rubbed Su Yu's face: "Then, you won't seek death again?" ”

Su Yu listened to his words as if he agreed, and hurriedly said, "As long as you don't touch me, I won't seek death again." ”

Xue Muqing stared at Su Yu's eyes: "Ah Yu, can I believe you?" ”

Su Yu was annoyed: "It's me who can't believe you, right?" ”

Xue Muqing silently helped Su Yu tidy up his clothes, Su Yu couldn't wait for a response, and couldn't help but be a little anxious: "Do you agree?" ”

Xue Muqing said: "Ah Yu, you and I are husband and wife, and it is natural for husband and wife to be husband and wife, and now you say so...... You're going to have to make me think about this kind of thing. ”

"What is there to think," Su Yu didn't bother to pay attention to him: "If you are real...... You can take a concubine, I don't care anyway. She has long been dead to him, and now she is forced to be together again, whether he takes a concubine or not, she really doesn't care, whether he has Xia Chuqing or who, she doesn't care.

Xue Muqing looked at it for a long time: "Ah Yu, are you testing me?" ”

"Don't worry, there won't be anyone else," Xue Muqing approached Su Yu: "You are the only one in this life." ”

Su Yu frowned: "Do you mean not to agree?" ”

"I promise you, as long as you don't agree, I won't touch you," Xue Muqing got up: "Then you also promise me that you will never have the intention of life and death again." ”