108. Tears
"Your Highness, Your Highness......" I don't know how long I sat still, and it was only after the attendant whispered to me several times that I came back to my senses, and suddenly I felt a dull pain in my back from the hard back of the chair, and the soreness between my fingers, which were stiff and stiff from clutching the armrests too hard, and were already white and blue.
"Your Highness, the hour is almost up." Seeing that I turned to look at him, the attendant whispered again.
Xu saw that my face was wrong, so he just stopped mentioning it, and didn't dare to urge again.
- Yes, today is the day of the appointment of Wending, since the county lord of Guang'an has already met the clan, and I, as the representative of the clan, should personally escort the dowry to the wife's house, in order to show the attention of the heavenly family, the emperor's grace, this is what Kuang Xihui told me yesterday.
"Let's go, don't make the ceremonial officer wait." took the already cold tea cup at hand and moistened his throat, and the cold tea slashed his throat, stabbing people's spirits, but he was completely sober.
Suppressing the shock and helplessness of that moment, I got up and straightened my robe, and walked out unhurriedly.
No matter what kind of holiday the county lord of Guang'an has with me, and what his attitude is towards me, it is not a matter that needs to be considered now—the top priority is to fulfill my duties as the prince of the clan and watch the ceremony and escort.
As for what he said about cutting off my son's breath ability, I didn't feel very sad in my heart...... It's like, subconsciously, I always thought that I wouldn't have children.
Child.
I remembered the shy little guy, Kwong Xixi's child...... If only she were my child.
Stunned by this unrealistic idea, I shook my head and smiled bitterly, sat on the chariot with the support of the palace attendant, and leisurely embellished behind the car of the county lord of Guang'an - because the county lord was married, so the man hired the woman, which also represents the emperor's honor and favor for the county lord.
And when I thought of this layer, in addition to the slight astringency in my heart, I also remembered what she mentioned before I broke up with Kuang Xiwei yesterday: This noble daughter of the county lord is from the emperor's family, that is, the sister of my husband Fu Ruozhen.
- Counting it, I'm also related to her.
And my husband, not to say that he has no impression of him in his mind, that is, he has not been seen since I opened my eyes; Don't say it's him, there are no people and things related to King Ling's Mansion.
Those doubts that I have intentionally or unintentionally ignored have emerged one by one in the swaying of the people, teaching people not to think deeply and not to care.
All kinds of signs, as if I, the prince who "has power all over the world", has been imprisoned.
Imprisoned in the palace, imprisoned by the emperor's side, like a caged bird, a fish in the pond, there is no freedom.
The Fu Mansion is more magnificent and gorgeous than imagined, not at all like an ordinary scholarly family, but more like a long-standing high-ranking family; The head of the Fu family waited in the front yard of the main hall early with a group of family members, and when my manyu stopped at the door, the previous 28 bride prices had already been lined up in the courtyard.
After reciting the holy decree, counting the bride price, and completing the ceremony of recruitment, my task was completed, and I was about to leave, but I heard the well-maintained emperor master Yun Chong say in a loud voice: "Your Highness, please stay." ”
"What advice does the emperor have?" Waving my hand to make the guards of the control of the public wait for a moment, I quickly looked at the other party and asked.
"In the past, the dog was closest to the little girl before he left the cabinet, and now the little girl is still in charge, I don't know if I can allow the dog to return to Ning for a day and talk about the family?" She bowed her hand halfway, and even if she asked, she seemed neither humble nor arrogant, and gentle, but I seemed to see something unusual in those eyes that had been soaked by the years.
What she asked for was more than just allowing the prince to return to Ning, but what else was the meaning was something I couldn't guess for a while.
"The king will consider it at his discretion." There was no immediate response, nor a refusal, and I did not know whether this promise could be fulfilled—I had not yet seen her sister-in-law, my husband.
"Your Highness Law." And she didn't say more, as if the purpose of saying goodbye to me had been achieved, and it seemed that the palace guards and guards who were on my side taught her that she couldn't show more and didn't dare to dwell on it anymore, so she just arched her hand again and retreated to the side, making room for Manyu.
Halfway back, I stroked the mullions of the manyu, thought about it, and tentatively ordered: "Since you have come out, it is better to go back to the palace by the way, this king may not have seen the prince for a long time." ”
After speaking, I looked at the guard in charge of traveling, but saw that she owed a debt without squinting, and replied coldly: "Your Majesty has an order, you will return after the ceremony, and you must not stay, for safety, please Your Highness do not embarrass and humble your duties." ”
“…… This king knows, go back. Leaning back weakly, I closed my eyes and closed my eyes to recuperate, and also removed the unwillingness and hesitation under my eyes.
- This house arrest, I'm afraid it's not my heart.
When I returned to the dormitory, Kwong Xihui had already left the court and was sitting at the table waiting for me.
She was also at ease, and directly regarded my dormitory as the office of Shiyu Palace, the large stack of notebooks on the table was shocking, and her cold and snowy eyes were even more awe-inspiring, and even the joy and appreciation that came spontaneously when she first saw the clear posture was also extinguished by this coldness in an instant.
Kwong Xihui is an extremely clear and cold person, although this cold has never been expressed in front of me, but it does not mean that I am unaware.
But such a person, will he really be the kind of person who speaks to me with kind words and appeasement, is gentle and petty, and on the other hand, guards me to the death and imprisons me in the palace?
She was reviewing the recital, and I naturally didn't want to get too close, so I picked a seat at random and served tea in the palace of the organic spirit.
"Have you seen Fu Yunchong?" She kept writing, as if chattering, "Did she tell you?" ”
"She wants to beg me to allow the prince to return to the house for a day when the county lord leaves the cabinet." I don't have anything to hide, but I vaguely feel that when she mentions Fu Yunchong, her expression is very indifferent, and when she asks for something, there is a sharp sneer in her eyes.
This look is far from the rumor that "His Majesty relies heavily on the emperor".
Sure enough, rumors are rumors, and they are groundless—you can't believe them.
"Oh, this old woman ......" she hooked her lips and looked at me with a certain expectation in her clear eyes, "Can you agree?" ”
"I only said discretion, but I never agreed." Hearing me answer like this, her eyes softened in an instant, and the smile on her lips really became a little more real—it confirmed what I felt before: this emperor is only afraid that he really can't be the emperor's heart, or he has already taught His Majesty to be disgusted.
As for the reason, I naturally have no way of knowing now.
"Speaking of which, I haven't seen the prince for a long time." Since I said this, I mentioned it as if I had not intended it, but I saw that the beautiful eyes that were originally bright in spring immediately formed a layer of ice, like the sky in June, and it changed when I said it.
"What, do you miss him?" With my eyesight, although I could not see what was written in the notebook, I could also glimpse the neat and plain page, which was scratched beyond recognition by a large piece of red pen and ink after my voice, and the force penetrated through the back of the paper and went straight to three points.
I can't tell why her mood changed sharply, but I also understand that she doesn't want to see the Fu family, and she is even more disgusted that I mentioned Wang Fu, so she just shook her head, did not argue, lowered her head and sipped tea without saying a word, which can be regarded as revealing this stubble.
I couldn't help but be depressed in my heart: Even when I mentioned the prince, I reacted like this, if I want to go back to the house, I'm afraid I can tear down this dormitory.
But what's the point of keeping me in this side temple?
If you are really afraid of me, find a way to get rid of me, and drag it like this...... Could it be that he is worried about something, just waiting for the time to be ripe, and then he will strike a thunderous blow?
But looking at her attitude towards me, although she is a little unpredictable, the thoughtfulness in the details is tight, but it can't be faked, and it doesn't look like she's waiting for an opportunity to start...... It's incomprehensible, it's really incomprehensible.
I've never been so annoyed by my blank memories as I am now, that is, I can't even think of them because they have no basis for analysis.
She did not wait for my reply, but continued to review the transcript, and when I awoke from my stupor, she had disappeared into the temple along with the pile.
At night, because of the chaotic thoughts of the day, and the shocking secret that Wei Shu revealed in my ears yesterday, I tossed and turned, muttering to this point, but I didn't feel sleepy.
Even the ** agarwood incense that calms the nerves can't soothe the irritability in my heart, so I slapped the bed, simply sat up, and walked to the window without taking off my shoes.
Pushing open half of the window, the night breeze slowly peeked in, I wonder if the moonlight tonight is as lonely and lonely as me, and it is difficult to sleep?
Looking up, the moonlight was shrouded behind the dark clouds, and it was not revealed, but it stood alone under the porch in a dark color, the wind rose and fell, and the clothes fluttered.
People who can stand quietly outside my temple in the middle of the night and not be arrested as assassins by the forbidden army, except for Kuang Xixi, don't think about him.
And I quietly thought: this kind of thing of not sleeping in the middle of the night but running to other people's rooms to be the door god is not something she can't do.
He closed the window, turned and opened the door, and looked at her for a moment, all silent.
She hesitated for a moment, then finally approached and entered the room.
I turned around and sat down at the table, poured a cup of hot water from a thermos bottle, and poured a cup for her, without asking her what she wanted, just drinking water by herself—in fact, patiently waiting for her to confess.
She turned the cup uncomfortably, and opened her mouth as if she had nothing to say: "I haven't slept so late, but I have something on my mind?" ”
"What about you?" I threw the question back to her, knowing in my heart that she wouldn't answer.
Compared to me, a person who has not slept late at night, she is more suspicious and should be interrogated by wandering in front of other people's doors.
After drinking a cup of hot water, I raised my eyes to look at her, but saw that she had put away her embarrassment, calmly drank the water, put down the cup, and smiled at me - as bright as the moon, but also as light as the moon, as if separated by a distance that can never be crossed.
"It's late at night, you can rest." She got up and took her leave.
Just as I was about to walk out of the door, I called out to her in a ghostly way—this night's entanglement, it is better to ask at this time, "When the county lord of Guang'an came yesterday, he told me something. ”
She raised an eyebrow and waited for my next step.
"Wei Shu said that he drugged me, and I may not have children in the future." Taking a hard breath, I finally asked Pan Huan's long-standing suspicions, "Did you instruct him to do it?" ”
As soon as the words came out, I actually regretted my impulsiveness, but it was difficult to recover, so I had to wait for her answer nervously.
I looked up cautiously with bated breath, but saw that her face was bloodless, so white, her lips were slightly open, as if she was shocked to the extreme, and her deep pupils were momentarily dazed, as if she was frightened by my question.
I felt a little funny for a moment, laughing at the way she looked at the moment...... The next moment, he couldn't laugh anymore.
——The eyes, which had always been as quiet as the abyss, suddenly overflowed with a piece of radiance, like a shattered crystal, turning into a sparkling sequin.
The beauty of brokenness is flawless, but it is also heartbreaking.
She was ...... Crying?