21.4
Su Siying felt that she had grown up completely from the day her parents divorced in her previous life. But now, the inexplicable anger that welled up in her heart almost burned all her sanity like a fire.
For a moment, she wanted to be willful once, unleashing all her disbelief and anger. But in the end, she only silently put the pizza in her mouth and whispered: "Bai Yirong, just don't see it." ”
She is a child now, even though she is a senior in high school, even if she is eighteen years old, she is still a child.
She had entered the world of adults, but she didn't know much about it. She only knew that if the divorce of her parents in her previous life was actually the same reason, they would completely keep themselves in the dark and not tell her the truth of the matter, which was a kind of protection from her parents.
Say it's the protection of parents...... In fact, it's still the protection of her father alone, Su Siying smiled bitterly, she didn't think that her mother still had any protection for her daughter.
From the first day of her rebirth, she was very uncomfortable with her cold mother. It wasn't until yesterday that she felt something strange from her mother that she vaguely realized something.
As for the ...... just now She's not a fool, she's not really an innocent high school student, can she still hear anything wrong with what men and women say?
Despite her endless anger, she wanted to crush the fork in her hand, but she still had to admit it.
Her mother, who is always cold to herself, cheated on her. Maybe she cheated alone, maybe the middle-aged man also had a family, and it was also cheating.
Su Siying has not experienced such a thing as cheating, she has only experienced being cheated on by three. Therefore, even if her feelings for Ning Shuo are far inferior to the love and family affection that her father has accumulated for her mother over the years, she can still experience for the first time what kind of mood her father will be in when he knows about it.
In her previous life, she was so confused, after leaving home from college, her parents quickly divorced, but instead of finding out the final reason, she didn't go home all year round because of the discord with her family.
I don't know why, when she accepts this reality little by little, the person she misses the most in her heart is her father.
If she was not so rebellious and willful in her previous life, how good it would be to go home to her father's house and sit with him.
The more Su Siying thought about it, the more she felt sad and crazy in her heart, and the hand holding the knife and fork was so white and blue that her finger bones protruded. Bai Yirong bit his lower lip lightly and withdrew his gaze, as if he didn't know anything, and lowered his head to cut the pizza.
The stunned Su's mother had calmed down at this time, she looked at the little half of her head exposed behind the sofa, and knew that her daughter had heard it.
She spoke, pursed her thin lips with dark lipstick, and stopped talking.
The man next to him suddenly understood, his first reaction was to take a step back, and after a reaction, he took a step closer and held Su's mother's hand.
Su Siying couldn't see anything, but Bai Yirong had already taken in the full view when she looked at Su's mother.
The pizzeria's background music has changed, and it's still a whistling prelude. The young female singer's voice is clear, and every English character is accompanied by a playful whistle, which makes the store full of relaxation and warmth.
At the end of the song, Bai Yirong opened his mouth and said, "They're gone." ”
"Hmm." Su Siying replied and stuffed a piece of pizza in her mouth.
Bai Yirong clenched the pure white tablecloth on the table, "You...... Don't eat it yet. ”
Su Siying didn't seem to hear anything, took another bite of durian pizza, and suddenly asked, "Bai Yirong, that person just now is really my mother...... Right? ”
She asked in a calm tone, but Bai Yirong opened her mouth half-open, and finally didn't say anything.
yes, what can she say, what else can she say?
Looking at the person who had been forbearance in front of him, Bai Yirong only felt distressed, but ...... It's her family affair and she can't do anything.
Swallowing the last piece of pizza on the plate, Su Siying clutched her school bag, her thoughts were so messed up that she couldn't sort it out at all.
The parents in the previous life, the father who concealed a qiē in the previous life, Ning Shuo who confessed to cheating in the previous life, and the little white flower who appeared as a third party in the previous life......
She knew that she had never had the ability to completely change the trajectory of her life, but she didn't want to reveal to herself the cruel truth that she had not known in her previous life.
She naively thought that the parents' conflict began with the failure to take care of the bear child during the holidays.
As everyone knows, what is between her parents is not a contradiction, but a different path after the emotional split.
Also, for so many years, their personalities have never been compatible, and they will quarrel every time they encounter a little thing, and it is always their father who admits their mistakes in the end.
Because he still has nostalgia for this home, he will not do anything to break this virtual illusion of peace—this illusion of glass, which has long since cracked like a tortoiseshell.
When the initial anger and excitement passed, the current Su Siying was only at a loss.
She didn't know if her father had noticed something, so should she maintain the illusion of this family?
In her last life, her parents probably officially divorced in the second semester of her freshman year, which means that the current father may still be kept in the dark......
thought that it was cruel enough to let herself face her mother's cheating, but Su Siying realized at this time that the most cruel thing was not this, but let her face her father next.
I don't know when Bai Yirong settled the bill, I don't know how I got out of the pizzeria, anyway, when the dazzling sunlight pierced Su Siying's cheek, she reacted, and now she was outside.
Bai Yirong next to her looked at her silently for a long time, wrapped his arms around her very gently, and hugged her completely in his arms.
"If you want to cry, you've got me by your side."
When Su Siying heard this, she was very disdainful. She thought that although she cried once in the morning, it didn't mean that she was a cryer. She was so dignified when she was caught up in this three things, what did she have to cry about.
But a minute later, Su Siying, who was sandwiched between the sunshine and Bai Yirong's arms, stood in front of the pizzeria and cried bitterly.
This cry is not only about knowing that her respected relatives have done such an extremely disappointing thing, but also about the guilt of neglecting her father in her previous life.
Su Siying didn't know what she was crazy about, and the tears of this day were like buying one and getting one hundred free, and she couldn't finish it. When the discomfort in his heart passed, Bai Yirong's white and tender arms were reddened.
Seeing that her love was much better, Bai Yirong finally spoke: "When you go home, just act as if nothing happened, the emotional matter is a matter of two people, and it is a matter of both your parents." Selfishly, I just hope you're okay, uncle and aunt thing...... They should deal with it themselves. ”
She's right, the emotional matter is the business of both protagonists, and it has nothing to do with others.
In that last life, she was three of her own...... Do you think so too?
Su Siying saw her reddened arms and immediately led her to the shade of the tree. When she was walking, she kept thinking, if Zhu Huijun and Bai Yirong have always been good friends, and Huijun knows that Ning Shuo is her boyfriend, then does Huijun know that Bai Yirong and Ning Shuo are together?
Suddenly realizing this, Su Siying was a little stunned.
The shadows of the green leaves spread over the two of them, with a hint of summer coolness. Bai Yirong saw that she had not spoken, and held her hand a little nervously.
Su Siying didn't react to this, but she hesitated for a moment and suddenly asked, "If you like a man, the man also likes you, but ...... He has a girlfriend. I wonder, will you still go with that man? ”