When we got home, my mom was very upset.

I don't understand what happened, I didn't eat Western food, and I scared my mother like this.

"Mom, who is that person? Why did you run away when you saw him? I asked her.

Mom didn't say anything, she just walked around the house nervously with a white face.

An hour later, she suddenly pulled open her suitcase, stuffed my clothes and hers into the suitcase, called a taxi, and hurriedly dragged me into the car and out of D.

On that day, I left D City in a daze, and I never went back again until I went back this time, fifteen years in between.

My mom and I took a taxi out of town and got into a bus on the outskirts of the city, and I didn't know where she was going at the time, but it was bumpy for hours anyway and it got out of the car after dark.

I remember very clearly, after getting out of the car, I looked around, it was pitch black, there was no light, I was so scared that I wanted to cry, dragged my mother's hand, and shouted to go home.

But my mother didn't say a word, she pulled the suitcase in one hand and me in the other, stumbled in the dark, walked for a long time, and finally arrived in a mountain village.

My mother led me into a farmhouse where there were two old men, whom my mother called Grandma and Grandpa.

The old couple are in their 70s, living in a grass house in a mountain col, with no children and no daughters.

I was praised at school during the day and looking forward to my first steak in my life. But in the middle of the night, I was already in a grass hut in a mountain pass.

I felt inexplicable, just thinking about going home, and I had an awkward relationship with my mother.

My mother was very irritable that day, and she didn't explain the reason to me at all, and beat me up hard.

So I stayed at the grandmother's house.

About a week later, one night, we had just gone to sleep when there was a knock on the door outside.

Grandpa went to open the door, and as soon as he opened the door, a crowd of people poured in.

When my mother heard my grandfather's questioning, she didn't hesitate for even a second, she hurriedly pushed open the back window of the room where we slept, grabbed me and stuffed me out of the window, and whispered to me while stuffing it: "Run, run back to the mountain, stay on the mountain, if I don't go to you, you can find a way to live by yourself!" ”

Suddenly, as if life and death were just around the corner, I was terrified and held my mother's hand to death.

My mom shoved a bag into me, twisted it the back of my hand, and glared at me and told me to run.

I didn't know what was going on, I was so scared that I couldn't think at all, I just listened to my mother and ran up the hill.

The hiding place on the mountain was something my mother had already found for me, very hidden, on a mountain cliff. People who are not familiar with the terrain will think that it is a cliff when they stand on it and look down, but it is not, there is a stone nest underneath, which can hide several people.

For a week, my mother took me up and down the mountain, and pointed to the stone nest and said, "If one day I suddenly ask you to go up the mountain and hide, you will hide here, you know?" ”

"Why am I hiding there? Why are we hiding here? "I kept asking my mom that question for the past few days.

She never answered me, but just took me on a walk in the mountains and made me know every way up and out of the mountains.

That night, I ran up the mountain alone, my mind was completely blank, but I didn't run the wrong way under my feet, thanks to my mother taking me around that area of the mountain every day.

I ran to the top of the hill and didn't rush into the rocky nest, I hesitated to run back and see what was going on.

But after a while, I saw people climbing up the mountain, several people, holding flashlights.

I instinctively realized that these people were coming up the mountain to find me.

I quickly hid in the stone nest, not daring to move, not even gasping for breath, for fear of being discovered by those people.

When they went up the mountain, they took flashlights and shouted my name: "The road is far!" Don't hide! Your mother has already told us, you are in the mountains, come out quickly! ”

They were so close to me that I was nestled at the bottom of the cliff, and I was so frightened that tears could not stop falling, but I did not dare to cry out loud.

The men were wandering around the hill, and then I heard a man say, "That kid can't run so fast, besides, there's a cliff ahead, where can he go?" It doesn't seem to be here. ”

Another person said, "No, we can't find the child, and we can't go back." ”

Another person said, "If the three of us don't say anything, who knows if we have found the child?" The task given to us by Uncle Qing is too damaging to Yin Virtue, turn a blind eye to it, if that child can live, it can be regarded as accumulating a little Yin Virtue for us, anyway, the woman doesn't say whether she lives or dies, we can't find it, and when we go back, we will say that everything has been dealt with, and it can't be good. ”

The three of them couldn't find me, so they consulted on the top of the mountain, and then they learned that Suoso went down the mountain.

At that time, I was hiding in the stone nest, and I was so scared that I couldn't move.

I could tell you clearly that these people had come to ask for my life. I couldn't figure out what was going on, and in the dark, I analyzed the people I had offended in the school one by one, guessing who would have the strength to send someone to kill me to take revenge.

How naïve I was at that time, and I thought it was a few classmates who often fought with me who had murderous intentions against me, and chased me here.

Because I really can't think of anyone in this world who hates me like this, and has to kill me.

I think they'll go back if they can't find me.

So I waited patiently on the mountain, and when the people left, my mother came up to me.

About half an hour later, I heard a loud shouting from down the hill.

I still didn't dare to move, until I could make out a voice shouting: "Hurry up and put out the fire, the Chen family's grandpa and grandma are still in the house!" ”

I realized that my grandmother's house was on fire! Not only is my grandmother and grandfather in the house, but my mother is also in the house!

Did the group just do it? If you can't kill me, will you kill my mother to vent your anger?

I jumped up from behind the stone nest and ran down the hill as hard as I could!

Before I could run down the mountain, I could already see my grandmother's house being engulfed in flames. The grass houses were not even fireproof at all, and the flames were like a spreading tide, submerging those grass houses and burning crackling.

The people in the village ran out, and someone was fighting the fire.

I rushed over like crazy and shouted, "Mom! Mom! ”

The flames licked the tip of my nose, and then an uncle hugged me and yelled at me, "Looking for death? Stay away from the fire, I didn't see that everyone was saving! ”

But where could I listen, my legs were weak, the blood in my whole body was rushing to my head, and my nerves were on the verge of collapse.

I howled like crazy, and finally two middle-aged aunts came to restrain me.

The fire was so big that it couldn't be saved.

Those people carried water in vain and poured it on the fire, and they couldn't stop the grandmother's grass houses from being burned to ashes.

By the time the fire was extinguished, I couldn't scream anymore, I couldn't cry.

I crawled into the rubble and scavenged around. Knowing that there was such a fire, if people didn't run out of the house, they couldn't have survived at all. But I still searched like crazy in the ashes.

In my life, I only have one relative, my mother, if she dies, what will I do?

It was the most desperate moment of my life.

I searched wildly, and under a pile of black, charred objects, I pulled out the body of a charred man. I felt like all my blood was drained, and my brain was so dizzy that I almost passed out.

It was at that time that I heard someone shouting, "Ahhhhhh There's a living person in the tank! ”

I rushed over like crazy, and saw that the big clay jar of my grandmother's house was lying on the ground, and two men were dragging a man out of the tank, burned all over his body, unrecognizable, like a roasted fish, black and soft.

But I knew it was my mother, because my grandmother and grandfather were old and clumsy, and they could be recognized at a glance.

I threw myself over and knelt beside my mother, my heart was like oil, but I could only cry with my hands open, not knowing what to do.

The people of the village were busy around me, shouting, and I couldn't see anything, I couldn't hear anything. At that moment, my world was silent, and all I could see was my mother, who was burned beyond recognition.

Later, someone came to carry my mother, and I screamed, pounced on it, and bit someone.

Several people pulled me away, and I heard a woman's voice: "...... This baby is stupid, his mother still has a breath, so he has to send it to Dr. Lin quickly! ”

I understood this, didn't struggle anymore, followed those people, and ran all the way to Dr. Lin's house.

Dr. Lin is a well-known folk doctor in that area, and people in the neighborhood never go to a big hospital when they are sick, but seek treatment from Dr. Lin.

They put my mother in the room where Dr. Lin's house was used as a consultation room, and then I saw Dr. Lin go up and down, frowning and shaking his head.

I knelt down for Dr. Lin, hugged his legs, and begged him to save my mother.

Dr. Lin dragged me up and said to me, "I've been saved, and I'm a waste." ”

"Then save too!" I was going to kneel again.

Dr. Lin hugged me: "Of course I will save ...... Of course ...... help."

I didn't know what Dr. Lin meant at the time, I just thought that my mother was burned and disfigured, so he said, "If you save it, you will also be a waste."

I watched as Dr. Lin brought in a bundle of herbs from the next room, mashed them and applied them to my mother.

Watching him sweat profusely, I imagined him as a doctor in a comic book. I imagined that his medical skills were amazing, and that by the time the herbs were removed from my mother's body, she would still be as young and beautiful as ever.

In the darkest of circumstances, I had to use the last bit of courage to try to think things in the brightest light.

It wasn't until I saw one of Dr. Lin's apprentices lift my mother's left leg and bandage her with medicine that I suddenly discovered that my mother's left leg was missing! The part below the calf is completely gone!

My heart almost stopped!

What's going on? Could it be that the fire burned the left leg? Then why is the right leg still there?

My spirit was about to collapse, I was shaking, and I couldn't say a word.

When they were done, Dr. Lin came over and patted me on the head: "Child, I tried my best, whether I can live or not depends on her creation." ”

"Did my mother's feet burn off?" I asked timidly, my voice shaky.

"Silly boy, it wasn't burned, it was chopped, the wound was brushed, it should have been cut with a sharp weapon like a kitchen knife or an ax...... She didn't die from blood loss, which is already a blessing. Dr. Lin looked at me sympathetically.

Chopped ...... Who cut off my mother's foot? Those people, right? They were going to kill me, but I hid and they couldn't find me, so they got angry with my mother and cut off her feet, which must have been the case!

Something was surging violently inside me, but my surface was so calm.

I curled up beside my mother's bed, not eating, drinking, or speaking.

It was dawn and it was dark again.

For a long day and a night, people kept coming and going in this room, and the kind Dr. Lin and his wife came several times to persuade me to eat something and drink some water, and I heard them, but I could not respond to them.

I'm alive, but my body has lost its function as a living person, and the only thing that is active is my brain, where countless beasts are galloping.

The next night, at three o'clock in the morning, I stared at the dim light above me with blood-red eyes and a splitting headache.

"In the far ......" suddenly a voice came from above my head, weak, hoarse, and indistinct.

I rolled my eyes and realized that it was my mother's voice, so I jumped up and threw myself on the edge of the bed: "Mom! Mother! Are you calling me? ”

My mother was like a mummy, tightly wrapped and stiff.

I called her, and she shouldn't.

I was so anxious that I shouted, "Doctor Lin! My mom is alive! Come and check it out! ”

Dr. Lin rushed in with a dress on, lifted the gauze on my mother's face, and said in surprise: "Oops! Survived! ”

I hurriedly looked at my mother's face, and under the gauze that was soaked with medicinal juice and blood, my mother's eyes were open! Her eyes were red, and she was rolling around, anxiously searching for something. The moment she saw me, her eyes were fixed on my face, and her eyes changed from anxiety to relief.

Anyway, my mom is alive!

It's like I've died with my mom and come back to life. I had so many fears and questions in my heart, and the moment I saw my mother open her eyes, they all exploded.

I lay on my mother's bedside and cried.

Now that I think about it, I was too young, too weak, and I didn't have the ability to think and judge what was happening, and I didn't have anything to do but panic and fear.

My mother was at the home of a doctor in a mountain village and was nursing her injuries for two months.

She didn't die, but as Dr. Lin said, she was almost a wreck.

It turned out that that night, after I ran out, the men rushed into the house. When they couldn't find me, they chased me up the mountain.

They didn't find me on the mountain, and when they came down, they tied my grandmother and grandfather to the bed, and my mother to the stone mill in the kitchen, and strangled them, and then they lit a fire and burned the house.

Probably afraid that my mother would break free on her own, the bastards tied my mother to the stone mill with the iron chains that tied the dogs in the yard.

The fire was blazing, and my mother tried to call for help, but she couldn't untie the leather strap that was on her mouth.

The grass house burned quickly, and seeing that she was about to die in the fire, she was anxious.

She crawled to the corner and stretched out her arms desperately to reach for a cast-iron axe in the corner...... And then...... She cut off her calf......

Can you imagine a man slashing at his leg with an axe, what a crazy picture it is?

But my mom did it!

I asked her, "Does it hurt?" ”

She said, "It hurts, but I can't care about the pain anymore, because my life is almost gone......

Afterward...... She actually cut off her leg and got rid of the chains.

The fire was already very big, and she dragged a wounded leg, and there was no way to climb out of the fire. So she knocked down the large clay pot next to it, got in, and blocked the mouth of the tank with a lid......

For many years after that, I had nightmares at night, dreaming that my mother and I were in a sea of fire, and the red flames were licking and devouring us*, making the sound of sizzling flesh and skin......

My grandmother and grandfather died in that fire, and my mother survived, but she was disfigured.

Afterwards, my mother never mentioned the person who broke into the house that night, and she didn't let me mention it. When someone from the local police station came to ask about the house on fire, my mother only said that it was my grandmother who made offerings to the Bodhisattva and that the candlestick fell down, which caused the fire.

Grandma is dead, and there is no proof of death.

Two months later, my mother asked me to push her to the village, borrowed the village's long-distance phone, and made a call to Aunt Wen.

A few days later, Aunt Wen came, picked up my mother and me, and took us to Macau.

It was only after arriving in Macau that my mother went to a major hospital to treat her injuries. Later, although I went through several skin graft surgeries, there was no way to save the burn because the burn area was too large.

At that time, I was like a mad little wolf, asking my mother every day who hated us so much and was so cruel to us.

I clamored every day to seek revenge on those people.

Until we settled down in Macau, one day, my mother called me to her bedside, and she said, "Zai Yuan, don't you really want to know who caused us to be like this?" ”

"Who?!" I knew my mom was telling the truth, and I was nervous.

Because during that time, I imagined countless times that I was following the enemy in the middle of a dark night, pouring a bucket of gasoline on him, throwing a lit match at him, and watching him turn into a burning man, rolling and struggling on the ground.

My heart was filled with hatred.

I stared at my mother's face, anxiously waiting for her to say the name of the enemy.

She looked at me, and her two lips, which were ugly and stiff from the burns, moved slightly, and said the man: "It's your father, it's him who made us ...... like this." 166 Reading Network