When Su Yu arrived at Mrs. Xue's courtyard, she saw that Mrs. Xue was sitting there, looking at Dr. Meng's newly prescribed prescription, Su Yu waited for a while, and saw that she never came back to her senses, so she asked: "But what medicinal materials are missing, I should have them there, and I will send them to you later." ”

Old Madam Xue shook her head: "Ah, it's okay." You have it all at home, so you don't have to bother. ”

Su Yu was a little puzzled: "Then old lady, why do you look worried?" But what did Dr. Meng say? ”

"What Dr. Meng said is a good thing, this illness is already better than before," Mrs. Xue still shook her head: "It's just that Dr. Meng said that he should recuperate and not worry too much, but it is useless to persuade him to do so." ”

Old Madam Xue sighed lightly: "Qing'er—that's it, don't talk about this." ”

Su Yu knew why Old Madam Xue took back her words, and Old Man Xue's illness couldn't be worried, but now Xue Muqing had already intervened in the party struggle - it was impossible to reassure Ran.

However, why did Xue Muqing take this path, in the final analysis, it has nothing to do with Su Yu and the Su family, if she says it directly, it will inevitably involve Su Yu, so she stopped mentioning it.

Su Yu sighed, glanced at Old Madam Xue, and didn't know how Xue Muqing did it, turning Old Madam Xue into someone she almost didn't know - just in this way, what she originally wanted to say would not be good to say at this moment.

But it's not good to leave like this, Su Yu sat silently with Mrs. Xue, but Mrs. Xue was afraid that she would neglect her: "Ah Yu, you rarely come to look for me on weekdays, why did you come here today?" ”

Su Yu didn't dare to say that she knew that Dr. Meng came back today, just to mention Xue Muqing's body to Mrs. Xue - in the past, Xue Muqing used the excuse of not being able to give birth to them, but Su Yu never took the initiative to mention it, because she also felt that the reason why Xue Muqing said this was just to cover up that they would not be able to get pregnant if they didn't have a full house, Su Yu didn't dare to talk nonsense, because he was afraid that Xue Muqing would be annoyed with what to do to her because of this matter, and now he is sure that Xue Muqing is really wrong, Su Yu felt that it would be too much to say if he didn't take the opportunity to block Xue Muqing.

But right now, Old Madam Xue is worried about Old Madam Xue's illness, and the matter on Xue Muqing's side is related to her, no matter what Su Yu does, it is not good to mention the Xue family's future to Old Madam Xue at this time.

Su Yu was silent for a while, and he couldn't really not answer, and after thinking about it, he said, "Old lady, how did you meet?" ”

Old Madam Xue's face softened, as if she was thinking about something, the corners of her mouth smiled slightly, but her words were concise: "It's nothing more than an acquaintance since childhood." "It's not good to mention your past in front of juniors.

Su Yu remembered the appearance of Master Xue - if there was no scar on his face, he would have been a beautiful man when he was young, and he taught Xue Muqing by himself, and his knowledge was not bad - but it was a pity that Xue Muqing's temperament didn't know who he was with, probably because he followed Mrs. Xue, and he was terrible about some things...... For example, Mrs. Xue fought hard to break with her family and marry Master Xue, who ruined his appearance and broke his career, and since Xue Muqing had a chance to live again, why did she have to come to her, the two tortured each other.

Old Madam Xue and Master Xue are at least childhood sweethearts, and Xue Muqing herself is stubborn - she doesn't think she has forgotten, or that she has never experienced it at all, Xue Muqing has a deep love for her...... After all, she doesn't believe in this so-called love and love, at least, she doesn't believe it now.

She bowed her head: "Old lady, have you ever regretted it?" "Gave up his family to choose the so-called love, he was once ridiculed and scolded by others, no matter how good Master Xue looked when he was young, he left a scar on his face that could not be removed, even if he had knowledge, he could not display it in the end.

Su Yu didn't believe it, she didn't mind.

Old Madam Xue just shook her head slightly: "I only know that if I am asked to re-elect, I will still do it." ”

Su Yu looked at her and wanted to say that the reason why she didn't regret it, maybe the reason why she said this was just because she had chosen this path and there was no way out, Old Madam Xue said before that she would have no regrets like Xue Muqing - but what if she didn't marry Master Xue and changed to someone else? Would she still say that?

In the final analysis, Su Yu is just jealous, jealous that she had the determination to dare to do such a bold thing, jealous that she and Master Xue's childhood sweetheart eventually became married, but Su Yu herself is the opposite, Su Yu succumbed to her, was deceived by her family to marry Xue Muqing, and made her miserable.

If Mrs. Xue didn't marry Master Xue at the beginning, but married someone else, maybe she would be as uncomfortable as Su Yu is now.

"If I could choose for myself, I probably wouldn't regret it." If she insisted on waiting for Tang Yun at the beginning, maybe she wouldn't hate herself so much now-even if Mrs. Tang might have a grudge against her, even if maybe she and Tang Yun wouldn't have a good result...... But if she chooses by herself, even if there is anything unsatisfactory, she should bear it - she must be given a chance to try.

Just like when she chose Xue Muqing herself, so what happened later was also what she deserved, if she had to say it, she dared to say that she didn't regret it, she only hated herself for being blind, if she could be re-elected, she wouldn't make the same choice again.

The hateful thing is that neither Xue Muqing nor her family gave her the right to choose, they just deceived her and forced her to marry Xue Muqing, and she hated her for not resisting or insisting.

"If I had been able to ...... at the beginning" Hold on a little longer, whether it is forced to die, or really die, it is better than just succumbing, Su Yu thought about it and felt a little sad: "It's a pity that I never had a chance, it's a pity that I only regret it." ”

Old Madam Xue sighed faintly: "Qing'er, what's wrong with him?" ”

"He was born to you, you naturally think he is very good," Su Yu cried, deliberately trying to provoke her: "But he is not the person I want to marry, you think he is good, then why didn't you choose someone else in the first place, if you chose someone else's birth, maybe you are qualified to persuade me to accept my fate, but you yourself chose the person you want to marry, but you turned around and persuaded me to have a good time with Xue Muqing?" Don't you think that's ridiculous? ”

Old Madam Xue was silent for a long time, Su Yu thought she was going to be angry, but she just sighed, a little helpless: "Ah Yu, I'm sorry, I lied to you last time." ”

"I told you last time, if the Tang family Erlang is fine, I am willing to fulfill you, but that is because I thought he was dead, and saying that was nothing more than comforting you," Old Madam Xue lowered her head: "You are right, people are selfish, before outsiders and their own sons, the first thing I have to take care of must be Qing'er." ”

"I know why you're crying to me about this," Old Madam Xue sighed helplessly, "You want me to be in charge and help you convince Qing'er...... But I can't do that. ”

"Is it impossible to do it or do you simply not want to do it?" Su Yu was still crying: "Since you admit that you have selfish intentions, have you ever thought that marrying me is really good for Xue Muqing?" ”

"You are worried about him, it's just because he participates in the party struggle, so you don't worry, but he didn't have to get involved in this, he could have stayed out of the matter and married a wife who was not so troublesome," Su Yu's voice was astringent: "What's more, is it really good for him to marry a wife who doesn't have him in his heart, or even hates him?" ”

She remembered that in her previous life, Mrs. Xue had a lot of dissatisfaction with her because she often "practiced" Xue Muqing: "Are you really not afraid that I will hurt him?" ”

"Compare your heart to your heart, if you married someone else, would you be willing in your heart?" Su Yu refused to compromise easily: "You yourself are doing well, but you persuade me in turn...... How fair is it to me? I was ...... should also be married to the person I want to marry, and I should have been the same as you. ”

Old Madam Xue sighed: "You ...... in your heart It's really...... Do you mind that? ”

After a pause, she asked again: "Tang Erlang's side...... What's going on? ”

Su Yun was stunned, in fact, she didn't know what Tang Yun's attitude was, she didn't ask, because she didn't feel the need to know, because she knew that it was impossible for her to be with Tang Yun, but Old Madam Xue didn't know, Su Yun thought about it and decided to lie: "He is still willing to marry me, even if I have married someone else...... However, Xue Muqing never refused. ”

Old Madam Xue hesitated for a long time, and finally sighed: "So...... Then I try to persuade him? ”

Su Yu raised her eyes to look at her, and Old Madam Xue was a little uncomfortable: "You are also ...... Don't get your hopes up...... I'm just afraid it'...... I couldn't persuade him. ”

Su Yu didn't care what the outcome was: "At least...... Try to persuade him more. ”

Xue Muqing really came back at night, Su Yu cried too hard at Mrs. Xue during the day, and at night, he still couldn't get rid of the swelling, he stared at Su Yu for a long time, Su Yu let him look at it and didn't take the initiative to speak, in the end, Xue Muqing couldn't hold it back: "Ah Yu, why are you doing this?" ”

He lowered his head: "You know that even if you and I get along, the Su family will not let you marry Tang Yun." ”

There was some tiredness in his voice: "What's more, you know that it is impossible for me to agree and leave." ”

Su Yu didn't care: "Of course I know." ”

Xue Muqing was a little helpless: "You know you're still like this-"

"Anyway, if you don't want to leave me, I can't help you, so why do you care what I say to others?" Su Yu's chin raised slightly: "It's been such a boring day, don't you allow me to have some fun for myself?" Or do you not see me a little happy, you just want me to live in gloom every day? ”

Xue Muqing sighed: "Then you are happy to see me being persuaded by my mother to reconcile with you?" ”

"It's okay, it's better than nothing," Su Yu shrugged: "If you are too tired to agree, then I am not only happy, I can't wait to celebrate." "Anyway, whenever he's unhappy, she's feeling better, and even if she can't make him unhappy, it's okay to add some trouble to him.

Xue Muqing said with a straight face: "I won't agree." ”

Seeing that Su Yu's face changed slightly: "It's good that you're happy, anyway, I'm just being told a few words by my mother from time to time, and these troubles are nothing compared to being able to show your face." ”

Seeing that he was going to gently reveal this matter like this, it would be strange for Su Yu to feel happy - it really couldn't be, then she could only act according to her original thoughts.

was calculating in his heart how to talk to Old Madam Xue when the time came, but Xue Muqing suddenly said: "I won't go to the study today, and I'll stay here." ”

Su Yu was startled, and then he smelled the smell of wine on him, and couldn't help frowning again: "You drink again!" ”

Xue Muqing sighed faintly: "I dare to see you now after I get drunk." ”

"I heard that wine strengthens people's courage," Su Yu glanced at him: "It turns out that you are also a gutsless person." ”

"Am I a flood or a beast, so that you still have to have the courage to dare to see me?" Su Yu asked: "Since you are afraid of me, why are you unwilling to leave?" ”

Xue Muqing didn't answer, and after going to take care of it, he returned to sit on the small couch in front of him, Su Yu sulked for a while, and then stopped and let the maid serve him to freshen up.

When he came back, Xue Muqing was already half-tilted and leaning there asleep.

There was no maid in this house, Su Yu stared at Xue Muqing for a while, and he didn't see any movement from him, frowned, and walked over to help him lie down with a sigh and help him cover the quilt by the way.

The moment she held the quilt, Su Yu suddenly had a crazy idea - if what Yanshu said was true and Xue Muqing was unconscious, then she covered Xue Muqing's head with the quilt......

If Xue Muqing died, would she be able to be free?

However, this thought was only a matter of a moment, but Su Yu was already frightened by her own thoughts-even if she hated a person, she should not be the one who disposed of his life, because she hated a person and made herself a murderer, then she was afraid that she was worse than Xue Muqing.

Su Yu was disturbed by the sudden darkness in her heart, and fled back to her own place, not even daring to extinguish the lights—she was afraid that those anger would come back in the dark, and she was afraid that she would do something that she couldn't accept.

She stared at Xue Muqing's figure opposite, she couldn't fall asleep for a long time, and even if she fell asleep, she woke up quickly.

Xue Muqing has always maintained the posture she had flattened his body before, and Su Yu woke up several times, wondering if Xue Muqing was dead—whether she was killed by her sleepwalking after falling asleep.

But she didn't dare to go over and check.

When the sky was about to dawn, there was movement on Xue Muqing's side, and Su Yu was relieved when he heard that he was still alive, and then he felt tired and wanted to sleep completely.

Xue Muqing went out for a while, Su Yu had already left, but he came back again, Su Yu knew that he had come to his side, but he could only pretend to be asleep and didn't dare to let him find any clues.

felt that his lips gently fell a kiss between her eyebrows, and there was still warm moisture, and then I heard Xue Muqing's voice speaking softly, as if an ordinary husband and wife said goodbye to their wife before going out - but Xue Muqing's words were probably just for himself, so he was just lightly afraid that he would wake her up.

Su Yu heard him leave, and only thought of four words in his mind - self-deception.

Whether it is Xue Muqing or her, they are actually deceiving themselves, how did they get to where they are today?

Su Yu couldn't sleep anymore, got up and ordered someone to go to Mrs. Xue's side to stare at her to see when she got up, knowing that it could pass over there, and after more than a year of marriage, Su Yu went over so early for the first time.

Old Madam Xue was a little uncomfortable when she saw her: "Ah Yu, I mentioned it to Qing'er yesterday, but he-"

Su Yu shook his head: "That's it, it's okay not to talk about it." ”

She made a look of wanting to speak and stopped, and it wasn't until Old Madam Xue asked that Su Yu spoke: "Xue Muqing's body...... Has the old lady ever thought of asking a doctor to take a look? ”

Old Madam Xue was stunned: "I mentioned it to him several times...... However, he seems to be a little shy about avoiding medical treatment, and he always refuses to let the doctor take the pulse. ”

With this kind of problem, it is common to avoid medical treatment, Su Yu was disdainful in his heart, but his face was not obvious: "It is not okay to go on like this, the old lady should persuade again...... You know, I'm a wife...... It's not easy to open this mouth, but you still have to persuade him as elders. ”

Speaking of this, Old Madam Xue inevitably felt a little guilty about Su Yu: "Next time Dr. Meng comes...... Let him stop by and show Qing'er. ”