In the twenty-ninth year of Yongjia, spring hunting.

When it rained in the middle of the night, Su Yu woke up.

The maids were light outside, for fear of waking Su Yu, but in fact, she slept lightly all night, and the slightest movement seemed to be the sound of a drum.

Then, there is an endless stream of headaches, insecurity, fear, guilt, and powerlessness...... All kinds of unpleasant breaths rushed in, and Su Yu felt that he was almost suffocating.

Su Yu once thought about what so many bizarre and strange things happened to her, she was not an important person, why did she let her do it again and again, and then she deceived herself and thought that maybe she came back to change the fate of the people around her - Su Hui's, Pei Saburo's, and the prince's......

But in the final analysis, it was just self-deception, at this moment when the prince's future was uncertain, she was trapped in the capital, trapped in the Xue family's back house, and couldn't do anything.

In her last life, she lived in self-pity, knowing that something might happen to the prince, but she was missed by her, knowing that Pei Saburo would die, but she was still one step too late.

If she could be given a chance, she would rather exchange her life for her own life, in exchange for the prince's safety - the prince is fine, and Su Hui will not have an accident if he wants to come.

But she couldn't do anything.

With Xue Muqing's current rank, it is not enough for Su Yu to follow him to spring hunting, but if Su Yu wants to go, there is a way - the prince, the queen, Princess Rong'an, Su Yuanlong...... As long as she wants to go, she can always get her wish - it's nothing more than refuting Xue Muqing's face.

It's hateful that Xue Muqing didn't give her a chance at all, tossed her all night, and when she woke up, it was already three poles in the sun, Xue Muqing had already disappeared, and when she asked, the others had already set off, and now they should have arrived outside the city.

When Su Yu wanted to chase after him, he found that he was imprisoned in the mansion again.

Thinking about it, Xue Muqing already knew her intentions and had been guarding against her.

She has been talking to him for months, but the result is - a liar, everything she says is good for her, and she can do whatever she says, all of which are lies.

Thankfully, she didn't expect to trust him.

Su Yu couldn't sleep all night, and sat there praying that the prince was safe and sound—and now that Wei Jiulang and Qin Wulang had not been degraded and left the prince's side, even Pei Saburo was in Beijing at the moment, and he would definitely follow the prince's side—he would definitely be safe.

Speaking of this life, there are indeed some changes, for example, Pei Sanlang's wife is no longer Song Qian, but Pei Sanlang, who was supposed to be in Changzhou in the spring of this year, happened to be in the capital - finally let Su Yu see a glimmer of life.

With one more person to protect the prince, will those tragedies not happen again?

It's a pity that no matter how others change, Xue Muqing is afraid that it will not change, and while Xue Muqing is not in the mansion, she should also plan well.

Su Yu pushed open the door of Xue Muqing's study, closed it again after entering, and carefully opened the secret compartment on the bookshelf, Su Yu was about to take out the letter hidden in it, but he heard someone behind him: "Ah Yu, what are you doing?" ”

Su Yu was startled, turned around, and saw Xue Muqing's half body hidden in the dark, and his voice was hoarse: "Ah Yu, what are you doing?" ”

Seeing Xue Muqing walking towards him, Su Yu was a little weak-hearted, his body blocked the things behind him, and his mouth was dry: "You...... When were you there? "Do you really see her behavior after she came in—she is so familiar with the things in this study, obviously not the first time, let alone accidentally discovered.

"What happened?" Xue Muqing had already come to Su Yu, but he didn't speak, Su Yu was flustered in his heart, and grabbed Xue Muqing's arm: "Is it...... What's wrong? ”

They've only been out for a few days, and the spring hunt shouldn't have ended so soon...... Unless...... Something happened during the spring hunt this time.

The crown prince broke his leg, and then gradually lost power, at the end of the year, will Pei Saburo still die-Su Yu felt that he had fallen into a kind of demonic streak, no matter what, he couldn't get out...... No matter how many times she lives again, she can't change her ending.

Everyone will die, she will die, Su will die, Pei Saburo will die, the prince will die...... Is it just that she keeps reliving to experience death over and over again?

The so-called fate and let her live again, in fact, is not to give her a chance to change her fate, but to treat her as a trapped beast and play with her in the palm of her hand?

So, what is the purpose of such rework again and again? If you can't get out of the dead no matter what, what's the point of living like this?

"Ah Yu, don't worry, it's okay," Xue Muqing put his hands on Su Yu's shoulders, and his voice gently comforted her: "I know what you're worried about, don't worry, this time is different from the previous life." ”

Su Yu came back to his senses and asked again, "When did you come back?" ”

"I went back to the city last night, it was raining, and I thought you should be asleep, so I didn't go over for fear of arguing with you." Xue Muqing's body blocked Su Yu's way, and his voice was low: "Ah Yu, what are you doing?" ”

Su Yu turned his face away with a weak heart: "How is the prince?" ”

"It's just a minor injury, you don't have to worry, it'll be fine," Xue Muqing answered her doubts, but she refused to easily reveal what she had done before: "Ah Yu, if it wasn't for such an accident, I would have come back early and happened to see it...... What will you do? ”

Su Yu only focused on blocking the "secret" behind him, Xue Muqing poked his hand in from behind Su Yu, Su Yu was so frightened that he retreated more and more, his hand was pressed behind her back and couldn't move, Xue Muqing was stunned, looked down at her, Su Yu didn't look back, he could feel his gaze, and he didn't dare to turn his head around.

Xue Muqing sighed, withdrew his hand, and turned Su Yu's face to face him, Su Yu closed his eyes and refused to look at him, Xue Muqing reached behind Su Yu with one hand and hugged her waist, and the dense kiss had already fallen.

Su Yu still cared about the things behind him, and he didn't have time to push him away for a while, Xue Muqing took advantage of the situation to carry her away, Su Yu saw that he didn't ask anymore, and calmed down a little, but Xue Muqing had already continued his offensive.

Su Yu came back to his senses, and if he wanted to refuse, he was blocked by Xue Muqing.

Annoyed, he turned his back to Xue Muqing, but Xue Muqing seemed to ignore her resistance and took her whole body into his arms.

There was still the stickiness on his body after the cloud and rain, Su Yu was very uncomfortable, and wanted to break free, but he was afraid of provoking Xue Muqing again.

Xue Muqing lowered her head and pecked her shoulder, Su Yu stretched out his hand to block it, the person behind her took advantage of the situation to lick her fingers, she quickly withdrew her hand again, Xue Muqing sighed, buried her head in Su Yu's neck, and the warm breath made Su Yu want to avoid it, but froze in Xue Muqing's words.

"Actually, I know what you're doing," he said. ”

Su Yu didn't dare to look back, and listened to him continue: "Actually, I know what you want to do. ”

"Although these days, we still have occasional conflicts, but, at least, everything is slowly getting better," Xue Muqing's voice seemed to be recalling something: "You will be kind to me, you will no longer mention the words of harmony, and even, I want you to beg ...... Huan, you didn't refuse. ”

"I thought that although you didn't say it, you already accepted me in your heart," his voice was a little self-deprecating: "It turns out that it's just me who is sentimental." ”

"That's not right, in fact, I always knew that you minded," Xue Muqing's voice was a little depressed: "Actually, I'm just deceiving myself." ”

"No matter what I do, you can't forgive me, I want to change for you, I want to live a good life with you......" Xue Muqing actually smiled: "And you, but you want me to die." ”

"But Ah Yu, those letters are useless, you have to find my handle, don't be so troublesome, you want me to die, don't be so troublesome," he kissed Su Yu on the back: "How many nights, I have put myself by your side without reservation, as long as you want, give me a knife while I am asleep, pierce my chest and cut my neck...... My life is yours for as long as you want. ”

"I won't scare you," Xue Muqing sighed: "Actually, I don't want you to suffer because of me." ”

"Actually, you want me to die, it's very simple," Xue Muqing said again: "As long as you tell me, you can't wait for me to die...... You've always been duplicitous, and I can't tell when you're telling the truth and when you're telling a lie...... Let's just take what you say for the time being...... Ah, do you really want me dead? ”

He asked sadly, Su Yu wanted to say yes, but those words seemed to be blocked in his throat and difficult to say.

"Ah Yu, I know you're listening to me, I don't embarrass you, I don't want you to make your words clear and clear," Xue Muqing's voice pleaded: "If you don't want me to die, can you turn around and look back at me?" ”

Su Yu didn't look back after all.

"I understand," Xue Muqing smiled sadly: "Ah Yu, you once said that I don't understand what you want...... Actually, I always knew it. ”

Su Yu's shoulders moved, but he still didn't turn around.

Xue Muqing said softly: "I just keep wanting to give myself a chance to give us...... I always thought that the human heart is flesh and blood, and you can always see my good ...... But for it turns out that your heart is long of stone. ”

"Actually, I also want to be someone who is not hated by you, but unfortunately in this life, the timing is always wrong, it is always too late," Xue Muqing thought for a while: "If there is a chance, wait for the next life, if there is an afterlife, I will find you earlier, if we have enough time, I also want to be like Tang Yun...... I have no guesses with your childhood sweetheart, everything goes along with you, and I don't let you suffer half of the grievances, in that case, maybe you won't hate me like this, right? ”

"Still don't want it, I don't want you to suffer again," Xue Muqing vetoed his own words: "What's more, I'm afraid that even if I start over again, you will still hate me so much, and you still don't want to be with me...... I thought it might be better if you didn't remember the past...... But what if you don't remember the past, what should you do if you fall in love with someone else? ”

"That's it, let's end in this life," Xue Muqing opened his mouth lightly and bit Su Yun's shoulder, as if he wanted to leave some marks on her, but the moment his teeth were attached, he retracted his strength and turned into sucking: "Ah Yu, I will let you go and fulfill you, from now on, you can live the life you want, you can marry Tang Yun or whoever you want...... No one will stop you anymore. ”

"I originally wanted you to remember me for the rest of your life, even if you hated me...... Xue Muqing got up and left her body: "But after thinking about it, you better forget me-"

Su Yu just stiffened, even if his naked back sensed the coldness of spring, he never looked back.

*

When Mrs. Xue came to Zhuangzi, where Su Yu was temporarily staying, Su Yu and Xue Muqing had been separated for two months.

After that day, Xue Muqing left the capital, and half a month later, it was Mrs. Xue who brought his handwritten letter, and then it was Mr. Xue and Mrs. Xue who made peace for them.

To this day, Su Yu has always been at a loss, and the result that he has been seeking for so long has suddenly come true—life suddenly seems to have nothing to do.

In the past month, in fact, Mrs. Xue has sent her several posts, and Su Yu is worried that she wants to persuade peace, but she has always refused to see her - I didn't expect that she would come to the door in person.

Now that everyone has come, they can't really close the door and see each other, Su Yu got up and let Xiang Mother look at herself: "Xiang Mother, I may see something wrong?" ”

Xiang Mom looked melancholy, but still shook his head.

After the reconciliation and separation, Su Yu returned all the maids to the Su family, and the old people around her were left only with Xiang Mother - she really didn't dare to use those people, and so far, she has refused to even go back to the Su family.

I still have a grudge in my heart.

But after a few months, Old Madam Xue seemed to be a little older, but when she saw Su Yu, she was a little surprised: "Ah Yu, why are you so thin?" ”

Did she lose weight? There should be no, these days, she has nothing to worry about, she eats well and sleeps well, how can she lose weight.

The two sat silently at each other for a long time, and then Mrs. Xue said her intention: "Ah, I have a reluctant request——"

Su Yu glanced at her, and Old Madam Xue lowered her head and sighed softly: "Actually, I also know that after you left, I shouldn't have come to look for you again...... After all......"

Su Yu shook his head: "It's okay, what's the matter?" For the sake of Xue Muqing's "magnanimity", she is not too embarrassed by Mrs. Xue, not to mention that in this life, Mrs. Xue really has nothing to be sorry for her.

Now that he has left, since he has left the Xue family, it is time to let go of those things in his previous life.

"Although...... This happened, but the Xue family can't be without a queen," Old Madam Xue sighed softly, Su Yu heard her say this, and subconsciously protected her abdomen, and then she was afraid that Old Madam Xue would see something, so she hurriedly pretended to be nothing, and just wanted to get up and say goodbye, she heard Old Madam Xue say: "I want you to accompany me to pick a child in the clan to pass on——"

Su Yu said in his heart that Xue Muqing's body is fine, won't he be able to give birth if he marries another one - but he is tired of it: he wants to come to Mrs. Xue to see him, but in fact, it is to match himself and Xue Muqing.

But she finally escaped from Xue Muqing, how could she jump in again?

Thinking about her, she asked, "What about Xue Muqing?" "In order to trick her into going back, it is difficult to pretend that she is in love and will not marry again...... Do you really think she's going to be moved like this?

Su Yu sneered in his heart, but listened to Mrs. Xue say: "Qing'er cared most about your thoughts before his death, if it is a child you pick, he will definitely be happy with that child when he has a spirit in the sky." ”

"What do you mean by 'in life'? What does it mean to have a spirit in heaven? Su Yu felt that his mind was blank, and muttered, "Xue Muqing...... He's dead? ”

She seemed to suddenly understand why Old Madam Xue was haggard - her new white hair on her sideburns, and her plain clothes - although the younger generation passed away without filial piety, but as a parent, the death of a child will inevitably lead to grief in her heart.

Su Yu's whole person was a little out of the world, she couldn't hear what Old Madam Xue said, and she didn't come back to her senses until Old Madam Xue got up.

Old Madam Xue sighed: "I also know that I am a strong man like this, it is understandable that you don't agree to me, and the old man also persuaded me before coming out......"

"It's that I want to go wrong," Old Madam Xue saw her expression and blamed herself: "I only think about Qing'er...... But I forgot if it was you...... That kid is too embarrassing for you. "Even if it is divorced, the previous marriage is also a fact, if Su Yu helps to choose the child to succeed, does the child want to serve her as his mother, if he takes her as his mother, she will be reconciled with Xue Muqing and divorced, and it will be impossible to return to Xue's house in the future...... If you don't take her as a mother, it will be difficult for this child to be "justified".

asked Old Madam Xue to send her away, and Su Yu turned to Xiang Mother: "Xiang Mother, why didn't anyone tell me about this?" ”

Xiang's mother was a little surprised: "Since last month, Miss suddenly doesn't like those bright clothes...... The slave thought that the young lady knew, and because of the grief in her heart, she was so ...... He didn't dare to mention it in front of the young lady. How...... Didn't the young lady even know? ”

Su Yu was silent, since she moved out of the capital, she has been closed, how could she know this, Su Yu's voice was dry: "Xue Muqing...... Where are they buried? ”

She suddenly remembered what he had said that night...... It turned out that he knew early in the morning that he was going to die...... So farewell?

Su Yu couldn't figure out what kind of mood he was in, and he knew from his mother that Xue Muqing stopped in the Xue clan's family temple in Beijing, and brought people to worship-

After all, she couldn't believe that Xue Muqing died like this, Xue Muqing shouldn't be the one who died so easily, right.

Staring at the coffin and the spiritual position in front of the coffin, Xue Muqing's name and surname were clearly written on the spiritual seat, Su Yu still felt that it was a little unreal.

She stared at the coffin for a long time, but finally relented and ordered someone to chisel open the nailed coffin.

The people she brought persuaded her for a while, but in the end they still listened to her words and acted, the lid of the coffin was pushed open, and Su Yu glanced at it-

The moment they opened the coffin, there was no corpse stench as they said before, because there was no Xue Muqing's body inside, just clothes.

Su Yu seemed to be sure of something, and shouted to the back: "Xue Muqing, I knew it was fake, and I knew it was a bad trick you came up with!" Do you think you'll be able to fool me? Do you think that if you are joking about your death, I will believe you and I will come back to you, I tell you, I will not! ”

Those who followed her bowed their heads and fell silent, and there was no sound in the room except for the tiny sound of the candle burning.

Su Yu didn't wait for Xue Muqing to come out from any direction, only waited for Master Xue and Old Lady Xue.

She made such a big fuss, it was impossible for the Xue family not to hear about it, and when she came in a hurry at this moment, Old Madam Xue fainted as soon as she saw the coffin that was opened, and shouted "Qing'er".

On the contrary, he has always had a heart disease, and the doctor said that he couldn't be excited, Master Xue, who supported Mrs. Xue's body, glanced at Su Xin, and seemed to be thinking about what to call Su Zhen now - he didn't say the name in the end, but just handed a letter to Su Zhen and asked her to take a look.

The letter was written by Xue Muqing, saying that he would die of a highly poisonous body soon, because his death was not good-looking, so he left the capital, and also let Mrs. Xue and Mr. Xue not have to look for him, and I didn't want to drag Su Su down, so let Mr. Xue and Mrs. Xue make peace for them.

The rest is gone.

Su Yu still didn't believe it: "Based on these alone, why do you say that he is dead, why do you want to set up a spiritual position for him?" ”

Master Xue sighed lightly: "A month ago, Yanshu wrote to him, saying that he was dead...... Last Wishes Before Dying...... didn't want Ran to see what he was like now, so he chose cremation - Yanshu can't lie to us about this. ”

"As for the ashes," Master Xue sighed, "I followed his last wish and scattered it into Chengjiang...... We can only take his clothes...... A spiritual throne was set up for him...... You can't really let him die without anything to rely on. ”