Extra one:

Stockholm's winters are particularly cold, and the streets are empty with goose feathers and snow, but the Leiden Film Festival is being held at the Blue Concert Hall.

On a cold and quiet night, when the high-pitched and uplifting music sounds, countless inquiring and envious eyes stare at the big screen in front of them without blinking, watching the film clips starring the finalists scroll on it.

Yan Ran plays a girl born in a poor mountainous area among her sisters and brothers, her younger brother has been trafficked since he was a child, and she tried every means to get out of the mountain village in order to find her younger brother, and she has been searching for more than ten years. On the screen, she is wearing rustic coarse cloth clothes, her face is covered with dust, she speaks with an accent that everyone can't understand, and her frozen face constantly shows various twisted and painful expressions...... This appearance can't be related to the bright and flamboyant big star in reality anyway.

Then, the screen cuts to the Dreamer

When Yuan Jia, played by Wen Yan, raised his head for a moment and looked at the man who suddenly appeared in the sun, there was silence during the banquet.

Everyone looked at Yuan Jia in a blurred sight and stood in front of Duan Ran with a stunned expression, looked into his eyes and said, "What is your dream?" ”

And the young man on the opposite side with a cold and hard silhouette and gentle eyebrows pulled the corners of his mouth and smiled slightly: "There is a home, and you." ”

Even in the cold winter, people still feel warm by this sentence and are deeply moved by this long and black but extremely romantic film.

The bright lights in the lobby suddenly turned blue, and the beams of chasing light kept changing on Wen Yan and Yan Yan's faces. Everyone held their breath, waiting for the mysterious award presenters on stage to reveal the final answer - the highest award in the entertainment industry - who will win the title of actress!

The sound of music sounded, and everyone's hearts tightened unconsciously.

The image on the screen suddenly freezes.

"Burning!! Movie sibling! Congratulations!!! ”

The audience suddenly erupted in exclamation and applause. What followed was a hot gaze that fell on Wen Yan's face, like a stinger.

It is undeniable that when Yan Yan's name was clearly spit out from the mouth of the respected senior, Wen Yan flashed a little loss in his heart, but he breathed a long sigh of relief.

And Yan Ran, who was sitting side by side with her, gently raised the corners of his lips and stood up.

The chasing light hit her solemn dark blue gown, which complemented the faint blue light. In the spotlight, she looked around, smiled genuinely and confidently, and spoke to the fullest on stage with all her strength and all her pride.

"In the six years since my debut, I haven't taken a day off, I like to be busy, I love my job, as long as I stop, I will feel sorry for myself, I will feel ashamed of life and fans. I have no background, no family background, and life has brought me a lot of hardships. But it doesn't matter, as long as I know clearly what my goal is, it doesn't matter if I am knocked down by slander, and most importantly, how I stand up, I will stand up!! My name is Yan Ran, I am not a smart person, not a lucky person, not a person who knows how to be opportunistic, sometimes stupid enough to take detours, will run into walls everywhere, but I must be the one who works the hardest. So this award, I deserve it. ”

At the curtain call, she leaned down on the ground and bowed deeply, which was a tribute and a thanks. Then she heard the thunderous applause and cheers of the audience. Endless, seemingly never-ending, applause and cheers.

There was a smile on her lips, but she didn't dare to look up immediately, for fear that others would see the tears on her face and laugh at her sensationalism and vulnerability.

It took a long time to straighten up.

And one last sentence. She fell silent.

"I don't know where you are now, but if you're watching ......," she said word by word, apparently thinking about it in her heart, "I know you'll be proud of me, even if you never loved me, but I will remember you well, it will be with me for the rest of my life, and it will give me the courage to face everything that may happen in the future alone...... Gu Heng, thank you. ”

When he finally said his name, it was more relaxed and calm than ever before.

There were seconds of astonishing silence.

Although it was far away, she seemed to see Wen Yan sitting in the audience, with a slight smile on the corner of her mouth.

It's glaring, but it's beautiful.

She stood on the three-foot-high podium and looked at her from afar. Laughing contemptuously in my heart, I'm not thanking you, what a nasty woman.

At the much-anticipated International Film Festival, Wen Yan missed the actress award, and Lu Xun also missed the Best Director Award.

After the award ceremony, the crowd gradually dispersed. Lu Xun and Wen Yan found a small café in this romantic city with snowflakes and chatted comfortably.

"We lost! What does it feel like? Lu Xun asked as he drank coffee.

Wen Yan thought for a moment: "Frustration." ”

Lu Xun was a little surprised: "Really? I thought you didn't eat the fireworks of the world. ”

Wen Yan smiled and said, "No one likes to lose, but it makes sense to lose." Dreamers, we pay attention to acting, structure, and blunt things, and what we burn is emotion. ”

Lu Xun stared at her for a long time, and suddenly laughed: "The teacher always says that what I express is too tough and arbitrary, and I always lack an emotion, I didn't understand it before, but now, it seems that I am beginning to understand!" ”

"There are always regrets in life. Everyone is pursuing what they want, burning this life, what they love most is that position, the joys and sorrows on the big screen, and the glory under the spotlight, for which she can give everything and sacrifice everything, so she deserves it. ”

"What about you?"

Wen Yan was silent for a moment: "What I want most in my life has been obtained." ”

"Oh?" Lu Xun raised his eyebrows and looked at her, his eyes intriguing.

Wen Yan took a sip of coffee unhurriedly: "So between me and her, no one wins or loses, but they each practice and achieve their own success." ”

After speaking, the two looked at each other and smiled.

A month later, Yan Ran was interviewed on a TV station in L City, and the host was still the one who had interviewed her and was choked by her face, and the scene was out of control for a while. Facing Yan Ran again, she completely changed her attitude, with real respect and respect in her eyes.

"I don't like to admit defeat, I don't like to think about what will happen if I fail before I try, life is a very difficult thing, and pursuing the life I want is even more so, if I want to succeed, I want to achieve my goals, I want to take a different path from most people, I will inevitably be questioned a lot, and I will always face the consequences that I may not achieve anything, but I will not back down, and I will not complain about the hardships and ups and downs given by life, I will still go on according to my own wishes, you ask me what will happen if I fail? My answer is, I haven't thought about it, because I won't fail, I knew from the beginning that I would succeed, so I have been working hard, and I have been desperately persevering for this belief, so you see, I have succeeded, I have had □□, I have also had a dark experience, a few times on the cusp of the storm, even now there are still many people who don't like me all the time spitting, waiting to see me fall, they can step on it hard, but it doesn't matter, no matter what eyes the world uses to look at me, I will succeed as much as I burn. ”

At the same time, Wen Yan was interviewed on another television station.

It's just that the atmosphere is different from ever, there is no deliberate disguise in the past, and it is relaxed and full of joy.

When asked about the regret of losing and missing the queen award, Wen Yan unexpectedly showed a trace of regret, sighed and replied: "Lost." ”

The fans at the scene immediately became agitated, not because of who this award should belong to, but because they had never seen any expression other than coldness on Wen Yan's face, and her deliberate pouting action of supporting her cheeks with her hands at the moment was actually very cute.

"I think anyone who won this award would have a regret if it weren't for the burning. This award has found its true owner, and in any case it is gratifying. Wen Yan suddenly smiled, and said very seriously, "In my career, I have always hoped to be able to do this, but unfortunately I failed!" A person can become invincible because of a belief, it is worthy of admiration, and I am still far from it. ”

The host asked with a meaningful smile: "Yan Ran once said on the show that he regards you as an opponent, what do you think about this?" ”

Wen Yan smiled back: "It's an honor." ”

Everyone was relish Wen Yan's sincere and humble speech, and the host on the stage suddenly turned his face in a different direction: "I had a very pleasant chat with Wen Yan today. But I'm sorry I'm going to interrupt you, because there's going to be a mystery guest in today's interview who just came to our show and will come out to meet you right away. After speaking, she turned her head to look at Wen Yan, who was a little surprised, and showed a meaningful smile.

Wen Yan subconsciously stood up, watching the side door being pushed open, and the man in the white shirt with the cuffs rolled up was holding roses in his hand and smiling softly at her.

But everyone could see that he had difficulty moving and was slowly pushed over by the staff in a wheelchair. In the process, his eyes fell on her face and never left.

"Wen Yan, let's get married."

The two of them, looking at each other, had a glint in their eyes that no one else could distinguish.

Wen Yan looked at the face in front of him, tears raining down. He said this three times, and she could repeat it almost word for word.

"Be my Gu Heng's wife, okay?!"

Extra-two

Gu Heng finally left me.

I had long thought that there would be this day, even subconsciously, waiting for this day.

During that long wait, I was always nervous, watching the red roses in the potted plant bloom and thank, thank and open, and repeat. I sometimes think by chance, maybe there won't be that day, maybe Gu Heng will only love me all his life, but these are just reverie after all, in a trance, this day still comes.

It was as if the prisoner who was waiting for the trial had finally waited for the verdict, and I was surprisingly calm and calm. When I went out, I saw the red roses in my house blooming again.

This time, I finally saw a real Gu Heng, who could tell me what was in his heart openly and honestly.

In fact, in the process of listening, I was a little angry, but I pretended to be calm.

In the eyes of others, I am wanton and public, even I think so, and what I still refuse to admit is that I actually have an unexpected inferiority complex and sensitivity in my heart. But I can't let anyone know, including Gu Heng.

That's what he admires, the willful and proud me, how can I let him down.

That day, Gu Heng said a lot, we have been together for so long, he has not said so much.

He said that love is not to be forced, nor is it charity, but if that person is gentle, he would rather ask forcibly, and would rather be charity.

How humble, I laughed contemptuously.

The great truth in the mouth of the world is that love is equal!

This sentence is high-sounding and conclusive, but I know that love is never equal.

So I laugh at him, and laugh at myself, I am burning in love, and I have been as humble as him, the so-called humble, is not blindly compromised and obedient, but obviously my heart is crushed, and the pain is so painful that a blood-colored flower blooms, but I don't have the courage to say go, or shamefully hope that he will turn back.

Until, he stopped giving me excuses to deceive myself.

A long time ago, I vaguely felt that Gu Heng liked Wen Yan, although he never said it.

A woman's intuition has always been very accurate.

Wen Yan This woman is so beautiful, smart and capable, like a glass of cooled boiled water, devouring people's hearts in silence, when you suddenly notice it, you have long avoided it.

I haven't asked about Gu Heng's feelings about Wen Yan, maybe I disdain, maybe I don't dare, I don't know.

So I tried my best to toss Wen Yan, desperately trying to prove that Gu Heng cares about me, and also proves that she is insignificant, Gu Heng has always helped me, he will scold Wen Yan in cold language, and then gently hold my hand, but that feeling is not what I want, I can't say what's wrong.

Maybe it's his slender but cold fingertips, maybe it's the smile that bends the corners of his mouth but doesn't reach the bottom of his eyes, maybe it's the indifference and disdain in those dark eyes.

His people are warm, but his heart is cold.

Actually, I don't hate Wen Yan, or even hate her, but when I think that she loves the same person as me, I can't look at her with the same tolerant mood.

I've always been selfish, ego, I'm not a saint.

Someone asked me what I thought of my relationship with Wen Yan.

I've been thinking about this question for a long time.

I'm not friends with her, we're not enemies, we're just rivals, rivals who respect each other, and that's good.

Love has always been a matter of two people, and there is no room for the third, when there is me, there can be no Wen Yan, and there can never be me if there is Wen Yan, since Gu Heng chose Wen Yan, I am the extra one.

Everything has an answer.

I'm a stubborn person, and unless it's someone I'm in love with, I'm too lazy to look at it, I'd rather knock out my teeth and swallow blood and climb up. Everyone used to think that I was with Gu Heng for his money and for the sake of the upper position, but I am not, Gu Heng also knows that it is not, I have no intentions for him, but he has a small use of me, so he is sorry, so he treats me well.

Aside from these, in fact, Gu Heng is a good person, although I have always disdained to distinguish between high and low, good and evil, true and false. But Gu Heng is really a good person.

So be it, I've loved, hated, had, and enough.

Who said that love has never come, but love has come to an end, and I should leave.

- Memoirs of Yan Burning 166 Reading Network